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#vsco #vscoph (at Ligñon Hill Legazpi City Albay)
I have this guy friend na hindi ako pinapansin and I feel so guilty kasi I became so cold to him for almost 2 months kaya siguro ganun yung treatment nya sakin. Kasi naman may something sa kanya na hindi ko maintindihan. Pero alam kong maling isipin ko yun sa kanya kasi when I was so down he’s always there for me. Ang wala ko naman kwentang kaibigan kasi after nya akong tulungan e pag-iisipan ko sya ng masama. Wala man lang akong utang na loob. Nagi-guilty talaga ako and ayokong masira friendship namin dahil lang sa stupid thoughts ko about sa kanya so I tried to chat him last month pero wala pa ring reply hanggang ngayon. Alam ko namang nago-online sya kasi nagpo-post sya sa fb and my message was delivered. So guess ayaw nya talaga akong kausapin. Grabe ang bigat sa feeling kasi alam kong ako yung may kasalanan. He’s been a good friend to me, sobra. He even gave me a box of potatoes and a stationery kasi alam nyang favorite ko ang mga yun. Tapos ako, wala. Wala kwentang kaibigan, hays. Sya pa naman kasama ko sa PetE. Kahit naman lagi nya akong nirereto sa mga lalaki love ko pa rin naman yun e. Sobrang tanga ko lang talaga at naging ganun ako sa kanya. Now i realized that karma is really a bitch. To my friend, alam kong binubuksan mo dati tumblr ko, and sana mabuksan mo ulit at mabasa mo ‘to. Kausapin mo na naman ako oh, samahan kita sa concert ni Shawn Mendes mwaa.
One of the best vacay so far! Thank you Asenjo Family for giving us the chance to see the genuine beauty of Bicol. Looking forward for more adventures with the tropang walang titibag (jeje lang hahaha). Credits to poging gov Lyle Casas for the photos.
I am a type of person na takot mag-open ng kanyang feelings/saloobin sa kahit kanino even sa kaibigan/bestfriend. Siguro dahil ayokong may magbago sa pakikitungo or ayokong magkaroon ng awkwardness if ever na mag-open ako. Pero na-overcome ko yung fear kong yun 3 weeks ago kasi... ewan ko nga ba kung bakit out of nowhere ay naichika ko yun sa bestfriend ko. So yun nga since nasimulan ko nang sabihin sa kanya yung saloobin ko, tinuloy ko na lang sa chat kasi pauwi na talaga kami nung time na yun. Sinabi ko sa kanya lahat sa chat pero ang plano ko talaga is personal kaming makapag-usap pero sabi naman nya na mas ok sa chat kasi alam nyang hindi ko masasabi lahat sa personal kasi pangungunahan ako ng emotions ko. And yung inaakala kong result ng pag-oopen ay mali pala, kasi after that mas naging close kami and alam na namin kung ano yung pagkukulang namin sa isa’t-isa as bestfriend. Tapos tinulungan din nya akong mag-open sa iba pa naming kaibigan which is may iyakang naganap na ine-expect na naman namin, knowing us susq hahahahaha. And it ended up so well. Everything’s clear now. Wala nang tinatago and wala nang hinanakit sa isa’t-isa. And maybe that’s the reason kung bakit naging mas masaya yung hangouts namin these past few weeks. Thank you Lord for giving our friendship a second chance.
10/15/15
Pinansin na nya ko pero bagsak naman ako sa Physics.
I told you i love you but i looked away.. I can’t stand looking at you and see the look in your eyes telling me you don’t feel the same way. It hurts but i know i can’t force you to love me. I’m okay with the fact that i am capable of loving such a great person like you. I am happy that it’s you that my heart chose to love even though it will caused me heartbreak. I am not asking you to love me, i just want you to know what’s inside my heart, for you to feel that you are loved. I don’t know until when or if i can unlove you when my heart is tired of beating for you but all i know is that i love you and there’s nothing or no one can take that away.
(via girlbehindthisblog)
Sobrang lala ng pagka-inggit ko sa mga nagte-take ng Dentistry lalo na when they took photos of their practical exam. Siguro feeling nila parang they're really working na as Dentists and I want to feel the same way. But I have to face the fact that I'm taking Engineering, solving math problems even I don't want to (wala naman akong magagawa).
I destroyed myself just to save you from being broken and it hurts to know that the person i saved was also the person i was expecting to make me whole once again but end up destroying me again.
(via girlbehindthisblog)
Emotionless.
