queer + sad = me

An anonymous space for me to work through certain aspects of my identity in a place no one should be finding unless via an accidental slip up of my own shortcomings 😭

[samantitheos]

incorrect hollanov 🙂‍↔️

[bipolar4autistic]

my biggest wish for season 2 thats not gonna happen is that i want shane to read ilyas plane crash instagram goodbye messages and not have a chance to find out ilyas alright until he has had the biggest meltdown of his entireeee life like i want him to read the messages and scream like hes been shot and collapse to the ground i want him to freak the fuck out i want him doing the classic autisim meltdown behavior of using your fists to pound your head and pull your hair i want hayden to have to call yuna like 'i cant get him to calm down and he is definitely gonna pass out if he keeps scream crying like this' and he puts her on speaker so she can try to talk to him and she tries what she knows but shes literally never heard him sound like this. i want her to try to talk reason about how they dont know anything yet nothing is concrete and hes just crying that he cant do it without ilya hes not gonna do it without ilya ilya his baby his love his ilya. i want him convinced ilya died badly until he hears ilyas voice again im like so serious

[caspercryptid]

I would actually go as far as to say that MOST abuse is unintentional. I think most people will go through their lives without ever experiencing intentional abuse. People are abusive because they're selfish, because they're stressed, because they care more about what society thinks they should do than the impacts of their actions on their children and partners, because they think what they're doing is correct, because they've made it make sense in their own heads, because they think they can fix their victims, they think they can fix their relationships, they think they can stop you from leaving, they think they can make you a better partner to them, they think that means you need to do what they want. We've sort of constructed mental illness in a way that doing this shit to other people counts as a form of mental illness because it is anti social behavior in the literal sense— it is behavior that causes social harm.

I don't say any of this to excuse it. I think everyone needs to be more aware of this because if you think abuse has to be intentional you will never realize you are capable of abusive behavior. You will never realize you are being shitty to the people you love, because YOU know what you mean, YOU know you don't mean any harm. But you're doing harm. You need to pay attention to the impact you have on other people, and you need to do it all the time, Especially when you feel least capable of doing so. Sorry! You live in a society. Get your head out of your ass.

[twinkwolf]

so this is actually myshane at nineteen years old. a candid snapped during a lighting reset for some fucking bank of montreal ad spread. photographer was smitten and so am i

[clubcrosby]

shane’s “really? 😁” when ilya jokes about reading the new yorker being the same as when he finds out ilya hasn’t slept with anyone else since they were last together is so !!!!! learning something new about ilya in that little stolen moment together was just as exciting to him as the early signs of monogamy between them. oh myshane who cares for and loves every little bit of ilya so much…

[spacemillipede]

Anyone who’s followed professional hockey knows there’s nothing hockey players love more than dressing up in low quality matching costumes for events, so in my humble opinion there are a number of pictures of Shane and hayden in ill fitting matching costumes for team events

Matching with Hayden is like the only way Shane is comfortable with dressing up for silly events and overtime the two have a lot of fun with it but every time ilya sees a picture of them matching he’s gritting his teeth thinking about how it should be him wearing matching costumes with Shane instead of Hayden fucking pike

[aquilacalvitium]

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

[aquilacalvitium]

Please keep interacting with this post because when I come to tumblr to procrastinate, this shows up again in my notifications and guilts me into writing again

[consumer-of-books]

Shane shows his love by actively asking Ilya questions, reminding him of big things, nagging him even and Ilya is super soft for it even if he loves to complain about it While Ilya shows his love by following Shane around like a lost puppy, helping him with things that its totally unnecesary to help him with, opening car doors even when it sort of annoys him, unfortunately he also find's it sweet oh and Ilya loves pushing shane up against walls and shane loves being pushed up against walls so there's also that...

[thesituation]

i’m capable of finding blondes attractive

[thesituation]

under the right conditions

[maxfurshtappanleclair]

Charles Leclerc,is that you?

[thesituation]

yes it’s me, monacan f1 driver charles leclerc,i need your help to win my next race, all you have to do is send me the 16 numbers on the front of your debit card, the expiration, and the 3 numbers on the back

[cocoo299]

but i made them better

[ramblingsofasadqueer]

Thank FUCK that my vibrator came with a 15 year warranty. Guess who's not gonna have to use the shower head anymore. ✌🏻

[ramblingsofasadqueer]

Guess who's abso-fuckin-lutely lonely and wishing for intimacyyyyyyy?

This bitch 🫠

[ramblingsofasadqueer]

my most bisexual moment ever 💞

[ramblingsofasadqueer]

And now here comes the fucking imposter syndrome of "am I actually nonbinary or was that just me looking for attention?" 😒

[ramblingsofasadqueer]

Tell me why I feel guilty as FUCK for being such an enjoyer of a certain mlm pairing?

[ramblingsofasadqueer]

I dreamt last night that my boobs miraculously went down to at least half the size they currently are.

Imagine my disappointment when I woke up to the same fucking size. 😔

[ramblingsofasadqueer]

Man. I love Heartstopper because I relate so hard to a lot of things. But shit. It's not the greatest for me mentally because I relate so hard to a lot of things. 🥲😭