today is my birthday and i wanna say thank you nora for your incredible books that make me happy to this day. and special thanks for the upcoming book too. you have no idea how much i’m looking forward to it @korakos 💘
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today is my birthday and i wanna say thank you nora for your incredible books that make me happy to this day. and special thanks for the upcoming book too. you have no idea how much i’m looking forward to it @korakos 💘
he's so silly I can't omg
at least its been confirmed by all characters now that kevin has pretty privilege bc his personality is insufferable but everyone wants to blow him
I hope to god read-more cuts work on mobile, if not I am so SO sorry
a couple very disorganized and not very good photos from LA
jean moreau really said battered housewife but make it cunt.
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March 2007
My hc is that not only do Neil and Kevin host their own Exy Podcast as a side hobby but at one point Kevin is explaining a very funny Exy anecdote and the two of them Crack up so hard that the fans realise that Kevin's real non-public persona laugh is filled with cute hiccups and snorts. And that Neil Jostens laugh is adorably wheezy
The public would be OBSESSED (like me)
Current WIP
me and the emetophobics have mad beef, stay safe jean
jeremy laughing softly while jean presses him down on their mattress. jean is on all four above him and he’s just watching in awe as jeremy cups his jaw and ghosts his thumb over jean’s tattoo with nothing but tenderness in his eyes
WIP of Jean explaining stars and stuff to Jeremy. Stargazing boyfriends ❤️
My biggest hope for TSC? Jeremy gets badly hurt at some point and Jean reacts to it
Nicky thinks the twins don’t love him, but then they both get ejected from a game for beating the shit out of a guy who illegally hits Nicky hard enough Nicky breaks his wrist.
Nicky thinks the twins don’t love him, but when Eric visits during Christmas, they lock him outside until Nicky stops crying because they fought.
Nicky thinks the twins don’t love him, but when it comes time for Nicky’s wedding, they look at him like he’s stupid because, of course, they are the ones who will walk him down the aisle. Once they are at the end, Aaron shoves Andrew out of the way so he can stand in the best man's spot. Andrew is just about to slam Aaron into the ground before Wymack loudly clears his throat from his spot in the front row (where the parents would usually sit), and they both straighten up. Andrew still kicks Aaron in the shin, and Nicky turns purple, trying not to laugh.
Nicky worries the twins might forget about him, but every week, they hold a group video chat to catch up, and once, when Nicky’s just had an awful day and can’t seem to keep it together, they don’t immediately hang up because he’s started crying.
Nicky worries the twins don’t care about him, but when he and Eric get in a minor car accident that lands Nicky in the hospital for a few days, they fly to him and camp out in his room until he’s cleared to go home.
Nicky worries the twins don’t love him, but Andrew sends him pictures of Neil and the cats, and Aaron sends him photos of the twins and Katelyn.
Nicky doesn’t think the twins love him, but he gets to stand next to Andrew at Aaron’s back when he gets married, and he is put in charge of organizing the not party for Andrew and Neil’s not wedding.
Nicky knows that the twins love him when they stop acting like they hate him and start treating him like they love him.
I’m thinking that a Matt and Aaron bromance is an inevitability, actually
between them being roomies and the thing with Matt’s mother bailing Aaron out and Aaron being free from his deal with Andrew to actually make friends, it’s bound to happen
and i know that some of Aaron’s general distaste for the upperclassmen is just him, but because a lot of it came from the isolation of being one of Andrew’s people, once that’s not a factor and the thing standing in the way is mostly just Aaron, it’s just a matter of time
and if anyone’s going to get through to him it’ll be Matt. if Matt can sometimes balance Kevin out on the court, Aaron should be lightwork
(Matt also has Dan behind him imploring him to take advantage of his proximity to Aaron to further strengthen team bonds because he was always the monster that felt most unreachable)
also like. backliner solidarity
and also i really like to think Aaron develops some kind of relationship with Matt’s mother, because that scene in the EC where she gives him a hug is everything
one might say Matt is Aaron’s first actual friend
anyway so like
video games are a big part of their bonding. Matt is better than Nicky and Kevin and on par with Andrew so it gives Aaron a refreshing competition and it also gets him to loosen up a bit
it takes a little time for Matt to break Aaron of his habit of needing to immediately reimburse Matt every time he so much as picks up coffee for him..Aaron is at first uncomfortable with letting this kid he’s never been very nice to just casually spend money on him but then he realizes it’s a two way street. the first time Aaron brings Matt ice cream Matt has a whole Moment..until Dan, who was hanging out in their apartment, pipes up with a “and you didn’t get ME any?” which effectively killed it
