Reeva Nuray

An old soul with young eyes, a vintage mind and a teenage life. A writer 😁

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I can never withstand small talk, what do you mean you ask how are you and expect me to reply in a word??

I want to tell you the slightest of the details, talk about my family and tell you how pretty you eyes shine whether in red and wager or white like the sky.

[reevanuray]

I always wanted to ask the moon

If it was painful

Being friends with the sun

Where the Light though shined

Darkness still had half of him

And keeps eating him

And wins over every 15 days

But the pain

Of fighting back

And spread light

Not for him but others.

8:38 pm

15th July 2022

[reevanuray]

He called her his star

She called him her moon.

[reevanuray]

This is how I'm coping without you.

We were blurring lines, and I stood on my end stiff, saying I cannot cross.

And he didn't ask me twice about it, but ik he wanted to. For asking is to hurt me.

Instead he's hurting, and I hurt him.

I'm sad that I have to pick myself over someone else. For once, to choose me, is to choose all the people I love, and not him.

.....

I have no regrets, I'm happy i let my self experience this.

But I only wish I couldn't hurt him, he's sad and said he's gonna grieve.

.....

Bubba, I hurt someone-

Through my actions.

All I wanted to was to care for him, knowing I can't give him everything but something. Idk, I was selfish? That I choose to give him a safe space that he might misunderstand, and he did.

He cared for me, held me when I was anxious and going through an attack almost.

He stayed up all night once to just not let me be alone while I was overthibking, and told me a story.

He's made the kid in me safe bubba.

I wanned to cherish him, but knowing that I can walk away, but he might not.

He can't rn.

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And I chose to experience something, at the cost of his hurt.

I went in with false hope, but all I did was to lie to myself?

....

I wanned to care for him, and for once I was getting it back, reciprocation

And knowing if I took it, it would mean to take this further, and

And expectations hurt bubba

I build them with my own hands, and had to remove them myself

...

*nods*

It was one of his firsts giving, and my firsts taking.

...

Please tell me what I did was wrong, be honest about it.

I-

[reevanuray]

I today, grieve

Grieve the pain of never being able to be her

The sitcom girl

The girl you seek comfort in

The girl who can seek comfort from you

The girl who's best friend has her back

The girl who has an older sister

Giving parents

Lovable

Not hatable girl

I grieve that I can neve be her.

Not even the one that someone who puts herself first even when it could hurt someone else but not her for once.

The one, who loves herself.

I can never be her.

And I grieve, every possibility that I can not be her.

11:53 pm

25 July 2025

[reevanuray]

Elitism.

You always had it, the moment I saw you, the talks I spent with you. The moments I was holding your arm, your shirt

The way I played with your hair. What else do not get, you had me. Unlike no one else.

Elitism you say, the girl who never gave her self away, gave to you.

[reevanuray]

Whatchya doin you ask?

I'm tryna hold onto ever memory of yours as much as I can.I'm tryna remember it all

The touch, the smell, the rigidness, the gentleness.

The warmth.

The sound, the texture.

You.

Despite my trauma kicking in pushing me to forget.I'm at a fight with myself, for you, for the me in you.

[reevanuray]

A hopeful start?

Well, with today, I'm resuming myself back into my work life, slowly, telling myself, the last 2 months of summer was all, rest and reset. But now its ever hard than ever? A restart, completely? But its okayy, imma try take this slow, make it feel like a butterfly effect? little things that we dont see, but time and slowness makes the brightest impacts. and its okay, we're only human Was i ever doing enough? or was it too much?

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Forever Always in 2022 | Alone time quotes, Heartfelt quotes, Best friend poems

Apr 4, 2022 - This Pin was created by Reeva Nuray on Pinterest. Forever Always..

https://pin.it/4fA8yIV

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Pin on My creations

Apr 23, 2022 - This Pin was created by Reeva Nuray on Pinterest. Wishes..

https://pin.it/3KyI9vd

A poem that speaks about one's downfall, that is self caused. But their subconscious wanting to change the path, learn from mistakes made. Takes a step forward, hope, in their journey of life.

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As one reads those texts between them, goes back into those very moments, when...

Person 1: My world is the sky, which I cant see from here.. Can't we talk?

Person 2:I thought I was gonna be yours from now on eh!

Person 1: haha! seriously which is it this time? A book or movie?(annoyed)

Person 2: None... just yours and mine. After all you are my muse. (smirks)

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Her Moon | Pinterest

Mar 13, 2022 - This Pin was created by Reeva Nuray on Pinterest. Her Moon..

A poem that talks about the moon being a little girls haven.