super sorry iāve been mia. im in the last week of my masters program and busy asf. i promise im still working on second chances, and im hoping to have chapter 3 out next week!
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.āā± summary: After a long week of work, all Joel wants is to relax in the arms of his sweet little wife. At least until you give him a haul of your new makeup purchases, and one small product stirs up trouble because of its name.
.āā± a/n: This idea was born while I was going through my Sephora cart⦠So, yeah, thatās my excuse! By the way, I canāt believe Iāve already reached 238 followers... Iām gonna cry. This one is for my baby @pattwtf <š .į
.āā± warnings: Smut at the very end, Obsessive! Joel (kindaā¦?), Soft Dom/Sub Elements, Makeup Kink, Mirror Sex, Repeated Orgasm Denial, Spanking, Pussy Slapping, Hand on Throat, Unprotected Sex, Creampie⦠And a lot of love! First time writing a complete sex scene btw (I'm scared)
.āā± wc: 15.230 k
Friday had a way of loosening men up in all the worst ways.
By noon, the air smelled like cut lumber, diesel, sweat, and sawdust, the kind of smell that clung to skin long after the day was over. Hammers rang out in uneven bursts, a nail gun snapped somewhere near the back, and country music crackled low from a radio somebody had balanced on an upside down bucket by the porch steps.
Joel stood near the stack of framing lumber with a pencil tucked behind one ear and a tape measure hanging from his belt, scanning over the plans in his hand with the kind of focus that made most men think twice before interrupting him.
āHey, Iām just sayinā,ā one of the younger guys called from the far side of the site, loud enough for half the crew to hear. āIf Iām takinā her somewhere expensive, least she can do is not make me sit in the damn car for forty-five minutes waitinā on her.ā
A couple of snorts of laughter answered him.
Joel didnāt look up right away. He kept his eyes on the plans, jaw set, trying to decide whether the floor joists were gonna be a bigger problem than the mouths on his crew.
āShe aināt even late in a normal way,ā another guy said, dragging a gloved hand across his forehead. āNah, itās always some little emergency. āBabe, I gotta redo my eyeliner.ā āBabe, I donāt like my hair.āā He pitched his voice higher in a cruel imitation. āIām starvinā by the time we leave the house.ā
That got more laughter.
Tommy, who was up on the temporary decking checking measurements, sighed loud enough for Joel to hear. āHere we go.ā
Joel still didnāt say anything.
He should have. He knew that. He knew the shape of this kind of conversation and exactly where it usually went. But sometimes, if you cut in too early, it only encourages idiots to perform for each other. Men like that got louder when they thought they had an audience.
āMine puts on lipstick to go buy milk,ā another one said. āMilk. From the damn grocery store. I told her, sweetheart, the dairy aisle is gonna fall in love with you.ā
The laugh that followed was uglier than the last one.
Joelās eyes lifted.
He knew these boys. That was the thing. Boys, most of them. Old enough to swing a hammer, young enough to still mistake being dismissive for being funny. Heād worked with all kinds over the years: good workers, lazy workers, drunks, hotheads, quiet ones, fools. The loudest were usually the least sure of themselves. Had to fill the air with something before anybody noticed there wasnāt much beneath it.
Still, that didnāt mean he had to listen to it.
āHell,ā the first one went on, encouraged now, āI donāt even get it. They complain they aināt got enough time, then they spend two damn hours in the bathroom paintinā themselves like theyāre headed to some red carpet thing.ā
Joel folded the plans once.
Another voice chimed in. āAnd then you gotta tell āem they look pretty like you aināt been lookinā at the same face for three years.ā
Tommy winced and muttered, āJesus Christ.ā
That was enough.
Joel started walking before he even fully decided to. He stopped a few feet from the group gathered around the sawhorsesāthree of the younger subcontractors and one laborer with more confidence than senseāand looked at each of them in turn.
Nobody spoke.
Joel nodded once. āYāall done?ā
The guy in the baseball cap gave a half shrug, half grin that died fast under Joelās stare. āWeāre just talkinā, man.ā
Joelās face didnāt change. āAināt what I asked.ā
Silence.
He slipped the folded plans under one arm. āI said, are yāall done.ā
āYeah,ā one of them muttered.
Joel took another step closer. āThen maybe yāall can get back to work and quit runninā your mouths long enough to remember Iām payinā you to build a house, not stand around bitchinā about women who apparently still choose to go home with you.ā
Tommy turned away, rubbing a hand over his mouth to hide a grin.
One of the younger guys, John maybe, ducked his head. āWe were kiddinā.ā
Joel fixed him with a look. āThat so?ā
āYes, sir.ā
Joel hated being called sir. Normally heād say so. Right now he let it stand.
He hooked his thumbs through his belt and looked between them. āTell me somethinā. You got a woman at home who takes time gettinā ready to go out with you, and your first thought is to complain?ā
Nobody answered.
āThat woman picked out a dress, did her hair, stood in front of a mirror decidinā she wanted to look nice, and you somehow made that an inconvenience to you.ā His voice stayed level, but the disappointment in it landed harder than if heād shouted. āThat what weāre doinā now?ā
The laborer with the red bandana shifted on his feet. āDidnāt mean nothinā by it.ā
Joelās eyes cut to him. āThatās usually when a man oughta think a little harder about whatās cominā outta his mouth.ā
Tommy climbed down from the decking, landing beside them with a thud. He didnāt interrupt. Didnāt need to. He knew Joel well enough to hear the line in his voice that meant this wasnāt just irritation anymore.
Joel went on, āYou wanna know what I hear?ā He tapped two fingers against the rolled plans. āI hear a bunch of fools complaininā that somebody gives enough of a damn to wanna look good standinā next to āem.ā
That got their attention.
One of them tried to laugh it off. āIt aināt that deep, Joel.ā
Joel turned his head slowly. āNo?ā
āNo, I just meanāā
āI know what you mean.ā He took a breath through his nose. āYou mean youāre too young and too selfish to understand that not everything a woman does is for your convenience.ā
The site has gone quiet now.
Even the men who hadnāt been part of the conversation were listening, pretending not to.
Joel looked down at the open toolbox on the sawhorse, then back at them. āSome of you got girlfriends. Some of you got wives. And near as I can tell, not one of you sounds near grateful enough for the women keepinā your lives stitched together when you go home actinā like this.ā
Nobody met his eyes.
āMaybe she takes too long in the bathroom,ā Joel said. āMaybe she changes clothes three times before dinner because she wants to feel pretty. That aināt foolishness. That aināt vanity. Thatās her wantinā to feel good in her own skin, and if your reaction to that is to stand around mockinā her with other men, then youāre a bigger idiot than I thought.ā
Joel gave him a look so dry it bordered on pity. āSon, if youāre gonna lie, at least do it convincingly.ā
Tommy barked a laugh and turned it into a cough.
A few of the older workers smirked into their sleeves.
Joel kept going, because now that heād started, he knew exactly what was bothering him. It wasnāt just the words. It was the casualness of them. The way men could take something tender and make it small just because they didnāt know how to hold it properly.
āMy wife,ā he said, and that alone changed the air, made everybody listen closer, ācan take as long as she damn well pleases gettinā ready for anything she wants. Grocery store. Dinner. A walk down the block. I donāt care if sheās puttinā on lipstick to sit in the livinā room and watch television. If it matters to her, it matters. End of story.ā
That landed.
Because when Joel spoke about you didnāt sound like a man making a point for the sake of winning. He sounded like a man stating a universal truth.
The laborer scratched the back of his neck. āYeah, but women donāt do all that for us anyway.ā
Joelās brow lifted. āWell, congratulations. Thatās the first smart thing anybodyās said in five minutes.ā
A few snickers broke the tension.
Joel didnāt smile. āNo, they donāt do it all for you. Thatās exactly the point. Maybe she does some of it for herself. Maybe itās fun. Maybe it makes her feel confident. Maybe itās the one damn thing in a day thatās just hers. And maybe instead of complaininā, you oughta learn enough respect to keep your mouth shut and tell her she looks beautiful.ā
The man in the cap looked down at his boots. āAlright.ā
Joelās expression hardened. āThat āalrightā better means somethinā.ā
āIt does.ā
āGood.ā He glanced between all of them. āNow pick up your tools and get back to work. Weāre behind, and Iāve had about enough of hearinā how burdensome it is that women continue to exist as full human beings.ā
That actually got a real laugh, even from a couple of the guilty ones, though they had the decency to look embarrassed about it.
Joel let the silence sit a beat longer, then pointed at the framing on the east wall. āJohn, if youāve got enough energy to complain, youāve got enough to finish bracinā that corner.ā
āYes, sir.ā
Joelās stare sharpened.
Caleb sighed. āYes, Joel.ā
āBetter.ā
The group broke apart at last, muttering to each other in lower voices now, heads down, hands moving quicker than before. Tommy stepped up beside Joel and watched them scatter back into usefulness.
For a second neither brother said anything.
Then Tommy glanced at him. āYou feel better?ā
Joel bent to grab the level off the sawhorse. āNot especially.ā
Tommyās mouth twitched. āYou know theyāre all scared of you now.ā
āThey oughta be scared of beinā stupid in public.ā
Tommy laughed under his breath. āThat speech about your wife?ā He nudged Joel with an elbow. āBit dramatic.ā
Joel shot him a look. āWasnāt dramatic.ā
āNo?ā Tommy grinned.
Joel set the level against the brace and adjusted it with one hand. āYou got somethinā useful to do, or you planninā on botherinā me the rest of the afternoon?ā
Tommy leaned against a stud, folding his arms. āI am doinā somethinā useful. Iām watchinā you pretend that wasnāt personal.ā
Joel didnāt bother looking at him. āGo measure somethinā.ā
Tommy ignored that completely. āYou thought about her, didnāt you?ā
Joel checked the bubble on the level, shifted the brace half an inch. āIām workinā.ā
Tommy rocked back on his heels, pleased with himself now. āSo when those idiots were yappinā about women takinā forever in the bathroom, you were thinkinā about her sittinā at the mirror?ā
Joel let out a quiet breath and straightened. He shouldāve known better than to engage. Tommy had the kind of nosiness only a younger brother could get away with, half affection and half appetite for trouble.
Joel grabbed the drill. āTommy.ā
His brother laughed. āAlright, alright.ā
But he didnāt move away yet, and after a moment he said, softer this time, āYou know, you were right.ā
Joel glanced up and Tommy shrugged one shoulder.Ā
Joel shook his head, but there was no real heat in it now. āYouāre annoyinā.ā
āRuns in the family.ā
Joel drove the screw in with more force than necessary. āGo to hell.ā
Tommy laughed and pushed off the wall at last. āCanāt. I work for my brother.ā
Joel watched him go, then looked back out across the site.
Work picked up again in the wake of the interruption. The radio came back into focus. Men shouted measurements, wood scraped against wood, someone swore after dropping a box of nails. The day moved on the way it always did, one task into the next, one hour bleeding into another until the sun shifted.
