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[glittergroovy]

Daddy's Girl Interlude - Latto

[raposada]

Do you ever Remember

[simonn0el]

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[dying-weeds]

[rabbittongues]

[traumatizeddfox]

“but it wasn’t that bad”

did it hurt? did you feel scared? unsafe? were you embarrassed? humiliated? terrified? did you feel confused on why? does it keep you up at night? do you avoid being in a similar situation? did you cry? did you want to cry? who told you it wasn’t that bad?

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so many ableism episodes this week

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I'm just wasting space at this moment

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I know i'll be on a flare up soon once I start waking up tense and my whole body sore from graphic nightmares.

Sudden waves of fear and terror out of nowhere.

Then, once again, I get stuck on being way too scared of my thoughts to be awake and way too scared of my unconscious thoughts while I'm asleep.

I wish I could turn it off for a while.

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For The Love Of God

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I don't have to see you right now

[dreams-incorporated]

I don't want this to happen again

[simonn0el]

I Hope The Guilt Eats You Alive

[aurangg]

Gotta love it when not even my sleeping hours are pleasant and I have to tolerate trauma nightmares that attack me from multiple directions.

[raposada]

it doesn't matter

how many pieces of cake I'll eat

how many plushies I'll buy

how many comforting shows I'll have to watch

none ever reach the feeling I'm so desperately searching for:

"now I'm comfortable, everything finally feels better"

It doesn't.

Life did get better, things are great.

but in moments like these I understand how ocd got itself in. I desperately search for the salvation I needed in those moments

when I was laying on that cold floor at my best friend's 9th birthday party and then running for my life

when someone kept showing me those videos

when my mom said I could never go back to that friends house and I can't remember why

I needed to be saved. I crave the feeling of safety and relief but it will never happen because It never happened back then.

Sit with the discomfort. Help won't come.

[creepozoid-temple-of-viv]

[ether--net]

[rotting-bitch]

I need a father, I need a mother, I need an older, wiser being to cry to. I talk to god but the sky is empty