Steve Harrington x reader
Both Y/n and Steve fall for each other silently. They both have painful assumptions of one another. After 18 month Y/n joins the crew for her first crawl back after she shut everyone out grieving and dealing with the pain the first crawl left in her
After the team's first crawl you completely shut down. The thick air reminded you that he was no longer here. After over a year and a half Robin told you about the upcoming crawl. They needed as much manpower as possible, and honestly without your quick thinking the team has been slowing down significantly. Robin is the only one that came to check on you. She would stop by and fill you in about crawls, plans and updates so if you ever decided to join in you were up to date with everything.
Today's plan was to chase and track a Demogorgon, Steve and Robin would pick you up, and then get Nancy and Jonathan. You were sitting in the back of the van. Steve stopped at the grocery store to get snacks, pain killers and more bandages. He was scared of this Crawl, he was scared about the kids. But your silence was terrifying to him. You havenât spoken in 18 months. You were naturally a quiet person, even shy in some situations. Your mother babysat Steve when you were children, when his parents would leave town. You and Steve grew very close. As much of an ass that he was in his earlier teen years he still looked out for you.
You kept your distance once you started to develop feelings for him. Soon after he became obsessed with Nancy, and thatâs when you became just another student in the halls of Hawkins High to him.
You snap out of your thoughts as a hand reaches your shoulder. You have no idea when she even moved to the back but Robin is now looking down at you. âI missed you.â She says softly âWe all missed you.â She reassures you. âEspecially him.â You look up at her holding her hand on your shoulder. âI know I havenât been the greatest friend lately, I showed up for the first crawl but I couldnât go back there.â- she immediately cuts you off. âNo. Youâre grieving Y/n. We know you are. And weâre more than happy to welcome you to your first crawl after a while. We really need that quick brain of yours.â You let out a soft smile that quickly fades away âitâs been 18 months robs. And it still hurts.â She squeezes your shoulder, she knows you and Dustin were the most affected. Sheâs not going to pretend to understand your grief. All she can do is listen and be there for you.
âIâve been seeing Max more often lately. I never stopped seeing her. But Robs, I feel like itâs my faultâ she nods her head no âNo Y/n. Do not torture yourself like that. No one knew this would happen. And we ruled out that he cursed youâ she whispers in the last part, afraid to even mention Vecna. Before becoming close with Eddie. You might have slept with Billy Hargrove a few times. Even though you both were good at keeping sex and your friendship separate, Eddie helped you out of that toxic self destruction. He explained how you deserved better than the assholes in Hawkins. He showed you what a true friend was like. He let you talk your heart out when you felt like no one would listen. Even though whatever happened between you and Billy was just a pastime, Max took a liking to you. She saw that you cared for Billy. She saw the way you would try to be there for him as a friend. You became like a sister to her, you guided her, never left her side after Billy's death. The week before Crissy Cunningham got cursed you had a nightmare that Maxine was gone. Straight disappeared. With time as you and the group came together to track Vecnaâs curseâs, they assured you that your dream was not a curse. To this day you feel guilty about Max.
You and Robin stare outside of the window watching Steve walking back with a load of grocery bags. You quickly whisper to Robin âIs he mad at me?â She nods her head no âNo not at you. At him.â You nod understanding she was referring to Eddie. He was never good at dealing with his emotions. You saw it when his parents would leave him home alone often. When he would break up with any girl afraid of committing too much. When Nancy and Jonathan became a thing. And you havenât been there to open the can of worms Eddie left in him. Robin opens the door as both of you stand to haul in the things he bought. He stares between you and robin having left her in the passenger seat, now back here with you. Robin moves back to the front of the van as Steve climbs up the driver's side. âAre you ready?â He asks Robin, she gives him a thumbs up. He stares at you through the front mirror âAre you?â He asks locking eyes with you for the first time in 18 months and you nod your head yes slowly.
