Random and Relaxing ASMR

Random and Relaxing

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Slow whispered ASMR in different languages - Italian 🇮🇹

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Ein Telefonat zwischen Körper und Geist

Mein Verstand

Ich möchte nicht "mein Verstand" sagen

Ich werde "meine Gefühle" sagen

was ich glaube ich jetzt sagen werde

wenn ich es noch nicht gesagt habe

Sie sind irgendwo zwischen Geist und Körper

sie sind nicht streng intellektuell

was ich vor ein paar jahren gesagt hätte

Also meine Gefühle sind sehr besorgt

mit einer seltsamen Sammlung von Gedanken

etwas Europäisches und etwas Deutsch-Europäisches

wenn ich germanisch europäisch sage

Ich meine von Holland quer durch Deutschland und in die Schweiz und nach Österreich

es hat damit zu tun

Ich war in der Schweiz

Ich war in Deutschland und mein Vater hat dort gelebt

Ich war in Holland

Ich war nicht in Österreich, aber mein Vater hat dort gelebt und seine erste Frau war Österreicherin

Aber ich habe an keinem dieser Orte wirklich viel Zeit verbracht

Dieses Verständnis kommt von meiner Fähigkeit, diese Dinge in der Kultur aufzugreifen

Es kommt ein bisschen von meinem Vater

Er hatte in Deutschland und Österreich gelebt und war mit einer Österreicherin verheiratet, bevor er meine Mutter kennenlernte. Wahrscheinlich war er auch in der Schweiz und in Holland gewesen. Es gab österreichische Sachen in unserem Haus, als er aufwuchs und er sprach deutsch, wenn ihm danach war

Das schwebt also im Mix rum

und es gibt auch was zu tun

mit der allerersten schule die ich besucht habe

die erste schule die ich besucht habe

war ungefähr fünfzehn bis zwanzig Minuten zu Fuß von meinem Haus entfernt

aber es war in einem bereich der stadt

das war viel moderner als wo ich wohnte

also war es neu

ein neues Gebäude

und ich war eine der ersten gruppen von kindern, die diese schule besuchten

die Schule war eine neue Schule in einer neuen Wohnsiedlung

und die Modernität von all dem

stark mit der germanischen Sache in meinem Kopf verbunden

es war eine neue schule mit neuen schulmöbeln

alles war neu

alle bücher waren neu

das gebäude war neu

und das ist wichtig

weil die schule, auf die ich später gehen würde

und der, zu dem alle meine Geschwister gegangen waren

und meine Cousinen

war hundert Jahre alt

also war es eine uralte sache

die zuvor mit Hunderten von Kindern gefüllt war

und die erinnerungen all dieser kinder

und die Erfahrungen all dieser Kinder

und es war ein gigantisches viktorianisches Gebäude

Aber meine erste Schulerfahrung war in einem modernen Gebäude aus dem späten 20. Jahrhundert, das für die Zukunft entworfen wurde

die moderne zukunft

nicht die viktorianische zukunft

und die umliegende nachbarschaft war auch so

die häuser waren modern

entworfen, um die Probleme des viktorianischen Wohnens zu lösen

in dem ich gelebt habe

Und ich habe diese Assoziation in meinem Kopf geklebt

mit dem germanischen ding

und das germanische Ding bedeutet „modern“

Was meine ich mit modern?

Technologieideen des späten zwanzigsten Jahrhunderts

insbesondere Bürotechnik

also Dinge wie

Kugelschreiber aus Kunststoff

gelbe Textmarker

Hinzufügen von Maschinen

Diktiergeräte

doppelte Bücher

es ist so komisch

Ich versuche dieses Gefühl auszupacken

das wird mir einfach in den Sinn kommen

und all diese Dinge gehören dazu

Objekte entworfen und hergestellt aus Kunststoff und pulverbeschichtetem Stahl

steht für moderne Technik

von Unternehmen hergestellt

in den germanischen Gebieten Europas

Sie sind ein Symbol für dieses Gefühl, aber sie sind nur ein Zeichen, wie eine Münze ein Zeichen für Geldwert ist

Ist ein Cent einen Cent wert? Es sagt, dass es so ist, aber das ist seine Aufgabe

Ist der Stahl und das Kupfer, aus dem es besteht, einen Cent wert?

Wir wissen es nicht

Es ist nur ein Zeichen

Als wären die Gegenstände aus Plastik nur Spielfiguren

Visuelle Möglichkeiten, ein Gefühl zu beschreiben

Das kommt von einem Ort, der nicht der Körper oder der Geist ist

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Hallo

Ein Telefonat zwischen Körper und Geist

Langsam zu dir geflüstert

Mit männlicher Stimme

Ein Engländer versucht für dich Deutsch zu sprechen

Ich hoffe ihr genießt das #ASMR und vielleicht das Kribbeln

Langsam geflüsterte ASMR in verschiedenen Sprachen - #Deutsch

Hello

A telephone call between the body and the mind

Whispered to you slowly

In a masculine voice

An Englishman trying to speak German for you

I hope you enjoy the #ASMR and maybe the tingles

Slow whispered ASMR in different languages - #German

안녕하십니까

몸과 마음의 전화통화

천천히 속삭였다

남성미 넘치는 목소리로

당신을 위해 독일어로 말하려는 영국인

#ASMR 과 설렘을 즐기시기 바랍니다.

