CMDR. RAFFI MUSIKER

maybe . . . maybe this isn't half-bad to hang out with.

[raffimusikr]

RAFFIMUSIKR.    an independent roleplay blog for  RAFFI MUSIKER  from star trek picard.  written by  gin ( she/her - 24 y/o - germany ).

NOTE: this is a sideblog, i will follow from alyafae.

important links.    —   info. —   memes. —   headcanon. —   open starters. (tbd)

michelle hurd called me crazy talented.

[raffimusikr]

raffi’s back on @alyafae

[edenmemes]

arcane starters

❝ i’m going. are you coming with me or not? ❞ ❝ you see this look on my face? this will always mean it’s time to shut up. ❞ ❝ you gonna get that door open any time soon? ❞ ❝ yeah, well, can’t escape the past. right? ❞ ❝ nothing feels impossible when i’m with you. ❞ ❝ if you want to last in this world, you must learn to be both a fox and a wolf. ❞ ❝ despite it all…i can tell you have a good heart. ❞ ❝ there’s quite a lot about me you don’t know. ❞ ❝ what matters is that we’re together. ❞ ❝ i will give you the world, if you prove you can take it. ❞ ❝ you don’t seem to grasp how serious this is. ❞ ❝ i’ve seen this power in the wrong hands. it corrupts, consumes, lays waste to civilizations. ❞ ❝ when did you get so comfortable living in someone else’s shadow? ❞ ❝ my back is to the world that was smiling when i turned. ❞ ❝ real power doesn’t come to those who were born strongest, or fastest, or smartest. it comes to those who will do anything to achieve it. ❞ ❝ we can’t change what fate has in store for us, but we don’t have to face it alone. ❞ ❝ we’ve all had bad days. but we learn. and we stick together. ❞ ❝ you carry your chin so high, you fail to see the opportunity below. ❞ ❝ oh, the misery. everybody wants to be my enemy. ❞ ❝ listen, i’m sorry for disappearing last night. ❞ ❝ i never thought i’d see you again. ❞ ❝ you weren’t always the peacekeeper, were you? ❞ ❝ when people look up to you, you don’t get to be selfish. ❞ ❝ we are definitely not supposed to be here. ❞ ❝ i couldn’t have done it without you. ❞ ❝ you mistake arrogance for bravery. ❞ ❝ you’re gonna have to lay low for a bit, understand? ❞ ❝ what was that? what the hell happened back there? ❞ ❝ we’re almost there. ❞ ❝ i know you have your reservations about me, but this only works if we can trust each other. ❞ ❝ i expect better from you than excuses. ❞ ❝ go crawl back into whatever hole you came out of. ❞ ❝ there’s this thing…in your head, and it’s raging. ❞ ❝ everyone makes mistakes, right? what’s important is that we don’t repeat them. ❞ ❝ there’s a monster inside all of us. ❞ ❝ you have to believe me. i didn’t do this. ❞ ❝ a little danger is worth the risk, don’t you think? ❞ ❝ tell me your nightmares and fantasies. ❞ ❝ all i see is a boy meddling with things he doesn’t understand. ❞ ❝ one day…this city’s gonna respect us. ❞ ❝ i ruined everything. i always do. ❞ ❝ i feel like you and i get off on the wrong arm. ❞ ❝ i can hear the sound of our hearts beat. ❞ ❝ take a breath. you can do this. ❞ ❝ you don’t know war. i do. ❞ ❝ there must be something else we can do. some other way. we’ll make a new plan. ❞ ❝ you got a good heart.    