I haven't posted in a really long time already and i have few reasons for it (one of them is stupid IK)
1. I have so much homework at university i don't have time to make digital art and posting it. I kinda neglected my Tumblr acc, i have like 20 subscribers nobody cares, if i don't post anything. I'm not famous and i don't want to be.
2. I forget on what device did i make an art , all because i sometimes draw on smartphone instead of tablet. I have a clear memory drawing something on IbisPaint, but where? also i think bc my tablet is small (9') and smartphone is big (6,5'), they both have "Clean" Android 11 and 12
Chat, i think i am developing a lineless artstyle!
This work is unfinished, but already looks good! I more likely never finish it , because my ultra budget tablet will blow up! All because i accidentally created a big canvas 😭
This is my old animation i made in Alight motion, as a test, how it all works...
When i was a gachatuber i wanted to make cool smoothly animated "animation memes" But my phone was too small and slow for that. And those cool animations were made on computer (i've seen a tutorial)
I also decided to post is there bc my Google photos ALWAYS SHOWS ME THIS ANIMATION in memories : ReMeMbeR ThiS SpEciAl DaY! all because i almost don't have videos saved on cloud storage . It's all ether my art or my selfies
Xboomer , but i tired to get as close as possible to Jael's artstyle
Yap about hyperfixations under the cut
My Xtale hyperfixation is already continuing for so long ... I fell lke i will never get a hyperfix., lasting longer, than this one! I NEED to stop bieng obsessed with Xgaster! And as the first step to stop UTMV hyperfixation i will stop making fanart with Xgaster . Because since i'm drawing the same characters I'm:
1 don't improve my art skill .
2. shoving anyone my newer digital art is sooooooo embarrassing I'm dieing of cringe
3. I can't show anyone my scethbook or i KMS with embarrassment . Neurotipical majority of people won't understand why is drawing same 5 characters is more fun , than drawing something different every time . Weirdest part is : I'm not autistic! But some (college groupmates) people genuinely thought i am on the spectrum ! I was so shocked when they told me that ! Loke bruh am i look that wierd from third person pesrpective????
4. whole my account is Xgaster fanart i can't even look at it uhhh am i the only person who is jumpscared my my own posts😭😭😭? IMPOSTER SYNDROME, YOU SUCKKK!
I haven't posted for like a month already.... Oofff ... To be honest it felt like my mind got factory resseted but i had all the resrve copies saved 😫🙃 . Because its not like , something bad happened to me and I got amnesia, or something like that . I still have all important memories! I just... Started to forget everything so fast like: forgeting what i was just doing. And also thanks to this new year dumb tradition staying 'till 00: 00 my sleep and day schedule was ruined! And i got that wierd mind state, when i just don't want to do anything....
I've seen so much people hating Xgaster, i still don't understand why there is so many haters of this man. I mean he did what he supposed to, if he didn't overwrite Xtale , that au wold be a boring Undertale reskin . Also from his perspective Xtale's story is about his creations and their lives. Not about him trying to achieve perfection by cruel experiments.
And if Ink Sans didn't came to him bro would just off himself, so no underverse/xtale no ur favourite sans fights
Why Xboomer's literally me under the cut
Xgaster is very relatable character to me so many things are matching with me (how do i say that correct in English) . Like:
I'm tall and skinny irl (175cm) i' m taller than most of my relatives and college groupmates (who are mostly girls) thanks to my dad .
I'm aromantic, i don't think I'm ace (that's called "aroallo" right?)
I always have serious face, when people want to take photos of me they tell me to smile, i smile ... But still hear this phrase I hate more than anything else "smile, you're not smiling!" Wich results in these wierd, wide not genuine smile .
I'm not very talkative, its hard for me to make friends, mostly because irl most people are clueless wnat is Undertale, Deltarune, Vocaloid, Manga, Anime, even what "non-binary" "trans-femme/masc" means . I also sometimes yell at people, calling them stupid if they asked for help too many times bc its distracts me from my work .
I HATE sitting with my legs connected, it's super uncomfortable, I HATE SKIRTS its the worst clothing ever! WORSE than skirts can only be DRESSES , especially the School uniform! Ever since i graduated School i never wore a skirt i'm not kidding!
I made this literally with my phone with a finger for a experment , bc i got a new smartphone and was curios , how fast it will run Medibang and Ibis paint
I feel like the main thing, why is it so much uncomfortable to draw in a phone than ,compared to a tablet is the screen size! In this situation size matters my tablet (9 inch display) vs my phone (6 inch display) . When i zoom out on the sartphone i can't see anything its sooooooo small . Even the fact my smartphone works faster, than tablet, due to less amount of operative memory (2gb vs 6gb) , does not make a difference, drawing app is not a video game, there is no FPS!
In conclusion: Smartphones are too small for professional digital art
By birthday was 4 days ago, but who cares , definitely not me lol i'm soooo time blind it's actually horrible . I think i might have discalculia, that wold explain why I suck at math and memorising digits in general . But i'm pretty good at Russian language and English, teachers dont believe me, that i learned Deutsch (German) at school . My inglish knowledge is basically a side effect from chronic online
Охх ... Декабрь, все эти экзамены и зачёты сводят меня с ума... У меня нет времени на диджитал арт, еще и потому-что, как единственный художник в группе я должна кучу всего еще нарисовать на учёбу.
А именно: нарисовать лицо глиняной кукле на конкурс . Хотя пока прогресс с этой коклой довольно медленно идет руководитель группы постоянно нас торопит, ведь надо успеть еще зделать ей поатье в готическом стиле 13 века (это можно поручить одному из одногрупников, так-что сорее это мне делать не прийдется), нарисовать коллекцию одежды на конкурс художника-модельера что не так уж и сложно я накулякала концептов в скетчбуке (тупо любая одежда что мне приходит в голову) но хз понравится ли это преподователю, я еще не решила насчет палитры. А ведь всю эту коллекцию мне нужно будет еще и преррисовать на А3 и а внешность куклы перерисовать на А4, что не так уж и сложно но... Последнее время я росто не могу заставить себя что - либо делать еще и мои плечи ни с того , ни с его начали болеть :( Скорее всего это связанно с моей осанкой криветки и тем что я долгое время носила сумку через плечо + мой рост который состовляет всего 177см, что не так уж и много, но я выше всех своих одногрупниц, даже парней из других групп . Однажды даже на групповом фототя офгела от того, какой гигантской я смотрюсь по сравнению с ними, но это не моя проблема , это они все полторашечки ! Причем буквально! Однажды нои обсуждали рост и одна другой говорит : "мой рост 155 см" , другая ей : "а мой 152" итп . Это пмогло мне осознать насколько они мелкие !
Get it like x is often used as a unknown digit and we don't know Xboomer's exact age i even once tried to calculate it by trying add up the numbers of how long each timeline was+ XG's age in timiline 0 and came to conclusion, he's 112 years old . Now it's my headcannon for his age
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