But Tommy was right.
Of course heād thought about you.
He had the moment those boys started talking.
He could picture you too easily.
Standing in the bathroom in one of his old shirts, hair pinned back, leaning close to the mirror with that concentrated little crease between your brows. Sitting at your vanityāyour vanity, the one heād built with his own hands after seeing your face fall when the one you wanted sold out before he could order itāsurrounded by brushes and powders and little bottles that all looked nearly identical to him and yet somehow never were. Looking over your shoulder to ask him which earring. Holding up two lipsticks and asking if one looked too dark. Smiling when he got the answer wrong but tried anyway.
He never mocked any of it. Never would.
Half the time he didnāt understand what half those products were for, but that had never seemed like a reason to dismiss them. They mattered because they were yours. Because they brought something bright into your face. Because he had learned, over the course of loving you, that attention was a kind of devotion all its own.
That was the part those boys didnāt get.
Loving somebody meant noticing. It meant learning the shape of their rituals, even the ones that didnāt belong to you. It meant understanding that intimacy wasnāt just the big things like the hospital visits, funerals, marriage vows, bad nights or worse mornings.
Sometimes it was remembering the exact height she liked a table because she tended to hunch if it sat too low. Sometimes it was sanding the edge of a drawer three extra times so it wouldnāt catch on her dress. Sometimes it was building something beautiful out of wood and patience because she had looked disappointed for all of two seconds and that had been enough to undo him.
Joel drove another screw into place and exhaled slowly.
He hadnāt meant to build the vanity quite as elaborate as he did.
At first, heād only intended to make something simple. Clean lines, sturdy legs, decent storage. Then heād remembered the way your face had lit up describing the one youād wanted, the little details you liked, the mirror shape, the drawers, the finish. By the end of it, heād spent nearly three weeks in the garage after work, pretending he wasnāt enjoying himself every time you wandered in and tried to peek beneath the tarp he kept throwing over it.
When he finally brought it inside, youād looked at him like heād hung the moon in the bedroom with his bare hands.
That expression had stayed with him. It still did.
āJoel!ā
He turned at the shout.
One of the crew was waving him over near the back of the house. Something about the window framing looked off. He tucked the level under his arm and headed that way, slipping back into the rhythm of the job because there was always another problem to solve, another correction to make, another young man to stop from ruining good lumber with bad math.
The afternoon wore down by inches, the light changed and the heat eased. By the time they started packing up, Joelās shirt was stuck to his back, his shoulders ached, and there was sawdust worked so deep into the lines of his hands it would take a brush to get it out.
He signed off on the delivery order for Monday, checked the lock on the storage trailer, and made sure the site was squared away before anybody left. Tommy came up beside him with a clipboard tucked under one arm and a half finished bottle of water in the other.
Tommy studied him for a moment. āYou tell her about this?ā
Joel frowned. āAbout what.ā
āThe little feminist awakening you had in front of the crew.ā
Joel shot him a flat look. āThat what youāre callinā it?ā
Tommy grinned. āIām callinā it funny as hell. And yeah. You should tell her. Sheāll eat that up.ā
Joel shook his head and started toward his truck. Tommy followed for a few steps before peeling off toward his own, still smiling to himself like heād been handed some private joke he planned on keeping.
Joel climbed into the driverās seat, shut the door, and let the quiet settle around him for a second. He dropped his head back against the seat and closed his eyes just long enough to feel the day in his bones. Then he started the engine and pulled out onto the road.
The drive home wasnāt long, but it was long enough for his thoughts to drift where they usually did at the end of the week.
To you.
Maybe youād be on the couch with a blanket over your legs and an episode of the Gilmore Girls half watched because youād been waiting for the sound of his truck.
God, he could picture it so clearly it almost made his chest ache.
He thought, not for the first time that day, that the men back on that site had no idea how lucky they were if there was somebody waiting for them at all. They have no idea what a privilege it was to be known that intimately by another person. To have your favorite plate set out before you asked. To be greeted by the sound of their voice from the next room.
Joel flexed one hand on the steering wheel.
He thought of you in front of a mirror again.
Of your careful hands. Your patience. The little pleasure you took in things most men would dismiss because they had never learned how to look properly. He thought of how easy it was, in a world this ugly, to sneer at softness just because you didnāt know what to do with it.
He also thought, with a private heaviness he never quite voiced, of how much of your life lived in those little rituals. The tender ordinary things. The things he catalogued without meaning to. The products lined up on the vanity. The order you used them in. The brushes you reached for first. The colors you favored when you were happy, or when you were quiet, or when you wanted him to notice.
Joel always noticed.
And somewhere deep beneath that noticing lived the old anxiety he carried like a second spine, the one that made him prepare for loss even in the middle of joy. It came uninvited, as it always did, whispering its ugly what ifs into the back of his mind. What if one day you were too tired. What if one day your hands hurt. What if one day life turned cruel in some new and inventive way and you couldnāt do these things for yourself anymore.
He hated those thoughts. Hated the shape of them. Hated that fear had taught his mind to brace for impact even when nothing was wrong.
But still he learned.
The names of things. The purpose of things. The order of them. Not because he expected praise for it, and not because he ever intended to say any of this aloud. Only because if the world ever tried to take some small comfort from you, Joel wanted his hands ready, wanted to know enough to step in gently and give it back.
His throat tightened a little, and he swallowed it down.
By the time he turned onto your street, the sun was lower, the sky softening into streaks of amber and pale blue. Home came into view steady and familiar, porch light not yet on, the windows warm with the first signs of evening.
Joel eased the truck into the driveway and killed the engine.
For a second he stayed where he was, one hand still on the wheel, looking at the house like he did every now and then when the day had been long enough to make him feel the full weight of what waited inside it.
His true home.
Then he got out, shut the truck door, and headed for the front porch with sawdust on his boots, tiredness in his shoulders, and the faintest trace of a smile pulling at one corner of his mouth for no reason other than the simple fact that he was almost home.
You.
He pushed the front door open with one hand, already loosening up a little at the simple fact of stepping inside, and was met at once by warmth, soft lamplight, and the unmistakable smell of something good waiting in the kitchen. Then, Joel set his keys in the bowl by the door and shrugged out of his jacket.
āHoney?ā he called, voice carrying low through the quiet.
āIn here!ā
Something in your tone made him pause.
A kind of carefully held excitement you were trying, and failing, to disguise as casual. Joelās mouth pulled almost into a smile before he even saw you. He followed your voice into the kitchen and found you standing near the stove.
There you are, he thought, with that immediate, quiet hit of relief he never quite got used to.
You turned when he appeared in the doorway, and your face lit in a way that still undid him a little, no matter how many times he came home to it. āHi.ā
Joel leaned one shoulder against the frame for a second, just looking at you. āHi, baby.ā
He heard the roughness in his own voice and saw the way your eyes softened at it.
You crossed to him without hesitation, and he opened an arm automatically, catching you against him with all the ease of a long habit. Your hands slid around his middle carefully, as though you knew exactly where the day tended to settle in him, and his palm spread over your back. He bent to kiss the top of your head first, breathing you in, then your temple, then finally your mouth, the kind of kiss that means that he was finally at home now, and home meant you.
āYou smell good,ā you murmured against his mouth.
Joel huffed a tired laugh. āSmell like sawdust.ā
āBut it's sexy,ā you said, pulling back just enough to look at him.
That did make him smile. His thumb brushed once at your waist. āThat so?ā
āMmm-hmm.ā
He let his gaze move over your face, lingering a beat too long because something about you felt gently charged tonight.āYou been waitinā on me?ā
You widened your eyes with exaggerated innocence. āMaybe.ā
Joel studied you. āThat look usually means youāre hidinā somethinā.ā
You gasped softly. āIām offended.ā
āNo, you aināt.ā
You tried not to grin and failed. Joel watched the smile break across your face and had the strange, familiar thought that if he died tomorrow, this would be the shape of heaven in his head. You in the kitchen, looking pleased with yourself. The light warm on your skin. The house quiet around you both. Something cooking. The weekend beginning at the edges of the room like a blessing neither of you had earned but both of you needed.
He brushed his knuckles along your cheek. āWhatās for dinner?ā
Your whole expression brightened. āSit down and Iāll show you.ā
That got a low chuckle out of him. āBossy.ā
āJust tonight.ā
āThatād be a first.ā
You swatted lightly at his arm, laughing, and he caught your wrist before you could move away, tugging you in just enough to kiss you once more, this time with a little more intent, enough to make your breath catch and your fingers curl against his shirt. Then he let you go before either of you leaned too far into it, because there was still dinner on the stove and because he knew that if he stood there kissing you too long after a week like this one, he might never make it to the table.
He washed up at the sink while you moved around the kitchen putting the last things together, and Joel watched you in the window reflection while the water ran over his hands. You kept glancing at him like you had something else to say. Something you were sitting on. He knew you well enough to spot the tells now; the little smile you bit back for no reason, the extra care you took with the plates, the way your body seemed almost too still whenever you were trying not to blurt something out too soon.
āYou gonna tell me whatās got you lookinā like that?ā he asked, drying his hands on the dish towel.
You set a plate down. āLike what?ā
āLike youāre about two seconds from spoilinā your own surprise.ā
āI donāt know what youāre talking about.ā
Joel pulled out his chair and sat, eyes never leaving you. āBaby.ā
You laughed, soft and guilty, and finally brought the plates over. āFine. Maybe Iām just happy itās Friday.ā
He accepted that with a slight tilt of his head, though they both knew that wasnāt all of it. āThat much, I believe.ā
Joel took the first bite of the tender meat you've cooked for him and closed his eyes for half a second before he meant to.
You noticed, of course.
āThat good?ā you asked, trying not to sound too pleased.
He opened his eyes and looked at you over the table. āYou fishinā?ā
āYes.ā
Joel leaned back slightly in his chair, chewing, making a deliberate show of considering it. āMight be the best thing Iāve eaten all week.ā
You laughed, and the sound of it loosened something in him he hadnāt realized was still tight.
That was the thing about Friday nights with you. The workweek wore him down and you gathered him back together. Not all at once. Just piece by piece. A hot meal. Your voice across the table. Your foot brushing his under it. The look on your face when he reached for a second helping like he hadnāt spent the whole drive home pretending he wasnāt hungry.
He told you a little about work. Not too much. Just enough for you to follow the shape of his day. A delivery that came late. A measurement that had to be redone because somebody hadnāt listened the first time. Tommy nearly stepping backward off the decking because heād turned around too fast while arguing with one of the electricians.
You laughed at that. āWas he hurt?ā
āNo.ā
āThen I can laugh.ā
āYou already were.ā
āI know.ā
Joel watched you talk, watched your hands move when you got animated, watched the way you leaned in when you were interested in something heād said as though there might still be new things to learn about him after all this time. It made something warm and almost painful spread low in his chest. Heād never been very good at making speeches about love. But if anybody had asked him where most of his peace lived, he wouldāve had to point right here. To this table. To your voice. To your company at the end of the day.
