Welcoming Little Hornby Fabuloso!!!!!
Today I bring you a very happy post, tainted with sorrow but ultimately the happiest thing I will ever tell people! Mister Fabuloso and I are Pregnant!!
I have wanted children for ages now, all I had to do was talk Mister Fabuloso round! It didn't take long in the end! ;) I thought I would end up having to steal his seed!! ;)
We started trying last year and in November were delighted to discover we were Pregnant! I had a super easy time which worried me. I felt ill for a full week in the run up to Christmas but was fine by Christmas day and I just knew it was going to be bad news. It hasn't taken long after coming off the pill. About two months. Which I thought was good going! I swapped my Pill for Folic Acid and did all the things you are told you should do. I unfortunately fell down the stairs at 7 weeks and went to Hospital to be felt all over and told I was OK. I had knocked myself out in the fall, it was only down 3 stairs! I felt pathetic haha! My bum ached! But apparently all was good and I was sent home and told to rest up!
Scan day rolled around in January at 10 weeks. We arrived and I had no hope whatsoever! I was glad of that in the end. It made it all better. It was less mentally stressful to discover I had a Blighted Ovum/Missed Miscarriage and the embryo had never developed. It looked something like this -
Just an empty sack. After the scan I stared blankly at the midwife as she talked to me. I don't have a clue what she said, except when she changed the subject to talk about my make up. That I remember. All I wanted to do was go to town and buy myself some Pink Cigarettes and smoke every last one. So that's exactly what I did!
I went home and started on the Raspberry Leaf Tea, it was my rescuer. That and my beloved Mister Fabuloso. It really helped and I would recommend it to anyone who is going through that. The only advice I could remember was from the scan a week after that to check what was going on inside me. She said I don't have to wait to try again, just as soon as I felt ready! Mentally I was hunky dory! I wanted to get going again! Haha! So after another few months, a week before my 21st birthday, I wasn't even late yet, I was starting to annoy people. I was a right moody bitch so I pee'd on a stick. It was terribly faint, but just enough to make me think, maybe..... On my Birthday I was late (Thankfully how crap would that have been!?) and there they were, 2 dark pink lines. Again we were Pregnant.
It was a stressful few weeks. I got sick for a few days at 7 weeks and then it stopped again like before so I kinda freaked out and booked an emergency scan at the Royal. The night before I was hurling everywhere but I didn't want to cancel the scan! I just needed to know! I had myself dated at 8+2 but when I had the scan they said I was only 7+5 I couldn't have cared less what the dates were then, it had a heartbeat! That was ALL that mattered.
That's it. This tiny grey smudge that is so important... All it is, is a smudge, a smudge that gets bigger, gets born and you must you must protect and guard till you die. This dated me at December 24th which I was pleased at, it was December 20th which meant I had to go sometime before then or a while after NOT the 25th! Phew! I could go a week over and be fine this way. Yeah, that lasted long....
Coming up for scan 2 I was a little freaked out. I was worried it might have died and I was going to have to go through all of that all over again. But I didn't feel like I did last time, last time I just knew, people kept telling me it was normal to feel like that but I was insistent this was different, it was no more. But this time I was unsure of myself, which I was glad of! I just wanted to know though! At about 9:30 on Friday I was called into the room for the scan with Mister Fabuloso and there it was, going mental on the screen, it had arms and legs and a head and a body and it was bloody creepy looking, that thing is INSIDE me, it's moving and I can't feel it, and it's a small developing person that kinda looks like an Alien! Bloody hell was I relieved! We both were. My dates were moved again, it had a growth spurt... My dates were right to begin with... I was 11+1... Back to the 20th December! This child had SO better not come while I'm eating my Goose! I will be furious! I will take the Goose with me to Hospital! I will cross my legs until dinner is over. Argh. It'll be just my bloody luck. I'll try and go early 12/12/12 maybe? Or New Year and not move till after Christmas. Anything but Christmas day!!!!!
I would like to thank everyone who has supported me since last year. I love you all, I would list you all but you know who you are. You have made me feel so loved and so much better about everything. You are truly wonderful people and I love that I have you in my life.You will forever be my best friends. Xx
I also want to thank my wonderful darling Mister Fabuloso, who has been the best partner anyone could hope for. He has been and is my best friend. I love him with all my heart and I am so happy that this is the start of our new adventure, It has been long awaited and I really hope that finally it is OUR turn at this. Even if nothing worked out it wouldn't matter as long as I had him by my side, he is my everything. He is my world. Xxxx
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