Rainbow Duck

Just another duck

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My First Love

This is the story of my first love. 

His name is Path Duck.

we were both in elementary, he was 4 grades above me. I have always been much more old mentally, and struggled getting friends because I was socially awkward (still am btw!) and Path had a bit learning difficulties, was a bit mentally younger and was bullied for being childish. He also struggled with getting friends. One day we met eachother, and we lived in the same neighborhood, like a couple of houses from eachother. I don’t remember how or when it happened,m but at sleepovers we grew closer, ended up kissing and other intimate things. I was in love, and he was the first. 

One day, my mother and I moved because she was pregnant (which will be the next story) and we needed a bigger space to live with the coming baby and her new boyfriend, so I lost contact with Path, and my mother seemed kinda relieved. I never understood why, but I will get to that.

I always thought about him and wanted to reconnect.

Years and years later as adults we kinda found eachother again. 

We had both changed drastically. I was more mature, gotten to know myself way better, gotten more feminine and comfortable with being a rainbow.

He on the other hand, had turned into a very stereotypical redneck. Misogynistic and homophobic (as I later lealized, he just hated everything feminine, and when he heard “gay” he automatically thought about femboys) AND he was very transphobic, did not at all recognize me being non-binary and thought it was weird.

But for some reason he didn’t want to lose contact with me again. I just think he was deeply in the closet from his homophobic and transphobic parents. He also had som extremely racist remarks which was the last straw for me. No matter where his issues came from, he was being extremely bigoted and hurtfull towards me, the entire LGBTQ+ community and POC. I blocked him.

The whole ordeal makes me kinda depressed, because he was not like that when we first met. But glad I found out.

This was also why my mother wasn’t really too concerned when we first lost contact, because she saw a lot of this, but couldn’t really separate us, but the move was her opportunity to let us part ways more “naturally”... Yeah, how’d you feel that worked out mom?

Anyways, thanks for reading!

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My estranged father

I think this needs a CW for alcoholism, so there it is.

In my previous post I mentioned that my father wasn’t around. Here’s the story:

When I was 2-3 my father started daydrinking. Not a lot, but enough to bother my mom. Came home drunk every night. He was never violent, but yeah, not great never the less...

At one point, his buddies carried him home. I was too young to remember this, but my mom got fed up, packed our things and left him.

This was a little urban area, too small to be called a town. Out in the country with a small population. Everyone knew who my father was, and his “little” problem. My mom wanted to move to the city where her own family lived. The police at the local police departmant was no fan of my father. They kinda just gave my mom full custody immediately without any signatures or any byrochratic procedures.

So yeah, we moved to the big city, and I was raised there by her and her side of the family. Mostly My mom and grandma, that I will talk a lot about in future posts.

Also, my father ended up dying of diabetes from low blood sugar when I was 18, but the whole “town” just thought it was alcohol poisoning. My grandma confirmed that it was diabetes thanks to her own condition, she checked his last blood-sugar-reading on his machine... I won’t go into more detail, but now you know that too.

That was my long story-time post, thanks for reading! The future posts will be less depressing :)

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Here's my parents, Fluffy and Tuffy! There's not really a family photo of us for reasons I will tell in a future post.

I was born under a full moon! How goth is THAT? :D

[rainbow-duck]

Hi, welcome to my first blog post!

This entire blog is just about me and my duckie life.

Here I will tell you just about anything and everything from my life! (outside of my performances on Mysterious Internet Ninja’s skits)

So yeah, stay tuned for my origin-story! :D

-Rainbow