don’t ever lose it, no matter how the world tries to break you. ❞ ❝ nobody wins in war. ❞ ❝ i think it’s time to say goodbye. ❞ ❝ what makes you different makes you strong. always remember that. ❞ ❝ is that why you came? to insult me? ❞ ❝ this question lingers before you: have you had enough? ❞ ❝ magic is far too dangerous in the wrong hands. ❞ ❝ i pray our love will always stay. ❞ ❝ how did you get in? there’s guards everywhere. ❞ ❝ i’m just…not that man anymore. ❞ ❝ the only way to defeat a superior enemy is to stop at nothing. to become what they fear. ❞ ❝ i trusted you. and you betrayed me. ❞ ❝ i want to fight. i can help. ❞ ❝ you did what you had to do to survive. ❞ ❝ i need to know that i can rely on you. ❞ ❝ you’ll get people killed. for what? pride? ❞ ❝ i’m proud of you. always have been. ❞ ❝ your problem is never knowing when to shut up. ❞ ❝ you’re the one who always says we have to earn our place in this world. ❞ ❝ did you even stop to think about what could have happened to you? ❞ ❝ i suppose that concludes our business, then. ❞ ❝ when you’re going to change the world, don’t ask for permission. ❞ ❝ we’re not gonna be caught. we’ll be in and out before anyone notices. ❞ ❝ if you’re done beating yourself up, let’s go home. ❞ ❝ listen, i don’t want any trouble, okay? ❞ ❝ stop talking to me like i’m a child. ❞ ❝ i thought we could walk together. ❞ ❝ in what mad world would i trust someone like you? ❞ ❝ you’re all i have left. i can’t lose you. ❞ ❝ fear haunts us all. ❞ ❝ you know what your problem is? you expect everyone to give you what you want. ❞ ❝ i just…i just want her to be safe. ❞ ❝ we’ve accomplished a lot together. and there is more yet to achieve. ❞ ❝ you never did know when to walk away. ❞ ❝ that pain that makes it feel like it’ll eat you from the inside out, can either break you or forge you into something greater. ❞ ❝ it’s a sad truth that those who burn brightest often burn fastest. ❞ ❝ we’re almost there. ❞ ❝ sometimes death is a mercy. ❞ ❝ do you ever say ‘thank you’? ❞ ❝ loneliness is often the byproduct of a gifted mind. ❞ ❝ you’re praying for my fall. ❞ ❝ every time i think you can’t get dumber, you dig a new low. ❞ ❝ i don’t even know your name. ❞ ❝ no monster’s gonna get you when i’m here. ❞ ❝ that place looks like it has bodies in the basement. ❞ ❝ you failed. don’t disappoint me again. ❞ ❝ i know it sounds impossible, but when have we ever let that stop us? ❞ ❝ why? why would you risk this? ❞ ❝ take your place at my side. it’s where you belong. ❞ ❝ get ahold of yourself. i taught you better than that. ❞ ❝ you’re just a little man in a little hole the world forgot to bury. ❞ ❝ if dangerous ideas didn’t excite the imagination, we would never wander astray. ❞ ❝ it’s all right. at least you’re okay. ❞ ❝ i wish i could say it gets easier, but i’d be lying. ❞ ❝ today’s screw-up will set us back weeks. ❞ ❝ don’t be so concerned. i’m about to make your day. ❞ ❝ you’re stronger than you think. ❞ ❝ i’ve seen your face around here. ❞ ❝ in the pursuit of greatness, we failed to do good. ❞ ❝ i would set the world ablaze to protect our family. ❞ ❝ i have to get home. it isn’t safe for me here. ❞

