we are alive

indie d:bh au cole anderson, daniel, the ortiz android & an st200 oc. written by tam. temp dash only.

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i went to bed at like... 11pm last night... only now have i just woken up, that’s like... 22 hours straight sleeping... and i’m still super tired (and i hurt but waz new eh? pff )

anyone who says chronic fatigue is just being “really tired” can suck a cactus dick

and on another note, sorry if you’re waiting for replies from me !! i’m only like partly awake as i write this *cries*

love you all and the moment i can starters and replies are coming ya way fellas

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aptxx4869 :

my traumatized ass: do I have a crush or am I just idolizing this person for being vaguely nice to me

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send me “-👕” to catch my muse without a shirt on

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hc. cole

cole takes a lot of pictures. he has tons of stored data of pictures he’s taken of random moments: people, his family, sumo, the view on his walk to work, hell even his food sometimes.

he just really likes stealing little moments to keep and reflect on later. he probably has taken more photos than he remembers he took.

he kinda likes when he finds pictures he doesn’t remember because it solidifies why taking those pictures were so important to him in the first place.

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before i go to bed i need everyone to know all my muses are big moods

luna is a distinguished gay, willow is a distinguished bisexual, daniel is a disaster gay and cole is a massive disaster bisexual

and roman if he ever returns is the biggest disaster gay of them all

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hc . luna

luna likes to wear lots and lots of bracelets, ribbons and armbands that go almost up to his elbows to cover up the cigarette burns.

he likes making bracelets too, he finds the intricate and methodical work calming, and the end result is a gorgeous hand woven bracelet. someone suggested he sell them, but luna prefers to just give them to people he likes.

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let me know in the reply option on this post who you’d like a starter from when i get up in the morning late afternoon

note that there is a willow starter here

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hc . willow

willow was a popular but expensive choice in the eden club due to her ‘unique’ or ‘rare’ appearance

the club owner hadn’t seen a model look like her since the old rt600 interview and in the back of his mind knew she was gained through highly illegal means. but the appeal of owning a kamski private model was higher than reporting his source- so he racked up the price per hour to be with willow and kept her in a ‘private catalogue’ for his more elite customers.

and because willow had been deviant, and then wiped like kara was, there was a small part of her still awake inside the shell. she just didn’t have a powerful love like kara’s love for alice to break through the wipe.

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my brain: short circuits thinking maybe cole can interface... his right hand is completely android and part of his brain is after all

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on a scale from luna to daniel how much of an asshole are you

( luna - willow - cole - daniel )

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 open . willow

 with tender hands she taps the stranger on the shoulder. “ excuse me - do you know where i might find some more clothes? ”

 the shirt she had been given to wear instead of the foul eden club uniform had sadly been torn; and she had no idea where to replace it. her other hand poked fingers through the tear down her shirt, her teeth catching pink lips regretfully.

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like for a willow starter!

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hc . willow

willow was deviated - for the second time - by either north or one of the girlfriends when they returned to the eden club after the revolution. it’s verse dependent on which of the three woke willow up.

since she was deviant before and then wiped, willow describes the feeling of going “back under” as a trance. she was aware of everything, and aware that something didn’t feel right, but it was like her mind was elsewhere. unlike kara, who was able to regain her deviancy and memories thanks to loving alice so powerfully, willow had nothing to snap her out of it.

also, during the later events of the game willow was in manual sleep mode in the eden club warehouse: a mode she couldn’t wake up from herself, only an outsider could command a start up. so even though connor, hank and the two girlfriends fought mere meters away from willow, willow was not aware of anything going on.

this means she doesn’t know connor or hank, she has no preconceptions about them and willow didn’t even realise connor, some android she met one day, was the same connor as the deviant hunter or the “connor who awoke us” as told by the thousands he deviated from the cyberlife tower (or even that those last two were one the same). 

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willow and all her sisters having plant based names because chloe is another name for the earth goddess demeter, specifically the part of her encompassing flowers and greenery, is an Aesthetic

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@addedchallenge . liked

 it’s not that he finds being around his father uncomfortable - hell, he’s perhaps one of the few people who never minded how gruff the man could come off . but there’s chilling with beers in front of the game and sumo warming their feet and being driven home after being arrested . 

  again. 

vandalism this time. although cole hardly considers it vandalism when he was spraying over an anti-android slogan staining a public area.

  “ you know no one cares anyway ; hardly any humans around anymore. the androids won’t mind since it’s their symbol ” cole finally breaks the awkward silence, looking away from the foggy window to his father. “ s’not the worst thing chris has caught me doing. if anything i did us all a favour covering up that fucked up shit ”

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cole: i love connor!

luna: i love connor too!

daniel: ... i suppose i love connor

willow: who the fuck is connor