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[SUMMARY: Joel becomes insecure with his age difference and breaks up with you rudely, only to find out you become depressed after an assault.]
TRIGGER WARNING: SA
“Look, who cares? Hey, maybe if I wasn’t sucha immature party girl that would’ve never happened to me” you turned looking at him straight in the eyes.
“Don’t you say that” he whispered feeling regret with what he had told you that day.
smut, angst, big age gap
It was the end of your shift as you waited for Joel to pick you up. The restaurant seemed to slow down at the perfect time for you to catch a movie with him. Joking with two of your coworkers you had no idea Joel was watching from outside the window. Once again Sammy was having a party and desperately wanted you to attend although you promised Joel something simple that night. Just as you gently let her down, Joel approached you leaning in for a kiss.
“Hi babe,” you smiled up at him.
“Joel, can you please convince your girlfriend to come to my party tonight?”
“Don’t listen to her, I already told her we had plans.” You explained.
“Another party huh?” He raised his brows as Sammy tried to hold back a laugh.
“Sorry Joel, are we partying too much for you?” Sammy joked with her boyfriend Josh making you playfully hit her shoulder.
“Ouch! just a joke, see you guys around” she laughed as Joel took your hand and walked out with you.
“Sorry about that, Sammy can be-“
“Annoying” he interjected making you raise a brow at him.
“Does she ever not throw a party?” He looked down at you as you both continued to walk. Joel was acting strange, he seemed to be more agitated than usual but you didn’t say a word about it.
“We don’t have to go-“
“But I know you want to” he looked over at you to confirm what he figured to be true.
“No” you stopped in your tracks turning to him.
“I can go any other time, I just want us to spend time” you assured him before tip toeing and kissing his lips.
The two of you had been dating a few months now, although you were in college and Joel was much older, you felt you had a balanced relationship.
Joel thought the same…until recently.
Little by little he noticed your friends were constantly inviting you to parties, or even if they weren’t partying whenever they had a conversation with you in front of him he felt out of place. The two of you alone was a different story, you could both talk for hours about so many different things. Sharing the same interests in movies, he loved taking you out to see one or having a movie night at your place. More than anything he loved how towards the end of the movie you always ended up straddling him holding him close. He’d carry you to the bed, your lips locked together as a night of intense sex would begin. Regardless of how experienced he was, sex with you was like no other. Although you were younger you loved taking charge and riding him and he loved your confidence. He loved watching the way you moved your hips on him, especially in that moment. His hands squeezed your thighs as he looked down watching you drip all over his cock. Throwing his head back you could see the vein in his neck popping out, you could always tell when he was about to cum.
“Shit” he cried out, sweat dripping down his head as as you rode him faster. Your hands leaning on his chest for support until you both came simultaneously. You moaned before throwing yourself back beside him, he could barely catch his breath.
“You’re really something else you know that?” He panted closing his eyes for a moment.
“Am I?” You laughed leaning over to kiss him before running off to the bathroom.
Once you walked out you noticed him sitting at the edge of the bed hunched over with just his pants on.
“You ok?” You asked tying your robe around you.
“Yeah, just wiped me out” he chuckled as he stood up and grabbed his t shirt.
“I’m sorry” you laughed.
“Don’t be.” He winked at you but you could see something still seemed off with him. For some reason he just couldn’t shake off the feeling of not keeping up with you. He silently walked out of the room to grab a cup of water but the silence didn’t feel right.
Joel stood in the kitchen drinking the glass of water, his thoughts roaming all over.
“Joel?” You followed him to the kitchen looking at him strangely.
“What’s going on with you?”
Placing the cup down he crossed his arms not really knowing how to say what he truly wanted to say. You hated how stubborn he could be at times to speak. He knew whatever he’d tell you, somehow you’d find a way to work around it, and as much as he didn’t want to break up, he was beginning to think it was the best decision. It was better than him constantly feeling like he couldn’t keep up with you.