After about 10 minutes of driving the van slows down, you notice Steve stepping on the gas before the van abruptly stops. âYouâ he steps on the gas again âhave to be kidding me.â He says as he runs his hand through his hair. The three of you step out of the van and wait for anyone to show up. âI hope we can get to nanceâ he says as your chest tightens. Robin quickly blurts out âAnd Jonathanâ you relax letting out a quick chuckle. Steve looks at Robin and then back to you. âYou really think this is funny.â You frown a little, backing up. He steps forward âWe have somewhere important to be. Weâre trying to stop him.â- you step forward into him. âYou think I donât know that?â You ask, eyeing him down âHow would you? You havenât been around.â -âEven if I havenât been around I donât hyper focus on Nancy. Or worry only about her.â He shakes his head âI donât worry only about herâ you shove a finger into his chest âDid you or did you not say Nance completely forgetting about Jonathan?â
You finally hear Robin yell out after trying to get both of you to stop yelling. âGUYS LOOKâ both of you turn around and see a beat up Dustin. Before you can run to him you hear Steve sighing âLook who decided to show up.â You push past Steve âCan you not lecture him right now?â You ask as you get out a tissue. Dustin realizing youâre here lets out a small smile. âYouâre hereâ he whispers. Steve abruptly walks towards you âOf course you would baby him after heâs been irresponsible.â You immediately shut it down. âNo Steve. I see that heâs clearly in pain. But of course you wouldnât understand.â You start to walk away from the rest to get some air âWhat the hell is that supposed to mean??â You ignore him and keep on walking. Robin and Dustin give each other a disappointing look. Steve stops going after you and shakes his head. He goes back to the van by some miracle and is able to start up the van. He honks for everyone to get back in the van. Dustin sits with you in the back resting his head on your shoulder. âWhat happened to you Dust?â You ask him worried. He sighs, shaking his head âDonât wanna talk about itâ you lean your head on his âIâm sorry you argued because of me.â You look down at him. âItâs not your fault. Heâs been an ass.â You say simply, causing the kid to laugh.
When he stops to pick up Nancy and Jonathan, they both run and hug you tight. As you drive closer to the rift, Robins tracker starts beeping faster, you take a deep breath in when Steve starts speeding into the rift, your eyes close shut as Nancy puts a hand on your shoulder and Jonathan pats your leg both knowing how hard it is for you to be in the upside down. âIâm going to drive fasterâ Steve announces as Robin starts to guide him in the direction of the Demogorgon. One of the fleshy ropes gets stuck on the wheel pulling the van back as everyone in the back slams on the floor, landing on Jonathan he helps you sit up. You see a long metal bar hanging loosely by the van window. You jank it and turn to Steve. âNancy, Dustin, Jonathan I need you to move to the opposite side of this van doorâ you motion to the side that the wheel is stuck on. âSteve, I need you to step on the gas.â he looks at you confused âNo itâs going to rip the wheel off.â you cut him off out of breath â I need the vine to stretch out as much as possible Steve. Pleaseâ The rest of the group staring at him impatiently, he sighs and nods as he accelerates the van. You stand up wobbling reaching for the van door âDonâtâ He blurts out. You take a deep breath in and open the van door, the vine stretching out and becoming thinner in the middle. âLittle more Steve!!â You yell out, he speeds up looking at you through the front mirror. You hold on to the inside handle of the van as your left leg sways outside into the fast air. With your left hand you grab the bar and slam it into the middle of the vine, splitting it as the rest of the dead vine goes limp. The van jumps up, not being held back anymore causing your right foot to slip towards the edge of the van. Jonathan quickly grabs your hand pulling you back into the van as you hold on to the door closing it in the process . âJesus Christ," Steve whispers worriedly. Dustin runs to hug you âThat was BAD ASSâ he yells as the group cheers.
Robin's tracker beeps louder, she immediately tells Steve where to drive he speeds up as the gets faster he steps on the brakes as he comes across a fleshy red wall. Jonathan explains "Earlier Hop told us about a walk like this on the opposite end of town before we lost communication with him and El.â You nod looking at Nancy âShould we look around? I canât stand here and do nothing.â She nods âI think we should.â Dustin then rambles about a shield generator suggesting to look into Hawkins lab.
As you approach the lab despite being upside down thereâs a cold and scary feeling about this place. âSteve, you go with Y/n.â Nancy announces âShe can go with Dustin?â Nancy looks irritated at him. âNo, sheâs a quick thinkerâ he avoids you looking at Robin âThen Robin can come with meâ- You immediately cut him off âFor fuckâs sake Steve. Iâm right here. You can at least tell me to my face you donât want me here. But he isnât going to sit and wait for Mr. Harrington to have his way. We donât know when or where heâll show up.â you say breathlessly. Nancy looks between the both of you. âY/n is right we canât waste any more time. Me and Jonathan will go upstairs to the third floor. The four of you can spread around the second floor. And please, donât look around aloneâ As Nance and Jonathan head upstairs Dustin quickly follows Robin, mouthing a quick âSorryâ towards you, leaving you and Steve to look around together.