다른 언어로 천천히 속삭이는 ASMR - #독일어

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ASMR | Stereo chopping sounds with lo-fi male voice echoes for sleep - The Tantaliser

Chopping sounds in glorious stereo With male lo-fi voices Echoing across the endless plains As the Tantaliser dances on for you

For sleep or relaxation Watch the video and enjoy the experience Or close your eyes and just listen to the sounds

수면을 위한 lo-fi 남성 음성 메아리와 함께 스테레오 절단 소리 - Tantaliser 영광스러운 스테레오의 쪼개지는 소리 남성 로파이 보이스로 끝없는 평원에 메아리쳐 Tantaliser가 당신을 위해 춤을 추면서

수면 또는 휴식을 위해 동영상을 보고 경험을 즐기세요 아니면 눈을 감고 소리에 귀를 기울이십시오.

#asmr #male #lofi #echoes

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World program Georgia wasn't the authority Close unobtainable eternally Co please contract diminished miscarriages understanding greatest

Authority named her only Restored Julian hesitate but it works

Henderson housing

Try an area you have continued Directly mitigated a psychiatrist boy For stigma tragedy started there

Ending truth 2015

Assessed focus joined pay impounded crisis Insulation space Here believed Representative understand

36 years old retrospective

Viable heart

Flower ground actively confession very criticized look Coach beginning thank you thank you thank you goodbye

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Un appel téléphonique entre le corps et l'esprit

Mon esprit

Je ne veux pas dire "mon esprit"

Je vais dire "mes sentiments"

Que je pense que je vais dire maintenant

Si je ne l'ai pas dit avant

Ils sont quelque part entre l'esprit et le corps

Ils ne sont pas strictement intellectuels

Ce que j'aurais dit il y a quelques années

Donc mes sentiments sont très concernés

Avec une étrange collection de pensées

Quelque chose d'européen et quelque chose d'européen germanique

Quand je dis germaniquement européen

Je veux dire aller de Hollande à travers l'Allemagne et en Suisse et en Autriche

C'est à voir avec ça

Je suis allé en Suisse

Je suis allé en Allemagne et mon père y a vécu

Je suis allé en Hollande

Je ne suis pas allé en Autriche, mais mon père y vivait et sa première femme était autrichienne

Mais je n'ai pas vraiment passé beaucoup de temps dans aucun de ces endroits

Ces compréhensions viennent de ma capacité à saisir ces choses dans la culture

Il y en a un peu qui vient de mon père

Il avait vécu en Allemagne et en Autriche et était marié à une Autrichienne avant de rencontrer ma mère. Il était probablement aussi allé en Suisse et en Hollande. Il y avait des choses autrichiennes dans notre maison en grandissant et il parlait allemand quand il en avait envie

Donc ça flotte dans le mix, et il y a aussi quelque chose à faire avec la toute première école où je suis allé

La première école où je suis allé était à environ 15 à 20 minutes à pied de chez moi, mais c'était dans un quartier de la ville qui était beaucoup plus moderne que là où j'habitais

C'était donc une nouveauté

Un nouveau bâtiment

Et j'étais l'un des premiers groupes d'enfants à fréquenter cette école

L'école était une nouvelle école dans un nouveau lotissement et la modernité de tout ça fortement lié à la chose germanique dans mon esprit

C'était une nouvelle école avec de nouveaux meubles scolaires

Tout était neuf

Tous les livres étaient neufs

Le bâtiment était neuf et c'est important, parce que l'école où j'irais par la suite et celui où tous mes frères et sœurs étaient allés et mes cousines avait cent ans donc c'était une chose ancienne qui avait été rempli de centaines d'enfants avant

Et les souvenirs de tous ces enfants

Et les expériences de tous ces enfants

Et c'était un gigantesque bâtiment Victorien, mais ma première expérience de l'école était dans un bâtiment moderne de la fin du 20ème siècle conçu pour l'avenir

L'avenir moderne

Pas l'avenir victorien

Et le quartier environnant était comme ça aussi

Les maisons étaient modernes

Conçu pour résoudre les problèmes du logement victorien dans lequel j'ai vécu et j'ai collé cette association dans mon esprit avec le truc Germanique

Et la chose germanique signifie "moderne"

Qu'est-ce que j'entends par moderne ?

Idées de la technologie de la fin du 20e siècle

En particulier la bureautique, donc des choses comme

stylos à bille en plastique

surligneurs jaunes

machines à additionner

dictaphones

livres en double

C'est si étrange

J'essaye de déballer ce sentiment

Ca va juste flasher dans mon esprit

Et toutes ces choses en font partie

Objets conçus et fabriqués en plastique et acier thermolaqué représentant la technologie moderne

Réalisés par des entreprises

Dans les régions germaniques d'Europe

Ils sont un symbole de ce sentiment mais ils ne sont qu'un jeton, comme une pièce de monnaie étant un jeton de valeur monétaire

Un centime vaut-il un centime ? Il dit que c'est, mais c'est son travail

L'acier et le cuivre dont il est fait valent-ils un centime ?

Nous ne savons pas

C'est juste un jeton

Comme les objets en plastique ne sont que des jetons

Façons visuelles d'essayer de décrire un sentiment

Cela vient d'un endroit qui n'est ni le corps ni l'esprit

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ASMR | Dream big with me - calming male voice whispers random numbers in tens of thousands!

