Solar Storm

Listen, I'm just a space catgirl trying my best, don't come at me I literally do not care

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Gang I'm Sleep Deprived Again

I apologize in advance for any nonsensical posts I end up making. I cannot be held responsible for the actions of Sleep Deprived Rainy™️

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oooouuugh stummy hurtie

i want to lay down in bed

but alas, stummy

stummy hurtie real real bad

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insomnia

you win this round, insomnia you little bitch

but when i get you o h man am i gonna fucking get you

im gonna pass out and do nothing but sleep for hours

not today tho the chandelier is real and we have plans

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waugh

update

i am now fairly 95% certain i did not take my mood stabilizers i am bouncing off the fuckin WALLS man

why does my brain hate me getting a good night's sleep so much

like??? just a few minutes ago i was almost asleep and was hit with this fuckin wave of just. unexplainable fear.

i wasn't even afraid of anything in particular either. like i knew i was safe and everything was fine, but i couldn't shake the fear off for a good long while

it was almost like. idk somebody cast Cause Fear on me. you know from dnd5e

didn't know fuckin cthulhu in the form of a hatsune miku poster was in my bedroom but okay you do you girlypop

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did i take my mood stabilizers tonight

i genuinely do not remember

but like

better to go a night without it than to overdose???? i guess????

last time i accidentally took a double dose i was so eepy i slept through the whole day and it was deeply unsettling

i could have been being productive but no i was snoozing the day away

couldn't even get up to eat so like

yeah don't overdose kiddos

not even on accident

mama rainy will come find you and stare at you disapprovingly through your window

and if you don't have a window i will make one by gnawing a whole through the brick and mortar

i can do it my teeth are very good and strong

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"I don't want to be killed while doing nothing!"

god this quote still makes me tear up

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hwuh

about fourish years ago, i experienced the most amazing, emotional, gut-wrenching, slightly heartwarming before ripping my heart out, beautifully written 45 minutes of my life

hoooo boy that movie was only 45 minutes and fundamentally changed me as a person

thank you, Hello Kitty Company, very cool

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[rneliflua]

my somewhat unpopular opinion is that "famous story retold from female character's pov" is a good concept, actually. it's just that it became gimmicky very fast and spawned a storm of lazy works that refuse to engage with the source material in any meaningful way and flanderize everything into generic YA tropes. but at its core taking a known story and exploring it through the perspective of a female character even, and perhaps especially, when said character is not a particularly active agent on said story, is a way to remind people that women are still people with rich inner lives and that the real life women that we learned to think as pawns in the lives of men were/are still humans whose complex interiority deserve exploration on principle that everyone, but especially the people who live on the margins, deserve exploration. but that's a concept that gets defeated when most people writing those lazy retellings can't write complex interiority to save their lives.

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THIS. I love this.

hmmmb

what if i wrote a fanfiction from Queen Scarlet's perspective

like i know that doesn't necessarily fit the prompt but it would be interesting to see how such an evil and narcissistic dragon still views herself as a victim in the whole shebang despite knowing that she is *ahem* THRILLINGLY evil

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WHy am i awake so early

wtf i went to bed at the usual 1:30 am, why

i did what i was supposed to in order to sleep in

why, brain, why

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Watching the presidential debate

hhhhh

both of our main candidates are just senile old men who love nothing more than to blow hot air at each other out their asses

fucking

what am i supposed to do here

i hate the both of them with a burning passion

who the fuck am i supposed to root for when i don't want to root for either of them because they both suck

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My Mental State

I may be smort. Sososo smort.

But I am also very

very

exceedingly

unfathomably stupi

my life is a constant struggle

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Oh Yeah I Gradumamated

i am officially done with college for realsies this time

no more school for me, school over. out. school's out. for. the summer!

if anyone recognizes the song that i just referenced i will personally give you uuuuh. no moneys because i am broke, but you can have a cookie.

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HhhHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh

i do not wish to go to the workout today

i eepy, i gots the acid reflux, and joints achy

i can feel my teeth

ive got so many bug bites

plus like

allergies are being a bitch rn

but alas, i have no choice

let us all hope i do not throw up or faint

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I Can't Stay Silent Anymore

I try not to get too political on here, but at this point I am just so fucking disgusted.

They disguised themselves as humanitarian aide in order to attack refugees.

They have been continually bombing places where they told civilians to go in order to be safe.

They are using drones to play sounds of children in distress in order to lure people out of hiding so they can shoot them.

How many war crimes need to be committed before it's too much?

It's already been way too much.

An entire generation of students, CHILDREN, are dead. And more are dying.

Enough is enough.

Free Palestine, free Gaza.

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Don't you just hate those days where you just get random bouts of dizziness out of nowhere?

Don't know if it's iron deficiency or if I'm still experiencing prolonged vertigo, but it sure is annoying.

Like no, I don't want to have BRAIN FOG I want to be PRODUCTIVE

I've got homework to do, and yet I'm just kinda sitting here like "Don't pass out, Rainy, don't you dare pass out"

Methinks I should go see a doctor but at the same time it's like. I'll be fiiiine it's just a little dizzy it'll pass

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do you listen to any music genres listed on your latest reblog?

Yee. I listen to a lot of jazz and country music