At some point your foot slid against his calf beneath the table and stayed there.
Joelās eyes flicked up.
You were smiling down at your plate, pretending not to notice what youād done.
His mouth twitched. āYou beinā sweet, or are you up to somethinā?ā
You looked up, all innocence again. āCanāt it be both?ā
He held your gaze for a beat, then reached for his glass. āThat answer concerns me.ā
āIt should.ā
He laughed under his breath.
When the plates were nearly empty you rose to clear the table but when Joel started to stand with you out of instinct, you pointed at him.
āSit.ā
He blinked. āExcuse me?ā
āI mean it. You worked all day. Sit there.ā
Joel settled back slowly, one brow raised. āYou order me around awfully easy for somebody this small.ā
You gathered up the dishes with a smile. āAnd yet you listen.ā
āSometimes.ā
āMost times.ā
He gave you a dry look. āDonāt push it.ā
You disappeared into the kitchen with the plates, and he sat there listening to the music of you moving around⦠water running, cabinets opening, cutlery clinking softly against ceramic. Domestics sounds. He loved them with a ferocity he kept mostly to himself.
When you came back, you werenāt empty handed.
Joelās eyes dropped to the plate you set in front of him, and he went still for half a second.
Not just any pie. Apple pie. His favorite. Still slightly warm, the crust golden, the scent of cinnamon and butter rising up before it had even properly touched the table.
You folded back into your seat trying and failing to look casual. āThereās ice cream too, if you want it.ā
Joel looked from the plate to you. āYou made pie?ā
Your expression softened. āI did.ā
āFor me.ā
The corners of your mouth lifted. āWell, I donāt know many people who get this emotional about apple pie, so yes. For you.ā
Something in his face must have shifted, because your own expression gentled further.
Joel glanced back down at the dessert and let out a quiet breath through his nose, almost a laugh, almost not. āChrist.ā
āWhat?ā
He looked at you again. āNothinā.ā His voice came out lower than before. āJust⦠thank you, baby.ā
You leaned your chin into your hand. āYouāre welcome.ā
He took a bite, closed his eyes and opened them again. āThatās real good.ā
Your smile went luminous. āYeah?ā
āMm.ā Another bite. āDangerously good.ā
You watched him with such open fondness it made him shake his head a little and look back at the plate, because being adored that plainly still makes him blush some days.Ā
āThereās more,ā you said after a moment, like you couldnāt possibly hold it in any longer.
Joel looked up, chewing slowly. āMore pie?ā
You laughed. āNo. Although yes, thereās more pie. But thatās not what I meant.ā
He set his fork down. āAlright. Go on.ā
Your eyes brightened immediately. āI restocked everything.ā
He frowned mildly, trying to follow. āEverything.ā
āFor the weekend.ā You started counting off on your fingers. āCoffee. The good kind you like.ā
Joel felt an involuntary little stab of gratitude so strong it was almost ridiculous. āYou got coffee.ā
āI got coffee,ā you confirmed. āAnd beer.ā
His brow lifted. āBeer too, huh?ā
āAnd your barbecue chips. And the pretzels you pretend you donāt like that much but somehow always eat. And those peanuts Tommy keeps stealing every time he comes over.ā
Joel stared at you for a second, then leaned back in his chair with a quiet exhale, one hand coming up to scrub over his beard. āYouāve been busy.ā
Your face softened into something tender. āI wanted you to have a nice weekend.ā
There it was again, that precise, deadly thing you did to him without even trying. You said simple sentences that landed somewhere deep because they carried more than the words themselves. I wanted you to have a nice weekend. As if his comfort was something worth planning for. As if the shape of his rest mattered enough for you to think ahead about coffee and snacks and the exact beer he reached for first.
Joel looked at you for a long moment. Then he said, quieter, āCāmere.ā
You got up at once and crossed the space between you, and he drew you gently between his knees, one hand settling at your hip while the other curved around the back of your thigh. He tipped his head back to look at you properly. Your hair had fallen forward a little, your expression open and sweet and expectant, and the simple sight of you there, taking such obvious pleasure in taking care of him, nearly undid him.
āYou didnāt have to do all that,ā he said.
āI know.ā
His thumb rubbed once over the fabric at your side. āThen whyād you?ā
You looked at him like the answer was the easiest thing in the world. āBecause I love you.ā
Joelās throat moved.
He knew better than most men how dangerous those words could be when spoken carelessly. How people used them as decoration. As habit. As currency. But you never did. When you said them, you meant them all the way through.
He rested his forehead briefly against your stomach and let the quiet sit. Then he leaned back enough to press a kiss there through your shirt, right above your navel, and felt the little shiver that ran through you.
āYou keep this up,ā he murmured, āIām gonna start thinkinā again that youāre after somethinā.ā
You smiled down at him, fingers slipping into his hair. āMaybe I just missed you.ā
That, too, he believed.
Joel turned his face and pressed another kiss to the heel of your palm before letting you go. āAlright,ā he said, clearing his throat a little as you stepped back. āNow Iām definitely suspicious.ā
You laughed, gathered the pie plate, and turned away before he could see too much of whatever was passing over your face. Joel watched you go, watched the sway of your body as you moved around the kitchen, watched the little lightness in you that had only grown since he came through the door.
He knew now with certainty that you had something planned, he just didnāt yet know what shape it would take.
Once everything was cleaned up and the kitchen restored to order, the evening softened around the two of you. Joel checked the locks out of habit, turned off the extra lights, and came back to find you already collecting his towel from the linen closet before he could ask for it. He took it from your hands with a low, amused noise.
āBaby, I can get my own towel.ā
āI know you can.ā
āThen why am I beinā supervised?ā
You stepped closer and smoothed a hand over the front of his work shirt, over the dust and wrinkles and the tiredness still hanging off him. āBecause youāve had a long week.ā
Joel looked down at you. āAnd?ā
āAnd because I like taking care of you.ā
His expression shifted into something softer, more serious. āI know you do.ā
You held his gaze for a moment too long, and once again that same curious charge moved through the room. Not enough to name yet. Just enough to feel.
Joel tipped your chin up with two fingers and kissed you slowly, until your body leaned into his and the hem of his shirt bunched a little in your fists. When he pulled back, he lingered close enough that your breath still crossed his mouth.
āIām gonna shower,ā he said.
You nodded. āOkay.ā
He narrowed his eyes slightly. āYou say that like youāre planninā somethinā while Iām gone.ā
You widened your eyes. āMaybe Iām just going to⦠fold laundry.ā
Joel let out a short laugh. āThat lie was insultinā.ā
āGo shower, Miller.ā
The way you said it, bossy and faintly pleased with yourself, made him shake his head as he turned toward the hallway. āYes, maāam.ā
He heard your little triumphant laugh behind him all the way to the bathroom.
The shower was hot enough to ache pleasantly over his sore body. Joel stood under it longer than usual, one hand braced on the tile, letting the day rinse off him in layers. The dust fell away first, then sweat, then whatever lingering irritation had stayed with him from the workplace. By the time he stepped out, the mirror had fogged over, and the house beyond the bathroom door had gone quiet in that particular evening way that meant you were no longer puttering around downstairs.
He dried off, wrapped the towel low around his waist, and dragged one hand through his damp hair before stepping into the bedroom.
And stopped.
You were waiting for him.
Not in bed, not curled up under the covers with a Jane Austen book or half asleep with the lamp on. You were seated at the bedroom vanity with your back mostly to the door, posture straight, legs crossed at the ankle, like youād been there long enough to settle into the moment. The vanity itself caught the warm glow from the bedside lamp making you look almost ethereal. He looked at the whole scene at once and felt something inside him go very still.
Youād changed into a nightgown while he was in the shower, your hair arranged just so, your expression reflected in the mirror as you looked at him through it with a smile too small to be innocent.
Joel stayed by the bathroom door for a second, towel slung low, water still cooling on his shoulders. āThere it is.ā
You turned slightly in the chair. āThere what is?ā
āThe surprise.ā
You tried to look confused. āI donāt know what you mean.ā
He huffed a laugh, already moving toward the bed. āSure you donāt.ā
Joel sat down at the edge of the mattress, elbows resting loosely on his knees for a second as he took you in. Then his gaze dropped to the box in your lapāblack and white stripes, tissue paper peeking out the topāand his mouth twitched.
āSephora,ā he said.
Your face brightened at once. āI went today.ā
āI can see that.ā
āYou said I should get myself something nice.ā
āI did.ā
āAnd I listened.ā
That made him smile properly now. āIām learninā that can be dangerous.ā
You angled the box toward yourself protectively. āNo take backs now, Miller.ā
āAināt askinā for any.ā
He leaned back slightly, one hand braced on the bedspread, and watched as your fingers slipped beneath the tissue paper with excitement. He recognized that look on you too. The one that made you seem younger and softer all at once.
You glanced at him over your shoulder. āDo you want to see?ā
Joelās eyes moved from your face to the box and back again. āBaby, you know I got no earthly clue what half that stuff is.ā
āI know,ā you said sweetly. āThatās why Iām going to explain it to you.ā
He laughed under his breath and settled in, already knowing he was done for. āAlright, then.ā
And because it was you asking, because it mattered to you, because he loved the sound of your voice when you got excited about something, Joel gave you his full attention.You shifted in the chair until you were facing him a little more fully, one leg tucking beneath you, the Sephora box still balanced carefully in your lap like something precious. Joel stayed where he was at the edge of the bed, damp hair curling slightly at the ends, towel slung low around his waist, watching you with attention.
You dipped a hand into the box and pulled out the first item. āOkay. Weāre starting easy.ā
Joelās mouth twitched. āThat suggests we aināt stayinā easy.ā
āWe are not.ā
He nodded once, resigned already. āGo on, then.ā
You held up a sleek bottle. āThis is primer.ā
Joel frowned faintly. āPrimer.ā
āYes.ā
He leaned forward slightly, forearms braced on his thighs. āLike paint.ā
You stared at him for a beat, then sighed. āI knew you were going to say that.ā
āWell, itās called primer.ā
āIt is not a paint primer.ā
Joel tipped his head. āHow do I know that?ā
āBecause this one costs thirty eight dollars and if I ever put it on a wall, youād have me committed.ā
That earned a low laugh out of him.