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thirty thousand five hundred and seventy seven eighty three 900 and 10 92 600 and 97 67 470. four sixty seven thousand five hundred and seventy seven five thousand three hundred and twelve thirty eight thousand five hundred and four ninety nine thousand nine hundred 41 850 50 237 thirty one thousand three hundred and thirty four fifty nine thousand eight hundred and thirty seven forty

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seventy five thousand five hundred and forty five fifty nine thousand nine hundred and fifty seven sixty five thousand nine hundred and 38 707 forty two thousand nine hundred and thirty two fifty two thousand four hundred and sixty nine seventy five thousand one hundred and seventy nine ninety thousand two hundred and sixty one thousand four hundred and eighty eight thousand nine hundred and sixty sixty three thousand nine hundred and eighty three seventy four thousand eight hundred and 30 11 34 twenty seven thousand six hundred and sixty one

eight thousand one hundred and seventeen forty nine thousand three hundred six hundred and ninety six fourteen thousand two hundred and sixty nine eighty thousand nine hundred and seventy ninety five thousand nine hundred 7751 fifty one thousand four hundred and ninety one fifty five thousand nine hundred and fourteen ninety thousand eight hundred and eighty three fifty eight thousand eight hundred and thirty four eighty one thousand two hundred and thirty eight

seventy three thousand six hundred and seventy seven forty four thousand nine hundred and ninety three ninety two thousand one hundred and thirty eight ninety six thousand five hundred and two ninety five thousand eight hundred and seventy nine sixty two thousand three hundred and 55 44 628 89 600 and 1 six thousand four hundred and thirteen twenty nine thousand four hundred and fifty eight fifty nine thousand three hundred and sixty three fifty nine thousand two hundred and ninety nine 10 829 nine thousand six hundred and ninety seven

twenty seven thousand eight hundred and twenty five forty three thousand two hundred and forty seventy nine thousand six hundred and sixteen seven forty seven thousand seven hundred and thirty two eighty five thousand six hundred and forty eight thirty one thousand four hundred and sixty five forty seven thousand three hundred and four thirty six thousand eight hundred and twenty four fourteen thousand three hundred and eighty eight seventy nine thousand four hundred and eighty two 55 180 85 four hundred and ninety six

fifty nine thousand seven hundred and thirty five forty seven thousand one hundred and twenty two twenty four thousand three hundred and seventy three eighty four thousand two hundred and ten sixty eight thousand seven hundred and nine twenty eight thousand four hundred and ninety forty eight thousand seven hundred and seven thirty thousand five hundred and thirty three three thousand three hundred and sixty three ten thousand one hundred and sixty

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Out and about

From the middle of England, this is the voice of Random and Relaxing ASMR and you might be able to hear that i'm out and about. I'm having a little stroll; it's good to keep moving.

The street I'm walking down has houses built in Georgian-era. It's fascinating I think to imagine these houses when they were designed and completed and first lived in. The owners and occupiers, and indeed designers and architects and builders, had no idea about motor cars, electricity, indoor plumbing, television and radio and laminate wood flooring, and modular sofas, divan beds, pocket spring mattresses with memory foam toppers and duvets and synthetic-filled pillows.

All the things of modern life that are continuing to be used in these buildings that were designed and built sometime in the late 18th century or the early 19th century.

Think about the impact you have on the planet, your mark you leave during your life. Whether you do something that's going to last...put it in those kind of terms...it's quite interesting.

Will you do anything? Will I do anything that can still be useful to people 100 or 200 years from now?

Because not not everybody can have that kind of influence or do that kind of thing. But I wonder...I wonder what I will have done...I wonder what YOU will have done, that might still be here, being useful in all that time?

I mean even standing here...I could have stood here (I'm trying to cross the road) but I could have stood at that point, 200 years ago, and the idea of the noise, noises that you can hear, the noises of cars, traffic, lorries...they would have been unthinkable

Yet to most of us...and certainly I imagine the few people that listen to this...you recognize them.

You can even perhaps tell those motorbikes sound different to cars or lorries. There's a subtlety to a cacophonous noise that is not particularly distinguishable in any kind of musical or melodic sense, and yet we can still analyze it and massage it and stretch out some kind of meaning.

I'm of course walking about, so I've moved into a slightly different neighborhood now. There are still some very old buildings here, but there are also some more up-to-date buildings.

It's funny when you look around and see things that, um, distinguish styles and types of buildings, old buildings on the right and new buildings on the left.

Materials that they are made with, and the things that have been added over time are all part of this odd stuff that we do.

What's it like where you live? Is it an old area? What does old mean to you? Of course living in England we have a lot of very old things and constantly we're making new things. History tells me that people have lived where I'm currently walking for well over a thousand years without significant invasion or upheaval and of any sort. It may not be the same where you live.

As ever, here in the middle of England, I'm always curious as to where people are. I ask this question and I don't always get an answer, but i'm still gonna keep going.

Where are you in the world, and what's it like right now?

Why don't you leave me a comment? I'd be interested to see that.

I'm gonna enjoy my walk, and so we'll say "goodbye for now".

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What you don’t know can make you stronger

From the middle of England, and at the end of the month, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR.

Sometimes in life you get to a point where...things are flat and boring. Where you wonder what it is all about. Or something comes along that gets you down and makes you struggle. Perhaps you are even wondering if it is worth going on doing the same old thing. You want to know that something is going to happen to change everything and bring you out of this funk.

