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Jesse Pinkman & Skyler White watch AMC's Breaking Bad together

spiritual successor to this

#breaking bad #favorite #the implication of skyler's cough is hitting me where it hurts right now #stress of living with walt leads to smoking leads to developing the same form of cancer he did. fuuuuuuuuuuuckkk #that stingssss. its like. goddamn this might be too much but it does remind me of what happened with my parents yknow #there's life after a shitty marriage but its different. you're a woman in your forties or fifties and its different #seeing that kind of thing in a lot of women i know recently (my mom is literally in remission) and it really is just like...#the quiet churning of women going through it being the strong one over and over again burning through their lives #for a responsibility that a man doesn't feel any need to reciprocate. you know? maybe even resents #all the work you do gets taken as so intangible as to be meaningless just--bringing it back--like skyler asking for the truth #all this work this labor this vulnerability this tedium and the only thing you want isn't 'real' or material enough to respect #you'll die for me but you won't do anything that requires being here with me like people #and its like. its not tangible but the stress is an epigenetic factor in a shitton of diseases particularly cancer #and then what will you do. if it was you who got sick would he be there for...?#am i making sense right now. its 2 in the morning and im stalling on homework which ill go do now. thanks for listening

even thinking about my spider bites makes me sick to my stomach they were so cute when they worked but they worked so so so rarely and that entire two months i couldn't think about anything else but how they kept snagging my gums.......

#ohhhh my god im so sad. I LOVE PIERCINGS SO MUCH ITS NOT FAAAAAIIIIIIIIR #I WAS SO HOOOOOOOOOTTTT

well . bridge piercing rejected

#i love piercings i would love if they would stop rejecting on me please .#we had a good run...made it a little over a year...#i was warned it probably wouldnt last just because i dont have much tissue to support it #and at the time i was like all life is transient nothing is permanent bridge me up my fellow man #not the case today...i really liked that fuckin piercing dude !!!#story of my life maybe one day i will have a piercing last. im down to one lobe and a redone eyebrow. its over......#rip my bridge piercing and my nostril piercing and my first eyebrow piercing and my spider bites you were all so sexy

dovemoulins

finch fancam❤

#video #birds #favorite #it's been a long week. pass the i've got finches on my mind will ya

ANYWAY how are all of you this year? it has been awhile and i do miss you. i wish it was easier to sit and do nothing together online

oh bother i should take a nice long bath or something. i think i will in a bit. perhaps ill even bring a nice book to read, and, if im feeling particularly avaricious, light a candle

#i would bring in a snack but i dont have any besides soups and those are not good bath eating.

before you ask YES buzz is currently unmedicated thank you for wondering. im doing great

#i need to start making appointments with my psychologist again. i have meds i just keep not taking them for some dumbass reason #i dont knowww im tired of paying money for things im TIREDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i wish i was drawing and writing right now and not avoiding homework and developing an ed!! life could be dream!!!

while we're talking stories, the amount of times i've read a heartbreakingly good story that somehow lists holly black cassandra clare and leigh bardugo in the acknowledgements knocks the WINDDDDDD out of me. its kind of like if you listened to a sudan archives album and in the tracklist she thanked katy perry

#and THIS one is about THE BOOK OF LOVE by KELLY LINK which i really really enjoyed!!!#so i dont understand how these people keep ending up in the acknowledgements!!! be SERIOUS!!!

there really are so many novels about divorce and specifically short story collections. dont get me wrong there are novels about other things too ive read them but god damn the amount of times ive picked up a book of short stories and every single one of them is an apolitical meandering snoozefest about a woman who feels too intelligent for her good-natured but airheaded husband is a little surprising. good for women in male-dominated fields i guess but it is disappointing from time to time

#this is specifically about BIRDS IN AMERICA by LORRIE MOORE which is not poorly written (though its like #bordering on obnoxious at times. i think she'd be a great noir writer *mildly derogatory*) but every single story is the same thing #it is just not very interesting but i like weirder stories anyway so why i'm reading these dull literary fictions anyway is beyond me #but like. okay this book was published in the 90s so i hope she worked out whatever she's going through because there is surely SOMETHING

la la la la la

hey if you were spending the night at someone else's house where your boyfriend has been crashing for three months would you shower together with him in these strangers' common bathroom

yeah sure

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Voting ended onOct 4, 2025

#am i going crazy. i feel like im going crazy.

i dont want to do two weeks of homework in advance i want to think about my story :(

#i have not menitoned it because i lurk now but i have been doing a lot of development on my winnie story recently #which is good. because i dont have anything else going on like perhaps college or a job or a wedding+funeral combo next week #...im stalling. i didnt understand the most recent statistics chapter i read </3 im stressed about it </3 #when i have free time i want to post my character roster...ive worked hard on them...

happy shortbox comics fair to all who celebrate

#stacked lineup this year. may have to go into debt for this one

if you go to a shitty sports bar on a wednesday night and use the weird modern jukebox to play vroom vroom then you can reduce the populace of the bar from a respectable seven patrons to three including yourself and a friend. big implications

#they could have left for unrelated reasons.#in my excitement that i had a dollar on me to afford the jukebox i forgot that that song is not 'good'#in my defense! i was going to play blaqrock but they were not available

i think i will queue posts until i calm down like a normal blogger who curates a blog and does not simply come online to wail and scream and then dip without actually interacting with anyone in a meaningful way. despite wanting to

#honestly there are so many friends on here and only here i want to catch up with but 1) ive been offline so much it feels weird #and 2) i really do not have socializing in me right now or almost ever. like it just does not come naturally to me at all #and i dont know how to start because at the end of the day i really do just need to be alone for 28 hours a day to stay calm #god. god. its all so fucked. WHATEVER

with how much bitching i do when i am on here (which is rarely now since this site is officially unusable if you are triggered by incest) you'd think i dont enjoy my classes this semester. im actually enjoying them quite a lot. statistics is really fun. psychology is mostly alright though sometimes maddening. motor learning is challenging (especially scheduling-wise) but really engaging and cool. why am i complaining

#im tired is why.#its mostly doing school AND work at the same time. very full schedule lots of social demands #and then i come home and its still people :(#our union contract got ratified after over a year including a pay raise for union members and so naturally #immediately anyone union got our hours cut so we're making the same anyway.#interestingly department heads are not union and were waiting on pay raises till the company saw how the union shit shook out #and they got raises and are already guaranteed at least40 hours so like i dont want to SAY retaliation but it is interesting isnt it #bargaining with this fucking company is like a monkeys paw situation i swear. aughhh AUGHHH IM SO FUCKING TIREDDDDD #IM TIRED AND IM BROKE AND HUNGRY AND MY HEAD HURTS A LITTLE AND I OWE THE HOSPITAL 2000 DOLLAR AND I CANT #FIND ANYTHING TO READ AND I HAVE HOMEWORK TO DO AND LAUNDRY TO DO AND WAH WAH WAH etc etc you get the point #i keep booking piercing+hair coloring appointments and then cancelling them overnight and throwing money away on deposits its like #ohhhhh this cannot continue. ohhhhh god what do i do with myself

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