One Day, You Will See.

Daily writing of why I love my partner and/or reasons he's perfect for me. Currently he's the unware but the me day I'll share. Until then, tumblr it is. Oh, and I tell him these things when they happen. Just nice to have it organized and dated.

[soulsacrosstime]

Love you forever and ever my Raggedy Man.

[reasonsilavayou]

You died. And I love you. I will not stop loving you. I am praying to all the gods, to the God, that I see you again. I love you.

[reasonsilavayou]

Things are hard

There is absolutely no way to sugar coat what you are going through. And yet, there you are, fighting. It would be easy to walk away right now. God knows you've been through the ringer the last week. But here you stand, still fighting. Doing what we all do - 'just get through to this point.' I just love you. Because you're you. Because you are my Raggedy Man who desires to look after me, keep me safe. Even when you are fighting this internal battle, when you are struggling. I love you. A bushel and a peck.

[earth]

[reasonsilavayou]

I love that we're married. Finally. Though it hasn't been that long we've known each other. You are my best friend and other half. Forever and always.

[disneybroughtmehope]

[reasonsilavayou]

I don't update much.

The whole 'eyes not seeing well up close' ruined Tumblr (and Reddit. And reading in general) for me. Tonight. You bargain with me. "You get to your goal size and we'll get you a little black dress.... and a pug.' Whether that happens or not.. thank you for getting me.

[reasonsilavayou]

Thank you for your patience.

I will forever say that. Your patience saves me from myself many days. Knowing that when I finally do crack, when the full fledged panic attacks hit, you won't leave. You're standing there rooting for me. Pointing out when I do well. You are a sign of hope, my Raggedy Man. I love you.

[ruasionnach]

Less than two months until I marry my best friend.

Amusingly I was having surgery on the exact two month mark.

:D

[reasonsilavayou]

I don't want to forget this.

You. This was my first time having surgery away from my parents. And I wouldn't change it. When I went back you were there. When I woke up you were there. Yours is the face I love to see. You take care of me. You help me put on my shoes after I decided to take them off. You kiss me. You suggested we go to a friends as the pain got worse and I got more frustrated. You speak reason to me. Even as I want to go to work tomorrow because I hate missing days you point out going could harm me. You bought me a toy fox. I saw it and you took it to the register knowing I'd say put it back. But you got it as my 'sick' gift and I will cherish it alll the more.

[reasonsilavayou]

I know I don't update this as much as you would like.

I am thankful for many reasons. I try to tell you daily. Or at least every other day. Tonight, however, I want to post this. I am terrified of storms. Like gentle storms, with lazy rumbling thunder I enjoy. I enjoy falling asleep to the sound while snuggling with you. Tonight, though, it was thunder cracks so loud it caused car alarms to go off. There was a tornado warning. You tell me to prepare me if it happens. And you see the panic set in. You continue telling me, while I shook, because I needed it. Because you knew I needed to know so my brain would be able to react if it came to that. I thank you for that. And then when I said I was calling my parents you didn't even try to hold me back. And that means a lot. I'm 25 - about to marry you and I feel silly wanting to talk to them. They calm me down, because they say they'll pray and sometimes that's what I need. And just.. thank you. Thank you for understanding and for protecting me.

[ruasionnach]

Our relationship.

Watching Criminal Minds with @jackalandibis

Reid says - “There’s an old Buddhist saying that, when you meet your soulmate, remember that the act to bring you together was 500 years in the making. So always appreciate and be kind to each other.”

Raggedy Man proceeds to smack my boob (lightly and teasingly). I then proceed to burst into laughter.

I love our relationship. So so much.

[reasonsilavayou]

Why I'm dating this man...

We must licks balls precious. But we hates it!

[reasonsilavayou]

You take me to the Christmas Eve Service

And stay with me.

[reasonsilavayou]

Not gonna lie. I got really sad when you asked my to stop talking about it. Because this, this is my favorite Christmas movie. It's tied at the top with the Muppet Christmas Carol. But we came home. You told me to open a present. And it was this. Thank you. I love you.

[reasonsilavayou]

How well you know me.

How you got me circus peanuts when even I forget I like them. And Reese cups (even though you can't have them). And sour patch kids. How your hugs can make my mind stop in a good way. How you reassure me that it's okay even if I don't feel like it. I love you.

[reasonsilavayou]

It's not feeling very Christmasy

And I can't say why. It just seems to not be in the air. And I had a mini meltdown earlier because of it. And we went to see Fantastic Beasts. We just got back and you're putting up lights inside. Right where I imagined. You always help me keep my happy place. To bring me back from sadness.

[reasonsilavayou]

Just had what is probably the best 'welcome home' sex ever.