its hopeless

im honestly such an emotional wwreck ((vent blog of eridacnis. only to be viewed and followed ooc.))

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i dont really knoww wwhats up wwith me lately but im just so terribly frustrated sexually but wwhen i actually can get it i just dont wwant it i dont fuckin knoww

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ok nevvermind i wwont be gettin any dick anytime soon

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this is the most awwkwward talk ivve had before havvin sex

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feferis so wwonderful

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i think i need help

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i still cant believve he had the fuckin guts to say i killed them cause i had jealousy issues fuck you

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vvris mentioned yesterday that i need pills and to be honest im still thinkin about that

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im allergic to happiness

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im not stuck on an ex i had im not evven attached to anybody i date cause i just cant bring up the emotions anymore its like i use up all of my emotions in just a feww wweeks for them and then i throww them awway

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its not ok howw i obsess ovver people start datin them and then break up after a month cause i lost interest

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somethin is not ok wwith my head

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needless to say my sex life has been sufferin from me bein busy wwith wwork or just plainly bein too exhausted

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for the longest time i nevver thought someone wwould evver say somethin like this to me and noww im just sittin here like wwhat someone actually god i dont knoww

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UUUUUGH

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wwell good job at myself cause noww im imaginin her kissin my dick and its drivvin me nuts

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today on thanksgivvin im thankful for cas dick

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I’m so sorry I’m sorry I never meant fuck everything up I’m so sorry