He reached for the bottle, and you handed it over. Joel turned it in his hand, studying the label with the seriousness of a man trying very hard not to look like he was reading another language. āSo whatās it do?ā
āIt goes on before makeup.ā
āHence the name.ā
You squinted at him. āYou can either be respectful during my presentation, or I can pack everything up and go to bed.ā
āPresentation?ā he repeated, eyes warm now. āBaby, are you givinā me a seminar?ā
āYes.ā You folded your arms. āAnd if youāre lucky thereāll be a practical demonstration.ā
Joelās gaze flickered over your face for half a second, before he handed the bottle back. āNow that sounds promisinā.ā
You ignored the way your stomach fluttered and went on. āPrimer makes everything sit better on the skin. It helps smooth things out, helps makeup last longer, and sometimes it gives you a certain finish.ā
He blinked. āA finish.ā
āYes. Glowy. Matte. Blurring. Hydrating.ā
Joel was quiet for a second. āThat all different from just⦠face?ā
You laughed. āYes, Joel, that is different from just face.ā
He gave a solemn nod. āAlright. Good to know.ā
You placed the primer on the vanity and reached into the box again. āNext: concealer.ā
Joel watched the little tube appear in your hand. āLemme guess. Covers somethinā.ā
You pointed at him. āSee? This is good. Youāre learning.ā
He leaned back a little, smug enough to annoy you. āI aināt dumb, darlinā.ā
āI didnāt say you were dumb.ā
āYour tone did.ā
āMy tone is educational.ā
āThat so?ā
āYes.ā
Joelās smile deepened, but he let you continue.
āConcealer can be for dark circles, redness, blemishes, whatever.ā
His brow furrowed almost immediately. āYou donāt have any of those things on your pretty face, baby.ā
You stared at him, then softened a little despite yourself. āThatās sweet, but thatās not the point.ā
He looked genuinely unconvinced. āSeems like the point exactly.ā
āNo.ā You set the concealer down with a small huff. āThe point is not fixing some horrible flaw. Itās just⦠enhancement. Evening things out. Playing around. Feeling put together.ā
Joel nodded slowly, eyes still on your face. āAlright.ā
You narrowed yours. āYou still look like you disagree.ā
He shrugged one shoulder. āI can disagree privately.ā
āYou are not disagreeing privately. Your whole face is disagreeing.ā
A laugh escaped him then. āYou know my face too well.ā
āI do.ā
That landed softly between you.
Joelās gaze stayed on you and you had the strange feeling that he was not just watching you talk⦠he was memorizing you. The way your fingers handled each item. The way your voice changed when you were explaining something you liked. The way you lit up when he listened properly.
He did listen properly. That was the thing.
You cleared your throat and reached for the next item before the moment got too soft to bear. āOkay. This one is blush.ā
Joel nodded. āI know blush.ā
āOh?ā
He gestured vaguely toward his own cheekbones. āPink.ā
You blinked at him. āThat is both offensively simple and, unfortunately, correct.ā
He looked pleased with himself.
You held up a compact and opened it, letting him see the soft rosy color inside. āBlush goes on the cheeks. Sometimes a little on the nose too. Depends on the look.ā
āThe look,ā he repeated.
āYes.ā
āYou got multiple looks?ā
You gave him a flat stare. āJoel.ā
āWhat? Iām askinā questions.ā
āOf course I have multiple looks.ā
He held up both hands in surrender. āAlright, alright.ā
You turned slightly toward the mirror and tapped your cheek. āBlush can make you look healthy, fresh, sweet, sunkissed, romanticāā
Joel interrupted. āSweet.ā
You glanced back. āYes.ā
He tilted his head. āYou already look sweet.ā
Your expression betrayed you then, a little smile creeping in despite your best efforts. āYou canāt just say things like that in the middle of my explanation.ā
āWhy not?ā
āBecause Iām trying to be serious.ā
Joel looked at you for a beat, taking in your face, your excitement, the slight pink that had risen in your cheeks before youād even put any actual blush on. āThat may be the problem right there, baby.ā
You laughed softly and reached into the box again. āFine. No more compliments until the end.ā
āThat doesn't sound natural.ā
āItās a rule now.ā
āSeems harsh.ā
āYouāll survive.ā
He considered that. āDebatable.ā
You had to look away for a second because the sight of him sitting there barely dressed, all broad shoulders and damp hair and sleepy amusement, making himself the worldās most attentive audience for a makeup breakdown, was almost too lovely to process in one go.
You pulled out a small palette next.
Joel squinted. āThat one looks expensive.ā
Your face changed instantly. āIt was a little expensive.ā
āA little.ā
āMmm-hmm.ā
He extended a hand. āLemme see.ā
You passed it over carefully, and Joel turned the compact in his fingers. The palette was heavier than he expected, the case clicking softly when he opened it. Inside were shades of brown, gold, rose, and deep muted plum, each one arranged so prettily it almost did make sense that youād looked delighted pulling it out of the bag earlier.
He studied it in silence for a moment.
Then, very seriously: āThese are all nearly the same color.ā
Your mouth fell open. āJoel!ā
āWhat?ā
āThey are not.ā
He looked at the palette again, then back at you. āBaby, Iām lookinā at seven versions of brown.ā
You snatched it from him with exaggerated offense. āThis is taupe. This is a soft rose. This is bronze. This is a champagne shimmer. This one is mauve.ā
Joel blinked slowly. āThat last one was definitely still brown.ā
āIt was not.ā
āLooked brown from here.ā
āYou are impossible.ā
He grinned then. āMaybe. But Iām listeninā.ā
You held the palette protectively against your chest. āEyeshadow,ā you informed him, in the tone of someone recovering from a great insult, āis what you put on your eyelids.ā
āI gathered.ā
āIt can change the whole mood of a look.ā
He raised a brow. āCan it?ā
āYes. Soft. Smoky. Dramatic. Fresh. Sultry.ā
Joelās expression altered at that last word, barely. āSultry, huh?ā
You pretended not to notice. āYes.ā
āAnd youāre sayinā that like itās a normal thing to tell me while sittinā there lookinā like that.ā
āLike what?ā
He looked you over once, slowly enough to make your pulse jump, then brought his eyes back to your face. āLike you know exactly what youāre doinā.ā
The silence that followed lasted a beat too long.
Then you cleared your throat again. āAnyway. Moving on.ā
Joel let out a quiet laugh but didnāt argue.
You pulled out a fluffy brush, and his brow furrowed. āThat one for paint too?ā
You gasped. āJoel!ā
āIām kiddinā.ā
āNo, youāre not. You think all of this is construction supplies in disguise.ā
He looked at the brush. āYou gotta admit thereās some overlap.ā
āThere is absolutely no overlap.ā
āThat primer still sounds suspicious.ā
You shook your head, smiling helplessly now. āThis is an eyeshadow brush.ā
He gave the brush a dubious look. āSeems too soft to do much.ā
āItās not supposed to do much. Itās supposed to blend.ā
āBlend what?ā
āThe eyeshadow.ā
Joel leaned back and rubbed a hand over his jaw. āAlright, hold on. So first you put color on your eyelid.ā
āYes.ā
āThen you use another tool to sort of⦠smear it around.ā
āIt is not smearing. It is blending.ā
He nodded gravely. āMy mistake.ā
You pointed the brush at him. āMock me again and Iāll use this against you.ā
Joel looked at the brush, then at you. āSweetheart, I am not afraid of a tiny fluffy weapon.ā
You fought a smile and lost badly. āYou should be.ā
āWhat, you gonna do my makeup in my sleep?ā
That image hit you so suddenly and vividly that you nearly laughed. āHonestly? Youād look gorgeous.ā
āWould I?ā
āYes. Maybe a nice neutral eye to enhance your hazel eyes or something soft and romantic with berry tones.ā
Joel gave you a long look. āYou flirtinā with me or threateninā me?ā
āBit of both.ā
āMm.ā
His voice dropped on that little hum in a way you very deliberately chose not to think about too hard.
Instead, you kept digging through the box and grabbed a lipstick. āOkay. This one you know.ā
Joelās gaze landed on the tube and warmed immediately with recognition. āNow that one I know.ā
You looked pleased. āYou do?ā
āYeah.ā He pointed lazily. āThatās similar to the color you wear when we go out somewhere nice.ā
You paused.
Then slowly: āWhat?ā
Joel shrugged, like this was obvious. āThe darker one.ā
You blinked at him. āYou know this shade?ā
āCould pick it out in a lineup.ā
You stared.
His expression shifted, a little wary now. āWhat?ā
āJoel.ā
āWhat.ā
You turned fully toward him on the stool, lipstick in hand. āAre you telling me you can identify my lipstick shades?ā
He frowned as if the question itself were strange. āSome of āem.ā
āSome of them?ā
āWell, not by all the names,ā he said. āThose names are ridiculous.ā
You narrowed your eyes. āWhat do you mean, ridiculous?ā
He held out a hand, and when you passed him the tube he read the label aloud with a face like he was being personally offended by it. āāRosewood Whisper.āā He looked up. āThatās not a lipstick shade. Thatās some fancy car freshener scent.ā
You laughed so hard you had to grab the edge of the vanity.
Joel kept going, encouraged now. āYāall never just call somethinā red. No. Itās āmidnight garnet seductionā or āvelvet sinā or āspiced fig dream.ā Sounds like a fancy cocktail menu.ā
You were laughing openly now, shoulders shaking.
He pointed the lipstick at you. āAnd Iām right.ā
āYou are a menace.ā
āIām observant.ā
āThat is not the word I wouldāve used.ā
Joel smiled and handed it back. āItās the one Iām usinā.ā
You twisted the lipstick up and held it near your mouth. āSo which one is this, then?ā
He squinted. āThatās not the darker dinner one.ā
āNo.ā
āAnd itās not the peachy one you wear with that cream sweater.ā
Your eyes widened. āExcuse me?ā
Joel blinked once. āWhat.ā
āYou know the peachy one?ā
He shifted slightly on the bed, suddenly looking like a man who had stumbled into revealing more than intended. āBaby, I got eyes.ā
āNo, no. Thatās not just eyes. Thatās data collection.ā
A reluctant smile pulled at his mouth. āYou say that like itās criminal.ā
āIt is deeply suspicious.ā
Joel looked down, then back up at you. āYou want me not to notice?ā
It got you in the chest a little.
Your voice softened without permission. āNo.ā
He nodded once. āThen I'll keep noticing.ā
You looked at him for a moment, then turned back toward the mirror before he could see too much on your face. āWell,ā you said, trying for lightness and getting only halfway there, āfor the record, this one is newer.ā
āYeah?ā
āYeah. And itās not for every day.ā
Joel watched your reflection. āSpecial occasion?ā
You glanced at him in the mirror. āMaybe.ā
His eyes held yours there for one quiet second before you broke the look and set the lipstick down.
You reached for another item. āOkay, next: highlighter.ā
Joel exhaled. āThat one also sounds like office supplies.ā
āIt does not.ā
āIt absolutely does.ā
āIt makes the high points of the face catch the light.ā
He nodded slowly. āNow that, I understand.ā
You blinked. āReally?ā
āSure.ā He pointed gently toward you. āBit on the cheekbone. Maybe here.ā He gestured near the inner corners of his own eyes with shocking accuracy. āMakes things brighter.ā
You stared at him, deadpan.
Joelās mouth twitched. āWhyāre you lookinā at me like that?ā
āHow do you know that?ā
He shifted one shoulder. āSeen you do it.ā
āWhen?ā
His expression was almost offended now. āWhat dāyou mean, when?ā
You let out a breathy laugh. āNo, I justāI donāt know. I didnāt realize you were paying that much attention.ā
Joel went quiet.