“Joel are you going to talk or what-“
“This is a mistake” he blurt out looking down.
“What? What are you talking about?” You walked towards him completely caught off guard.
“This, us, it should’ve…should’ve never happened” his words feeling like a punch to your heart.
“Joel, where is this coming from? Don’t take personal what Sammy said”
“This isn’t about your friend dammit,“ he responded rudely. Maybe that was the only way you’d get it.
“So what is this about? Cause about twenty minutes ago you didn’t seem to have a problem with me” You clearly started to get annoyed with his tone but he couldn’t explain to you what he was really feeling. Irritated he grabbed his jacket heading for the door.
“So you’re walking off now? Just like that” you followed him.
“Go have fun with your friends tonight,”
“This is about the party?! Are you kidding me, I already told you I didn’t wanna go-“
“Look” he suddenly stopped and turned to your face.
“You don’t get it, you’re a damn kid. I don’t know what the hell I was thinking. Go be the party girl you are” before you could say a thing he walked out slamming the door shut.
“Joel!”
What the hell just happened?
Joel hopped in his truck fighting himself not to turn back. The sound of your voice calling out for him crushed him in a way he didn’t know he could feel. He wasn’t planning to do this, he didn’t think he would. Joel felt something special with you, but before he felt it would fall apart cause of his age, he decided to cut it now unexpectedly.
That night you cried calling your friend Sammy to pick you up. You couldn’t believe Joel had really broken up with you but you decided to hell with it.
The second you got to Sammy’s party you poured yourself drink after drink just wanting to forget about him. You found yourself dancing with a man, never even getting his name but you noticed how touchy he became as you danced.
“Watch it, honey” you squinted your eyes at him with a smirk as he stepped back lifting his hands up.
“Sorry gorgeous” he leaned towards your ear to speak.
He was a handsome man with a nice smile, and when he wasn’t grabbing your ass he knew how to dance. For a short moment you found yourself not thinking of Joel.
As the night continued, you had a few more drinks than what your body was used to. Sammy and Josh both cheering you on watching you have fun as you continued to dance.
“I gotta use the ladies room!” You yelled in his ear as he nodded. The man watched as you slightly stumbled up the stairs, fumbling with the doorknob to get in the bathroom, he could tell how wasted you were.
Once you were finished you almost fell opening the bathroom door to find that same man at the door.
“Oh hey” you grinned until he grabbed you by your waist, abruptly kissing your neck pushing you back in the bathroom.
“Wait-“ you attempted to laugh it off trying to push him away until you realized he shut the door behind him.
“Come on, let’s have some fun”
“Hey…I…I don’t wanna do this” you tried once again pushing him back but he grabbed you hard lifting you up and sitting you right on the sink. His hand making it’s way under your dress, you knew exactly what he was doing and panic set in.
The loud music blasting throughout the house distracting everyone from anything that could be going wrong. Sammy at one point looking around for you and even calling your phone.
“She never leaves like that” Sammy told Josh as she looked through the crowd.
“Maybe she’s having fun with that guy” Josh laughed but Sammy thought something was weird. You would never leave with a man or at all without saying something to her. As Sammy checked the kitchen the man had finished his assault, walking out the bathroom Josh caught him buckling his pants.
“Hey, where’s the girl you were dancing with?” Josh asked him but he didn’t say a word quickly walking out the front door.
Sitting on the corner of the bathroom floor, you couldn’t move. You could hear Josh and Sammy calling for you until Josh finally walked in the bathroom.
“Holy Shit- Sammy she’s in here!” The two of them rushing to your side, fixing your dress asking if you were ok but you couldn’t speak.
“I’m gonna call the police” Sam knew what happened, it was obvious but you quickly looked at her and shook your head with whatever strength you had.
“No. No one. Just…just drive me home please” you whispered. Sammy nodded in silence quickly ending the party to make sure you were ok. Although she had offered for you to stay, being near where you were assaulted made your stomach turn.