I’m sorry that i’m not talking to you. Don’t think that i’ve forgotten about you. It’s just that i don’t know what to say or maybe i know but i just don’t know how to start. And i don’t want to bother you. I feel like, i’ll just annoy you. That’s why i’m contented seeing you around, hoping you’ll be the first one to talk to me.
(via girlbehindthisblog)
What will you do if you can’t find the words to describe how you feel? You can’t put into words and tell someone how you feel. You just want to scream, you just want someone to listen to you but you don’t know what to say. You don’t know how to react. All you can do is tell them to look into your eyes hoping they’ll understand the emotion that you have in your eyes that can’t be utter in your mouth.
(via girlbehindthisblog)
I tried to close my eyes just to avoid staring to the scene that’s breaking my heart, but i can’t, i still chose to watch them hold hands while walking. I still can’t help but to look at them hugging each other while talking with a smile on their faces. They look so in love with each other. I used to be that girl, i used to be his world, he used to love me. There are things that i wanted to tell her. I want her to take care of him. He may look tough and strong but he’s fragile. She should handle him with care cause one wrong move and he might shatter into pieces. He isn’t perfect, he’s made mistakes and he’s a flawed being but please accept and embrace all those things that he has. He has fears you know, but i want her to kiss all those fears away. I used to do that but i’m no longer in the position. I thought i’m already okay, i thought i can now look at them without feeling this pang of pain in my chest. It’s hard to breathe while watching them happy. I should be in her position but that’s impossible now, he doesn’t love me anymore, he has a new girl now. While looking at them, i realize a lot of things. Does she knows how to handle you? Every time she’s looking into your eyes, she’s looking into my world. Every time she’s hugging you, she’s holding my world in her arms. I used to own those things but it’s meant for me to set them free. I don’t hate her I promise. I have nothing against her either. I’m happy that someone’s making you happy now but it’s just sad that it’s no longer me. I don’t know what i’m feeling right now, i’m supposed to look at you and be alright. I’m not supposed to feel this pain that i’m feeling right now while staring at your happy face while you’re looking at her. Do i still love you? It terrifies me. I already accepted it but the moment i saw you and felt how much you love her, i lost my step and now i have to go back to square one. Tell her to please do not take advantage of you if you trusts her, cause i know it’ll take a lot of effort and it takes time to win you back. I want her to hold your heart as if she’s holding the most important thing in her life. Make sure she’ll take care of it cause i spent all my effort and time trying my best to cherish it. I tried my very best not to break it. Maybe watching you with her can help me move on. I already let go of you long time ago, but now i can say that i made a good decision because she’s the right person who can make you happy and who’s capable of loving you better than I do. It’s so painful to see you with somebody else but but it’s such a relief knowing you’re very much happy with her. I hope she’ll love you more than i did so my heartbreak will be worth it. I hope she won’t hurt you. And don’t you worry about me, i can live without you. I’ll soon find my happiness. I turn around and walk away. Sometimes you have to bear the pain of seeing the person you used to love loving someone else because it’ll make you realize it’s time for you to move on and let go.
watching the person you once loved loving someone else (via girlbehindthisblog)
Sometimes, it’s not always his fault why you’re hurting. You just loved him so much to the point that you forgot to love yourself and you lost yourself trying to give all your love for him and in the end when he left you, nothing’s left on you. You can’t blame him and i’m not saying you should blame yourself. But sometimes, you have to keep in mind that he didn’t chose to hurt you. Don’t ever regret the love that you once had for him because that love is pure and true. It happened for you to learn something and just be glad and be thankful that your love story with him happened. And you once got the chance to love and be loved by someone like him.
never regret your past (via girlbehindthisblog)
You were fourteen then when i saw you with that pretty smile dancing across your face. You’re still young and naive but you’re already sensitive enough to feel the people around you. You were happy back then. I can still see the glow in your face and how your eyes shines so bright just like the brightest star at night. I saw you walking down the street, you turn into a smart lady. But that smile from that young girl turn into a frown. I don’t know what happened until i saw the look in your eyes, they’re full of pain and anger. I wonder who did that to you. That young and jolly girl is trying to find herself in the middle of nowhere. I can see that you’re lost in a road with full of people but you still feel so alone. Nobody’s willing to listen as you screamed your lungs out to all the things that you wanted to tell the world. You hate yourself. You hate the people around you. You hate the world. You’re like a walking disaster and you destroy everything that you touches. You’re hurting yourself by attaching yourself to the permanent people in your life without knowing they’ll leave you in the end. That’s why in the end, nothing’s left on you but only yourself who’s drowning in the sea where no one can save you. You kept everything inside you hoping it will soon fade away because you think no one will understand you. You’re so tired of dealing with the same shits everyday. It’s like fighting without the intention of winning, you’re already losing the game before it’s started. You refuse to wake up everyday. You refuse to live your life. You destroy yourself so much trying to find an escape but you’re still stuck. You cry yourself to sleep at night and wake up the next morning still crying because of the pain that you feel. There were days that waking up and feeling okay is an achievement for you. Until one day i saw again that sweet smile across yourself, i knew then that you’re back. You chose the right path and i’m so happy for you. You’ve finally woke up from that nightmare. I’ve already forgiven you from all the things that you’ve done o yourself. Those things will help you shape you into a better person. I can see now that you’ve grown and a tough person. Anyone can survive a terrible heartbreak, depression, loneliness but no one can stand in the middle of the battle with no chance of winning. But you… you survived and i am proud of you. This life is for exploring, never for standing still. There are more microbes on your skin than people on this planet. You are taller in the morning than the evening. I can now see the happiness in your eyes and finally, those tears had stopped from falling. You’re a grown woman now. And i know you’ll survive another chapter of your life. Good luck on your journey and don’t forget to put God on the center of your life.
