Hello!! May i request a part 2 of your ryuji angst fic 😖 it was too good and I loved it soso much! Thank you!!
As I lay sleeping, I dreamed I held you
Ryuji Sakamoto x Fem!Reader
♯ You are my sunshine - Christina Perri
Part 1
Synopsis: Ryuji doesn't know what to do now that he believes he's fucked up this relationship. He decides not to go to his friends for advice, and instead went to do what he knows in his heart is right. Needing to fix it by himself.
Genre: hurt/comfort
Tags: crying. Mentions of breakup but they don't. Happy ending. SPOILERRSSSS FOR SEMESTER 3!!!!. Tiny bit of Shuake action. I (personally) am not good with apologies so I'm not sure if his is like good.
Wc: 2.3k
A/n: on par with another request -->
'Ryuji x Reader Request: Comfort involving the song “you’re my sunshine” (yeah stupid I know)'
Ryuji didn't leave. Feet glued to the concrete of the floor in front of your apartment. His face right by the door you had closed shut.
Shut with the softest click. As if you were still a child, trying not to make their parents mad. He would much rather you slam it, or you yell at him the moment he appeared at your home. Because then he would actually know what it was that you were feeling.
Instead, the empty stare he was met with told him everything he really needed to know; how tired he had made you.
He debated on what to do. Unsure on which step would be the most smartest. Whether he should pound on your door, sit on the ground and wait until you open it next, or flood your phone with calls.
All of those options were definitely off the table. Bothering you would make it much worse, you probably wouldn't even want to look at his face right now. Not when it was one in the morning and with how much he hurt you.
Slumping his back further down, he sighed, placing his palm on your door before slowly making his way to the staircase of your apartment.
Each foot landed shakily on the steps, his body trying to stabilise himself. Somehow, the pain that followed his heart intensified along with his emotions. Hurting as your saddened face flashed before his eyes every time he blinked. His stomach felt as if it was threatening to spill bile out of his mouth in nausea.
What the fuck does he do. Who does he even go to when he messes up this bad? He didn't even realise that he was messing up-- which was the point in it of itself-- and now he's worried that he'd lose you forever.
Rushing out the parking lot of your apartment, sped to the only person he knew to go to when things got wrong.
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The door to LeBlanc slammed open with a loud bang. The mini bells by the top swinging violently with the wind.
Ryuji wiped a droplet of sweat off of his forehead. Making his way towards the startled boy behind the counter.
"Ryuji?" Ren looked up from the kitchen sink. The last coffee mug under his sponge was being cleaned. "What are you..--" he cut himself off when finally got a good look of the blonde boy panting by the table. "What happened?" Ren asked, taking off his gloves and wiping his hands on his apron.
"Man--" Ryuji gasped, landing his hands on his knees and he tried to catch his breath. "Man I fucked up." A simple phrase all to familiar coming from him. Ryuji was the typical person that would fuck up. What made Ren worried was how truly panicked he looked. "I really did I-- I'm such an idiot! How could I be so stupid and ignorant. And-- and negligent!"
"Woah, woah, woah." Ren placed his hands on the wooden counter. "Calm down." He moved to turn behind him, grabbing a glass and retreating back to the kitchen. Returning with a full glass of water. He set it in front of him. Watching as it got grabbed with the small splashes landing on the table.
"Y/n." Ryuji stated. Eyes turning red with the tears that was beginning to well up in his eyes. "Y/n." He repeated. Struggling to find the words on how to explain the events that led up to his situation. "I fucked up." He downed the drink in an instant. "I really fucked up, man."
"Okay." Ren tried his best to calm him down. "Take a deep breath, and then tell me what happened. Slower this time."
Ryuji nodded once. "Okay-- I've been a horrible boyfriend." He sighed, running a frantic hand up and down his head. Messing up his hair.
"What else is new." An unimpressed voice came from the booth behind the two boys.
"Hey!" Ryuji nudged his foot to stomp on the floor. "I'm serious." Without even sparing Akechi another glance, he continued on speaking with Ren.
"-- and I've just been so focused on the team, I just haven't-- I haven't given her so much as more than thirty minutes of my time just for a damn conversation!" Slamming his fists on the wood in frustration.
Ren leaned his body onto his side of the table. Hand tapping on his leg. To say he was confused was a complete understatement.
Morgana was still a human in front of him. Futaba's mother was sleeping soundly in her house. Shiho was up and about. And Ryuji's track team was back together again.
So he was fighting not to scratch his head on why your relationship with Ryuji wasn't the best as it could be.
If this was Maruki's reality, and if this was the reality that Ryuji wanted, then why was there seemingly a wrench in the relationship?