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okay, a new starter call bc half of the ppl on the other one have archived. give this a like (multis specify) and i’ll throw something your way. alternatively feel free to send a meme.

[raffimusikr]

“ bishop, you’re five minutes late. ”    raffi puts on a serious tone, a very convincing act. she has no doubt kate will realize that she’s not at all mad about it, rather very amused. apparently, some things never change.    “ did you at least bring some coffee? ”     /     @pizzalegacy​

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“ see, this is why i like working with you. you get it. ”    raffi points at kira, nodding approvingly.    “ why don’t we do this more often? ”    the moment the question leaves her mouth, she already knows the answer and closes her eyes for a moment, shaking her head.    “ nevermind, i know. ”     /     @colnerys​

[raffimusikr]

me: is tired saffi: exists me: shit, keeps writing

[raffimusikr]

some nights, raffi has a very light sleep, other night nothing could ever wake her up. it depends on many different factors, far too many for her to list, although she has thought about writing them all down before. maybe one day she will actually sit down and do it, just for herself to keep track of it. other nights, the ex-spy simply cannot find sleep at all and usually she spends these nights reading ( they used to involve drinking but since she is trying to stay sober that is not an option ); ever since she started spending her night with seven ( @cptnseven​ ) , sleepless nights would be spent reading to the blonde until she fell asleep. 

usually, once seven fell asleep, raffi would read for a few more minutes before putting the book aside and just watch her for a while. it always makes her heart skip a beat to see how calm and relaxed she could look in her sleep; more so to know that raffi’s presence was helping. moments like these it is so easy to fall even more for the other woman, and she knows she’s not able to put it into words just yet. maybe one day. for now, this is enough. 

for an hour or so, raffi just lays next to her, content with the silence and faint light of the bedside lamp. but as soon as she realizes that sleep simply doesn’t get to her, she picks up her book again, reading the familiar words without paying too much attention. it’s not like she doesn’t know the book by heart already, there’s not a single book in her home that she hasn’t read multiple times; most of them show it, too. beside her, seven is quiet and raffi is glad. she’s learned there’s little movement when seven’s concerned ( unless it was a bad night ) and by now she has gotten very used to it.

that is exactly why raffi is fully focussed on seven when she begins to move ever so slightly. it starts with a little shuffling around and raffi thinks she’s just looking for a more comfortable position. when she shuffling doesn’t stop, however, she puts the book aside and lifts the arm closest to seven, preventing her from bumping into it as she moves closer to throw an arm over her middle and rest her head on her chest. it doesn’t take very long and soon enough seven’s fully curled up against raffi, effectively using her as a pillow. 

when she thought she couldn’t love her anymore, things like that happen.

the brunette is careful as she brushes a few strands out of the blonde’s face, cupping her cheek for a moment and just enjoying the feeling of their bodies being so close. if this is what she gets for a sleepless night, she never wants to sleep again. although that might just be a bit dramatic. carefully, she shuffles down a bit, getting more comfortable before wraping her own arm around the sleeping form of her girlfriend ( oh, she will never grow tired of that word ). book set aside, she turns off the lamp, welcoming the darkness like an old friend. 

they are close enough for her to see the very features of seven’s face; calm, relaxed, and she could have sworn she saw a smile. this is it, she thinks, this is how i want to fall asleep every night for the rest of my life. and maybe one day she’s brave enough to tell seven.

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surprise crosses her features, wondering if she has heard her right just now. both of them are stubborn, too stubborn for their own good. admitting the other is right almost feels like a very intimate thing between the two of them, something raffi values. when her features begin to soften again, she relaxes a little more, and she doesn’t even think about what they have been arguing anymore.

“ maybe you’re right, ”    seven ( @cptnseven​ ) had said and raffi knows the words will ring in her ears a little longer. slowly, raffi reaches for the blonde’s hand, gently tugging as an invitation for her to move closer.    “ i am, ”    she says with as much confidence as she can muster. it is not that she is arrogant but she likes being right. she likes knowing that she’s not imagining things, making them up, having them only exist in her own mind. giving her hand a suqeeze, she waits for seven to look at her, if only for a moment, offering a small ( maybe even apologetic ) smile.

“ look, i know you don’t like it, but this will work out. ”    truth be told, raffi has several doubts of her own but for seven’s sake she pushes past them, believes that together they can make it work.    “ we both have been through worse. what could the 21st century possibly throw at us that we won’t be able to handle? hell, we’re both smart, we’re skilled, i just need you to trust me. ”    not for a second would she doubt that the other woman trusts her. neither of them might be a great team player but they sure as hell make a great team. maybe even because of it.    “ enough of this. how about we see what else tallinn’s got in her storage and make dinner. i’ll do just as you say. does that sound okay to you? ”

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a worn out book in her hands, raffi is completely immersed in one of her stories. it is different these days; in the past, she used these stories as an escape from reality, a whole new world where she could be someone completely else. she doesn’t need these escapes as much anymore; she’s happier, more balanced. the thought alone fills her with so much pride. an empty cup has been abandoned on the table in front of her, waiting to be either refilled or disposed. usually, it would stay there for a few more hours. but not today.

seven’s presence didn’t go unnotice ( she believes it is impossible for her to not know when she’s close ) and yet her voice makes her head go up so fast, it would be easy to mistake it for surprise. truthfully, part of it may just be that, surprise about the question, but more than anything it is delight.