Then he said as a matter of fact, āI pay attention to you all the time.ā
The words settled over the room.
There was no vanity in the way he said it. He sounded like a man stating something as ordinary and unremarkable as the weather, when to you it felt like being handed his heart in the simplest possible form.
You swallowed. āI know.ā
His gaze lingered on your reflection. āDo you?ā
The question was gentle enough to hurt.
You looked down at the highlighter in your hand, then set it beside the rest. āYeah,ā you said softly. āI do.ā
Joel didnāt answer right away. He just watched you, something tender moving beneath the calm of his face, and then the moment loosened because he cleared his throat and tipped his chin toward the clutter spreading over the vanity.
āSo how much of that did you buy?ā
You laughed, grateful for the release. āRude.ā
āIām serious.ā
āYou told me to treat myself.ā
āI did not expect to finance a full cosmetic expansion.ā
āExpansion,ā you repeated, grinning.Ā
āLooks expensive enough to be one.ā
You picked up two little containers. āThese were mini sizes.ā
Joel narrowed his eyes. āThat means theyāre small.ā
āYes.ā
āNot cheap.ā
You sighed. āNo.ā
He nodded like a man whose suspicions had been confirmed. āThought so.ā
You held up another gloss tube. āThis one was on sale.ā
He gave you a long look.
āIt was!ā
āThat phraseās dangerous in your mouth.ā
āItās not dangerous.ā
āDarlin, every time you say somethinā was on sale, somehow three bags appear.ā
You put a hand to your chest. āI canāt believe youād stereotype me like this in my own bedroom.ā
Joel laughed and the sound of it curled around you like a warm blanket.
He rubbed his hand over his beard and nodded toward the products. āAlright. So what else we got.ā
You brightened immediately and began lining them up in order like you were preparing to teach a masterclass. āSkincare.ā
Joel made a face.
You caught it instantly. āDonāt.ā
āI didnāt say nothinā.ā
āYour face said enough.ā
He leaned back on one arm. āHow many steps?ā
You looked away. āThat depends.ā
Joel groaned quietly. āBaby.ā
āIt depends on the night.ā
āThat means too many.ā
āIt does not mean too many.ā
āHow many.ā
You started counting under your breath. āCleanser. Serum. Moisturizer. Eye cream if I feel like it. Sometimes an exfoliant, but not every night, obviously. And then if my skin is dry, maybeāā
Joel held up a hand. āI blacked out halfway through that.ā
You laughed. āNo, you didnāt.ā
āFelt like I did.ā
āSkincare is important.ā
He gave you a skeptical look. āYouāre twenty seven, not ninety.ā
āThat has nothing to do with it.ā
He watched you for a second, then asked with suspicious sincerity, āIs that why there are so many tiny bottles in the bathroom that all look exactly the same?ā
You gasped. āThey do not look exactly the same.ā
āThey absolutely do.ā
āThat one has niacinamide.ā
He stared.
You lifted another. āThis one has hyaluronic acid.ā
He kept staring.
You held up a third. āAnd this one is peptides.ā
Joel blinked once, then slowly dragged a hand down his face. āYou just cast a spell at me.ā
You burst out laughing.
āIām serious,ā he said, though he was smiling too now. āThat sounded illegal⦠like drugs and that stuff.ā
āItās not illegal, itās skincare.ā
āSame difference.ā
You shook your head, still smiling, and then your fingers dipped back into the box one more time.
Joel watched your expression change before the product even cleared the tissue paper.
His brows lifted. āWhatās that look for?ā
You bit back a grin. āNothing.ā
āSweetheart.ā
You looked over your shoulder at him with eyes far too innocent. āThis oneās just⦠funny.ā
Joel straightened a little. āFunny how?ā
You held the tube in your hand but didnāt show him yet.
He narrowed his gaze. āWhyāre you hidinā it?ā
āBecause youāre going to be immature.ā
Joel actually looked offended. āI am never immature.ā
You stared at him.
He waited.
Then one corner of your mouth lifted. āThat was embarrassing for both of us.ā
A laugh escaped him. āAlright, fine. Little bit.ā
āLittle bit,ā you echoed, unconvinced.
You turned the tube in your fingers, smiling to yourself now, and Joel could already tell from the expression on your face that whatever came next was going to amuse you entirely too much.
He shifted closer to the edge of the bed without even meaning to, curiosity plain on his face now. āCāmon, then. Lemme see.ā
You looked at him, still grinning. āPromise youāll behave?ā
Joel met your eyes. āNo.ā
That made you laugh again and you lifted the last item slowly, ready to show him the thing you already knew was going to make him lose it.You held it up between two fingers with a grin you were making absolutely no effort to hide now, the little metallic pink tube catching the warm bedroom light as you turned it toward him.
Joel squinted at the label.
Then he went very still.
His eyes moved across the words once. Twice.
And then, exactly as predicted, he barked out a laugh so sudden and unguarded it startled even him.
You pointed at him immediately. āDonāt.ā
That only made it worse.
Joel bent forward, one hand over his mouth now, shoulders shaking as the laugh hit him again, deeper this time, rough and helpless and impossible to stop. He looked up at you with tears of amusement practically threatening in the corners of his eyes and repeated, disbelieving, āBetter Than Sex?ā
You stared at him, trying very hard to look stern and getting nowhere. āJoel.ā
āBaby.ā He shook his head and laughed again. āNo. Iām sorry. I know Iām supposed to be respectful, I do, but that is the dumbest damn name I ever heard in my life.ā
āIt is not dumb.ā
āIt is ridiculous.ā
āItās marketing!ā
āMarketing by a thirteen year old boy, maybe.ā
You slapped a hand over your mouth to stop your own smile and failed miserably. āYou said you were going to behave.ā
āI very specifically did not promise that.ā
āThat doesnāt mean you get to be mean.ā
Joel sat up a little straighter, still grinning, and held out a hand. āLemme see it.ā
You hesitated just long enough to make a point, then passed it over. He took the tube carefully, turning it in his fingers like maybe the name would somehow become less absurd if he looked at it from another angle but it did not.
He read it aloud again, slower, like he was trying to understand how a real company with a real boardroom and real adult employees had come to this decision. āāBetter Than Sex.āā He looked up at you. āThere was nobody in that office brave enough to stop this?ā
You laughed despite yourself. āApparently not.ā
Joel stared down at the tube. āWho approved that?ā
āPeople smarter than us, probably.ā
āNo, maāam.ā He handed it back with quiet authority. āAināt no smart person names a mascara after sex.ā
You took it from him, smiling now. āThatās because you donāt understand branding.ā
He leaned back on the bed again, one hand braced behind him, expression dry. āThen explain it to me.ā
You drew in a dramatic breath and straightened in the chair like you were about to defend a thesis. āAlright. The point is not that the mascara is literally better than sex.ā
Joel immediately cut in. āWell, thatās disappointinā, because that is very much what they printed on the tube.ā
You glared at him. āWould you let me finish?ā
He made a little go ahead gesture with his fingers, though the smile was still pulling at one corner of his mouth.
āThe point,ā you repeated, āis that it promises drama.ā
Joelās expression remained skeptical. āDrama.ā
āYes. Big lashes. Volume. Length. Impact.ā You held the tube up between you both like a piece of courtroom evidence. āItās not subtle. It wants attention.ā
He looked from the mascara to you. āSo the mascara is flirtinā.ā
You narrowed your eyes. āI hate that you made that sound logical.ā
Joelās mouth twitched. āAināt wrong.ā
You rolled your eyes and unscrewed the tube, pulling the wand out with a soft wet click. āLook.ā
He leaned forward instinctively, curious despite himself now, watching as you angled the wand so he could see the brush.
Joel frowned. āThatās it?ā
You looked at him. āWhat do you mean, thatās it?ā
āItās just a little spiky stick.ā
āIt is not a spiky stick.ā
He pointed. āThatās absolutely a spiky stick.ā
āItās a mascara wand.ā
Joel nodded once, solemn again. āThatās what I said.ā
You shook your head, smiling in spite of yourself, and turned toward the mirror. āYou are impossible to educate.ā
āYet you persist.ā
āBecause Iām committed.ā
āTo what, exactly.ā
āImproving you.ā
Joelās low laugh followed you into the mirror. āGood luck with that.ā
You angled closer to the glass and lifted the wand to your lashes. āOkay. So mascara darkens them, lengthens them, thickens themāideally.ā
āāIdeallyā donāt sound confident.ā
āBecause some mascaras clump.ā
Joel frowned. āClump.ā
āYes.ā
āThat bad?ā
āIt can be.ā
He was quiet for a second. āHow many problems yāall got in that industry?ā
You laughed under your breath. āMore than you could possibly understand.ā
He watched your reflection carefully as you started applying the mascara with slow, practiced movements, the brush catching at the roots and pulling upward. Joel had seen you do this before, of course. More than once. But there was something different about being invited into it this closely, being talked through the steps like he belonged there in the middle of the ritual instead of merely passing by the doorway while it happened.
He found himself following every little motion.The steadiness of your hand. The slight concentration in your face. The way your eyes widened a touch as the lashes separated and darkened.
āWaterproof,ā you reminded him, glancing at him through the mirror.
Joel nodded. āThat part I understand.ā
āDo you.ā
āSure. Means it wonāt run if it gets wet.ā
āExactly.ā
He folded one arm across his chest. āGood for rain.ā
You smiled. āYes.ā
āCryinā.ā
āYes.ā
āHumid weather.ā
āYes.ā
Joel considered that, then squinted at the tube as if he could extract more information from sheer suspicion. āAnd thatās it?ā
You took your time with the other eye, far too aware now of the way he was watching. āNot exactly.ā
His voice changed a little. āNo?ā
You kept your gaze on the mirror because looking at him directly wouldāve been too much too soon. āNo.ā
Joel waited.
He had that patience when he wanted to. He could make silence feel like a gentle and guiding hand at the small of your back. You felt him watching as clearly as if heād touched you, and it made your skin go warm in places you were trying very hard not to think about yet.
You cleared your throat softly. āIt also says it holds up against sweat.ā
Joel made a small thoughtful sound. āAlright.ā
āAndā¦ā You adjusted the wand, pretending great interest in the angle of your lashes. āOther⦠things.ā
Joel didnāt move right away, didnāt speak either. The quiet between you lengthened until it had weight, and when he finally did say something, his voice came out rougher than before.
āWhat kind of things.ā
You looked at him in the mirror then.
There was the answer.
You turned back to the mirror and gave your lashes one more slow coat. āFluids.ā
Joel let out a breath through his nose that might have been a laugh if it hadnāt sounded so much like restraint. āDarlin'.ā
āWhat?ā you asked, all false innocence.
