Raygina

[rayginaprettyas]

when you have trust issues and when you start to learn to believe again, but people you trust let you down. is it wrong to believe in someone? why does someone always abuse trust? why can't someone keep the trust? you have become a friend to me, i tell you all my problems, even you know how sad i was at that time, but why are you now stabbing me in the back? i’m tired of trust issues. i’ve been disappointed about trust so many times, actually i was traumatized to believe in someone. why should you destroy my trust? and now you don't even feel guilty.

- & btw I hope you are well, have a nice day, don't listen to sad songs 24/7 like me ✌🏻

[rayginaprettyas]

i don't know why i have to look at it, maybe it's God's way of showing me you are not good? i really don't know.

one by one revealed.

[cutenapatatas]

Happy Valentine's Day to all the people around the world! 💕💖💗

- Happy Valentine's to all those who are in a relationship now, may your relationship lasts 'til the end.

- Happy Valentine's to all those married couple that may God gave you strong bond to overcome those negative thoughts of separating. Always remember that marriage should have commitment and contentment, always!

- Happy Valentine's to all those broken, friend-zoned, ghosted, and separated that may God gave you the right one that will not make you cry, and leave in the end. You deserve the right one!

- And lastly, Happy Valentine's to all those single out there! Cheer up! Whatever the reasons behind your status now, always be happy. Work on your goals and let the right one to come to you.

[olearypoetry]

[rayginaprettyas]

i gave you a gift on valentine’s day but you refused it. i’m just trying to be good, but every time i act nice to you, you always hurt me again and again. i’m hurts but i can’t cry even though i really want to cry

[rayginaprettyas]

you said you don't have any desire except me and if you put your step on anywhere in heart you'll find me. but why? why u leave me?

[rayginaprettyas]

if you love me, why you leave me?

[rayginaprettyas]

You came back to my life and I just accepted you. after 3 days you just left me. I thought you changed, I thought you would stay with me, I thought we would forever. but I'm wrong, you're still the same, you haven't changed. You just left me for no apparent reason, like you always do. can you just once give me a reason why you just leave me? just once.

oh god, why do you let him always come back to me if he's not for me?

[rayginaprettyas]

one thing you should know, i will always be there for you when you need. my shoulders are always there for you to lean back and my ears are always there to listen to your complaints.

[lohver]

REMINDER: it only takes one second to say:

- i love you.

- i apologize.

- can we talk?

- you were right.

- i am sorry.

stop letting your pride & ego hold you hostage from the happiness in life.

[rayginaprettyas]

i want you to be okay, i want you to always take care of your health, or if you may allow me to pay attention to you? sorry if this is too much but, i just want you to be okay.

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

“Tonight, when the Moon delivers my thought to you, I hope you will come to know how much I still care, and how I never really let you go all this while.”

— Lukas W. // All this while

[rayginaprettyas]

and i hope you do the same thing even though it's impossible.

[rayginaprettyas]

it's been 4 days since we talked, do you know what i'm afraid of? i’m afraid that someday you will leave me without a reason again, when i already believe that you will stay with me. i beg you to not letting me down again and again, i’m tired to keep forgive you and letting you back in my life. i want, i really want to not let you do that over and over again but i just can’t, i can’t hate you.

[rayginaprettyas]

i have to write something before i fall asleep.

dear boy, i hate when you just know me one day and say "do you have a boyfriend? if not, may i be your boyfriend? i'm serious." like hello, are you aware? really very stupid and surely the answer is no. indeed i am very very picky. and with your attitude like that, really pisses me off. you will get an auto block bruh. and if you are over 20, think like a man. not like a child. smfh

[rayginaprettyas]

yesterday you sent a message to me and I was very happy. because finally I can talk to you even through messages. and in fact my feelings are still the same, you always make me happy. Every time I read a message from you, I always smile. even my friend said that you are my reason for being happy. I hope you can feel that too, that you are my reason for being happy. because you always doubt yourself, you always say that you always make me sad. no, not really. with you beside me, I always feel happy. but instead, if you are far away, like half of my soul is gone. and you always say that you are not good to me. oh my dear, nothing is perfect in this world. even i am not perfect. but it is from imperfections that we complement each other. but now? I just hope you're fine.

[rayginaprettyas]

i try to forget you, i try to open my heart. but i still can't. every time i’m close to men and want to open my heart, i feel like i'm having an affair. even though we haven't been in a relationship for a long time, i still feel you are always with me, always.

[rayginaprettyas]

always you

Days passed and I still think of you every day, whatever I do, whatever I experience. I miss sharing stories with you. I miss your advice, I miss your laughter, I miss sharing the joys and sorrows with you. At my lowest point, you say "remember I am always here with you, no matter what happens, I will not let anyone hurt you." And until now if someone hurts me, I always remember your words, I want to share with you but unfortunately I can't and you leave me without a reason. do you remember we always say "your happiness is my happiness, your sadness is my sadness." it's been 380 days, always you and only you. do you still feel the same as me?