So we were cowards, so we were liars / So we're not heroes, we're still survivors / The dreamers, the fighters, no lying, I'm tired / But dive in the fire, and I'll be right here by your side
Welcome to our blog! This blog has been around for at least 6 years now? Wow, has time flown! A lot has changed over the years.
We are Gadreel and Samael, the "cores" of this body and owners of this blog. Over the years our system/collective has grown to include much more than just the two of us, but we don't talk much about our system/divine experiences publicly anymore for personal reasons. Suffice it to say that we are just a tired, loving blob of soulmates whose purpose in life is to work through our past lives' trauma, reconnect with loved ones, and forge a better path forward. Hopefully while also surviving the fascist hellscape in which we now reside.
please note: this is not a roleplay blog. we are plural, please be respectful.
âââââ your lies undone âââââ
Name: Gadreel, Gad if you're close
Pronouns: dae/daem, they/them
About: Originally the sole host of this system(or so we thought), Gadreel has been through quite a bit since awakening! Dae are the center of our galaxy, our Sunburst Monarch. The original Scapegoat.
Tags: #gadreel
Name: Samael, Sam if you're close
Pronouns: he/him, it/its
About: Gentleman Death and Calamity-Bound. Intertwined with Gadreel in every way that matters. He is the worst of us, he is the best of us. The Prodigal Son.
Tags: #samael
For more information about us and this blog, please click the readmore below!
(updated as of 12/27/25)
âââââ when is a monster not a monster? âââââ
ABOUT THIS BLOG:
Despite no longer going into any depth publicly about our experiences, we still hold a lot of love for this blog and use it frequently. You will mostly find aesthetic posts, poetry, art, and information that we find worth sharing about present-day events. The majority of us (if not all) are fallen and/or infernal in nature, and we used to be rather tormented about our status as fallen. This is no longer the case. We have since reconciled with our "other side" and are working to move forward, and have made peace with who we have become since our descent.
We've been through quite a bit, in this community and out of it, and are open to reconnecting with those we've fallen out of touch with in the past. That being said, we are no longer seeking "canonmates." We have found that those we share soul ties with will inevitably find us when the time is right.
âââââ oh, when you love it. oh, when you used to sing it to sleep âââââ
TAGGING:
We used to tag pretty meticulously, but we don't as much anymore. These days, we tend to tag with just the name of who a certain post reminded us of/is meant for, but whether it's an entity within our system, in our partner system, one of our close friends, someone we used to know, isn't specified. This is intentional.
We do NOT tag on request. Everyone's triggers are worth respecting, but not every space out there is going to be a perfectly curated safe space, and it is your responsibility to manage your triggers. Not a stranger on the internet. It's just not something we have the energy to do on a personal bog.
âââââ here are your upturned hands; give them to him âââââ
ASKS:
We have anon turned off due to some harassment we received in the past, and have no intentions of turning anon back on. That being said, we do still answer asks and they are more than welcome! If you want an ask to be posted anonymously, you are more than welcome to specify such when you send it in.
âââââ and watch how he prays like he is learning his first words âââââ
MUTUALS:
If we're mutuals you are absolutely allowed (and encouraged) to interact with this blog, as well as reach out to us for other ways to connect! We love seeing you pop up in our notifications. <3 We plan to start offering weekly mutual sketches, and are going to add a link to the tag here once we actually do that.
âââââ when is a monster not a monster? âââââ
DNI:
âą minors
âą truscum, transmeds, TERFS
âą nazis, trump supporters, zionists, pro-israel bootlickers
âą folks who think that the word "kinnie" is a slur
âą folks who think that kinning for fun is less valid than spiritual or psychological kin
âą any kind of exclusionist (only x can use y pronouns, only y can call themselves x, etc)
âą anti-shippers (anyone who thinks it's okay to harass someone based on what they like in fiction)
âą monothiests
âą anyone who is still friends with our ex (iykyk)
âââââ oh, when you are the reason it has become so mangled âââââ
Obviously, we can't effectively police who interacts with this blog but if you fall into any of the above categories you're not going to like some of the things that we post anyway so you might as well just do us both a favor, right? We may end up blocking someone who doesn't fit under the above list, and please know that it's not personal, it's just us curating our own experience online.
We may occasionally come back and edit this post, which will be notated above the readmore.
âââââ here is your humble offering âââââ
not many people know this but when talking about your multiple pronoun-using friend you build up a combo meter for every subsequent unique pronoun you use
recurring dead wife flashback where it becomes increasingly apparent that the person remembering her has dishonestly claimed a romantic dynamic to their relationship that never actually existed and erased any conflict that ever existed between them now that she's no longer able to say no to them
dead wife flashback where each time we see her she looks more confused and upset by how she's remembered, then desperate and furious, until she's hammering on the glass screaming to be let out
this isn't how it happened. you know this isn't how it happened. but you still keep coming back, keep disturbing my grave so you can play out your fantasies. voyeurs crowding around my autopsy, straining for the best view; pawing through my entrails like grubby butchers trying to find some golden meaning in blood and shit because you can't bear to face the cold light of truth. you just can't bear the thought of never having really known me at all.
idk who needs to hear this but itâs healthier for you to just accept that youâre gonna be kinda fat than it is to live the rest of your life miserably trying to monitor yourself to maintain a skinny weight your body doesnât want to hold onto
ânothing tastes as good as skinny feelsâ what feels even better is living a life where your self-worth isnât entirely dependent on your thinness and you donât constantly monitor and shame yourself. attaching the tweet that was worth at least five hours of therapy for me
Actually, no, I don't think that friendships dropping like flies in your late 20s and early 30s because no one has time for that between overwork and family obligations and marriage and kids and partners and the ritual of the time slayer is normal and ok. No I don't think deep conversations and spontaneous adventures being replaced with a tired coffee every six months is a normal part of growing up. I don't think that emotional intimacy and soul bonds disintegrating in the face of practical inconvenience is a fact of life. I think that means something is deeply deeply wrong with our society and I will never forgive it for the friends I've lost
digital selfharm is real. do NOT check up on that ex-partner/ex-friend. do NOT reread those old messages/conversations that you know will hurt your feelings all over again or that will otherwise make you feel like shit. do NOT block evade to see if youâre being talked about. inhale. exhale. let it pass and youâll be better for it.
god I'm such a slut for Chinese eggplant in garlic sauce *decides itâs inaccurate to refer to myself as a slut in light of my minimal sexual activity* if The Enemy discovered my ardor for Chinese eggplant in garlic sauce, they would gain a significant strategic advantage
