Welp...

30 year old pleb

[tastefullyoffensive]

28 Nostalgic Posts That Will Unlock Forgotten Memories (April 22, 2025)

[queerly-indifferent]

I wanna scream. I want to cry out into the void. "Why am I not enough?" I've worked my ass off to seem "normal." I've accomplished milestones well before I was supposed to. I am graduating with my fucking Master's degree, yet you can't even show for that. Fuck what more do I have to do?! I answer your call at 3am. I defend you and do whatever I can for you. All I ask is that you are there the day I celebrate something big in my life. Never mind, you didn't see me in the hospital when I could've died from a tumor, never mind you bailed on a high school graduation or a college one... but this one you promised. And I falsely had hope.

[queerly-indifferent]

1 year. 1 year since I left my "home" and created another. Wow. Just wow. Never thought I'd be here, but thankful I am.

[falseknees]

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[ruinedchildhood]

[ultrafacts]

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[da-boy-o-kultur]

You don’t wanna look like a bear around bees.

[idratherhavefreedom]

[ultrafacts]

[whatsyourversion]

[queerly-indifferent]

I dont know what to say so I'll write it. My brain constantly is a mess. I don't know what went wrong. I don't know where the in love stopped. Maybe the tumor? I don't honestly know. All I do know is that I was in love. I would've gave up everything I had. Yet that was not needed. I know you are strong. I know you did not need me. I just liked feeling wanted. I wanted forever. Now that I am no longer wanted, I will continue the fight. I will find where I am wanted. I will find forever. I owe that much to myself at least

[queerly-indifferent]

For some reason it hit me hard today. I don't know if everything just caught up to me or what, but oh boy.

I've been told several times over and over that I'm so strong and that I should look at everything I have been through. That is a damn, bold face lie. Because everything hit me today. Every single thing that I have been through in my life, just hit me like a freight train out of nowhere. And no I don't need to look at everything I've been through. That shit was and is still very hard to realize and wrap my head around. So yea I made it through hard stuff. When it comes down to it, you have two options. 1. Go through it. 2. Or don't. Yea I'm "soo strong" because I didn't have an option but go through it. What people really want to say when they find out everything I have been through is, "damn that sucks I would hate to have to go through that." Instead, what comes out of their mouth is "you are so strong." Oh, so I'm strong for not saying I don't want to do this and giving up? Really? What choice did I have? What choice did I have when I cried and begged for my dad not to leave on deployments growing up or knowing he would miss big moments in my life. What choice did I have when I was told I had a brain tumor and that if it wasn't taken out I would die? What choice? I had bills, a wife, cats, a home, a family. What choice did I have to not go through stuff huh? My wife was unhappy, so what choice did I have when divorce was brought up? Huh? The inevitable leaves you with no choice! I am not strong for those things. I am just the unfortunate soul who had to live through everything. I had no choice but to just keep trudging through the mess. That's not strong that is survival.

[karagin22]

[edward-blake-unknown-knight]

[2urban2fantasy-deactivated20241]

Shut up. That’s hilarious. I hope each and every cop involved has to personally give him $5000

[medievalthymes]

the council will decide your fate

[gaycatdad]

death penoty :3c

[queerly-indifferent]

No matter where we go or what we do I'll always wonder. I'll wonder what changed. Why I could no longer make you happy like before. I wanted to grow and change with you. As you found out new things about yourself, I wanted to discover them with you, not without you or watching from the sidelines. But life has a funny way of shaking things up. So I'll just watch and cheer you on from the sidelines. Who knows, maybe our paths will cross again one day and I can make you happy and laugh that carefree smile like I use to.

[poems-and-word]

Poems & Words

[symbolizing-deactivated20130818]

[liskindol]

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[queerly-indifferent]

I walked into the kitchen and gave you the good morning kiss you always patiently waited for. Then I started petting your soft fur. I always loved your winter coat, it showed off your stripes. I was telling our visitors how handsome you were and I watched you sitting there so stoic. Then, I woke up. I woke up and the hole you left in my heart ripped open all over again. I miss you so much. You were my smile for the lonely weekends. You may not have been attached to me like you were with your mom, but you brought me so much joy. I still chose you. From the moment I sat on the floor of the shelter and I was petting you through the kennel door, I chose you. I miss waking up to find all of the kitchen towels in the middle of the floor from your late night "hunting." I miss the head bumps you use to give me everytime your mom walked out the door. I knew you were missing her, and so was I, it was our special ritual. You don't know how much those meant to me. I pray I never forget those memories.