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To a stranger, it’s just a letter with no coherent context, or meaning. It’s just a singular, white letter, with a teal coloured background, and looks wacky, boring, or overly common.

It’s pretty much nothing to look at, you know?

But for me it’s a bit different. Why should I have a profile picture that’ll tell others how to think about me? In a way, it shouldn’t, but that’s the first characteristic people will judge especially when they first see your account upon social media. I would say this would give some people to have a more weirder perspective on me, as its jsut a letter, and overall a weird pick.

The true reasoning is because the accounts I see with these kinds of profiles. They’re the ones with beautiful poetry that aren’t acknowledged enough, or known enough. Or art that isn’t seen through, and is something someone just glances at, and says, “oh?”

It’s not solely for aesthetics. I want that to be shown to others, aesthetics in a way means nothing. I want something that has meaning to at least me, rather than some random photo of a character i barely know, or has horrible reputation/representation within a community/fandom/etc ..

I don’t really know how to summarize this , but that’s kinda why i chose it . And obviously I’m not saying I’d pick something hideous, because I do find the colours elegant and exquisite on my profile picture.

In modern days, people judge things so harshly , you know? I kinda wanna challenge it , (another reason why this is my chosen profile picture.) simply a profile shouldn’t determine who I am, if I’m boring, sweet, or rude. This profile is vague. And that’s where people can judge, because it looks weird, has “no” personality or meaning. The thing is, art shouldn’t just be based off of physical looks. It’s the meaning behind it, the symbols, representation, and i feel like we shouldn’t judge based on looks. I might be getting off track and stuff i havent been taking my adhd medication.

Idk my mind is really weird i like to challenge modern day expectations and standards

Not in a weird problematic way, but in ways of dying my hair green and purple , bleaching my hair, shaving s bit of my eyebrows, going back into older trends and less common ones that’ll make me look “weird”

At the end of the day, appearances most definitely do matter, but if they’re included in a harmless and inoffensive manner, why should it matter if it will turn to discrimination and hate speech, harassment?

How to feel better

I don’t know why, but I’ve had some mysterious awakening in me, and I’d like to say its because of my ELA class. (English Language Arts)

Before this year, semester even, I never really had the curiosity of other people, like sure, I did think ever so often, “what ever leads someone to do this?” When I see extreme, negative/unfair/over all desensitizing, violent situations, but now, I want to find (basically) the motive of why people do things.

It’s hard to exactly pinpoint where I’m trying to go at, since I know where I’m thinking, but I can’t exactly come up with the words. Similar enough to a dead end, but not exactly a dead end.

For example, it can range from extreme situations to overall anything illegal, to something that is seen as morally “wrong”.

I feel like my thoughts would make me get (publicly) attacked, and the mere thought of that slightly overwhelms me, but I don’t want to keep quiet either. What happened to freedom of speech and having your own opinions anyway? I think I’m online too much, because honestly? Nearly everyone are intense on there.

It gets pretty annoying when someone tries to make you share the same belief as them. It’s just not how it works !!

I really want to learn about societal structures, and a lot more terms, especially when it comes to modern day. Because I feel like I’m not educated enough, and I don’t know where to end with my words, my thought process is still being thought upon if that makes any sense at all.

And i have no clue why i gained this magical wisdom, my guesses are that I’m just more aware of situations around me, and I’m not the person to shame, or intentionally hurt others, cause to an extent I understand a lot of sides.

I don’t feel anger, I don’t exactly feel sadness, or scared, so maybe that’s why I’m more “composed” and willing to learn other peoples mindsets and experiences no matter how problematic they are or even how good they are.

Different people interest me because honestly, I don’t understand them! (And usually, its pretty much everybody i see. Maybe I’m a bit set back or way too careless/care free.)

I have no clue what im trying to get to, so take this as you will. I doubt nobody will see this. I post on here usually to let out my thoughts since I know none of my friends would really care to hear me out on this, and cause they’re too biased and opinionated. And hey, theres nothing wrong with that, but it makes me feel little and below, and I guess just not really right.

It could be just me thinking too, because honestly? None of my friends I have in real life are close to me to an emotional kind of level. Neither online. Im sure i can find someone, but I have no energy at all, and I do worry about things quite a bit.

