borders and boundaries.

@pushingborders-blog

This is my work for AS photography, I also study sociology and philosophy. Photography is my outlet, it allows me to explore myself and the world around me. walls. perception. eye slip. perception of sellf. keep out. locks. reflections. research. veil response. brain hurricane. sleep deprivation. signs. adventures. dizzy. dark. fog. outside. damage. own writing.

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experimenting with my own shadow, alternating between b&w and dark, negative feelings of self- juxtaposed with a surreal, colourful interpretation, mixing perception and the feel of the image.

#selfperception

Interaction is the lifeline of being born into a world we will never fully understand. If you don't wish to hear, do not listen. If you have something to say, even if just a whisper- let go. teaching is the best way to learn, vulnerability is brave.

I don't feel like routine right now, I feel like taking off, getting lost in somewhere that isn't "home" and coming across someone or something that makes me feel like I have a new one.

I will include snippets of personal journal entries to give a subjective sense of the theme and implications of self, opening a window to myself that would usually be private. Without over-using reference to the theme, this is my way of lowering the borders, opening my boundaries and trying to feel "real."

#personal #bordersandboundaries

In order to develop and expand on this concept I will re-shoot the same idea with other people and using a tripod and lighting set up to improve the quality and clarity of the images.

#notes to self #improvements

Whilst looking through these shots I was contemplating ideas of the self being tainted by emotion (something that I know personally resonates with me) and I distorted these 2 images of my own portrait to encapsulate that. The Red tinting was used to represent intensity of emotion and the mind and the seductive nature of self-destruction; it's twisted appeal. Tweaking the opacity of each image I layered them together, making one deliberately disproportionate to the other to obstruct the view and make the eyes of whoever sees it question the image.

#bordersandboundaries #photography #image manipulation #portraiture #layering #emotion #perception

how light changes the face.

#bordersandboundaries #light #portraiture #photography #pushingborders

I was wrong, humanity is not entirely beautiful. Negativity weighs up to positivity and i think they balance one another. Subjectivity and objectivity are gulfs apart and the differences between the ego and the conscious spirit are fatally misconstrued. Change can only follow action and silence feeds isolation. I'm not right or wrong, only open to the truth; reality. Emotions are a vessel and sometimes we've got to fully let go to lead ourselves. I don't ever mean to preach, but i think survival depends on sharing, as well as vulnerability. Time does not give, it takes. In fear, it consumes. In acceptance and strength it carries. Not smoothly, a raging freefall. Knowledge can be lonely but it is always better to have it than not to. Better to be alone in zen than surrounded by emotional leeches. The sky is so open after the storm.

#personal #balance #change #time #transformation #humanity #objecitive truth #subjective truth #survival #spiritual awareness #communication #love #consciousness #emotions #let go

After watching this video I was inspired to experiment with the impact that light and shadows have on the face. I'm going to use portraiture and artificial light to create a timeline/moving image to indicate and show the subtle changes in appearance of the model, which also links back in my mind to my exploration of shadows & dark and the borders between physical matter and 'substance' that seemingly exists yet has no mass. The theme of other people's boundaries also comes to mind, documenting up close their facial expressions and how they may change- sometimes easy to read and often a disguise. In this intense lighting, these inner things can also be exposed.

For my first experiment I decided to use self-portraiture to explore changes in my own facial appearance, not only to observe the set up but also to try and give myself a sense of identity as often my self-awareness is distorted; borders of my own.

#bordersandboundaries #light #portraiture #face #photography

(slow shutter, low exposure) taken in my whirlwind, no ties with stopping, stationery, still.. scenic, sporadically successful and sometimes slow seemingly sold to the wrong way or drunk on lost hope; fully in control, smiling sipping tokes off track, on track closed in, flat pack declare mercy, launch attack if you want to bring the good stuff home, better earn or give it back. this one is for the determination fighting to stay alight for perseverance, inspiration, motivation instead of drowning in grey noise you can make your own station nobody will watch your life but the mirrors in the mind, the history of all times forgotten hopes in crumbling designs; grieve, breathe- both in sync you say there's nothing left in me, old "friend" that's what you think..

shutter speed 1/500 secs, low exposure- manual setting.

This series of images are intended to explore the idea of the 'self', perceptions and sleep deprivation. I used dim artifical light and a slow shutter release to give a distorted and blurred view and to portray the haze of insomnia- a border between my mind and the "real world" Similarly to Joe spence's work which was to give her a sense of control through her experience with cancer- this kind of photography gives me a sense of recognition of myself and my 'reality' as well as trying to express this to others without words. I chose to use self-portraiture to show this message through myself.

#bordersandboundaries #selfperception