Ren had no idea what to do.
"--- and then she slammed the door in front of me. And I deserved it." Hands now slapping onto his face and sliding down. "I deserve all the shit that she's giving me."
He folded his arms onto the table. Now resting his head on them and sniffling slightly as he shook. "The fuck do I do now.." he murmured.
To Ren, this is an opportunity. A way to slap him back to reality. "You know what to do." He told him sternly. Final.
Ryuji still hadn't lifted his head up.
"Go to her." He paused. "And tell her how much you mean to her."
"I have." Ryuji's voice came out muffled from his sleeve.
"No." Ren shook his head. "You were making excuses for yourself." Even he was fairly surprised by the words that came out of his mouth. "Did you give her a reason for her to not feel how she does?" When he heard the silence around him, was when he knew that reality hit Ryuji like a truck.
"I told her I was sorry." He lifted his head only slightly. "I pleaded for us to talk it out."
"And what did she say?"
"That we will."
"She needs time, Ryuji." A hand on his. "She needs time, because these feelings have been building up for a long time coming."
Both his hands flew up to grasp on Ren's. "What do I do?"
"What do you think you should do?"
He needs to show you how much he cares. How much he wants you in his life. How he's going to put you first over his career.
Ren noticed the realisation slowly forming on his face. Nodding slowly in relief.
"I gotta go." Another slam on the table as a good number of footsteps could be heard. Hurriedly rushing towards the door, shoving it open, followed by even harsher footsteps.
Ren turned to the brunette that was sitting in the booth right behind Ryuji. "Lovely contribution you had."
Akechi let out a soft chuckle. "I had nothing to say." Placing down the newspaper he was barely reading. "Do you think Maruki's power is slipping on him?"
Ren could only shrug his shoulder. "We'll see."
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Your crying session was broken by the banging on your apartment door. Flicking your headphones flooding with sad music away from your ears, waiting a moment to confirm it was either coming from your door, or from the song.
Standing up, you wiped your eyes with your sleeves. Glancing at the clock as you made your way to the front door, sighing at the '02:00' blinking back at you in red.
Your brain didn't bother to speculate on who would be knocking on your door this late at night, it just needed some movement that wasn't just weeping and sobbing. Much like you did for the past two hours.
You didn't think that it would be the very boy that made you cry in the first place. You just thought that he'd go back to his own home. That he'd just go and run or something to shake off his problems.
You shut the door quickly the second you saw him outside your door. Both your wide eyes meeting each other for a split second. Your hand lingering on the handle as you heard the knocks echo through once more. Softer this time.
"Y/n." his voice came out muffled from the other side.
Your eyes remained fixated at your hand, still tight around the handle.
"Please let me in." he pleaded, forehead resting on the other side of your door. "I'm sorry. I really am. I didn't mean to neglect ya' like that. And there ain't no way in hell I'd want us to end because I had to be such a dumbass." His hand hovering over the door handle from his side. "Please." He pleaded. "Lemme make this right."
On his end, he couldn't hear the way your breaths came out ragged and shaky out of your lungs. If he didn't know any better, he would've thought that you had left entirely. Away from the door and back to your bedroom. Leaving him outside like you did just hours ago.
He wouldn't even be mad if you did-- not like he had any right to be mad in the first place-- but he'd be willing to sit outside for as long as he has to. He just wants to make it up to you. To prove to you how much you mean to him.
You caught your breath, psyching yourself up. Another hand brought up to your chest, patting it softly. Trying your best to stabilise your heart, which was beating a mile a minute.
You opened the door swiftly, hoping that the dark of the night would hide the puffiness on your face. Ryuji tumbled in head first, catching himself before he could fall. His eyes widened even more once again.
"Y/n." He muttered in disbelief. Disbelief that you were actually willing to speak to him. He stopped staring with his mouth agape when you leaned your side to the doorway with your arms folded.
"Ryuji." You mimicked back to him.
'I- I" he stuttered up a storm, unsure how to begin. "I'm sorry." He landed. "I'm really, really sorry."
You only stared at him while he was trying to find his words. You didn't say anything, you just opened your door a little bit bigger, signalling him to walk in.
He hesitated, unsure if he was even welcome in your home now that he hurt you so much. Only slowly inching his way inside when you nudged towards the living room with your head.
He followed you further inside, taking a seat on your couch. Curling in on yourself, you stared at him plainly, waiting for an explanation.
"Uhm." Ryuji took a deep breath. Making his way to the couch, not daring to sit next to you. Instead, he slowly dropped to his knees in front of you. "Listen."