Okay, yap out! Have a great day to whoever sees this. <3

Is it just me or do i really dislike categorization and labels towards certain things? Like, it makes you feel like you HAVE to fit in at least one of those because apparently the majority of other people do, but then you don’t fit all the criteria, and you just feel left out, stuck, not belonging anywhere.

Not to mention, it feels like you’re a different person, like hey, that’s not me. That’s someone else! I just want to be me. Is that too much to ask for?

Like yeah, structure is great in communities, it keeps it organized, easier to keep track of things, but to a point it feels pretty constricting. Don’t you think depending on the situation it can cause stereotypes and add on confusion?

How can it add stereotypes? What if we categorize a certain type of personality or type of person as just angry, sad, overall really negative and upset. That just sets up expectations that they’re always like that, and that everyone is the same way when they’re under that category.

But don’t you think theres so much more to it? I don’t think the human mind/personalities/etc can easily just be put into 7 summed up-categorized groups, thus stereotypes, it’s something in depth, deep. Its biology, psychology, health, its everything you could probably think of. Maybe it’s something that’ll never be obtained, because in reality, it’s just impossible to know everything about the universe.

I mean think about it, our bodies and minds have been growing for who knows how much years? Maybe it’s something that can be over 100 pages long, or even longer than a textbook. I’m not exactly educated on this, but it’s a lot of thoughts that occur to me.

Why are people even obsessed with organizing others? Creating terms for others, rules, is it about control? Maybe not just about control, because it’s obviously situational going through an extreme scale to a much smaller scale.

#psychology #biology #human mind #pls help #questions

I saw something saying, “how did humans ever come moral creatures?”

But is humanity truly moral when we can easily turn our backs amongst another? What if it’s something more extreme than it really is? Like some weird parallel to, leaving ur friends, but in a different era itd be smth atone to attacking them?

Im confused why is everyone the way they are. How did we get so violent? Is a big factor something involving modern day technology? Or is it a “coincidence” that we had to start locking up our schools, locking our lockers, learn safety tips, be more careful and aware of ur surroundings sometime after the 90’s or so?

Don’t get me wrong, there is times where there were crimes, and theres towns and cities definitely more dangerous than others, but the huge spike is concerning to say the least. Theres alot i can talk abt but indont wanna im too tired.

When people think of something bad, or good, why do they always think of something extreme or “exaggerated”?

For example, you think of harassment. Many people think constant stalking, physical abuse, something visible and direct. Is it because it’s something you see more directly, something out of place?

Thats not really my question, though. People can acknowledge it, but you see that a lot of people typically think of the more intense situations first, even though they can be way more less likely than indirect(?) harassment.

Is it because indirect harassment is something that’s harder to spot, something harder to understand? Or is it because of how they were taught? Ex. The visible/clear signs, what they were taught firsy, etc.

Is it smth rather more complex and complicated? Or is it just something its hard to be confident with since it’s a somewhat tricky topic to learn abt within harassment, abuse, etcetc.

I just kinda noticed it. Whenever we’d do this class activity, people would always mention extreme situations.

Theres this thing in class we’d do, it’d be where u go to a corner that says mildly agree, strongly agree, mildly disagree, and strongly disagree. The teacher would put up a topic up on the screen, something like, “it’s good to judge by appearance,” smth like that right? And i remember this girl saying, “well, if he’s a homeless man with a gun that threatens to k-ll people….” Well obviously nobody would go near him … AND dont get me wrong im not saying anyones stupid or anything, i just noticed throughout the entire debate session, and other topics, people always thought something extreme.

But why? It kinda confuses me and i kinda wanna see how others think ! Could other reasons be because people normally see these types of less extreme situations happen a lot?

Maybe im overlooking it but i wanna know the more in depth reasonin😞😞

#strangequestions #question #help #questionhelp #answers???

ryhmus

A modest pixel doodle pile, it's been a while since I did one of these

it includes;

Mermaid Sunny from @labbeon

ROWAN next to another version of Rowan

FACECLUSTER sitting (head empty)

Isabeau and Hero

A giant centipede that I've made a few times before, I think it's my favorite.

KEL running with Bonnie (putting your arms back behind yourself when you run has been proven to make you 'air-no-no-mic' according to them. In other words, faster)

Alternate; CRANIAL CRAWLER standalone