But sometimes, it is what you don't know which ends up being the most significant or memorable moment, and I developed a writing exercise a few years ago which I wanted to share with you in case you are at that point in your life right now. I hope you aren't of course, but whether you are or you aren't, I think it's an interesting thing to try anyway.

The thing is, I have written diaries and had notebooks and made lists and so on for most of my life, and I've come to believe that an idea can be examined in different ways by thinking about it, talking about it and writing it down. So this exercise is all about writing things down and reading them back, but you can do it with a paper and pen or on a digital device.

You start with a sentence with your age right now, a defiant description about what is bothering you at the moment, and after that, something positive for the future.

So, let's just imagine I am 30 years old right now, and what's bothering me is being single. So the sentence might go

I am 30 years old right now, and in spite of being single, I have a lot to look forward to!

You write that out, and if you are using paper, write it at the bottom of the page.

Then you think about something from the year before, and you write that on the line ABOVE the first sentence, starting it with your age last year, and finishing it with "would not know that"

So if I read back what I have written it says

29 year old me made YouTube videos, but would not know that I am 30 years old right now, and in spite of being single, I have a lot to look forward to!

The aim here is to think about what you didn't know was going to happen, as you think back year on year.

So next you think back to the year before that, and what your life was like back then, and you add another line above the two that you have already written, describing something that you didn't realise was going to happen. For example

28 year old me would have to stay at home along with everyone else because of COVID, and would not know that 29 year old me made YouTube videos, but would not know that I am 30 years old right now, and in spite of being single, I have a lot to look forward to!

You then think back a few more years through your life and experiences and add a new line that says something unique about each year above the previous entry, using the same format that ends with "would not know that". So going back to age 24 in my example might read like this

24 year old me would get a great girlfriend and start work as a photocopier repair man, and would not know that 25 year old me would finally learn to drive, but would not know that 26 year old me would be broken hearted because my girlfriend broke up with me, and would not know that 27 year old me would end up forgetting all about that and have a great summer fling with that special person, but would not know that 28 year old me would have to stay at home along with everyone else because of COVID, and would not know that 29 year old me made YouTube videos, but would not know that I am 30 years old right now, and in spite of being single, I have a lot to look forward to!

Can you see how it's taking shape? You might notice I changed some of the words, like alternating "and would not know that" with "but would not know that" - that was just something I wanted to do to make it read better for me. You can make your own sentences of course using words that you feel comfortable with.

The purpose is to build up a list of significant events that show the unpredictable variety of life and your own ability to adapt and survive. By writing it out you turn that mental energy into something physical, and in reading it back you get a different perspective than just thinking about it and getting tied up with the emotions that brings.

The interesting thing here is that the older you get, the longer the list gets and, I think, the more interesting it gets. Now, I think this should be a private list so you can be as honest as you like with yourself, but since its private you can also praise yourself too, so don't hold back on listing the good times when they happened.

But remember, the point is not to show that life is consistently brilliant, or that it is consistently rubbish. It's to show that we can never know what is coming next and yet whatever that turns out to be, we've managed to survived it.

I like to think that when it is all flat and overwhelming, this exercise is a bit like clearing a path through the years that leads back to your potential. If things are fine, it's maybe just an interesting way to look back. If things are tough I hope it shows that it's worth hanging on to see what comes next. Even if it's not immediate, it might free you up from the flatness and the funk and make you feel a little stronger.

In one way or another your life is a story - it's your story - and it's nice when you can make it an inspiring read for yourself, just when you need it most.

If you try this exercise, I hope it's fun for you - why not let me know in the comments if you try it and how it made you feel? I try to keep my list updated annually, and it's something I'm hoping to keep alive at least once a year for a spot of reflection. Sometimes I read it aloud instead of reading it back to myself - that can make it feel different too.

But if you really are suffering as I'm speaking please don't feel alone; if you are listening to me right now you are almost certainly on the internet and therefore some sort of help will be at hand somewhere. I can't list every site you can visit or every number you can call or every appointment you can make, but someone, somewhere is able to help you if you only ask, so please don't suffer in silence.

But it's interesting don't you think? What you don't know might just be what makes you stronger.

Until the next time, keep carrying on, and please take care - bye for now.

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Where are we?

From the middle of England, and at the start of the week, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR, coming to you from...well, where is this message coming from? I'm in my house right now of course, but you might be hearing this via YouTube or Instagram. Are either of those actually places?

I was thinking about this last week when someone was posting about "coming back" after being away for a while. It hit me that social media sites appear to be a place, and we often use language to describe them as such. Sometimes we even talk about them having a sense of community, like we are all here together.

But this isn't a place at all - it's a computer programme, and it hit me that just like any other computer programme it could be switched off somewhere and the whole thing would stop.

Of course, behind the scenes it is more complicated than that analogy, and as long as things are making money nothing is likely to be switched off just yet.

But I think it is useful sometimes to remember that it is just software. That hopefully makes it more real than worrying about "being here" or taking time off or that you need to look your best when on camera and indeed to have the best camera and lighting to make the best impression in a place...that doesn't exist?

It's funny to think that YouTube and Instagram were once just ideas, and like all computer programmes they would have begun at some point with a single line of code. They are of course powerful, and entertaining, and have connected us all around the world, which has been especially important in the pandemic. But they are just computer programmes.

Even so - you are wherever you are, and I am here in the middle of England...and we are together right now in some shape or form because of those lines of code and the computers they run on. So...praise be to that. Whether you are listening via YouTube, or Instagram, why not let me know in a comment where you are, whether you think social media is a place, or just how your day is going. It's a sunny summer day here today and I'm going to go for a bike ride in a bit.