Aaron subtly watches Matt with Dan and subconsciously picks up on the way he treats her and mirrors Matt’s behavior when he’s with Katelyn (because 1. Matt is smooth and suave as hell and 2. they’re one of the first healthy relationships Aaron has seen up close so he uses them as a blueprint because he wants to make sure he’s doing it right) and Matt is oblivious
Renee notices though and she quietly keeps it to herself but thinks it’s sweet. Allison too picks up on it and she mentions it to Dan and Dan thinks it’s the cutest thing and now whenever she notices Aaron behaving similarly or quietly observing them, she starts grinning and Matt will be like “what? what’s so funny?” and she refuses to tell
even though it stopped for the most part once the team smoothed out their bumps, after spending time with Aaron Matt gets the others (mostly Allison) to quit talking about Andrew like he’s a freak for good
you could see how Matt had a concerned-parent streak in him when Neil wasn’t sleeping well and when he was getting involved with the monsters and that streak eventually carries over to Aaron too. especially where Aaron is both a university athlete and a premed student..kid has it rough. so Matt will wake him up when he falls asleep at his desk to tell him to go to sleep (the first time or two Aaron responded with a pleasant “fuck off” but now he just peels his face off his textbook and slouches to bed) and subtly make sure he’s eating decent
when Matt wakes up one night to find Aaron trying to drink away his anxieties about his trial, it doesn’t take him long to realize that he can’t help but Andrew probably could. and something changes between Andrew and Matt when Andrew sees the concern for his brother in Matt’s face
when the girls come over to hang out and Aaron is there he’ll usually melt into the corner or go in the bedroom but they usually rope him into their conversations anyway. and somewhere between the tenth and eleventh time he was forced to play tiebreaker for one of their arguments he became comfortable enough around them and lost the need to disappear whenever they showed up
it’s actually really beneficial to have them over sometimes because Matt is a hard person to be an asshole to, so having Allison around gives Aaron a good outlet
Matt learns quickly to leave Aaron alone for at least half an hour after his therapy sessions with Andrew
Aaron is good at being able to notice without being told when to leave Matt and Dan the apartment and spend the night down the hall or at Katelyn’s
Katelyn and Matt hit it off immediately from the first time Aaron brings her over (very few people are immune to the Matt Boyd charm, I’m telling you) and he doesn’t know how to take it because he’s just getting comfortable with Matt after knowing him for two years whereas it’s been ten minutes and these two are already exchanging phone numbers and discussing last Friday’s game as if they’ve been friends for years
also when Katelyn becomes friends with the girls it’s even worse and they just completely steal her from him
and, like Neil, they enjoy watching Aaron become a completely different, lighter person when Katelyn is around
Matt is big on like jocky terms of endearment and uses them casually all the time and though Aaron shoots him a look of distaste when he calls Aaron “bro” or “my guy” for the first time, it starts to grow on him
to the point where one time they’re watching a film and Matt (who’s a big talker during movies) keeps making comments until Aaron is just like “BRO shut UP” and Matt just grins and he’s like “so we’re bros huh?”
and because Matt knows that, even though it’s casual, insignificant guy talk, that’s the most affection he’ll ever verbally get out of Aaron, he makes sure to be annoying about it and puts a “bro” in every one of his sentences
“I’m not your bro”
“ah but you don’t get to decide that. bro”
“fine well you’re not my bro”
“that hurts bro”
“stop calling me bro”
“can’t, my guy. we’re bros”
*sighs*
*nods confidently* “yeah we’re bros”
(they’re bros)
trying to hold back tears
PLACE YOUR BETS NOW PEOPLE !!!!
Wrote a little jerejean thing!!
Jean wasn’t entirely sure what kind of person he was if he was being honest with himself. Most of his life was spent trying not to die, and when he looked back at his life, he wasn’t entirely sure what it was he was holding onto. What pieces of himself wanted to stay.
Maybe it was Exy. Maybe it was the small moments where he’d look out at the fans in the stands with fake 3’s painted on their faces, and Moreau jersey’s on their backs, and he’d allow himself to feel good about the little following he had secured that supported him. Maybe it was the quiet private moments between himself and Kevin, where they’d whisper reassurances to each other in French, and patch each other’s wounds up like sorry fools. Maybe it was the fleeting feeling of control he would experience every so often on the court when he’d smack a ball so hard and it would land precisely where he wanted it to. Or, maybe it was that deep and daunting fear that, if he ever took his own life, Riko would find a way to bring him back and torture him for trying to leave.
