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welcome to my brain, but curated

asks and dms are open <3

soft nsfw sideblog - @delecate-petals

not so soft nsfw slideblog - @petals-afterdark

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spent the night annotating my favorite book to send to one of my best friends <3

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where’s my femme to do matchy matchy shit with?

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i know this isn’t what i normally use my blog for but i just binged every year after and none of my friends have finished yet and i need to put my thoughts somewhere sooooo these are all the changes from the book that i have opinions about

sam and percy not hanging out the first night and getting ice cream and getting drunk

sam not dumping taylor immediately

delilah in the present timeline

charlie and delilah

no “those summer boys did an exceptional job of growing up”

charlie not kissing percy in truth or dare

no sleepover kiss

sam not collecting horror movies

sam not proposing to percy

no “you’re still the most beautiful woman i’ve ever known”

sam not knowing → no “i forgave you years ago”

sam not seeing percy’s panic attack

sue leaving the tavern to percy

no friendship bracelet engagement ring

there were so many moments from the book that did make the cut (anatomy scene, swearing on bracelets, ice cream sharing, young blood), or at least something similar, and carley’s cameo plus the banana boat picture had me fangirling like these were my close personal friends hehe, charlie florek is one of my all time favorite book boyfriends and i really really hope we get to see his and alice’s story play out on screen!!!!!

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my adrenaline is so high right now because i just binged a like 6 1/2 hr tv series based on one of my favorite books and the second book in the series is quite possibly my favorite book of all time and i want to reread the whole thing tonight so badly because getting to see one of the main characters introduced on my screen and all of the foreshadowing and easter eggs just make my heart so so full but i can’t because i have another 14hr work day tomorrow so i need to sleep :((

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i’m not made to work 14hr days😭😭😭 i’m literally just a girl😭😭😭

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i had such a cutie weekend!! i celebrated my birthday with some friends and listened to live music in the park and got gelato and went to the farmers market and got matcha, it was so so so sweet and fun and such a lovely summer weekend☺️🩷

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i’m so so sick and work is so busy i can’t take time off and my second job is a mess and my birthday is this weekend and i’m scared i’m gonna be sick for it which would suck but it’s not like i had any plans anyway which also sucks ughhhhh i just want a hug

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i just reread my favorite book in one sitting (like 4 1/2 hours ish?) so whatever that says about my current mental state

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the guy i’ve been talking to for like a month and a half just updated his dating app profile so now i’m convinced he doesn’t like me and i can’t stop sobbing and being an anxious nauseous mess which is super chill and cool of me

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i’m truly the most insecure person i know it’s so embarrassing

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i think i’ll probably always hate myself more than anyone could ever love me

and maybe that’s why no one ever really has

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my anxiety has been distracting more and more of my world lately, it’s so embarrassing. even a stupid todo list was enough to make me cry at work today. hell i’ve been crying for the last hour and a half because a scene in a show of a girl getting rpd and no one believing her her junior year of high school reminded me of my junior year when my ex rpd me and my best friend at the time helped him make me look like i was lying when i finally came forward months later. or how the song that played two scenes later in the same show reminded me of my ex who i ended things with 4 months ago now but i still cry every time i think about him being happy with someone new. or how a few scenes after that when the girl breaks down to her best friend and i started sobbing even harder because why the fuck does mine have to live thousands of miles away. or how every day so far this year i’m reminded that we’re one day closer to ten years since i last saw one of my close friends, how every day is a different milestone of some last, ten years since i heard her laugh, saw her smile, pissed her off. i thought i would finally feel like myself, living so far from the scene of all the crimes, that being so far from my family would make me feel comfortable and confident enough to be my true self, but i still hide in corners of the internet, i’ve still told hardly anyone that i’m bi. i live in s state ive dreamed of returning to for well over a decade with a job i worked my ass off for the last six years to get, but i still feel so anxious and overwhelmed and scared. i’ve never felt so alone.

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about to go quiet for a few weeks, life is getting busy again. kisses to my friends & mutuals, chat soon <3

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[angel3479]

I don’t remember most of my life.

It’s like big chunks are missing from my memories

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at the end of the day i’m just a girl who tells my teddy bear i love him before bed