Joel stood at home that night watching a movie not being able to get you off his mind. He wondered what you were doing, he wondered if you ever went to that party but most of all he wondered if he made the right call.
Josh and Sammy silently helped you to the car and drove you home. Offering to stay with you, you refused any company, you refused anything they tried to help with. Although you both were broken up, Sammy wondered if she should find Joel and let him know what had happened yet she knew nothing of him.
The next day you stayed in bed, your phone buzzing through out the morning, calls from Sammy, Josh and you noticed one call from Joel. Ignoring each call you turned over in bed covering yourself just wanting to disappear from everyone.
A few days turned into weeks and no one had heard from you. Joel would still call, sometimes leaving you a voicemail, but hearing his voice would only make you burst into tears.
One day Joel finally decided to walk into the restaurant you worked at hoping to find you, instead he found Sammy.
“Joel, am I relieved to see you” she sighed as he walked up to her. She knew she had to tell him.
“I’ve been trying to get a hold of her and she’s not answering. She quit working here, she stopped showing up to class and she’s just blocked us all out” Joel furrowed his brows.
“What do you mean she stopped showing up to class?” He knew how important this semester at college was for you.
“She just disappeared ever since that night”
“What night?”
“The night..the night at my party” she explained looking away nervously.
“What happened at your party? The hell you goin’ on about Sammy?” Joel heavily invested now not sure what to expect.
She swallowed nervously not sure how Joel would react to such news about you or more so how angry you would be at her for saying anything to him.
“The night at my party…um..I don’t even know how to say it” Sammy whispered as she scratched her forehead uncomfortably.
“Spit it out” Joel demanded now concerned with what the hell it could be.
“Joel, she was raped” she finally blurt out. Joel felt like a brick hit him in the chest, taking a step back he looked at her in shock. His lips tightening up, he took a deep trembling breath looking away. Sammy didn’t know him so well but she could see anger taking over him.
“I wanted to call you but I had no idea where to get in contact with you and-“
“Who did it?” He looked directly at her, speaking in a rough whisper making Sammy nervous.
“Joel, good to see you” Sams boyfriend Josh appeared before unexpectedly being grabbed by his collar, Joel roughly slammed him against the wall.
“Who touched her?! Who did it?”
“Hey man I don’t know, we never seen him before I swear-“
“What do you mean you never seen him before? It was your party!” He yelled.
“Joel! This doesn’t help anything, you wanna help? Go check on her!” Sammy yelled snapping Joel out of it. Slowly he released Josh as he took a step back.
He knew Sammy was right, the thought of you hurt in any way and not seeking help he couldn’t take.
The thought of him not being there he couldn’t take.
After weeks of not leaving the house you woke up that morning looking out the window, you could see the sun pushing through the clouds slowly. With a sigh you got yourself up and freshened yourself up for a walk around the block.
How bad could that be?
Opening up your front door you felt your heart begin to race but you pushed yourself out.
Walking around the corner you found yourself looking back more than you’d like to admit until you accidentally walked straight into someone.
“Shoot, I’m sorry” you looked up and realized it was Joel. Instantly noticing a look of pity in his deep brown eyes your expression changed.
You realized he knew.
“Shit, she told you” you turned away with a look of disgust walking back to your house.
“Why didn’t you call me?” He asked keeping up close behind you.
“For what?” You scoffed.
“You should’ve called me” he continued as you shook your head.
“Oh give me a break. We are no longer together, I was a mistake remember?” You called out back to him until he grabbed you by your arm forcing you to turn to him.
“I should’ve been there for you” his eyes were intense as he spoke.
“I would’ve been there” you didn’t say a word looking at him, his hand still tight around your wrist.
“It doesn’t matter” you pulled your arm away before heading to your door.
Of course it mattered.
