way she goes

see ya later anorexia.

[imp-deactivated20171219-deactiv]

do any of you regularly think “FUCKKK i started talking about myself again im so conceited” while having a normal conversation with someone 

[abduction]

[melisica]

(by Marek K. Misztal)

[celestinevibes]

[recovery-elle]

Breakfast today: 8 oz Black coffee with stevia and cinnamon (0) 25g O’dough’s bagel thin (50) 1tsp PB2 with 1/2 tsp water mixed (7) Total:57kcal

[stonedglasss]

“there’s nothing poetic about crying yourself to sleep at 3 am because you know you’ll never be good enough.”

— depression is like a heavy weight on your chest you just can’t seem to push off.

[kathrynrecovering-deactivated20]

“There is no ‘safe’ way to engage in your disordered eating, you are literally playing with fire.”

— shout it louder for the people in the back

[twiggybones]

If you are tired of starting over again

Stop quitting

[recovery-elle]

I have really hit rock bottom emotionally with my eating disorder. 

But I am not at my lowest weight. 

I just wanted to throw that out there because weight has nothing to do with my eating disorder, and I feel like it has very little to do with most people’s. My lowest points emotionally and psychologically have not aligned with my lowest weights. 

My weight is just a side effect of my illness. 

[recovery-elle]

30g chick’n (49kcal) 40g kale (20 kcal) 0.3tbsp vegan dressing (13 kcal) 10g dried chickpeas (36kcal)

[recovery-elle]

Breakfast: -Coffee with stevia and cinnamon(0) -Gardin Lite muffin, banana chocolate chip (130) Total: 130 kcals

[putteredthoughts-blog]

[recovery-elle]

From Now On...

1. I am going to think for 10 minutes before eating anything. If I get hungry at 3:37, I will spend a minimum of 10 minutes thinking about what I am actually hungry for. 

2. I will prepare what I am going to eat. I will put it on a plate, and eat it with a utensil. I will sit down and think about what I am eating and be mindful. 

3. I will sip water while I eat. 

4. I won’t mindlessly snack out of the cupboard. Its a slippery slope. 

5. When I am done eating what is on my plate and I feel satiated, no matter how much I have finished, I will stop eating, clean up, brush my teeth, and leave the kitchen. 

[phandiva]

okay y’all here’s a wild concept: Me, without depression

[rrrroza-deactivated20161012]

[vilesangue]

[recovery-elle]

Hello lovely followers. Time to be real, honest, and push myself further. I cannot live with myself while posting triggering things about eating disorders to other vulnerable people. 

From now on, I am going to post honestly and openly about how I’m doing, but I won’t be posting anymore thin girls who are also likely struggling. 

I have been in and out of recovery for a while, which is why this blog isn’t consistent. However I want to encourage others now to stop posting too. Eating disorders are serious psychiatric conditions, and you deserve help, love, and support. 

It’s not okay to fetishize such an awful illness, especially one that has impacted my life so so much. Hope you understand. As always, feel free to shoot me a message if you need anything. 

Stay strong loves. xx