Until next time, take care and bye for now.

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T.S. Eliot and perspectives

From the middle of England, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR.

You say I am repeating Something I have said before. I shall say it again. Shall I say it again? In order to arrive there, To arrive where you are, to get from where you are not,       You must go by a way wherein there is no ecstacy. In order to arrive at what you do not know       You must go by a way which is the way of ignorance. In order to possess what you do not possess       You must go by the way of dispossession. In order to arrive at what you are not       You must go through the way in which you are not. And what you do not know is the only thing you know And what you own is what you do not own And where you are is where you are not.

That, if you didn't know, was an excerpt from T.S. Eliot's Four Quartets, from part three of "East Coker". I have that section printed out and displayed in my house to illustrate a bigger picture and remind me that the passing of time and the meaning that we get from the journey that is the passing of time is rarely...straightforward.

It's not quite a metaphor for my YouTube and Instagram journey as Random and Relaxing ASMR, but it is over a year now since I published my first video and...well...that journey hasn't exactly been straightforward either, and right now the views of my most recent videos have been lower than when I first started and I have been seriously considering whether it is worth carrying on.

The reasons for this drop in views are unknown, and I have thought long and hard about what might have happened. I have ideas as to how I can rebuild some sort of success in order to make making videos like this worthwhile. Time will tell I guess as to whether it works. If you follow me on TikTok you can see some new video ideas on there, but for the time being I am holding off on YouTube apart from content I've already had queued up for ages, and little updates like this (I still wish I knew who was listening to these - it's free of charge to leave a comment).

But anyway, it's all relative, and all dependent on perspective I guess. I was riding my bike one evening recently and as I sped downhill through a local housing estate I had a thought that conjoured up some perspectives...

All the life going on behind all the windows, Hundreds of cups and knives and forks, Duvets and pillowcases, And wardrobes and clothes, Washing machines and televisions, Dogs and cats and fish, Babies and baby-grows, And that's just here, In this one corner, Of this one town, In this one county, In this one nation, Of this one island, On this one continent, In this one hemisphere, Of this one planet, In this one solar system, In this one Universe...

Now, when I think about that one Universe, the success or popularity of my YouTube channel doesn't really seem to matter really, so perhaps that list is something I should also print out to remind me of a bigger picture. But even so...I still ended up making this video didn't I?

Until the next time...

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From the edge of England

Seaside sounds

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Is language enough?

From the middle of England, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR.

I realised recently that whilst time is passing by, what happens in that time is also being recorded.

Not necessarily formally like in a video or photograph, but whether it is written in the daily news, or it's just someone noticing and remembering what you are wearing, and whether it's the most mundane action or it's the most important announcement, all around you the energy you expend is passed on and picked up in ways which say "this happened".

This happens whether we realise it today or far off into the future. You may forget what you did today, but there's always a chance that someone, somewhere remembers it, and keeps that remembrance for their own reasons.

I mentioned in a previous one of these recordings my realisation that when we experience nostalgia, we are remembering what was the cutting edge of our lives at that time. It would seem that without even trying we generate memories daily and whilst we should just be in the moment at all times, the pull of nostalgia is strong.

Yet this wasn't always the way - I had no idea about the past and present and future as a child. There was only ever right now, and I would have to learn about time and concepts like today and the morning, afternoon and evening.

Perhaps through that is how we learn about the past and the nostalgia associated with it. It's maybe not practical to live "right now" as an adult and we have to have the perspective of time and memories in order to plan our use of resources like time and energy.

But in our modern world where the stuff of survival is plentiful, it can seem sometimes that because of our ability to recall it, the past dominates life so much that living in the present is thwarted.

Sometimes even the past holds toxic memories for us that spoil our potential for living both now and in the future.

The memories are like wounds we pick away at instead of letting them heal. We know we shouldn't, and we say we will not, yet we do it again and again and aggravate things for ourselves.

How complicated our pasts are and how locked away they are in memories and feelings. Accreting over the years are so many slivers of perception floating about in our consciousness that seem to belong to one "place" and time, even though on investigation nothing can ever quite be pinned down.

Of course much of what I have just expressed relies on language to pin things down and to describe things. But over the years I've experienced quite profoundly at times that language, the output of our enlightened human intellect, is not the be-all and end-all of our experiences as humans.

We believe that it is (and I certainly thought it was), but it isn't and I am beginning to think it can never be.

Language is only a tiny part of our experience as creatures on the planet but we've allowed it to dominate so much of our lives. Now granted, better communication improves all sorts of situations, but it can't be scaled infinitely.

Everywhere there are believers, the "-ists" who want their feelings and their views to be put into words and flung into every corner of the world.

I hung out with someone who had the habit of saying "well, science has proved it" quite a lot, and science is an interesting example of our attempts at using language to dominate arguments, because its proof only lasts until someone else's proof changes things.

A hundred years ago you and I would have been living in world where the radio was getting a foothold after the war, much like the internet has done over the last 20 years. Back at the start of the last century the greatest minds of our time, the cleverest scientists who were headed towards thinking up all of our twentieth century achievements would have unanimously agreed that the radio waves travelled through "the ether", which we couldn't see or hear or even prove existed, because no one could get their heads around the idea of an experience beyond human perception and explainability.

