I just turned 31.
I thought about how I had some weird panic attack I guess in high school and thought I would die around my late 20s. My mother told me to pray. I did. Maybe I thought my prayer pushed it back to my 30s. I probably prayed against that outcome too.
But now I'm in my early 30s with known but unconfirmed Rona.
Why do I imagine the worst? Why should I? Why shouldn't I?
I'm having too many thoughts right now and I'm itching.














