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would you rather be chased down (or up) a flight of stairs by a monster or would you rather be trapped in an elevator with a monster?

deep….deep thoughts

arijandro

so most people (MY FRIENDS..) are telling me they’d rather be stuck in an elevator, which is p wack imho

leronde

omg what in the world

i would so choose running down the stairs any freaking day lmao :( at least you have some kind of chance of escaping

stinklink

just because it’s a monster doesn’t mean it just wants to outright kill you i don’t think

that kind of reminds me of when you meet someone who is homosexual and you’re like “are you attracted to me omg???”

arijandro

UH

trueculprit

the critical difference here is that monsters aren’t actually real

#THISIS FUNNY AS FUCKING HELL OH MY SHIT #ALSO IM STAIRS #prtr

i've been crying off and on about this for 3 days and i'm tired of crying but i don't know how to fix it or feel better about it. maybe this person is just better than me and i can't do anything about it. maybe everyone lied to me when they said i was important? maybe everyone didn't lie, but i just can't compare to this person. i feel like there's little this person can do that would make people not like them and since i always feel like i'm in a competition with everyone just their very presence around people i'm friends with makes me hopeless because i'm sad and pathetic and have too many problems and i'm broken and hopeless it's so easy to dehumanize me and throw me away

#self hate possibly

i don't know. i've always felt like a stupid child that could never properly speak up for themselves and part of me actually IS that because i have little to no concern about myself since i have huge problems with accepting myself and i depend too much on other people to straight up tell me when someone's doing something i shouldn't stand for

and that plays a factor in it but friends aren't supposed to let things like what happened just go on. i can't think of many other reasons besides fear and nonconcern for me and even if they were all just too scared to speak up to the person about it on other topics they certainly were not and it just

feels like i didn't mean enough and i still don't because why would i now

i haven't been here in a while

people i follow on my main blog are stressing me out but it's not anyone i regularly talk to it's people that don't really keep up with me at all and part of it is kind of my fault because i purposely don't talk with them in the group that we used to and i don't want them to see my posts about this anyway just in case

i feel inferior as hell compared to A Certain Person in my friendgroup and now i can't really look at any of them now because an incident occurred in which through passivity and nonaction i was effectively fucked over by everyone and no one stood up for me when said Certain Person did a shitty thing

apparently i've been carrying around these feelings since the incident occurred and i wasn't aware of it or i was aware enough to never ever think too hard on it at all and suddenly they're all here in my face and i don't want to have them i do not want to deal with them int he slightest

i feel so upset and betrayed over this and it happened over a year ago but i just

man

it was a cut and dry "this thing they did was awful" situation and not one person really stood up for me at all. no one. some people even sympathized with them to my face and my complete lack of self concern or care just went along and thought "yeah they do have it bad" when i should have been livid that they even said those things to me when that person was COMPLETELY wrong

and i don't know everyone still talks to them and thinks they're awesome and amazing and it's not like it's been forever and it'snot like they didn't apologize and probably meant it but i don't think i'm going to get over it because i still feel like since then there was a quiet assertion that that person's feelings just meant more to everyone than mine.