It still makes my stomach turn. Maybe not as much. But it does. I don’t like feeling angry or upset and I know its 1am and I’m tired but I don’t care. April 4th 2018 was a day I’ll remember for a while. It’s great how things are now. And I’m happy for how far we’ve come. But you still did what you did. No matter how happy I made you. It still happened. And if that had been anyone else I wouldn’t have been with them. I would be talking about a person no longer in my life. But here you are. Laying next to me snoring. I don’t know when I’ll let this go. Or if I’ll ever let it go at all. Time heals all wounds. Maybe it just hasn’t been long enough.