Now the ether exists only as a linguistic anomaly to remind us of the days when electromagnetic waves had to pass through something. We couldn't just observe them, and so we gave it a name which eventually became redundant.

I had my own experiences of how language was inadequate a few years back. Bob Weir was one of the guitarists of the Grateful Dead and he had some of his guitars customised to suit his individual style. I saw a picture of his famous pink stratocaster guitar in the 1980s which had been customised by a company called Modulus and something very strongly within me was stirred when I saw it.

It was a feeling that was stronger than the words that I could find to explain it, and I was intrigued by both what it could be and what I might be experiencing. I thought about it a lot, and knew that it mattered somehow, but whatever it was was out of reach.

Then one morning when I was walking to catch the train for work I realised what the feeling was! The photo of the pink stratocaster actually meant the same thing to me as the Breton instrument known as the Biniou. When I made that association in my mind it was as if a puzzle had been solved, a door unlocked and yet...

...the biniou is the strangest of instruments and logically to me has no resemblance at all to a guitar. The biniou is a variant of European bagpipes, only instead of having a chanter and multiple drones the biniou has just one drone and a tiny soprano chanter - the melody we'd normally expect from the bagpipes is played by a different musician on a different instrument called the bombard. The biniou melody is actually very high pitched and shrill and it was this tiny chanter that really struck the jackpot for me when I made the realisation about the guitar that morning.

Until that moment the mystery was intense, and it seemed so romantic and massive and relevant and incredible and unreachable, like if I could get the answer then "all will be revealed". When it slotted together I was like "THAT's IT!" and I was elated, until I realised later on how absurd it all was. I shifted from "THAT's IT!" to "...hang on...that's IT?!?". My heart was satisfied by a completely random association.

Well in that case, "it" was most definitely "it"...but language was not enough to make sense of whatever was going on.

If you've lasted this long, write to me in the comments and let me know what you think. Bye for now, until the next time.

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Naming all the names

From the middle of England, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR.

Hello to you out there in the world, wherever you may be. I’m here in the middle of England, in the middle of summer 2021 – I hope you are having a great day wherever you are.

In case you were ever wondering why my channel is called Random and Relaxing ASMR, it’s partly because I make use of random number functions to make my videos.

Creating content can be hard, so I wanted to build something in the video making process from the start which would allow me to make the videos different to each other in some way, and dedicating some choices to chance seemed to be a good idea.

So the most obvious one is the melody in my intros – each one of those is chosen by a random number function. The notes all have numbers, and the sequence is chosen at random.

The colours I use in the title and ending backgrounds are also chosen at random, and if you have watched “The Voice Of Random And Relaxing ASMR” before, then you may have spotted that the colour of the tape recorder (or the cassette depending on which version you see) also changes. These are all decided by random numbers in the programs I use to help me make the videos.

You will also have noticed if you are a regular visitor to my channel that I post a type of video where there is an animated background of moving coloured dots, hoops or squares.

This was the original video idea for my channel and came from watching slime videos. I wanted to be able to generate something as visually appealing as slime without having to film it each time.

I came up instead with the idea to have something that was brightly coloured and moving to hopefully keep the audience’s attention and complement the audio.

I’ve recently revamped how I create these patterns, but the original software engine used a preset colour combination system for the moving, coloured parts, and there were 96 in total.

Each one had its own number, but also its own codename, and I though I’d share those today as it was fun thinking up all the names.

Here we go...

001 - black cherry 002 - mint choc 003 - deep sea 004 - pink cadillac 005 - leafier green 006 - fuzzy plum 007 - lilac time 008 - mossy 009 - sandy 010 - cherry cherry 011 - mild violet 012 - purple park 013 - blue mint 014 - super fuzzy spangles 015 - american tan 016 - moss rings 017 - stewed plums 018 - american blue tan 019 - inverted moss rings 020 - spinach pasta 021 - formica doldrums 022 - bicerin 023 - deadly berries 024 - jaguar jones 025 - lemon meringue 026 - blue deluxe 027 - darkmint 028 - peach deluxe 029 - crisis files 030 - citron tissue 031 - bordello 032 - bas-relief 033 - rose petals 034 - mintergreen 035 - smoke summer 036 - ancient map 037 - kokomo 038 - brainiac 039 - exercise book 040 - blue grime 041 - smoke rings 042 - mintsmoke 043 - autumnsmoke 044 - blueboys 045 - bikeshop 046 - superlemon 047 - gardenfate 048 - posset 049 - deluxe cupcake 050 - healthy 051 - murky pond 052 - eagle child 053 - sandgold 054 - inkblot 055 - budgie 056 - pink frosting 057 - log cabin 058 - creepsville 059 - wimbledon 060 - bathroom 061 - carpet tile 062 - menthol 063 - violet love 064 - squeezeajif 065 - tennis club 066 - tape recorder 067 - paisley diary 068 - brackenberry 069 - pink lady 070 - minty oink 071 - villa 072 - limespinach 073 - canary 074 - keylime 075 - whippet 076 - spurs 077 - nitro 078 - jellyseed 079 - magnolia 080 - zapandtinkle 081 - mintgrime 082 - smashedhits 083 - poloagogo 084 - yuppyhoops 085 - toil 086 - orangemint 087 – liquorice lilac 088 - violetdust 089 - cracklemint 090 - deepdown 091 - orangedust 092 - british icing green 093 - carnation 094 - carnation deluxe 095 - heartsong 096 - dartboard

What a concoction that all was.