You would’ve given anything to have Joel by your side that night. Tears welling up in your eyes as you placed your key in the lock trying to hold yourself together but you knew you couldn’t. The feel of Joel close behind you made you fall apart in that very second. Your hand dropping from the door you began to cry. Quickly covering your face you felt Joel gently hold you from behind.
“I’m here now” he whispered against your ear. Unexpectedly you turned to him wrapping your arms around him tightly as he tightened his arms around you. For just one moment you wanted to feel at ease.
“I’m here, baby” your cries slowed down as you took a deep breath, his hands gently tilting your face up to him.
“And for the record, you’re no damn mistake” he wiped away your tears with his thumb. You smiled at him just happy to have him close and invited him inside.
Joel quietly followed you in watching as you made your way to the kitchen, you knew there was bound to be more questions he would ask although you hoped he wouldn’t.
“Do you want something to drink or snack on? I don’t have much to eat, haven’t cooked. Just been ordering out lately” you explained without turning back to him.
“No, no thank you, baby” he leaned back on the counter watching as you grabbed something from the fridge. Truthfully Joel wanted to ask you more about that night. After a moment of silence his sudden question caught you off guard.
“What was his name?”
You closed the fridge and looked down taking a deep breath.
“I don’t know”
“Don’t protect him-“
“I don’t know” you turned to him abruptly.
“He was just some stupid guy I was dancing with, I never got his name, I don’t know anything about him” you walked away heading to your bedroom.
“I called you that night” he called out to you from down the hall, you could hear his footsteps getting closer.
“You also broke up with me that night-“
“It’s not something I wanted to do” he insisted.
“Look, who cares? Hey, maybe if I wasn’t sucha immature party girl that would’ve never happened to me” you turned looking at him straight in the eyes.
“Don’t you say that” he whispered feeling regret with what he had told you that day.
“Well, I was drinking” you shrugged with a sarcastic laugh, you didn’t notice his expression change.
“And so that gives that piece of shit the right to rape you?!” He raised his voice unexpectedly loud, you froze looking away.
“I’m sorry” he quickly apologized moving closer to you.
“Don’t be…that’s just the first time I’ve heard anyone call what happened to me..that.” The two of you stood silent for a moment until he slowly reached out for your hand.
“I’m sorry that happened to you, baby.” He pulled you close to him.
“I should’ve never walked out of here that day, I should’ve listened to myself and turned back. Leaving all because of my own damn insecurity” you could hear the regret in his voice.
“Insecurity?” You looked at him confused.
“Long story, c’mere-“ he wrapped your arms around his neck just wanting to hold you close and honestly, it was all you wanted to.
Joel felt you relax in his arms, slowly moving to the bed you both lay down with your head on his chest, you found yourself closing your eyes. Joel brushed his fingers through your hair softly as he looked down and saw you were asleep. As happy as he was to have you relaxed beside him, he couldn’t get out of his head wanting to find whoever this man was. Joel was set in his mind that he would, even if it meant keeping it from you.
1. See it as something that is temporary. Even though it hurts now, it doesn’t mean it’s permanent. You’ll find other people who will treat you well. Be gentle on yourself and recognise that it will pass.
2. Learn to enjoy your own company. See it as a time to reflect on your life, and really think through what you want for yourself.
3. Spend time looking after animals. Pets are accepting, reliable and loyal. They’ll never hurt your feelings, and they’re good company.
4. Treat other people you meet really well. Usually, that results in a friendly response. That will help you to feel better - at least for a while.
5. Hang out with those who like the same things as you. If you’ve taken up a hobby or you like watching sport, speak to people you meet at these events. Even though you don’t know them, they are still some company.
6. Don’t let this bad experience hold you back. Keep reaching out to others. Have the courage to take risks. Eventually you’ll find a loyal friend who treats you well.
Can anyone write a fic, where it turns out that Tommy being an ex fireflies, is wellies father , and Joel can't deal with it , doesn't want Ellie to know and both brothers show their father love to Ellie...
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