i like to weep! i must!

j. they/them. 30s. white. likes vampires and yaoi. ao3: vulcanscully

[johnwatersbongwater]

This place freaks me out. Okay, good luck!

WIDOW'S BAY (2026)

[galindaelphaba]

BTVS ladies + Tarot (insp.)

[filmtvtoday]

Ted Lasso (2020—) 1.03: “Trent Crimm: The Independent”

[bicreature]

Before the season started there was a lot of talk about how beautiful and romantic it would be to see Louis through Lestat's eyes. Especially remembering that it's kind of striking how most of the season Lestat's perspective of Louis is so lacking of warmth, romance, even basic respect for him as a person. Lestat doesn't often sound just angry but downright disdainful, even in his subconscious. Louis' narration in s1 and s2 was so full of love for Lestat even after everything Lestat did to him and Claudia, while Louis hasn't even done anything to deserve such loathing. Liar, pimp, whore, is this really how Lestat views Louis? It's sad to think about how in the very first episode Louis says that with Lestat for the first time in his life he was seen

[artaudmatic]

It was fascination, I know ♪〜

Seeing you alone with the moonlight above ♪〜

inks ;)

[yusiyomogi]

i think rolin always wanted to make low-stakes vampire romance with a lot of gore and shock value, but the plot got away from him in s1 where the other writers actually wanted to explore proper gothic romance. once they wrote s1e5 the way they wrote it (as domestic abuse with all the patterns and reality of abuse) instead of "cool bloody fight between two vampire lovers", they set themselves on the path where they had to continue writing high-stakes narrative for the next season as well.

as soon as rolin got a chance, he immediately abandoned high-stakes narrative in favor of what he always wanted to write. that's where all this current wave of abuse apologia comes from: "abuse" and any kind of realistic social commentary is no longer something the show has any interest in. rolin's actively trying to get away from these themes, he wants to equalize everything, so he could smash his characters together in all kind of fucked-up scenarios without thinking.

relationships are not about relationships at all anymore. now the only currency is "love" (or superficial idea of love, aka attention and validation) and the characters will use all kind of horrible violence to get "love", to express their weird "love", to punish each other for the lack of "love" etc. meanwhile any kinda romance in depth is not even interesting to the writers, like i said, love is just a currency, a prize, a macguffin, not an actual feeling the show wants to explore. this is the show rolin wanted to write, but it got away from him, so this season he did everything to "reboot" it into what he wanted by ridiculing s1&2.

[goryhorroor]

130 favorite horror movies: (109/130)

"well... how do you think you know that person you were a second ago is the same person you are now? a continuous stream of memories. given only that, we all create illusions within ourselves, saying that we each have only one fixed persona."

-perfect blue (1997) dir. satoshi kon

[reticentvampyr]

rolin jones: relaaaaaax, devil’s minion is happening just wait you’re all so annoying GODDDDD

also rolin jones: maybe the devil’s minion was the friends we made along the way and various offscreen scenes. also i’m leaving the show

[campyre]

A huge reason why Queen of the Damned (2002) flopped so hard was because they wanted to skip over The Vampire Lestat and focus on rockstar Lestat only (minus the few pieces from TVL that they needed to shittily adapt so viewers had any semblance of context)

And now that’s exactly what AMC did with season 3, too, but instead of having a decent soundtrack and good visuals to make up for some of it, it’s all shit from a butt

[reticentvampyr]

the thing about the queen of the damned movie, too, is that in addition to the soundtrack and stylistic choices that appealed to the alt kids in the early aughts, it did...whatever it is that it did...earnestly. it flopped earnestly. it's become a cult classic in part because, while failing as an adaptation, t's an absolutely cuckoo-bananas fun-time vampire film in its own right. anne rice purists love to hate it, or hate to love it. horror and vampire enjoyers just love it period.

tvl doesn't stand on its own as much as amc begs us to believe it does. i know many of us are treating it as separate to cope, but when you look at it on its own, it's...not even a vampire story. without the gothic vampire foundation of the first two seasons, this one views like a showrunner's 7-hour crash-out and ... not much else.