“ how do you take your coffee? ”    seven ( @cptnseven​ ) repeats, probably thinking raffi didn’t hear her the first time. closing the book, she looks at her empty cup before looking back at the blonde.    “my coffee? dark and bitter — just like my broken soul. ”    the grin on her face should be enough to give away that she’s merely joking but she also knows that seven doesn’t always seem to understand her jokes so she quickly adds,    “ i’m kidding, a shot of milk and two cubes of sugar. ”

at that, she reaches for her cup, wrapping both hands around it as if there was any warmth left to soak in.    “ sometimes, if i’m feeling adventurous, i add a bit of caramel flavor. ”  tilting her head, she arches her brow.    “ are you planning to make me coffee? ”

[rp-meme-world]

random lyric starters! (3/∞) mix of fluff, angst and misc. change pronouns where needed!

❝ if you talk enough sense, you’ll lose your mind. ❞

❝ talk some sense to me. ❞

❝ i found love where it wasn’t supposed to be. ❞

❝ i missed you more than i thought i would. ❞

❝ i could hold you for a million years. ❞

❝ i know you haven’t made your mind up yet. ❞

❝ i would never do you wrong. ❞

❝ i could make your dreams come true. ❞

❝ there’s nothing that i wouldn’t do. ❞

❝ i know i’m meant for something else. ❞

❝ i gotta find myself but i don’t know how. ❞

❝ i saw a shooting star and thought of you. ❞

❝ if you were here, i’d sing to you. ❞

❝ everything leads back to you. ❞

❝ we should go to sleep now. ❞

❝ you should stay the night. ❞

❝ do you mind the cold? ❞

❝ are you comfortable? ❞

❝ i bet you’re gonna change your mind. ❞

❝ where are we? ❞

❝ what the hell is going on? ❞

❝ this can’t be happening. ❞

❝ they were here first. ❞

❝ of course you did. ❞

❝ i don’t believe you. ❞

❝ i can’t move forward. ❞

❝ i’m alone when i look in the mirror. ❞

❝ i close my eyes and you’re still here. ❞

❝ i’m going nowhere. ❞

❝ maybe i stayed too long. ❞

❝ there is nowhere i’d rather be. ❞

❝ it’s all a blur. ❞

❝ i know you’re expecting a less than sober call. ❞

❝ maybe you’re right. ❞

❝ i’m scared. ❞

❝ love me ‘til the day i die. ❞

❝ you made me believe you’re mine. ❞

❝ you used to call me baby, now you’re calling me by name. ❞

❝ takes one to know one. ❞

❝ you beat me at my own damn game. ❞

❝ i give, and i give, and i give, and you take. ❞

❝ i’m just a dead man walking. ❞

❝ you need it all of the time. ❞

❝ i need it all of the time. ❞

❝ all of our conversations end like it’s the last goodbye. ❞

❝ who’ve you been calling ‘baby’? ❞

❝ nobody could take my place. ❞

❝ when you’re looking at those strangers, i hope to god you see my face. ❞

[rosalie-starfall]

Seven 💖 Raffi -  Farewell

[raffimusikr]

you know what i love? i love the plants in raffi’s home. they aren’t just plants, they are friends, they are something she can take care of, something she can talk to, something she can put time and effort into and watch them grow and just feel like she’s doing something good. her plants give her a purpose. of course sneakleaf comes with an advantage for her, offering her an escape from reality she so despertaely needs. raffi and her plants are a beautiful co-dependence bc they need her to survive in the desert and in return they give her moments of calm and comfort and a purpose to keep going. 