He looked at the back of your shoulder, then up to your eyes in the mirror again. āYou know exactly what.ā
You capped the mascara with careful fingers, buying yourself a second. āIām explaining the product.ā
āThat's what this is.ā
āYes.ā
He nodded once, but his eyes stayed on you. āSeems awfully selective.ā
You smiled faintly. āItās an important feature.ā
āIs it now.ā
āMmm-hmm.ā
Joel leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees, gaze intent enough to make the room feel smaller. āSo let me get this straight. Some genius came up with a mascara named āBetter Than Sex,ā and then another genius decided to advertise that it survivesā¦ā His eyes moved over your face, dipped to your mouth, then back up. āFluids.ā
You swallowed, trying not to show it. āThat seems to be the implication.ā
He sat with that for a second. Then, very dryly, āThat may be the most committed sales pitch Iāve heard all year.ā
You laughed, but it came out weaker than before.
Joel watched you set the tube down on the vanity, watched the way your fingers lingered on it for a fraction too long. āAnd you bought this becauseā¦ā
āBecause it had good reviews.ā
āMm.ā
āAnd because itās supposed to make lashes look dramatic.ā
His gaze flicked up to the mirror again. āMission accomplished.ā
Your breath caught a little at how simply he said it.
You looked at yourself then, partly to avoid looking at him. The mascara had done what it always promised to do: your lashes looked darker, longer, fuller, framing your eyes in a way that made your whole face read differently. Less soft. Less sleepy. Sharper somehow. More deliberate. Your eyes looked bigger, yes, but definitely not innocent.
You turned on the stool, one hand settling in your lap. āWell?ā
Joel didnāt answer immediately.
He just looked.
His gaze moved slowly over your face, taking in what had changed. The lashes now casting longer shadows against your skin. But he was not just looking at the makeup. He was looking at you inside it. At the way you wore it. At the confidence that had crept quietly into your posture because you knew you looked good and you wanted him to know you knew.
It made his heat tighten behind his ribs.
āYouāre pretty,ā he said at last.
You made a face immediately. āJoel.ā
āWhat.ā
āThat is not a serious review.ā
His mouth twitched. āDidnāt say it was.ā
āIām asking about the mascara.ā
āMm.ā His eyes stayed on yours. āAnd Iām answerinā honestly.ā
You tried not to smile and failed. āBe specific.ā
Joel let out a quiet breath, like he was indulging you, but there was no impatience in him. Only attention. āAlright.ā
He stood then.
Joel crossed the small distance between the bed and the vanity until he stood just behind your chair, close enough that the warmth of him slid over your bare shoulders before he even touched you. In the mirror you watched him lift one hand and rest it lightly on the top edge of the vanity, caging you in without quite meaning to. His other hand came to your jaw, fingers rough and warm as they tilted your face very slightly toward the light.
Now you could barely breathe.
Joel studied your reflection and yours alone, his eyes narrowed in concentration as if he were trying to get this right. āThey do look longer.ā
His thumb brushed once, barely there, near your chin. āDarker, too.ā
You kept still.
His gaze lingered. āMakes your eyes lookā¦ā He trailed off.
You looked up at him in the mirror. āLook what?ā
Joelās eyes met yours there. For one suspended second he seemed to debate with himself. Then he gave in, just a little.
āLike trouble,ā he said quietly.
Your heart stumbled.
He looked down at you then and whatever he saw on your face must have reached him, because something in his expression softened even as the heat stayed.
You tried for lightness. āThatās not very technical.ā
Joelās mouth curved. āYou want technical?ā
āYes.ā
He leaned down just enough that his voice brushed near your ear. āAlright, then. They make it hard to look anywhere else.ā
You exhaled shakily.
He stayed there a moment, close enough that your whole body had gone aware of him in pieces. The smell of soap from his shower. The quiet scrape of his thumb when it moved once more against your skin.
Then, because you needed the thread picked back up before it snapped entirely, you looked at the mascara on the table and said, with a little too much brightness, āAnd itās waterproof.ā
Joel laughed softly, the sound low in your ear. āYou already sold me on that part, darlinā.ā
You swallowed. āDid I?ā
āYeah.ā
He straightened just enough to look at you again in the mirror, one hand still resting beside you on the vanity. āOnly thing Iām still unclear onāā
You turned your head slightly. āWhatās that?ā
His eyes dropped to your mouth, then lifted again, maddeningly calm. āWhether all that advertisingās true.ā
The words landed between you dangerously.
You stared at him.
Then his hand slipped from your jaw, slow enough to feel deliberate, and he stepped back just one pace, enough to give you air without really undoing what heād started.
His voice, when it came, was gentler. āThough I should probably mentionāāhis eyes moved over your face once moreāāyou didnāt need it.ā
Your expression softened despite yourself. āNeed what?ā
āAny of it.ā He nodded toward the products scattered over the vanity. āThe primer, the blush, the dramatic flirtinā mascara with the terrible name.ā One corner of his mouth lifted. āYouāre beautiful without all that.ā
You looked down for a second, smiling helplessly. āYou always say that.ā
āBecause itās true.ā
āI know.ā You glanced back up at him. āBut thatās not the point.ā
Joel nodded slowly. āNo. I know it aināt.ā
There it was again. The understanding, the quiet way he met you where you actually were instead of simplifying you.
His gaze moved to the mascara one last time, then back to your eyes, still darkened and dangerous in the vanity light. āStill,ā he murmured, voice gone rough at the edges again, āI gotta admit.ā
You waited.
Joelās eyes held yours.
āIt does look real good on you.ā
You looked at him through the mirror.
He looked back.
And then his gaze drifted over the products scattered across the vanity and he said, low and thoughtful, āSeems a shame, though.ā
Your brows lifted. āWhat does?ā
āAll that effort.ā His eyes came back to your face, to the lashes youād darkened on purpose, to the mouth that had been trying not to smile for the last thirty seconds. āAll that makeup.ā
You turned a little more in the chair. āWhat about it?ā
Joelās mouth twitched faintly. āGonna go to waste.ā
You stared at him for half a beat, then let out a tiny laugh. āWaste?ā
He gave one slow nod, like this was the most reasonable point in the world.
āHow exactly is it going to waste?ā
Joel shifted his weight, one hand catching the knot of the towel at his hip for the briefest second before falling away again. The motion was absentminded, but your eyes dropped there anyway, and when they lifted back to his face he had already noticed.
That did not help.
His voice dipped lower. āWell, darlinā⦠unless Iāve badly misunderstood the shape of this evening, I figured weād be goinā to bed before too long.ā
The words themselves were almost innocent.
Almost.
You felt the silence that followed settle over the room, and for one suspended second you didnāt answer.
Joel noticed that too.
His eyes narrowed just slightly as he watched your face, watched the way your fingers tightened in your lap, watched the little shift in your breathing. He knew that look by now. Knew the exact moment a thought took hold in you and turned from playful to dangerous. It was always there first, in your eyes. That glint. That pause. That split second where he could practically see the idea forming before you ever said a word.
And judging by the way his chest rose on a slow inhale, he knew this one was going to be trouble. The kind of trouble he never once tried very hard to avoid.
āYouāre awfully quiet,ā he murmured.
You stood from the vanity slowly, turning fully to face him now. The height difference between you always felt more pronounced when he was like this, with his eyes fixed on you with that patient, dangerous attention that never rushed and never missed a thing.
You stepped closer.
Joelās gaze dropped briefly to your mouth, then lifted again.
āHow do you mean, waste?ā you asked softly.
His expression shifted, something amused and warmer than amused flickering through it. āDarlin'.ā
āNo, tell me.ā You tilted your head just slightly. āBecause from where Iām standing, nothingās being wasted.ā
Joel let out a quiet breath through his nose, almost a laugh, except there was too much heat in it now to really be one. āThat so?ā
āThat so.ā
You could see him trying to read you, trying to decide whether this was still teasing or whether the ground had shifted under his feet without him noticing.
Then his eyes moved over your face again, slower this time, taking in the lashes, the mouth, the expression you were making no attempt to soften.
When he spoke, his voice had gone gravel deep. āBaby.ā
That one word should not have felt like a hand sliding over bare skin. And yet you took the last half step in, close enough now to feel the heat coming off him, close enough that if you lifted your hand it would land on the center of his chest. The towel sat careless and unfair around his waist, his hair still damp, his whole body loose with the kind of comfort that only existed in private, in the quiet safety of home, in the hour when the rest of the world stopped mattering and there was only this room and this man and the way he was looking at you now.
You smiled teasingly.
āItās not going to waste,ā you said.
Joel held very still.
āNo?ā
You shook your head once, eyes never leaving his. āNo.ā
He swallowed.
That was it. Just a tiny movement in his throat, but you caught it, and the satisfaction of being able to do that to him with so little nearly made you bolder than you already were.
Joelās hands remained at his sides, though you could tell by the tension in them that it cost him something now. āAlright,ā he said carefully. āThen Iām listeninā.ā
You let your gaze flick down his chest and back up, deliberately mirroring the way heād looked at you before. āIāve been thinking about this mascara all day.ā
That got his attention in full.
āAll day,ā he repeated.
You nodded.
Joelās mouth curved, but it was thin now, held back by effort. āShould I be worried?ā
āProbably.ā
He laughed once under his breath, but the sound came out uneven. āYou say that awful casually.ā
You took another inch of space, enough that the edge of your nightgown nearly brushed the towel at his hip. Joel didnāt move away. If anything, he seemed to brace without meaning to, like his whole body had recognized the shift before his mind could catch up.
And still you made him wait.
āIāve been waiting,ā you said, voice softening, āto see if itās actually as good as it claims.ā
Joel stared at you.
His eyes searched yours, and when he spoke, his voice was so low it barely seemed to cross the space between you. āBabyā¦ā
You smiled wider.
āSo no,ā you said gently. āNothingās going to waste.ā
He exhaled slowly, chest rising under the warm lamplight, and there it was again, that look. That exact look. The one you knew got under his skin every single time. Part disbelief, part desire, part the dawning realization that he was no longer in control of the direction this night was taking and that, worse, he did not want to be.
Your fingers lifted at last, just enough to rest lightly against his chest.
Joelās eyes dropped to the touch.
Then back to your face.
And you gave him the line like a gift.
āIāve been waiting all day,ā you said softly, āto test with my husband whether this mascara really holds up to everything it promises.ā
Joel went completely still.
His jaw tightened just slightly. His hand flexed once at his side. His eyes dragged over your face as though he were seeing you and the trouble in you with punishing new clarity.
Then he laughed, just once.
And when he looked at you again, whatever amusement had been there before had burned down into something darker.
āJesus,ā he muttered, almost to himself.
Joelās hand came up then, rough fingers finding your waist with slow intention, like he was giving himself one last chance to be careful and already knew it was too late.Ā
āBaby,ā he said, and this time it sounded like a warning aimed at both of you.
His hand tightened slightly at your waist, thumb pressing in just enough to ground himself, or maybe to make sure you were real and not something his tired brain had invented after a long week and a hot shower and too much time thinking about you.
