Rod Gotti

Consume less. Share more. Enjoy life.

[redlightmotel]

I feel like when you being headstrong & truly tryna control what you can. No matter what's said you can always control yourself, control your reactions, control your words. You are maintaining your sense of self despite the situation or conversation. Real courage, real strength on display.

[redlightmotel]

I have absolutely no idea how I feel rn.

[redlightmotel]

Damn man I was like lowkey the worst nigga to the only woman I even want smh.

[redlightmotel]

Idk why I'm feeling so philosophical right now. I'm high af smoking back to back to drown out my thoughts, but my tattoos I feel like tell a story more so than having a meaning. Like some of my tattoos have a meaning and some don't. I don't think tattoos have to have a meaning like it's cool if they do. I'll talk tattoos all day cause it's so much to explore on the subject like and some tats really be unique as hell. Make you wanna ask how did they come up with the idea for that. Getting tatted therapeutic too like just the process of getting the stencil & preparing to get stabbed repeatedly for a certain amount of time & at the end you get a permanent art work that you created or chose yourself.

[dafancyuhinspiration]

[redlightmotel]

Crazy how I deadass needed to see this right now. I'm spazzing on the inside.

[redlightmotel]

Should I go back to therapy? I might be in the deepest state of delusion & maybe just maybe this time it might be in my best interest to get help. Idk what I'm doing, idk what I'm feeling, shit got me feeling weird. All I want is a clear mind, spot for me & my son, 5.0 mustang, my degree, & a fat ass savings account. All this other shit background noise & I can't get this shit out of my fucking head. God why you make me this way???????? Wtf this shit literally on my mind every fucking day. Why I gotta be built this way?????? Doing shit I know I shouldn't be doing cause I'm not in the position to & I get signs I'm where I'm not supposed to be. Then I get to thinking why not pop my shit cause I always been him & I been chilling waiting for my time. Show the world how this shit really done but I'm scared cause I'm still not there yet. & I'm not there yet cause what? Letting shit distract me & not focusing on what's most important. Tf am I waiting for I been him & for some reason I'm scared to be like that. Well I guess it's a time for change. I gotta change for me, change for a better state of mind, better way of life. Let's go grind & accomplish these goals no matter how fucking start they may sound.

[redlightmotel]

Literally need to kick my own ass. Cause wtf am I doing. & who tf do I think I am????? Genuinely blowing tf out of myself rn.

[redlightmotel]

Fuck man! I just wanna be left alone with my sexy assv wife. That's it that's all.

[redlightmotel]

I know what I did & I apologize.

[redlightmotel]

Ya know I feel like everybody wants me to hate my baby momma lmao. & just cause they want me to I'm not. Just cause shit happened between us don't mean ima hate her. None of that shit means I love her less. Shit @ 1 point she was perfect for a nigga. So just because y'all always got something to say I'm deadass not gonna listen. & support her like I've been doing. 🤷🏽‍♂️ fuck it call me whatever.

[redlightmotel]

Fuck it!

[redlightmotel]

Are you proud of where you at right now with yo life or you think you need to go a lil harder?

[redlightmotel]

Lose some, win some.

[redlightmotel]

I'm so grateful this time around. Thank you God 👌🏾🙌🏿

[redlightmotel]

Gotta stand on that shit even through the pain.

[redlightmotel]

I'm still sad & salty smh. Time heals all wounds they say lmao.

[redlightmotel]

I'm so mfing grateful right now. Closed doors open other doors leading to unexpected outcomes.