[raffimusikr]

“ don’t tell me he asked you to check up on me. ”    it wouldn’t be surprising. in fact, it is exactly what she would expect. let other people take care of the problems, the great picard doesn’t have time for that. the thought is a bitter one and she refuses to be bitter about that man right now.    “ as you can see, i’m perfectly fine. no need for counselling. ”    it doesn’t take an empath to know that this is so far from the truth. raffi’s never been a subtle person; she doesn’t hide her emotions, she doesn’t hide her struggles, she is so openly human.  /  @aempathie​

[leneemusing]

morning after starters

“  last night was nice.  ” “  lets do this again some time.  ” “  i’ll leave my number.  ” “  i gotta go, sorry.  ” “  can’t you at least stay for breakfast?  ” “  i’ll make coffee—don’t go anywhere.  ” “  next time, maybe i’ll buy you dinner first.  ” “  if we do this again you better buy me dinner first.  ” “  i don’t think my legs work again yet.  ” “  i don’t wanna get up.  ” “  no don’t move, it’s too cold outside the covers.  ” “  there’s no way i can hide these marks…  ” “  this was probably a mistake.  ” “  this can’t happen again.  ” “  you always say that, and yet we wind up right back here.  ” “  are you watching me sleep?  ” “  you look cute all frazzled like this.  ” “  why are you looking at me like that?  ” “  keep kissing me like that and we’re gonna end up back in bed.  ” “  something wrong? ” “  i’d stay if i could, i promise.  ” “  so if i put my number in your phone, you actually gonna text me? ” “  i made breakfast.  ” “  how do you take your coffee?  ” “  fuck! i’m late—  ” “  did you turn the alarm off?  ” “  if you don’t turn that alarm off i’m gonna throw it out the window.  ” “  i can’t find my shirt.  ” “  babe, we slept in.  ” “  i know you’re awake.  ” “  i’ll stay.  ” “  why don’t you stay?  ” “  i like waking up with you.  ” “  i like having you here at night.  ” “  you know, if you moved in we wouldn’t keep having to say goodbye like this.  ” “  so when are we gonna actually go on a real date?  ” “  do i smell bacon?  ” “  you made pancakes?  ” “  come on, come back to bed.  ” “  you weren’t there when i woke up.  ” “  i thought you left.  ” “  do you want me to go?  ” “  just let me sleep for five more minutes.  ” “  you’re really beautiful/handsome. even if you drool.  ” “  you talk in your sleep, ya know.  ”  

ACTIONS:  1. for one muse to surprise the other with breakfast in bed 2. for our muses to go another round in the morning 3. for your muse to join mine in the shower while getting ready for the day 4. for one muse to stop the other from trying to sneak away 5. for one muse to invite the other to spend the rest of the day with them  6. for one muse to convince the other to stay in bed the rest of the day 7. for our muses to have sex in the kitchen instead of finishing breakfast 8. for our muses to spoon 9. for one muse to wake up with morning wood  10. for one muse to wake the other up with oral  11. for lazy morning sex  12. for one muse to wake the other because they’re having a nightmare  13. for one muse to distract the other from getting ready by kissing/groping them 14. for one muse to kick the other out of their home  15. for our muses to wake with no recollection of the night before  

[raffimusikr]

MAYBE  . . .    maybe this isn't  HALF-BAD  to hang out with.

independent  RAFFI  MUSIKER  of star trek: picard commanded by gin sideblog to alyafae

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[raffimusikr]

“ oh hell no ! ”    finger pointing at the unpleasantly familiar figure, raffi takes a few long steps towards him.    “ you can go right back to where you’ve come from, ”    she growls, knowing full well that it’s probably not as intimidating as she wants it to be. frustrated? absolutely. it is no secret that Q  ( @qknows​ )  is the very last person she wants to see right now. well, maybe not the last but certainly close enough.    “ what? couldn’t you find JL to annoy? don’t tell me i’m the next best option. ”