You tilted your head, lashes dark and deliberate, exactly like youād intended. āWhat?ā
Joel let out a breath that almost sounded like a laugh, except there was no real humor left in it now. Just pure heat turned into desperate need. āYouāre gonna be the death of me, you know that?ā
You smiled. āThatās not very reassuring, you know.ā
āAināt meant to be.ā
His eyes dropped to your mouth, lingered there just a second too long, then dragged back up like it cost him something.Ā
He shifted his weight slightly, like he was bracing for something heād already decided not to stop.
āSay that again,ā he murmured.
Your breath caught. āWhat part?ā
āAll of it.ā
You held his gaze, fully aware now of how close you were, how little space there was left to hide behind anything safe. āI said,ā you began softly, fingers still resting against his chest, āthat I donāt think anythingās going to waste.ā
Joelās jaw tightened.
āAnd,ā you continued, quieter now, stepping just a fraction closer, āthat Iāve been waiting all dayā¦ā
His hand slid from your waist to your hip, like he was mapping out the line of you again just to be sure.
āā¦to test it with my husband,ā you finished.
The silence that followed was thick.
His control was still there, you could see it in the tension of his shoulders, in the way his grip hadnāt tightened too much, in the way he was still choosing every movement instead of letting instinct take over completely.
But it was slipping.
And you could feel that too.
Your hand moved slightly against his chest againājust enough to tempting himāand that was all it took.
Joel closed his eyes for half a second, like he was giving himself one last moment of control.
Then he opened them again.
And whatever had been holding him back was gone.
āAlright,ā he said, voice low and dangerous in that quiet way that meant he was done pretending this wasnāt happening. āYou wanna test it?ā
Your pulse jumped.
He leaned in just enough that his breath brushed warm against your cheek, close enough to make your thoughts scatter without even touching you yet.
āLetās see how well it holds up,ā he murmured.
That was the moment everything tipped.
His thumb dragged slowly along the curve of your hip. āAll day, huh? Thinkinā about me ruininā it?ā
āEvery hour.ā
A low, dangerous sound rumbled out of his chest. He spun you around so fast your breath caught, pressing your front against the vanity edge until the cool wood bit into your hips. The mirror reflected everything: your flushed face, the new mascara, Joel towering behind you like a man whoād just been handed permission to lose control.
āLook at yourself,ā he ordered, voice right against your ear. One big hand slid up your sternum, fingers spreading wide over your throat, not squeezing, not yet, just resting there like a heavy reminder. āYouāre gonna watch every second while I fuck that pretty makeup right off you.ā
Your eyes met his in the glass. His were dark, pupils blown, jaw tight with restraint he was already losing.
āYes, Joel.ā
He hummed approval, free hand shoving the towel away. It dropped to the floor with a soft thud. His cock was already hard, thick, flushed dark at the tip and curving up against your clothed ass. He dragged it slowly between your cheeks, teasing, letting you feel exactly how much he meant every word.
āGonna start slow,ā he murmured, mouth brushing the shell of your ear. āDeep. So you feel every inch stretchinā that tight little pussy while you keep those eyes on the mirror. Then Iām gonna fuck you stupid. And every single time youāre about to comeā¦ā His fingers flexed around your throat. āI stop. Youāre not cominā till that mascaraās runninā down your cheeks like youāve been cryinā for me. Understand?ā
You whimpered, nodding frantically. āYesāpleaseāā
He kicked your feet apart wider, one hand still collared around your throat, the other sliding down to pull your panties aside. No patience left for taking them off. The blunt head of his cock nudged at your entrance, already slick from how long youād been teasing each other.
āEyes on the mirror, darlinā,ā he growled. āDonāt you fuckinā look away.ā
Then he pushed in. One long, slow, relentless inch at a time until he was buried to the hilt and your mouth fell open on a broken moan. The stretch burned so good your lashes fluttered, but you kept your eyes open, locked on the reflection like heād commanded.
āFuck,ā Joel breathed, forehead dropping to your shoulder for a second. āSo goddamn tight. Always so perfect for me.ā He rolled his hips once, grinding deep, letting you feel him throb inside you. āLook how pretty you look takinā me. Those lashes still all nice and dark⦠for now.ā
He started moving then. Slow, deep drags that pulled almost all the way out before sliding back into your dripping cunt. Every thrust dragged against that spot inside you that made your toes curl. His hand stayed firm around your throat, thumb stroking the side like he was petting you while he ruined you.
āThatās it, baby. Watch yourself get fucked.ā His voice was pure filth now. āSee how your tits bounce every time I bottom out? See how your mouth opens like you canāt even breathe right? Thatās my cock doinā that to you.ā
You moaned, the sound loud in the quiet bedroom. Your hands gripped the edge of the vanity so hard your knuckles went white. The mirror showed everything: the way your eyes were already glassy, the faint sheen of sweat starting on your collarbones, Joelās broad body behind you, muscles flexing with every controlled thrust.
āGonna take my time,ā he rasped. āGonna fuck you so deep you forget your own name before I even let you come.ā He snapped his hips a little harder on the next thrust, making your breath hitch. āBut not yet. Not till I say.ā
He kept the pace torturously slow for what felt like forever. Long, rolling strokes that had you whimpering and pushing back against him, chasing more. Every time your moans pitched higher, every time your walls started fluttering around him, Joel would still completely, buried deep, and just hold you there.
āNot yet, baby, not a chance,ā he murmured against your neck, biting down lightly. āFeel that? Feel how full you are? Thatās where you belong, baby. Stuffed full of my cock while you watch yourself fall apart.ā
āJoelāpleaseāā
āPlease what?ā He flexed inside you, grinding slow circles. āUse your words. Tell me what you want while youāre lookinā me in the eyes.ā
āI need to come,ā you gasped, voice shaking. āPlease let me comeāā
His hand tightened just enough around your throat to make your pulse jump. āNo, sweetheart,ā He pulled out almost completely, then sank back in so deep your knees buckled. āNot till those lashes are ruined. I want black streaks down your pretty cheeks. I want you lookinā like youāve been cryinā and chockinā on my dick.ā
He started fucking you harder then, still controlled, but deeper, faster, the wet slap of skin on skin filling the room. Your mascara was already starting to smudge at the corners from the tears of frustration gathering in your eyes.
āLook at that,ā he groaned, eyes locked on the mirror. āAlready runninā. My pretty little wifeās mascara canāt even handle a little foreplay. Whatās it gonna do when I really start wreckinā you, huh?ā
He picked up the pace, hips snapping forward harder, the hand on your throat keeping you upright and forced to watch. Every thrust jolted you forward against the vanity. Your lashes were definitely smearing now, faint black tracks forming under your eyes.
āFuck, baby, youāre squeezinā me so tight,ā he growled. āPussyās greedy tonight. You love to watch while I ruin you, donāt you?ā
āYesāyes, Joelāā
He reached around with his free hand and found your clit, giving it a light, stinging little tap with two fingers. You cried out, hips jerking.
āUh-uh,ā he scolded, tapping again, harder this time. āNo cominā. Not yet.ā Another sharp little slap right over your swollen clit. āThis pretty pussyās gonna wait till Iāve got black tears runninā down your face.ā
Joel kept fucking you hard and deep, hips snapping forward with that relentless rhythm that had the vanity creaking under your hands. He leaned in close again to whisper in your ear.
āWhoās the most beautiful woman in the world, baby?ā
You laughed. A broken, desperate sound that turned into a moan halfway through because he chose that exact second to grind against your spongy spot. Joelās hand cracked down on your ass in a sharp, stinging spank that made you jolt forward. He didnāt miss a beat, cock still buried to the hilt.
āI asked you a question,ā he growled. Another hard thrust. Another spank, this one right on the same ass cheek, making your skin bloom hot. āWhoās the most beautiful woman in the world?ā
Your voice came out wrecked and breathless.
āMeāfuck, Joelā itās me.ā
He was grinning in the mirror. He rewarded you with a deep, punishing stroke that made your eyes roll back.
āThatās right,ā he rasped, spanking you again. āMy beautiful girl. Say it again while I fuck you.ā
āItās me,ā you sobbed, voice cracking as an orgasm threatened to rip through you. āIām the most beautiful woman in the world.ā
Joel groaned low in his chest, hips snapping harder.
āDamn right you are,ā he muttered almost tenderly while he kept pounding into you. āAnd donāt you ever fuckinā forget it.ā
He fucked you like that for what felt like hours with hard, deep thrusts interspersed with those cruel little clit slaps every time you got too close. Your mascara was a mess now, dark smudges under your eyes, streaks starting to run down your cheeks every time a tear slipped free.
āGoddamn,ā Joel muttered, voice wrecked. āLook at you. So fuckinā pretty when you cry for me.ā He slammed in harder, grinding against your spongy spot again. āAlmost there, baby. Almost got you lookinā exactly how I want.ā
Your legs were shaking. You were babbling āplease, Joel, please, I canāt, I needā but he just kept going, relentless, edging you right to the brink and then stopping or slapping your clit until the orgasm retreated.
One final hard thrust and he stilled again, buried to the hilt, hand flexing around your throat.
āLook at yourself,ā he ordered, voice rough. āLook how ruined you are.ā
In the mirror your reflection was wrecked: You were shaking, tears spilling faster, mascara dripping off your chin onto the vanity. Joel looked feral behind you with his hair damp with sweat.
āThatās it,ā he growled. āThatās the face I wanted. Now you can come, baby. Come all over my cock while I watch those tears run.ā
He didnāt give you time to answer. He fucked you with brutal, perfect strokes that hit exactly where you needed every single time. His hand left your throat only to slide down and rub tight, fast circles over your clit, no more teasing, no more denial.
āCome on, baby. Let go. Soak my dick while I ruin the rest of that mascara.ā
The orgasm crashed into you like a freight train. You screamed his name, walls clamping down around him, body shaking so hard he had to hold you up. Black tears spilled freely down your cheeks now, mascara running in messy streaks all the way to your jaw.
āFuckāyesāthatās my girl,ā Joel groaned, voice breaking. āLook at you. So fuckinā beautiful when you fall apart for me.ā
He fucked you through it, hips stuttering, chasing his own release. āGonna fill you up, baby.ā
One more thrust and he buried himself to the hilt, coming with a low, guttural moan, cock pulsing hot inside you. He kept grinding through it, milking every last drop while you trembled and cried in his arms.
For a long moment the only sound was both of you panting, the mirror fogged slightly at the edges from heat and breath.
Joel stayed inside you, arms wrapped around your middle now, gentler. He pressed a slow, open mouthed kiss to the side of your neck, then another to your tear streaked cheek.
āJesus Christ, baby,ā he murmured, voice soft and wrecked. āYou look like a goddamn dream.ā
He reached over to the vanity without pulling out, grabbed the pack of makeup remover wipes you always kept there, and tugged one free with his teeth. Then, still buried deep inside you, he turned you in his arms, lifted you clean off the floor, and carried you the few steps to the bed.