Jean wasn't sure.
But, as he sat there on the sidelines of the Trojans' court, grounding himself with the weight of his racket in his crooked hands, he thought maybe his answer could be found in the feeling he got in his chest as he watched his captain glide across the space.
He knew what the feeling was. Had felt it in the quiet, secret spaces shared with Kevin, in Renee's gentle and cherubic nature, but he also knew this was different. This was more. This was scary. This was thrilling. For the first time in his life this had made him want to really truly stay.
The only thing Jean had ever understood about himself was that fear was what drove him. Fear of pain and of punishment was what pushed him to get up after every knock down, every injury, every cruelty. That no exceptions would ever be made for him and no excuse ever valid. That he was never going to make it past graduation, and he was okay with that. It was the only kind of fear Jean knew. He didn't realise there could be any other.
Until he met the force of nature that was Jeremy Knox.
Now as he watched Jeremy jog across the court, gesturing with his outstretched arm as he called his team to action, he understood there was another kind of fear that existed. A good kind, though no less overwhelming. But Jean found he liked that.
Jeremy Knox exuded a natural charisma Jean had never seen before. It filled the space of every room he stepped into. Jean was in no doubt everyone in Jeremy's sphere knew this. It was there, in the way bodies moved towards him like they couldn't get close enough. Arms always thrown over his shoulders and palms always clasped a little too tight, and a little too long, after a hand shake or a high five. Eyes that skittered away but always went back. Because nobody could ever resist staring directly into the sun.
Jean closed his eyes then and leaned his head back against the court walls. Bright spots filled the darkness behind his eye lids, all shaped like Jeremy's face. He breathed in deeply and focused on the sounds around him. Sneakers squeaking on the floor, the swoosh of a racket cutting through the air, the echos of balls smacking against the floor and the walls. His body jumped slightly as footsteps ran past a little too close, but he kept his eyes closed and his breathing steady. He was safe. He was safe here.
"Jean."
His heart stuttered. His eyes opened.
There was his sun.
Balancing himself on one knee, forearm resting on the other. Eyes locked on Jean's, smile filling his cheeks.
Jean Moreau was in love.
Jean Moreau wasn't sure yet what kind of person he was. He thought perhaps he would never know. But he knew now he was a person who could fall in love. A person who could feel a gentle soft thing like this. Jeremy had stilled the raging storms inside him just a little bit more and more every day.
Now, Jean knew for sure that this was something he was holding on to. Because he wanted it. He wanted it fiercely. He wanted it desperately. And Jean had never been able to want before. He thought he'd hate it. But he loved it. It scared him because of the way it made him want to heal, want to reach out, want to find peace. Because of the way it made him want to stay.
The love he felt for Jeremy Knox made him always want to be bathed in his light.
Jean leaned forward pressing into Jeremy's space. Eyes scanning his face. Jeremy's smile never wavered, in fact it got bigger as his eyes stayed fixed on Jean's.
"Ready to jump back in?" Jeremy asked, still all smiles.
It was infectious and Jean's lips twitched.
Their faces were inches apart and Jean closed the gap as he pressed his forehead into Jeremy's. He smiled fully then, as he felt Jeremy press back.
They were sweaty and smelly and Jean breathed it in.
"Oui," he answered.
Jean spent most of his life trying not to die. He could never figure out what he was holding onto.
Now, as he stood on the Trojans' court in the Tronjans' colours, his big crooked hand wrapped around Jeremy's small soft one, as he took his weight and hauled him up off the floor, he felt that soft thing wrap around his heart.
In that moment, Jean Moreau determined, he would spend the rest of his life living.
it’s just so.. yes.. i’ll probably lie under this post today..
so remember how the trojans are known for being the most calm and respectable team?? and how they have never been fouled or given a yellow/red card before?? now jean has been raised with the ravens. polar opposites of each other. but jean is very cautious of how he plays on the court because he doesn't want to rid the trojans of that reputation and wants to fit in or whatever. but the first time that the trojans get carded its in a match against the ravens. and surprisingly it isn't jean who gets carded. its jeremy who lost his shit because jean's former team mates were being assholes to him and he wasn't fighting back at all and jeremy had had enough.
almost threw my phone bc of this pls i love it sm