I was not surprised that my mom didnt say happy birthday cause i pulled the king of cups reversed (masculine water energy, my mom is man in a pisces women’s body) clarified with the four or wands (celebrations). (Combined “represents someone who is vindictive and has a talent for being able to punish others through emotional manipulation. He uses emotional blackmail to get his way and to push his personal agenda. He leaves you feeling uncertain about yourself and as if you are the problem, not him. This only leads to undeserved emotional instability within you. Release yourself from their controlling forces.” Biddy Tarot - king of cups reversed) but about my birthday
She does it on purpose cause if she wanted to she would. Ive seen her hug and give other kids praise in churches or in stores or anywhere actually. And it used to fuck me up, not being enough, but im not crying about it. Just observing.
But i know I’ll have better birthdays with people who care about me and cerebrate me easily.
Other cards i got when i asked what the day gives:
• justice with two of cups reversed (taking accountability for a falling out)
• king of pentacles with ace of swords reversed (a conversation seeking deeper truth into masculine financially disciplined energy will go a long way and set s.m.a.r.t goals to focus on self instead of being codependent on them for companionship)
And eventually..
• nine of pentacles (self sufficiency, independence, in harmony with environment)
king of wands sideways (ongoing drive to move forward against obstacles)
knight of pentacles reversed (need for self discipline, journey of self development, a routine will support success)
page of wands reversed (dispel limiting beliefs, understanding comes from within, keep new spiritual and personal path to yourself)
the hierophant reversed (wisdom comes from within and becoming independent will feel unsettling cause its new but you are ready to go alone. Make your own rules and reclaim personal freedom)
• death reversed (need to let go of the past to start over. Embrace change, massive personal transformation)