I hope you enjoyed it – what was your favourite? Leave me a comment!

Bye for now.

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Travelling through time

From the middle of England, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR.

Remember – I love to hear from people who are listening to this. Leave a comment and let me know where you are in the world, or ask me a question, or suggest something for me to discuss. I’m here in the middle of England – where in the world are you?

If we think of time as a linear concept, we appear to be going forwards as we inhabit the days of our lives and get older.

This gives rise to the notion of time passing somehow, like something moving, and the idea that we ourselves are moving through time. We live our lives at the leading edge of time, between the future and the past, and even if we don’t do anything at all, the world is going around, time is passing and we are moving into the future and leaving the past behind.

What we leave behind can be called history, whether it is the history of the entire world, or just our own lives.

When we get nostalgic we go from our point right now, at the leading edge of life and we think back to, or we remember, or we experience emotionally what it was like “back then”.

But whenever or whatever “back then” was...it was the leading edge of our life, just like this moment is right now.

This yearning for a different time, but just another ordinary moment fascinates me because I get nostalgic for so many times in my life, but I have rarely been aware at these times that I was bookmarking something special for the future. I was just living my life.

So if “then” was just as everyday as right now, why do we look back to “then” as being more worthwhile of our thoughts and dreams and passions than right now today?

Of course we’ve all had times where we’ve felt on top of the world, but one can so often be nostalgic about absolutely the most uneventful times in our lives, and we can even have nostalgia for times when things weren’t going so well (as opposed to bad memories of an upsetting time).

So why is the pull of nostalgia so strong – how is it that it can throw us back into the past with the simplest of prompts? Just a melody, or the faintest scent of a perfume.

Why do we give into nostalgic daydreams when we could be living in the moment, the same moment that will become a nostalgic moment one day in the future when it’s tangible meaning has gone from our lives?

It baffles me, and yet it goes on and on, safe in the knowledge even that what I am doing right now...will one day be a memory.

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The tomato and the peach

From the middle of England, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR.

Remember – I love to hear from people who are listening to this. Leave a comment and let me know where you are in the world, or ask me a question, or suggest something for me to talk about. I’m here in the middle of England – where are you?

If I take a peach and a tomato and place them side-by-side on a wooden chopping board, we can see two fruits. Different fruits, but both spherical, ripe fruits. If I then cut each of them in half (and remove the peach stone), we can see that the outside of each fruit is different to the inside too.

If I then slice each of them up I can arrange them on the board and we would see that bits of them would blend (such as their juices). When this happens they might not suit each other perfectly in terms of taste, but you would still notice similarities that compliment each other such as sweetness, even if that’s only on paper rather than on your tongue.

Nevertheless, at this stage I could pick out the slices of one or the other if the mix wasn't to our liking and we could still enjoy each of them separately with only a hint of the flavour of one impairing the other.

Now, if they are left together for a while things start to get very mixed up. You still have two fruits, but each starts to go soft and each loses more of their juice. The peach and the tomato remain themselves of course, but they are now blended much more.

Just slicing and placing the two different fruits together whilst time passes results in this change. By this stage if I decide this experiment in mixing isn't really what I thought it would be and I manage to take the tomato out...we will be left with very tomatoey peaches.

For some reason after they are taken out, you never see the tomato slices again, and given how disagreeable the mix ended up, you don't really want to. It is never revealed what happens to the tomato slices.

But what do you do with the peaches? Forever more they taste of tomatoes, even though they are still peaches. Even if it is decided to abandon everything and wipe the peach slices and the juice off the board to start again, there may well be a stain that remains and a taste imparted to anything that touches that formerly fruity and sweet area.

We might even try and scrub away the stain...which might just be traumatic. The chopping board meanwhile might be an heirloom that you could never part with easily.

After that, every time you see a tomato, even if it comes from another place, you know what the inside looks like and you can never forget the taste. Peaches never seem quite so sweet either.

This...is a bit like things that have happened...in the last few years. In many ways.

But...whatever, we survive and we learn and we move on.

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What are you waiting for?

From the middle of England, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR.

We're all waiting for something. And I mean REALLY waiting.  Not, like waiting for our exams to be over, or waiting for the next pay cheque, or waiting for the kids to leave home, or getting a new job, or even getting divorced or waiting for granny to die.

We are waiting for something bigger, harder, scarier, more life threatening, more life affirming, something to really talk about. Something to make you want to say you were there when it happened, something to really write home to the future about.

And I realised I don't know what it is, and I don't think you know what it is either. In the meantime we've all got to wait, and in the meantime we're all just going through the motions.

Surely it was COVID? What did you think of that? Well, I think even in spite of the pandemic, “the wait” is still bigger.

It seems that for so long now, whilst we wait, we pour our energy into social media. Why do we bother any more? Because there is nothing else to do. Is the most significant part of social media the act of skipping to the next post, because each post just says “I am here, you are there, and you are not where I am, and where I am is better”?

What really happens in between "going for a coffee" and "having lunch"?

Even though I am doing it now, I try not to think about things like that too much; I could worry about how many of you haven't even bothered to click on this and are actually either not listening to me, or have found something better somewhere else. Of course...it doesn't really matter I suppose. We are still waiting.

What is social media anyway? How many accounts are run by people for whom lots of it is “just a job”? Are we amateurs in a professional world, or professionals in an amateur world?

