Reality check re: future business owner Part I
So this is the post of a 30 something year old woman who has made a dent in her career thus far... and feels she has made it far enough in life that she can write in run on sentences if she’d like to, goddamnit.
This is the post of a woman who has lived a lot of her life for other’s (because it never fails to get me a paycheck) and who at this point is seeing the big picture, finally... I’ve been promoting and marketing and outreaching and busting my ass, essentially, for all of you all this time. You’re getting a percentage of my pay. You’re getting to say yes or no or “Come up with more ideas,” you haven’t even tried at the drop of a hat, and getting to reap the benefits of all of my hard work with little thank you and lots of “gimme gimme gimme”, “we need,” we need,” we need” uttered at the very next breath. PLUS I’ve heard enough of the “I’m going on vacation, but I’ll need you to think about working your breaks around mine, even though you work WAY harder than me and know way more about what’s going on than I do” to last to retirement.
But... I DON’T WANT THAT. WHY would I want to work for you another day, month, year, if all I am to you is a machine you disregard and see as an output, input, measure. BOY you will miss me when I am gone.
But, I am seeing all my hard work. I am seeing all my marketing, outreach, busting ass, paying off for ME in MY FUTURE, because I can do all this independently. IT’S WHAT I’VE BEEN DOING. And, I deserve it. My family deserves it. My client’s will appreciate it. I will kick myself for not doing it, because, God, if I have to deal with more “gimme,” gimme” gimme” or “I need,” I need,” I need,” from my boss without a “thank you,” “thank you, “thank you,” plus a “how do you it,” “how do you do it,” “how do you do it,” for too much longer, I am going to simply stop showing up to work. And that’s unfortunate, because I like mostly everybody at my work, except for my boss, who keeps work from being way better than it is, and that little curly haired first year who makes a “oonnnnh” noise before going “tsk, tsk tsk” with her tiny little tongue whenever she doesn’t understand something.
