“I know, I’m just — I’m just trying to stay out of
everyone’s way, y’know? I’m basically your
extra luggage –”
She does her best, to make it sound enough like she’s joking, smirking gently as she leans into his palm. God, she hated seeing that look on his face, even if it was tempered with something more affectionate.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t – I didn’t mean to worry you, I
shouldn’t have said anything in the first place —”
Honestly, she didn’t know what she’d been thinking. Half the time things just slipped out – but he’d always been easy to admit things to. Maybe it was because she trusted him – or maybe she just didn’t like it when there were things he didn’t KNOW. Her eyes close – just for a second, one hand running it’s way down his side. The last thing she wanted to do was admit that her stomach lurched just at the THOUGHT of him leaving again.
She also knew she couldn’t just ask him to stay.
“I’ll be fine. If you have to – go. I’ll manage. I don’t
want you to worry about that —”
There’d be more than enough to worry about already, if he had to leave. She was more than sure of that, at least.
Her attempt to make the self-depreciating comment sound like a joke fails spectacularly or perhaps he knows her to well to see it as JUST a joke but either way it only makes his worried expression all the more obvious. If only she could see herself through his eyes, she'd see she was his whole damn world - not LUGGAGE.
❝-- You existin' isn't you bein' in anyones way and if
someone says different, you point 'em out to me because
I don't take well to LIARS.❞
Though thankful she cares for his feelings and worries so much, he doesn't want her to neglect her own - nor does he want her to feeling as though he isn't doimg enough to support her. If that is indeed the case then he'll change that, he'd do pretty much anything to ensure her happiness.
❝-- No, that's exactly why I want you tellin' me these things.
I'm your partner sweetheart, I'm kinda meant to worry about
you at least a little, y'know? I'm sure you do more than your
fair share of worryin' about me.❞
And god he wishes she didn't have to but it comes with the territory, he can't just stand by and hope any threats would get dealt with by someone else, not when it could be the world at stake. All he could promise was that he'd be careful and do his utmost to come home in one piece.
He doubts it's does much to make her feel at ease.
❝I'm gonna worry about it whether you want me to or not, I love
you and I want to be sure you're happy. I know things aren't always
ideal, a LOT has happened but.. I dunno, just don't like the thought
of you bein' lonely when I'm not around or feelin' as though you've
got no one else 'cause that ain't true.❞