Someone wants to sell something, someone wants to get on with their career in marketing, someone else has got an agenda to make themselves rich, many of us get sucked into the esteem of being an influencer and bypass being interested in the genre, the algorithms just want to keep you tapping on your screens...and some of us are just plain stupid.

What's the point in all that?

Only to canonise individuals at the top of search results, comments and likes. Or react to or rank someone’s output, the equivalents of "best of" albums of yore, followed by someone else’s ranking and someone else’s reaction. We can always cancel them when they get too big.

And yet, we are all the same behind the keyboard. Any kind of fight is an emptied, vacant gesture, a never ending nervous wriggle! Our uptight anxiousness finds vulgarity in the everyday, and yet our boredom looks to the everyday for vulgarity.

Our lives seem to ebb and flow until we don't know the danger of what we're doing or the violence that's come to surround us, and even if we do we just have to flow along anyway, treading water just to survive.

We try and make a home from all the right component parts and it still doesn't work quite right, because we don't even know what home is anymore! We gag and bind things and put them in bondage, only to tear them back open in some attempt to speed things up.

I'm waiting, you're waiting. Can we wait any more...?!?!?!?

[randomandrelaxing]

What is it that you are searching for?

From the middle of England, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR, and I’d like to say “hello” to you listening out there, wherever in the world you may be. Why not leave me a comment and let me know where I find you right now?

Here, just because they are interesting, are the top 88 search terms from YouTube for my videos. There are more than actually 88 in the analytics, because YouTube includes phrases which have the same words in but in a different order (like male ASMR and ASMR male). I’ve tried to weed out the repetition.

I thought you might be interested to hear what people are searching for when they end up on my channel. Bearing in mind most of these words and phrases also have ASMR as either a prefix or a suffix, and I’ve left out “ASMR” simply to stop me going mad repeating all those times.

Anyway, here we go...

male crinkle different language positive affirmations tapping fast and aggressive crinkles fast tapping clothes scratching languages aggressive male whisper positive affirmations male unintelligible whisper aggressive no talking aggressive tapping gummy bears gummy candy in different languages male whispers sorting whisper ramble pants scratching pixie lott shorts scratching vaporwave acrylic nails tapping asmr #shorts affirmations blanket chocolate tapping clothes cologne crinkles no talking echo whisper fabric sounds fast aggressive fast and aggressive no talking fast and aggressive plucking fast and aggressive triggers no talking fast tapping aggressive fast tapping no talking in english jacket language lid sounds no talking male voice nail tapping nails no talking tapping poetry positive affirmations for men rain whisper ramble ramble male ramble whisper scarf scratching cloth shirt soft spoken male tape tapping aggressive tapping fast aggressive tapping with nails voices british male cassettes crazy colour hair dye delight different languages fabric gummy hair dye nails scratching nails tapping plastic crinkle relaxing voice sandy clay scratching jeans tapping no talking unintelligible man leather jacket sound perfume pineapple

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Poems, Shakespeare and Dazzle Ships

From the middle of England, this is the voice of random and relaxing ASMR.

You may have noticed I’m reading some of my old poems in some of my videos. It is interesting for me to look back over old things I have written and think about the person I was. Sometimes you can seem like a stranger to yourself, and sometimes you read things and realise there are threads that pass unbroken through your life for years and years.

It’s fun to give these pieces a chance to live again through a YouTube video. Back when I wrote some of these things it was impossible to think of them being shared in this way, because they are from the days before YouTube...maybe even in some cases from the days before...the internet.

It’s interesting too to think about the difference between the written word and the spoken word. You can share written words easily so long as other people can read your language, whether it’s a handwritten note or a page in a diary, or printed words in a book or zeroes and ones in an email.

But what’s lost is the human connection from speech – the rhythms and accents and emphasis in our voices.

In the UK when I grew up we studied the great bard William Shakespeare in school, but back then nearly all of the classroom time was spent reading his plays in books and writing essays about them. If you were lucky you might get to go on a trip to see a play actually being performed live on stage in the format he intended to share his works. But for the most part we read and analysed and discussed his plays in a form very different from the one he created them in. Somehow this was deemed correct, but it was so far from the reality of his craft.

I wonder what Shakespeare would have made of YouTube and whether he’d have been a YouTuber instead of a playwright. Moreover, I wonder who, today in our land of internet connectivity, is going to stand the test of time and still be talked about in 500 years time?

Who knows…

Notoriety and the idea of living on in the future is sometimes beyond our control. The previous episode of The Voice of Random and Relaxing ASMR was called “Music For Your Tape Recorder” and was me playing guitar.

But the title that I gave the video was actually the first line in a song called “This is Helena” by the group Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark from their LP “Dazzle Ships”. I was listening to that LP in my car the other day and had forgotten about the song. I guess it had subconsciously come to me as an idea because of the animated tape recorders that I use for these video pieces.

“Dazzle Ships” is a really interesting, experimental album. The song “This is Helena” is a collage of sounds; the vocal is part of a recording of a radio announcer from an overseas radio station in the 1980s.

It’s odd to think of Helena in her studio at her radio station job, announcing to the world and not realising she was being picked up on a radio in Liverpool by a pop group, who then used her voice in a song on their record and preserved her in a new art form. You should check the song out – it’s easy enough to find on the big old internet.

As ever, if you are still listening, I would love to hear from you, wherever you are. Drop me a line in the comments or send me a direct message.