You didn't expect this much pleading coming from him, but you didn't say anything yet.
"I was an idiot. I've been an idiot for months." He continued. "My head's only been full of the race, and the marathon, and the competition. And everything else except for you." He admitted guiltily. Not wanting to waste your time with meaningless excuses. "And I shoulda seen how me neglecting you was.. well affecting you." His eyes downcast.
You didn't interrupt him. Only remained listening to his explanation.
"And... and I don't care if you hate me for that. 'Cause you should, I deserve it." He couldn't find the courage to meet your eyes. Unsure if he would be met with hurt, or even worse-- hate.
"You--" the words came out choked from your throat. Clearing it before attempting to start again. "You're finally getting everything you've ever wanted." You watched as his head slowly lifted up to you. "You have your team, you have your track, you have the finals coming up soon--"
He cut you off frustrated, more so at himself. "-- I'm so fuckiin' sorry that I ignored you for my team, I shouldn't hav--"
You placed a hand in front of his face, signalling for him to shut up and listen to you. To which he obliged. "Your biggest dream was to make it. And you are." You paused for a second. "... So then why does it have to be at the cost of me?"
His eyes widened in panic, hating himself that he made him feel like that. "It-- it's not! Well-- maybe it was, but I swear I won't ever let that happen again!" Seeing how you weren't responding to him. "I love you." He said, final. The word flew out in an attempt to be calm. "I love you so damn much. And I hate that I made you feel like I never did." He dropped his head to your lap, his knees aching on the floor.
You couldn't hold in the tears any longer. Letting it flow out of your eyes as you cried as silently as you could. "You hurt me." You said with a crack of your voice.
His heart cracked along with it. "Nononono, please don't cry-- fuck, I mean it's alright if ya' do, but please don't cry 'cause of me." He said in a panic. Lifting both his hands to rub on your thighs in an attempt to soothe you. "Don't cry, beautiful, you don't deserve to cry over me."
"Damn right I don't." You sniffled, raising your sleeve to wipe on your tears.
"I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I didn't care enough to see you hurting. I'm sorry for all the stupid things I've said. I'm so fucking sorry." He murmured through the fabric of your pants, his own tears threatening to fall out.
You brought a hand down to his face, lifting it up to face you. Wiping the edge of his eye rid of his tears. "Look at me." And he did. Meeting your equally saddened eyes. "I was hurt by what you did." You told him softly. "And I love you, but if you do that again, then I don't think I can stay in this relationship when your mind clearly prioritises your track team over me." You felt his head shake in your hands.
I'm going to guess that this is now some form of the "I accidentally reported your account" Scam, since why else would someone come into my DM's, on THIS account, saying "I'm so sorry about what happened to you."
I.. I share info on scams my guy... not sad personal stories..?
They also have stolen artwork on their page, as if the reddit logo didn't give it away lol. "#my art" my ass. So who knows maybe it's an art commission scammer.
Hey everyone! So there’s this thing going on where scammers are joining big discord servers and scraping all the usernames in it before leaving. They then start to send friend requests to every username they find with the intent to try and scam whoever it is. These accounts will have no servers in common or no friends in common and may be relatively new. I’ve also heard these accounts may impersonate artists so please be careful!
I'm in several youtuber discords (NTTS and Vinesauce) so I'm going to guess that this person joined one of those, grabbed my name, then left.
As a general rule of thumb: Any real artist will not go about approaching clients offering commissions. You approach them.
If someone adds you as a friend and randomly offers you a commission, tells you they're a 'game dev' and to try a free game, or anything unwarrented, that's 100% a scam.
Be smart, be safe, trust your gut and don't click on any links for anything "free".
Ever mentioned in a post that you’re looking for artists to commission and suddenly everyone’s in your DMs saying they can draw anything you like including comics? Sadly those accounts tend to be people stealing art, using Generative AI without disclosing it, or even passing off traced art as their own claiming the client wanted that specific pose. These accounts also target fanfic writers so beware! Never trust anyone who randomly DMs you trying to pressure you into a commission and won’t take no for an answer.
I also do commissions by the way. If you repost this on a funny meme blog for monetary gain later on you better pay me.
When these accounts DM you their sole purpose is to make you commission them on the spot as they immediately act like you’re going to commission immediately. No legit artist will ever DM you over a post where you just mention possibly commissioning someone but also don’t ask anyone to DM you if they are open for commissions. I’ve never done it myself and it seems rude to cold call people who use specific phrases.
Actual artists who draw things themselves be it digitally or traditionally are free to promote themselves in this post as I promoted myself.
