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@reenskita
Where do you even start?
It has really been forever since I've been on here.
So much has happened and so much has changed. I don't even know where to begin.
Life has taken many twists and turns over the past few years.
I'll have to share a little here and there as we get back in to this.
For now, I'm glad to be back and glad to have a space to be able to write, vent and brain dump again.
I've missed being here...
Monday morning PT session.
I took the day off work on Thursday and spent it with these two beauties.
Breakfast, nails, shop till Nunnie drops and then a late lunch.
It’s been forever...
Over a year and so much has gone on in that year.
Had spinal surgery to remove a tumor in my spinal canal last July (when I last posted).
We got all the tumor, it was benign (thank God) and I woke up (always a fear when they put me out).
I picked a renowned Boston hospital for this surgery. Neurosurgery warranted it in my mind. I felt more comfortable in a Boston hospital as opposed to my local hospital for this one.
This was a big surgery and there was a lot at stake.
The tumor was pretty big. It took up 85% of my spinal canal and was compressing my spinal cord before the surgery. They had to move the cord out of the way to get at all the tumor and something tweaked in the process.
My worst fears slapped me right in the face when I woke up.
I couldn’t feel my right leg. It was there when I went to sleep, I swear.
The hospital stay was a freaking nightmare. My inscision opened up not once, but twice. They re-stitches me up in the bed. Two different days. 17 stitches. Loads of fun.
My two to three day stay turned in to a week and they did not want me to go home. They wanted me to go to a rehab.
I’m a stubborn bitch though and I win that battle.
I had to learn to walk all over again. I used a walker for about 3 months after the surgery. I’ve been in physical therapy, twice a week, since then.
I ended up with drop foot out of the whole thing. Some of the feeling has come back in my legs (yeah, both of them but the left one is minor) and some of it hasn’t.
My son and daughter in law had to pick me up and bring me to and from work for months. I couldn’t drive. It’s tough putting your foot on the brake pedal and not being able to tell how much of your foot is on the pedal. The muscles that keep your ankle stable were so weak that my foot felt like it would slide right off the pedal. They brought me to work, to appointments and in any errands I needed to do. My daughter and her husband picked me up and took me to doctor appointments and physical therapy appointments.
It’s been a wild ride for sure.
I’ve refused to stand still through all of this. Refused to have to wear a brace and I’ve refused to accept that this is as good as it’s going to get.
I’ve worked my ass off.
I’m walking without a walker. I’m getting closer and closer to walking normal. I’m still a ways away but at least I’m not walking like Frankenstein any more. I’m able to pull my foot up past neutral now and my toe rarely catches on anything any more. I’m driving myself everywhere on my own and I am back to taking care of all my errands myself. I’m also back to working out in the gym with my trainers.
I’ve fought for every single inch that I’ve gained back and I’m not done fighting yet.
I’m not sure I’ll ever get that foot to a normal 12 - 15 degrees positive but I’m at a positive 2 now and started at negative 40. I’m certainly not going to stop trying to get further until progression stops.
I sat at a water park little over a year ago watching my granddaughters play. We knew the tumor was there. We didn’t know if it was malignant or benign. I watched them with tears rolling down my face. I wanted more time. I wanted to see them grow up, graduate, get married...live their lives. I wanted to continue to love them and spend time with them.
I got my chance for more time. It’ll not go to waste.
Boy I done raised up a good one.
I had tickets to see Rob Thomas Thursday night and my surgery became a little more urgent and so the concert got preempted.
My son went with my daughter in-law. He doesn’t care for him at all but he knew how important it was to me that his wife still be able to go to that show.
He also went over to the side stage where Rob was watching the opening act with his son and explained the situation to the security guard to see if he could get a picture for me.
I definitely did something good there...
Word of the day...
Benign.
So very very proud of my niece Farrah Jane.
Sworn in yesterday as a US Marine.
She’s theirs as of July 15, 2020.
Big change for me tonight. This is the darkest I’ve ever gone deliberately. It’s definitely a little odd looking in the mirror at the moment.
Meet my new grandfurbaby Sandie.
She’s a sweetie!
It’s been a hell of a week. My head is spinning...
There is a 19 mm tumor in my spinal column that is putting pressure on my spinal cord. It HAS to come out.
I’m trying to just let things settle in at the moment. I got hit with so much, so fast that I can’t process. I can’t remember half of the shit I was told Wednesday. I think my brain just shut down after a certain point.
I should have brought someone with me to listen and hear the things I missed but who fucking knew?
So here’s what I know...
The surgeon says 99% sure that this is benign. Won’t guarantee that until it’s removed and it’s been biopsied.
He said it does not need to come out tomorrow but he would not wait 6 months to remove it either. He told me it would be between 6 and 8 weeks out of work which I told him was completely unacceptable. We are negotiating that aspect of this.
He told me that considering what I was carrying around inside my body, that I was doing remarkably well. Evidently there are some pretty severe symptoms that are not presenting themselves.
He asked what made me get the MRI. I told him that I wanted to look in to a cortisone injection to help with the pain in my lower back and that the Dr wouldn’t agree to it until he had an MRI. He told me that it was a good thing that I had the pain from my other spinal issues because we wouldn’t have known about this and things could have been much worse.
IF I elect to go with this surgeon, surgery would likely be the first or second week of August.
I AM going to have a second opinion in the very near future and then we’ll figure out who is doing what as well as where, when, why and how.
The “ball” right under the 8/14 at the top of the image is what we’re looking to get rid of.
At the moment, I’m trying desperately to keep my composure and stay positive but I’m scared shit.
#myworld
Noodle Bowl with Lemongrass Chicken
Meal prep yumminess!
New recipes this week for meal prepping.
Grilled Pineapple Salsa and Chipotle Lime Chicken. This is over a bed of whole grain rice with onions, black beans, chili powder, chipotle chili powder, cumin, onion powder, garlic powder, salt and pepper. Yummy lunches this week.
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Grilled Pineapple Salsa coming up...
Pure yumminess...
Kicking off summer right...
New color today...
Love. Love. Love.