About my relationship with Adam
We met when he was in the 3rd grade and I was in 4th. We grew up a few blocks from each other. Me always initiating a friendship and or close bond was hard because he was so shy. Home life for me was rough so I never got the opportunity to be even closer to Adam when we were kids because my ex stepdad would heavily sexualize boy and girl friendships. It was the weirdest thing and super creepy.
Anytime we were on the playground kids were always really mean to him. I would always shoo them away or stand up for him.
Anytime his mom would walk him to and from school I would always tell Adam hi. His Mom remembers me too which is even cooler.
During middle school I started changing into my own person. I went from Emo to Goth. I'm not sure he knew how to handle that. He was very quiet and did not talk to me. Thought he hated me. But in all reality he was just extremely intimidated by me. He was into videogames. Not music at the time.
During my sophomore year of high school he and I started dating. We dated for about a good 10 months or so until I got tired of his immaturity and lack of understanding. I went and dated this guy named Johnny he ended up cheating on me.
I later on went back to Adam. I don't remember how long we dated. But things were really bad after a while. It got toxic. We started screaming and fighting. We would insult each other and everything.
When I was 17 Adam and I weren't careful enough and I was pregnant for maybe a good 3 weeks? I ended up miscarrying really bad. I couldn't tell a soul. Not up until this year and some people and my family wouldn't believe or were in shock.
During the ending of our relationship then it was horrible for both of us. He was neglecting me emotionally, would send pics of half naked chicks. We were inexperienced with s3x at the time and I would partake and not be sober during and consented to it while he stayed sober. I consented. People I was friends with tried to accuse him of a VERY serious word. If I thought it was Rap3 I would've said it and would have never gotten back with him. Sure after the breakup it seemed a little icky but I never said it was that word. People who know me understand that I am always honest and open as a book. What you see is what you get. People who tried accusing me of accusing Adam are pathetic. Just remember, if people try to skew your experiences and accuse someone of something that isn't true they already hated them in the first place.
Adam and I broke up on father's day because I chose to be petty.
But I was very reasonably upset.
Later down the line he got with a girl named Tobias who ended up telling me to delete myself from existence knowing I would try. She also cheated on Adam with a guy from Chicago or Cali I don't remember. She is a very dangerous person. It's sad.
She was ALWAYS obsessed with me knowing she could never be me as a lot of people could observe.
In August of last year I dated a guy from Illinois. I met him through an app called Turn up. At first he seemed open and honest. He lied to me about a lot and even his ex before me. His mom is absolutely horrible and is very rude. She would hold it over my head that she had him young. Told me not to ruin "HIS" life. Like wow, thanks. What about my life???
Dating him was exhausting. He wouldn't even socialize with my parents. It made me mad. I made all the effort to talk to his. He would make me choose between my then full time job I worked for at the time or choose him. He was never honest with me. He made me look like an asshole just because he didn't clearly communicate his feelings acting like it was all okay.
He and I broke up a year later. He tried to tell his friends I was a shit gf yet I did a lot for him.
Adam and I got back together late August early September 2024.
We are a lot happier this time.
I'm working on bettering my mental health, getting diagnosed with bi-polar, getting a car, and moving out.
Adam is working on getting a new job in trades.
We have had a few tiffs but it's worked out great. I love him. Always will.
People stopped being friends with me because they didn't understand. MY answer is, it happened in highschool. I am friends with my old middleschool bullies for f's sake.
People are too bitter and will hold onto grudges if they want.
Nobody stays an asshole forever. It's your choice to forgive.
It's very rare I give people chances anymore. IF it happened during or before highschool I will give chances. People deserve grace at times depending on what it is.
Author's note: I will be sharing the most sensitive topics and good stuff too along with the bad. My goal is to share that life isn't always sunshine and rainbows. You have to roll with the punches.