But if you use Generative AI in the art process please disclose it so anyone who doesn’t want that can avoid you. I would also suggest not being an art thief and not someone who traces other people’s art for commissions.
pixie hollow rewritten is a new project that has officially revived the game into a playable state. you can create your fairy, play most of the mini games, shop for clothes/hairstyles, chat and explore the full map as it was in the original game.
Hey everyone! Before there’s mass panic over this, people can now see what posts you’re commented on when viewing your blog. You can toggle this to private but I haven’t seen a specific switch so it may be based on blog visibility? Either way keep in mind posts are public and so is anything you say.
Basically it just shows posts you commented on and what you commented with.
Saying this before anyone starts making angry posts to get attention and cause panic.
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Update! You can toggle these by the replies tab in settings per account! It’s listed as ‘share comments’.
If you’re looking for artists to commission just look in the commission tag for better luck! Unfortunately making posts about looking for artists to commission art from generally leads to instant DMs from accounts tracing Gen-AI. If you’re lucky you’ll get comments from real artists but the scammers may do that as well! Don’t pay people who barge into your DMs and pressure you to commission them on the spot. It’s worse when they try this on actual artists who don’t do that.
so the "MrBeast voucher reward thing" scam made it to Discord at some point (not sure when, today was my first time seeing any case of it specifically on Discord)
learned about this from someone in a server I own DMing me and showing me screenshots of a friend of theirs sending them the scam after getting their account hacked (thankfully there is good news for that case though, which is that their friend managed to regain access to their account)
Thank goodness your friend got your account back!
Wouldn't be surprised if that MrBeast Voucher reward scam enters tumblr later on, so keep an eye out
Always remember: anyone who contacts you or suddenly posts in a server (especially spamming channels) sharing a link to something 'free' such as nitro or gift cards, or even if they randomly decide to send you a invite link to a discord you are unfamiliar with likely means they're hacked.
This actually just happened the other day to me with a friend I hadn't spoken to in YEARS:
They sent it to their entire friends list as well. Upon joining it they likely would have tried to get me to 'verify' my account by clicking some prompts via a bot which- if you didn't now- CAN lead to your login tokens and such being stolen!
If you need a good place to learn about Discord scams and such, NTTS (No Text To Speech) is a good youtube channel for that. :) He covers a wide variety of topics too!
Title: I Infiltrated Discord’s Biggest Scam…
Creator: No Text to Speech
CW: 18+ servers/themes mentioned.
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I'm sharing this video today because I had reblogged a post by @ai-art-thieves two weeks ago and the comment I had left on that post where my own friend had gotten hacked and shared a link was likely from this same community of scammers!
Please stay safe on Discord (for those who use it), and remember that anyone, even your friends, who suddenly starts sending you random links to websites or groups, likely has malicious intentions in mind.
And if a website or app tells you to 'verify' your account by clicking a button, entering your information or going to a random website off of where you're currently at right now? That's likely 100% a scam too.
Bee safe, and think before you click that link. <3
Eyy new info dropped on the Avoiding Scammers - tumblr help page!
Remember: Nobody paid money to sign up and join [tumblr], so you will never have to pay money to 'verify' or 'fix' your account.
Anyone telling you to go to a website that is not 'tumblr dot com' aka where you are now, and any website asking for money and/or personal information or prompts you to log in with your tumblr info, is 100% going to scam you.
Me: "Damn people are REALLY BAD at knowing when to tag their eyestrain art/images...either that or they just don't care about photosenitive epileptic people like me. I feel really sad now."
Person: "But Allison, what if they just don't know or understand what qualifies as eyestrain and what doesn't?"
Me: "You know what? That could be a factor...While it is always better to be safe rather than sorry (so YES people should always tag eyestrain even if they're unsure if it "counts" or not) maybe you've got a point?"
Anyways! HERE'S YOUR HANDY GUIDE TO WHAT CAN COUNT AS EYESTRAIN! I'm pulling this straight from the Artfight rules page about what needs to be labeled and filtered as eyestrain because it's VERY helpful and VERY accurate! I also know not everybody has an AF account and might not always have access to this handy guide, and this is an important resource; That's why I'm sharing it here! (under the cut)
PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY!!! THIS IS ABOUT THE HEALTH AND SAFETY OF OTHERS!!!
Full eyestrain AF page link
"But Allison! How were you able to screenshot that example if you're so sensitive to eyestrain?"
I dimmed the HELL out of my computer screen and looked away while taking the screenshot and did the same when putting it into this post, that's how lol. BUT YEAH ANYWAYS!!! Once again:
PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY!!! THIS IS ABOUT THE HEALTH AND SAFETY OF OTHERS!!!
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