a letter to myself (via girlbehindthisblog)
Best friend.
I love you, i hope you can feel that. I wish you could you see yourself the way i see you. I want you to know that you’re loved. I am so blessed to have a best friend like you, i know you heard that but i want to repeat it many times. You’re weird. You’re stupid. Just like me, that’s why we clicked right? That’s why we are so perfect together. You are someone i can lean on to and be my support in every decision that i make. Sometimes we fight, we argue but at the end of the day we still find ourselves laughing with our childish fight. You are my partner in crime, just by looking at each other, without saying anything, we already know what’s running inside our mind. You know my ugliest side and all my weird habit. You are someone i can trust and i can tell all the things that i’m afraid to tell to anybody. You are the person who has seen the best and worse of me yet you still chose to stay by my side. And you’re always there, ready to ditch whatever you’re doing just to be with me cause you know i need you at that moment.
Being a best friend is more than just a label, and is something that requires real time and real support because you really love this person. And i am so glad that i got the chance to meet such a wonderful person like you. Nothing compares to you because for me you are not just a best friend but also my sister.
Mahalin mo sya sa huling pagkakataon at pagkatapos... bitaw na.
Para sa mga umiibig, nasasaktan, pero umiibig pa din kasi TANGA. Sampung bagay na natutunan ko mula sa mga umiibig. Una, napakatamis ng mga simula. Ng mga umaga na ang bumubungad sayo ay ang kanyang mukha. Nagaalmusal ka ng kilig at pagdating sa gabi ay baon mo siya hanggang sa paghimbing. Dito, dito mo matututunan ang tunay na kapangyarihan ng isang ngiti. Ng ibang kamay na humahawi sayong buhok, ng mga mata na sumisisid sa iyong kaluluwa. Pangalawa, napakadaling maging kampante at masanay sa pagmamahal. Ang malunod sa kapangyarihan ng “kami”, ng “tayo”, ng “atin”. Pero paano naman ang “kanya”? Paano naman ang “ako”? Napakadaling malunod sa akalang ang iyo ay mananatiling iyo. Pangatlo, mapapagod ka pero pangapat, ang tunay na pagibig hindi dapat sinusukuan diba? Pero panglima, ang tunay na pagibig ay hindi parating sapat kapag ang mga pakpak na binigay nito sayo ay bumigat at naging kadenang ni ayaw kang patayuin. Kapag ang langit na dating nilipad mo ay naging kulungan na nasayo naman ang susi at kandado pero ayaw mo pa ring lisanin. Panganim, ang pinakamabagsik mang apoy ay mamamatay, maghanda ka sa sakit. Pero huwag kang magaalaga ng galit. Ito ang pangpito, iiwanan ka na puno ng sugat at pilat at paltos nito. Iiwanan ka nitong abo. Pangwalo, maghanda ka sa wakas. Pangsiyam, alam ko, parang hindi ka pa talaga handa sa wakas. Wala naman kasi yatang nagiging handa sa wakas. Pero pangsampu, andyan ang wakas. At sa wakas, mahalin mo pa siya. Sa tingin. Sa tanaw. Mula sa abo na iniwan ng dati ninyong apoy. Mahalin mo pa siya. Pero kapag ang pakpak ng dati mong pagibig ay naging gapos na, kapag ang langit na minsan mong nilipad ay naging kulugan na. Mahalin mo siya, sa huling pagkakataon. Pagkatapos, bitaw na.
Juan Miguel Severo; Sampung bagay na natutunan ko sa mga umiibig (via angambisyosangpalaka)