I may have a chart that looks kinda like the ultimate for being able to develop intuitive understanding of what others aren’t speaking about themselves- but I will never claim to be able to read anyone’s mind.
Amongst some of the biggest ways I’ve been hurt in my life is people projecting their own understandings onto my unusually revealing expression. The irony which a lot of people on the autism spectrum know is that the more honest and transparent you are, the more some people (generally dishonest ones themselves) might start to question the sincerity of your words and/or motives. 🙄
Literally the more you might share in hopes of trying to avoid misunderstanding (or often in my case, the more you might share because it’s very uncomfortable on a personal level to not find the words to represent my thoughts with the fullest accuracy), the more information you might be giving people to misinterpret through their filters.
The Cancer Moon is at the degree of my Mercury 🤯🗣️ right now; I knew there was a reason today has been bringing many thoughts about intuitively understanding others, and about my issues with people claiming telepathy. Neptune😶🌫️ opposite my Mercury explains all the projections from others/society, and people just not knowing how to approach me, 🌫️ a natural result of this very expressive 5th house Mercury opposing the 11th opening up to share. It also explains (part of) why I probably have a bit of an advantage at being able to understand what others aren’t saying… even though I would not claim to be totally sure of the details without proof! ❌
Saturn opposite my Mercury explains why I’m so compelled to try to find the most accurate words to represent myself with integrity, and will actually be really uncomfortable if I feel I left out any important details. Saturn might also give my words some impression of having authority on a subject at times, and I wouldn’t be surprised if people ever think I am purposely trying to sound smart. Trying to sound smart wouldn’t win me any points in the vast majority of situations in life, and once again, what I’m trying to do is just find the best words to represent my thoughts, and ways of seeing things.
My Mercury has a shit ton of aspects, that sucker might be the most well hooked up 🤯🤯🤯 to the rest of my psyche of all my planets‼️ But those two oppositions on the 11th house side really steal your attention, and not just when looking at my Mercury… those deep red lines through the center of my chart can be some of the first things people notice about the chart in general.
🧠 Just a few other aspects to my Mercury I find interesting 🧠
❤️🩹 The conjunction to Chiron (it may be with an orb of 6°, basically the same as with Neptune and Saturn to Mercury actually, but it’s clear as day to see!!). I began this Tumblr account on the astrological new year (spring equinox/start of Aries season❤️🔥🌷) when I recall we were having some major Mercury-Chiron weather! And this whole account showcases my Mercury conjunct Chiron❤️🩹 in likely a grander and more extensive way than has been put into one place before. (I’ve always felt compelled to process my wounds verbally though.) ✍️
And the thing about Chiron, the reason why almost everyone resonates with their Chiron placement the first time they ever hear/read about it, is it’s unlike some other astrological wounds in that most people will have clear awareness of this particular wound and many will even experience a compulsion to keep confronting it!
I have come to see Chiron as practically the bravest figure in the whole natal chart. 🐴
🌚 The tight Mercury square Black Moon Lilith. This is interesting to me because I think people read it big time! It makes me feel protected as hell around men, they don’t see me as someone to mess with and especially not after I’ve opened my mouth. And with people in general, my words (and/or tone maybe) can seem harsh or intimidating, like there’s a bite to them☹️ maybe actually even more disjarring to some women.
💀 Mercury trine Pluto I’m inclined to explore the deepest and darkest depths in my mind, to the point where my lesson coming out of South Node in Scorpio was that shadow work can absolutely be overdone! I was keeping myself from evolving for years by only being super inclined to try to examine the ways that I am damaged or toxic. Wasn’t until I started being willing to talk and write about the good I see in myself that I do believe I’ve been starting to actually become a better person. The light needs to be seen in order to grow!!! 💡🤍
I also think my Cancer Mercury trine Pluto ♏️ at home in the 8th sheds light on why I can physically detach from people easier than some others, it seems. The thing is, I’m not fully detaching, I keep their memories stored in this mind, because there’s a lot of storage space for any emotionally moving memories here🧠♋️. And since what 90% of even active relationships are to me, is what I process about them while by myself (introspector to my fucking core!!!), when I have had to let people go, including what I experienced before with Venus Man many times, it’s just like bringing that 90% up to 100. Actually no one, not even people that just traumatized me, gets killed in my mind. And I like that tbh! Maybe that’s the Pluto trine, maybe that’s Chiron🤷♀️
This isn’t all of my Mercury’s aspects by any means; just the ones that compel me to write on them- and I’m also doing this by memory. I have not gone to look at my Mercury’s aspects in connection to writing this.
It is wild though, how many more things yet I have discovered before in aspect with my Mercury by plugging in extras here and there. This Mercury has many interesting, and actually tight conjunctions! (It also sits quite close to exactly in between my Chiron and Sun 🌞; the 3 figures there by default in my ♋️ 5th house.)
Like Aphrodite is one of those extra conjunctions, that’s quite tight, which honestly confuses me because people don’t seem to read me/treat me like Venus, and especially not when I talk, with my unusual self expression. There’s sooo much in the mix here though, I even remember once being curious about an asteroid called Guido, cuz that word conjures up masculine images pretty much the opposite of Aphrodite, and Guido is also very tight with my Mercury. 😂
🌹 But I guess when I write about physical intimacy and sex it can be clear to see that I approach those topics, and verbalizing them, in a pretty tender way, really prioritizing the connection of it. 🫂
Fixed star Sirius “the Dog Star”🐺 and the brightest fixed star in the sky 🌌 is even 3° from my Mercury. ♋️ I’ve read that this star sometimes indicates honors beyond the grave, but I won’t say any more about that, because my feeling that my writing might become the most circulated after I die someday is a feeling I had even before ever reading about Sirius✨but I don’t think 💀 is a topic that needs to take up any more space in my mind right now.
Today’s writing has already become way longer than I envisioned when at first I was just thinking about my annoyance with projections, and why I will never claim to be a mind reader. This topic of my Mercury could go down even a lot more directions, when currently Mercury in the sky has just turned direct again🌀… while the Moon is right on mine!
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But returning to the thoughts I was having when starting this, I just want to take a minute to profess my gratitude that I feel capable of asking people when I need clarification on their words. Because social anxiety is not one of my major issues 🌀 (I was thinking earlier today perhaps I have my Venus in Leo to thanks!💕🦁) and because people from their own point of view actually make me curious, and I really do want to try to avoid my personal projections onto them as much as possible, if anything I’ve been told before I ask too many questions! 😆
I also have a bad habit of unleashing my very full and ever-shifting train of consciousness on unsuspecting listeners, to the point that they really feel I’m dominating the “conversation”… but that only ever happens with people I’m quite close to. It would be a compliment to anyone it’s happened to before actually, because mostly I save the majorly overflowing contents of this brain 🤯 for my personal writing! If I was saving this processing all for conversations with others, I’d be the first to say that’d be even less healthy than having a public blog without trigger warnings!
Side note: I don’t put trigger warnings on my posts, on every one as they would need to go, because I’ve never found myself wanting or appreciating them. I think I tend to make it clear from the gitgo with my writing that I’m gonna be talking about sensitive things though, and I hope people feel able to look away or even block me if it’s an issue.
I’m not sure that telepathy 100% free of personal projections has been achieved by anyone, but if it has, it was probably achieved by people not talking a lot about their abilities. I’m grateful to be able to read between the lines sometimes, but more grateful that I know and can keep in mind, I’m not a mind reader!
