so i told Ana about the song i wrote for her.. and she loves it! i didn’t show her everything (im too much of a pussy) but i sang part of it for her and she really enjoyed it 🥹 she’s so fucking sweet oh my soul i’m so smitten.
the cute side of the crush (more than a crush i really like her) is fading. i’m beginning to be in heat like a feral street cat that should’ve been spayed years ago. i need her. i need her BAD. badly, i need her. i need her in any and every way possible. i want to make her feel so special and i want to let her know just how special she is to me.
i wanna cup her face in my hands and kiss her to oblivion. no space in her face will go without a kiss from me. then i want to hold her by the back of her neck. play with her hair while i continue my barrage of kisses leading towards her chest. i’ll slowly trace my hands from her neck to her torso and pull her closer by her waist.
i want the privilege to see her. all of her. and worship her as though she is my temple. my one true religion. i want to feel her body pressed against mine in heated fervour. i want to feel just how much she needs me. how much she needs me to make her feel good. how i’m the only one that could make her feel good. i want to make her feel so good.
i want to feel her buckling under me in excitement for all that i have in store for her. i want to learn her every little move as im pleasing her. i want to know how she tastes. i wouldn’t waste a single drop. i need to taste her sweet wine. i want to get drunk off of her essence. i want to fuck her ‘til kingdom come. i want to show her just how badly i need her, just how badly i miss her when she’s not with me. i need her bad.
i wish i could tell her all of this. or at least tell her without being scared to. i don’t want to scare her off or make her think that the only thing in my mind is sex because it truly is not. i want to honour her and all that she is. i know that i could show her just how much she means to me, just how much of a value she brings to my life, just how much i need her everything. and the best way i know how is to show her, touch her, kiss her, feel her, fuck her or maybe even make love to her.
i’m so down bad. i want to make love to her..
and i wanna tell her this so so bad. it’s such a beautiful rainy day and what would make it even more beautiful is if i could spend time with her admiring the weather together. cuddled closely and tightly. never letting go. my head on her shoulder and her arms wrapped around me. i want to kiss her. so fucking badly.
should i tell her? i want to at least muster up the courage to tell her that i want to kiss her. but i think i should wait until our date to tell her that. or just ask to kiss her when i see her.
fuck, i can’t get her out of my head. it’s probably why i so badly want to give her some. i want to be her stress reliever. i know i can melt away all the troubles in her world.