you could argue rolin jones just wanted to write a vampire rockstar story, but to be honest, we don't see enough of the foundations of rice's vampire lore fleshed out in it to even say that. we don't see the exploration of nicki's turning and aftermath, daniel's is done offscreen. part of the appeal of the book TVL is lestat learning about the workings of his monsterhood, via marius and akasha and through trial and error, because magnus abandoned him. we get fleeting lore drops at best, offhand mentions of offscreen dynamics at worst.

plus, you can't force your way into being a cult or camp classic; it has to be largely unintentional. the dialogue this season was so try-hard, written in the pursuit of viral memes and giffable moments, from nearly every character regardless of whether it fit or not.

experimental formatting in the arts is great, but it shouldn't be at the expense of consistent characterization or audience comprehension. when do you cross from self-referential nudge-winking into the total dilution of a story, where nothing anyone does or says matters or carries any weight?

[bifauxnenarmand]

I don’t know if the writers intended this or they just wanted to remove lesmand from the story for their loustat endgame bs and in doing so removing one of the core parts of tvl the book, but the orientalist implications of tvl!lestat hating armand for no reason and fully blaming him for everything he himself took part in (nicki’s death, the trial) and armand being nothing to him but a sexual object (he wasnt even considered as one of his meaningful relationships but we get multiple mentions from nicki of them fucking everywhere around paris) while he simultaneously portrays him as desperate, bad in bed, and pathetic for being submissive as he sexually degrades him at every turn? how does this make lestat look like anything but a racist piece of shit? I mean more than he usually is. they could’ve explored lestat’s orientalism but having nothing that challenges it and removing any love lestat has for armand makes it so hollow

[holy--milk]

"louis profited off the sexual exploitation of black women and inflicted harm on young girls who were left with no support systems in place"

and

"isn't it fucking weird that louis is still being derisively called "the pimp" for something he did a century ago while no one seems to have the same kind of energy for lestat and armand actively exploiting women in the present day?"

are statements that can and should co-exist.

[finleykitten]

daniel was always abrasive, sort of an asshole, but he was also a good interviewer. i could believe that this character was a successful journalist. if his questions were blunt or crudely put it was because he wanted to catch his interviewee (louis) off-guard, to crack the facade, throw off his rehearsed story. also a nice contrast to louis’s flowery poetic tellings of things, for him to just directly say, “did you eat the baby?” “are you schizophrenic, louis?” but this season it feels like he’s just an edgy politically incorrect asshole all the time for no reason. (plus internet slang buzzwords.) calling louis “louisiana fried chicken,” and armand a “bottom twink,” asking alex “are you autistic?” like are we supposed to be laughing at these lines? because i don’t really think they’re funny. i know there’s more examples from this season but i don’t want to rewatch to find them. i saw a post earlier on, when the season was still in progress, that theorized his repeated hammering of “were you a stutterer as a child?” was not meant to be effective interviewing but really a sign that he was frazzled, out of his depth, not handling his transformation well. before he was pulitzer-prize winning journalist daniel molloy, now he’s an unwilling baby vampire. alas, another example of fans’ filling-in of the blanks being more compelling and interesting than the actual material provided. we don’t really get to delve into how he’s handling his transformation. we don’t even know that much about it, why or how armand did it, and we certainly don’t see it! hmph.

[barelybalthazarr]

I'm gonna need everyone to put some love on Louis's name REAL quick

[aramblingjay]

#yearning 1x01 // 3x07

[bicreature]

Rolin suddenly saying that he doesn't think that Claudia screaming for Louis at the trial really happened is just absolutely vile and also makes no sense. It most definitely wasn't played as fake in any way in s2. This has no other purpose than try to destroy the complexity and love the characters and their relationship had. It's pure spite and loathing. Him insisting that it all 'honestly' starts from the love for Jacob and Delainey is completely unconvincing. He has no care or respect for the actors or their characters and he detests that people cared about Louis' and Claudia's relationship so much

[everything-written-down]

Cath is me

[reticentvampyr]

oh no. Oh fuck. A Zionist in charge of maharet and mekare AND still in charge of Armand. Ohhhhhh fuck