goodbye horses

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feeling like work is a weird tether to life. i don't mind cleaning and sweeping, i don't mind being there alone. i don't really want to leave. i like to park the work truck over a hill and look at fields.

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i was undepressed for a while, but it came back a million times stronger and ive been crying all day thinking about killing myself

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nightmare happening at my house for some reason. like horrific atrocities and nobody is talking to me???

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i need to fuck

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lowkey somebody phrased locking in as being vain/self love and im tryinnngg to tap into that because i've hated myself forever and im still a chud like

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when i get my dream bod and dream tan i betterrrrrr not be suicidal anymore like. #letmelockinpleasebeforeikillmyself

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every day is like "holy shit" for me

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too old to be thinking abt being a guy

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gooning before work................. someone set me free

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i need to fuck. i need to be at a club. like i cannot go on like this i am actually dying

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i'm killing myself over and over and over and over again

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i wanna fall asleep on the bathroom floor

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i hate my life so much i know what those people who hate everyone feel like

[snoozingbear]

david wojnarowicz | close to the knives: a memoir of disintegration

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i just know driving a long empty road with no one for miles and flipping would feel good. bird food

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it feels like the world is cloth around my brain. like the most incessant thing

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that time of day where i get depressive