I don’t know how to do any sort of fancy formatting might come change this later
Call me static/vinny/jax
They/them pronouns
Alterhuman (therian otherkin fictionkin copinglink) [psychological not spiritual]
Pagan
Aroace
I don’t have a therapist yet or anyone I trust to vent to so I’m going to yell into the void about random ass shit here especially private stuff so uh yk whatever
Not really a vent or nsfw but I don’t really understand certain closed neopronouns especially basic ones like mutt/muttself and fae/faer
Like I understand “mutt” may have had negative connotations about race but it’s been used for all sorts of metaphors for “ outsiders” and stuff I just feel like it’s hard to claim a word that definitively has non culture specific uses ..
And multiple cultures have had fairies and fae in them for a long time so it’s also hard to claim that especially since it’s not anything used on the people themselves and it’s not a taboo word like certain creatures with Native American/american Indian folklore origins that have been taken by the internet and changed beyond recognition.
I understand why slur based ones and taboo word based ones are closed but.. fae/faer? Really? I mean hardly anyone is genuinely raised in old Celtic Druid culture anymore, I met one person with such ethnic background and they said something I really agree with, If we prevent everyone ever from even respectfully engaging in old cultures languages and practices then we’re just sealing their fate of becoming obsolete and no one wants or benefits from that.
He’s had health issues his whole life he’s got a chronic cold that flares up bc like viruses never go away yk they linger or maybe it’s allergies but anyway he has that and kidney issues and golden eyes and it’s not the same but it is and he’s got fur that looks like Viktors haircut and he’s going to die and I’ll never make it without him I’m Jayce and I’ve got nothing to do but hold his body as it grows cold and die and I’ve thought about it so many times oh god something is wrong with me I mean I’d never do anything to him I’d never I don’t want that but I think there’s something wrong with me I don’t understand romance I don’t understand attraction but I love Viktor and my cat is Viktor or has a peice of him in it and I don’t know how much i believe this and how much I’m just saying shit it’s too late I need to sleep and eat and I’m so fucking tired I spent too long reading and saving fics I’m so tired I hate myself I hate breathing he’s gonna die some day and everything is wrong and I can’t tell how much of this I’m just making worse on purpose and what’s actually a problem and I know I just need to sleep but fucking hell I hate being alone with my brain I feel like I’ve been left on a cliffhanger except I’m the story and I feel sick and I’ll never recover
How the fuck are you supposed to tell someone you’ve known for two years you want them to yank you by a harness and shove you against a wall or floor or bed how are you supposed to do that
I’m tired of the refillable ones I want a pretty one that I can sharpen but that’s still dermasafe
Like why’s that so hard to ask for
Can’t ask anyone bc everyone will just be concerned but idk man and google isn’t any use maybe it doesn’t exist how does one even research that “knives good at cutting fresh raw skin that are also pretty and derma safe and cleanable and sharpen-able”
Or they could at least make the bases that hold the refillable blades prettier :/
a few days ago i promised to write a post about the misceverse and how it applies to myself/my identity. so, here it is!
[as a disclaimer, im still very much aroace so rest assured this post will be completely sfw. however, im aware that some people can be uncomfortable with this stuff so ill be putting the post under a read more]
so, omegaverse. a few of you may remember my post/essay on how i view gender through draconic lenses, and how my species classifies ourselves not with sex but with how we contribute to society, our Role. well, last week i saw some of my mutuals (shout-out to @/were-bastard and @/professional-jaywalker, the birds ever /pos) reblog stuff about something called the misceverse, which was inspired by omegaverse fanfic tropes, and... well. it piqued my interest. i had read a few of these stories myself when i was younger, so i knew more or less about what it was all about, but i didnt know there was an entire community centered around it!
what struck me the most about these communities was the normalization and celebration of animalistic behaviours, specifically as they relate to relationships, something that, as a nonhuman, is obviously very appealing to me. i struggle a lot to express affection in the expected/"human" way, as my instincts tell me to act more like the creature i am. things like nesting, scenting, giving gifts or having a special language of animal noises to communicate with your loved ones are things i do naturally, and that i fight to suppress every day. upon seeing all this in the misce community, plus the classifications that match so perfectly with my dragon Roles, i was sold.
so, what even is misceanimalis?
also called miscecanis, its a community centered around the omegaverse, that is, a universe where people have secondary sexes as well as the normal ones: alpha, beta or omega. (they were inspired by that one study on wolf behaviour and pack dynamics, which i find really funny bc its considered incredibly inaccurate nowadays). people on this verse exhibit animal behaviours like nesting, forming packs, making animal noises or "subvocals", and, of course, experiencing mating cycles (i will not get into that last part, but basically omegas have heats and can get pregnant while alphas have ruts and can get people pregnant; betas are usually the "normal" ones, but this may vary between verses). also! a very important thing in omegaverse is scenting. everyone has a unique scent, so people can identify your dynamic right away; its used as a way to mark your territory and your mate and to express emotions.
about me!
dynamic: i am bidynamic; both an omega and a beta, also called a gamma or oeta.
for me, this means that im socially neutral (but leaning submissive), i exhibit protective and nurturing behaviours like an omega, and give a calming effect to people like a beta. my presentation though is fully omega: i am very timid, uncertain and introverted, though if im feeling confident enough i can come off as more casual/laid-back.
scent: my scent is vanilla, very sweet as is typical of omegas (funnily, i found that this scent is almost unbearable for most people, but i adore it).
i use vanilla body lotion and perfume for myself, and a soft vanilla air freshener for my den.
behaviours: i am miscedraconis and misceavian, which means my behaviours are based on both dragons and birds (nesting, gift-giving, mating dances, all that stuff). my subvocals are both avian and draconic: purring, chirping, etc. i also experience heats but they are very mild, and are less frequent than for monodynamic omegas.
anyway, i think thats enough for today! wow i rambled a lot, didnt i? i hope you enjoyed reading this, and maybe even fell for my propaganda i mean, considered a misceanimalis identity for yourself! i found that the community is very nice and open-minded, and i think more alterhumans could benefit from joining it!
Finding the misceanimalis/miscecanis community genuinely settled some things in me. My misce stuff is largely sfw. Knowing there's a community where i can explain some of my behaviours and not get weird looks is a huge relief tbh, there is language for it and i am happy about that.
My misce identity, as an omega, is as important to me as my nonhumanity is. Nesting, finding my scent, even marking in a sense, it all has a spot where it fits.
My nesting includes pillows and so many blankets, they need to be soft, or have enough solidity to help shape the nest.
I have the scent of pomegranate, though i'm thinking raspberry may be included. Because it just fits, i love the scent.
I'm happy that this community exists and I want to see it grow so there are more of us to talk to.
The horror of having a. visual imagination and reading a fic about your kin cutting themselves and nearly bleeding to death in a bathroom and having that image in your head
