back ...
as if i never left.
ready to write regularly and ruthlessly - i am brimming with ideas.
i was paralyzed before, unable to articulate that which i felt was too immense -- too potent, too deep. i was getting way too wrapped up in... in the words and in their potential affect and in my own head. mom would say “why don’t you just write ... maybe like an hour a day ... just at your computer ... get all your ideas out”. she saved me from the fate she’d declared to herself -- projecting the hope that i/she/we could truly step into the fullness, the potency, the immenseness of our thoughts, and our ideas, and our being. I love my Mom.
yesterday was mother’s day. i woke up drawn to read OSHO, Emotional Wellness. he says: for nine months at the dawn of our lives all we know is our mother’s womb. safe, nurturing, warm; we trust that we will be fed, day in and day out. knowing nothing of tomorrow -- or yesterday -- only now. we grow and eventually, it is time to be born into the world. and we cry (every child cries. i didn’t - but that is a realization that deserves its own post), and we resist. we are pocked and prodded and examined -- and we continue to be. personalities, responsibilities, expectations are placed on us -- and still, we continue to resist on some deep level. we have not seen the world, the entire universe, as an extension of our mother’s womb. in truth, we can relax. we can enjoy. we can trust in blissful surrender, that we will be provided for.
this internal peace is ours to reclaim. this relaxed nature of the true state of affairs. not suffering. we need not suffer (aka slaves to the remote control of our brain); we need to wake up to our mastery - mastership of self -- in total and complete tandem with the rest of the universe. surrendering, relaxing. that is the mastership; the art. then all of life becomes beautiful, a dance, a breath -- ART.
i think of this as a remembering. a deep-seated knowledge we recall.
i’m exploring this with magdalena at TA. the YIN. the innate connection to the womb; the remembering, the trusting, the bliss. in part, the exploration is about how we can experience and engage with this in new ways ... not just a lecture or a panel, but an experiential conversation. there is so much to UNEARTH!
so grateful and SO excited to live in this body with this brain and this heart and this soul, incarnated infinite times over, each in deeper preparation! always preparing; yet always prepared. i love the dichotomy. i comfortable in all weights, all scales. happy, thank you, more PLEASE xx