He sat down on the edge, keeping you straddling his lap, cock still snug and warm inside you. Your legs wrapped around his waist automatically. He cradled the back of your head with one hand and brought the wipe to your face with the other.
āHold still, darlinā,ā he said gently, voice full of that quiet affection that always undid you. āLet me clean my pretty girl up.ā
He wiped your cheeks with slow, careful movements, thumb brushing tenderly under your eyes as the black streaks disappeared. Every few seconds heād lean in and kiss you with soft, lingering kisses on your lips, your forehead, the tip of your nose.
āThat mascara didnāt stand a chance, did it?ā he teased between kisses, a crooked smile on his face. āPromised it was better than sex⦠and here you are with black rivers down your face after one round with your husband.ā
You laughed, watery and breathless, and he kissed the sound right off your lips.
āShh, I got you,ā he whispered, wiping the last smudge away. āAll clean now. My beautiful girl.ā
He tossed the wipe aside and wrapped both arms around you, pulling you flush against his chest. His cock twitched inside you, still half hard, like he wasnāt quite ready to leave yet.
āLove you,ā he murmured against your hair, voice low and reverent. āLove you so fuckinā much it hurts sometimes.ā
You buried your face in his neck and smiled against his skin.
āLove you more.ā
Joel huffed a soft laugh, hand stroking slow circles up and down your back.
āNah, baby. Not possible.ā
He stayed like that for a long time, still inside you, holding you close, kissing your temple every few seconds while the bedroom lamp cast a warm glow over both of you. The vanity mirror behind you reflected the two of you tangled together.
āNext time you buy somethinā similar to āBetter Than Sex,āā he murmured, lips brushing your ear, āIām makinā you wear it so I can prove it wrong all over again.ā
You laughed into his neck, and he tightened his arms around you, heart beating steady against yours.
āDeal?ā he asked, smiling.
āDeal,ā you whispered.
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Second Chances chapter 3 is taking longer than i anticipated! itās been a busy week for me, so iāll get it out when i can. i thank yāall for being patient!
Assorted memes of a suggestive and sexual nature, intended for the spicier type of interactions. Be mindful of your partners' boundaries! Change pronouns / etc. as needed, and feel free to combine the sentence prompts with the action and / or location prompts when sending if you want.
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ā I just want to look at you like this for a moment. ā
ā Do you know how long Iāve been waiting for this? ā
ā Your heart is beating so fast. ā
ā Be gentle with me. Please. ā
ā Iāve never done this before. ā
ā I want to learn. Teach me. ā
ā Show me how to please you. ā
ā I want to give you everything tonight. ā
ā That feels so good ā ā
ā Donāt stop ā ā
ā You wonāt break me. I promise. ā
ā I want your hands on me. ā
ā Make love to me. ā
ā I need you, your lips on my skin. I need you deep inside me. ā
ā Canāt you see what you do to me? ā
ā I donāt want to repeat my innocence. I want the pleasure of losing it again. ā
ā There is no taste sweeter than yours. ā
ā Look at you, what a mess you are. ā
ā Youāre doing so good for me. Keep going. ā
ā Iāll taste every part of you before the night has ended. ā
ā No one else can make me feel this way. ā
ā I am already yours. Now I want you to lay your claim. ā
ā Your body sings to me. ā
ā I know youāre close. Just let it go now. Give in to it. ā
ā I want to feel you come undone. ā
ā Shh. Quiet love. Theyāre going to hear you. ā
ā I want to feel your fire, even if it burns me. ā
ā I missed you beyond words. Every night I dreamt of you, of what it would be like to hold you again, and Iāll be damned if I let the chance slip through my fingers when youāre right here. ā
ā Why canāt I keep myself away from you? ā
ā This could be our last night together. Iām going to make it count. ā
ā Donāt bring emotions into this. This has always been about pleasure, nothing else. ā
ā We fuck. It doesnāt need to be more complicated than that. ā
ā I have no right to touch you, so why do you ask it of me when I know I am unworthy? ā
ā You should be mine. I donāt care what they say, you are mine. ā
ā You dare have the audacity to pretend like youāre not mine in front of them? We both know the truth; even now look how your body reacts to me. ā
ā Do you honestly think I could possibly want anyone else when this is what you do to me? ā
ā Youāre mine. Only mine. ā
ā I want them to hear us. I want them to know you belong to me. ā
ā Claim me. Have me in a way that anyone who looks at me will see your passion written upon my skin. ā
ā Youāre not mine. You could never be mine. Yet I want you anyway. I want you so badly that it burns me inside. ā
ā Youāve ruined me for all others. ā
ā I canāt stop myself from wanting you, no matter how much we both know we shouldnāt do this. ā
ā I donāt care if they see. Part of me wants them to. ā
ā Youāre not good for me. So how can you make me feel something no one else can? ā
ā This is the last time, then never again. This has to stop. ā
"Get on your knees" ā A Comprehensive How-to Guide: Writing about Sucking Someone Off
Disclaimer: I only have experience in giving BJs and don't have experience with cooch (even though I wish I did), soooo, here we are. A lot of this is based on my own experience so I'll just leave it at that and get us started.
Appetiser
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So, to set the scene: your characters are getting into the mood. They're getting frisky; they're kissing, they're touching, hands wandering wherever they please, soft noises falling from their mouths.
They're so excited, mind a faint buzz; bodies and minds anticipating what's to come next.
Maybe they're still fully clothed, maybe they're stripping each other off slowly, enjoying the slow teasing ā or maybe they're already fully naked having practically ripped each other's clothes off in a desperate attempt to have that skin to skin contact quicker. Or maybe only one of them is clothed, while the other is partially/fully unclothed. This part, of course, depends on where this happens ā or what the mood is.
If it's in the shower, then it can be assumed they're both fully naked already (unless they like stripping wet clothes off each other, then have at it. Go crazy, go wild).
If it's in the bedroom (or anywhere else, who are we to judge?) it can go both ways.
The atmosphere and the environment is so important, as it really adds to the mood.
Is it in the shower, under a showerhead with warm water cascading down on them?
Is it in the bedroom or elsewhere, candles lit, a very specific ambiance in the room to set the mood?
Is there AC blasting cool air, or is it mild temperatures - or does it feel hot and heavy?
Is it on the floor, is it on the bed, is it on a couch - where is this happening in that room?
What sounds can they hear? The pitter patter of water falling onto tiled flooring? The soft and controlled or loud and uncontained noises coming from either one of them? The moans, the gasps, the sighs, the whines... the desperate plea for more, more, more because the other person is such a fucking tease, God damn it. Or is it them trying to keep it down... key word here being trying.
What are the smells? Natural bodily fluids, bodily smells, sweat, faint scent of some type of perfume or cologne. Or maybe it's different scented soap and shampoo? Maybe it's scented candles?
What can they feel? Knees pressed against hard tiled flooring; back pressed against the cold pane of the shower. Or knees against soft sheets and fingers gripping onto the silk-like material? Or is it finger tips on soft/coarse patches of skin... or over the prickles of freshly growing hair... or over smooth skin.
What position are they getting themselves into?
Are they lying down?
Is one of them kneeling while the other is standing?
Are they in the 69 position?
Is one of them sitting up while the other is lying on their stomach?
Maybe the receiver is standing up, hovering over the giver's face who's lying down on their back?
Perhaps the giver is kneeling down and bent over while the receiver is lying down on the couch?
As long as no limbs are broken and they're flexible, there are so many positions they can test. The sky is the limit as long as no one ends up in the hospital (but hey, shit like that sometimes does happen so if you wanna make it realistic but also funny in a way, go right ahead!)
Your characters may or may not be comfortable with the position, and that can come with trying new things. Try and make them both as comfortable as possible and know their limitations, otherwise it's not gonna be fun for either party. Or you could make things uncomfortable for them if you wanna be a bit sadistic.
That is up for you to decide.
Main
āĖā” ā
Now, onto the spicy shit (I know you came here for that, you lil' curious demon).
They're comfortable, they're settled, they're in the mood ā so into each other. One of them is aching to have a mouth wrapped around them; the other is drooling to have something throbbing in their mouth, reminding them that life is maybe worth living after all.
What are they doing to each other?
What are they saying to each other?
What is the giver doing to the receiver, and vice versa?
Is the giver experienced or are they not used to doing this, perhaps because itās their first time or they just never learned the right techniques (thereāre more than one ā just as with incorrect techniques).
Is the receiver running their hands through the giverās hair.. gently, muffled sounds of pleasure leaving their kiss-bitten lips? Hips thrusting involuntarily into the giverās mouth, compliments leaving their lips in faint whispers.
Or are they gripping onto tufts of hair, face-fucking them relentlessly, demanding for the giver to look them in their eyes? Hips thrusting rhythmically, taking pacing control into their own hands.
Is the giver looking up at them, demanding for the eye contact, or do they seem to be enjoying the dominance coming from the receiver?
The giver could be bobbing their head, teasingly, taking them in slowly, then quicker, then slowly again.. adjusting their pace to tease and frustrate the receiver ā or their eyes could be watering, drool pooling at the corners of their mouth and dribbling down their chin.
The pacing matters, and consistency matters in bringing someone to the edge (at least in my experience)⦠but that can also be done in patterns. It doesnāt have to stay at one pace because that can be tiring.
That doesnāt mean āLetās do it at an inconsistent pace where I go extremely fast and then boom, Iāve slowed down to a snailās pace in one secondā. That means doing changing speed in a calculated way to tease them.
Is the giver giving the compliments in between as they tease the receiver in other ways to keep them turned on (and to ensure the moment lasts just a little longer ā plus to tease them)? Letting their fingers brush against their nipples more than just multiple times, kissing them all over their body; their chest, their inner-thighs, their neck; wrapping their hands around the area which canāt fit in their mouth because perhaps the receiver has a lot of length to offer.
Or are they licking stripes up their partnerās cock; letting their tongue swipe against the slit on the tip of the cock; sucking on the head of their cock like a lollipop of some sort, tantalisingly good at their teasing?
Is the receiver the one giving the compliments, telling the giver how pretty they look with their mouth wrapped around them like this, how good theyāre taking them, how theyāre driving them crazy?
Or, if they like degradation.. you can go that route as well. Your drafts are a safe space for you to explore.
What sounds is the receiver making? Are they silent⦠or are they letting soft moans leave their lips? Or are they loud with that? Is the giver taking in those sounds and using that as a queue with their playful teasing?
Are there other people in the house? Thatās gonna be something to think about.
Are the characters aware of that? Do they care if they are? Are they gonna restrain themselves or are they just not gonna give a flying shit about other peopleās sanity?
And with the experience thing.. Again, how experienced is the giver? Is this their first time? Or are they just not good at this and need a bit more practice?
And just a tip (no pun intended): are they using teeth? If so, thatās a no go. Find some way to have their lips wrap around their teeth ā you donāt want to be scraping at your partnerās cock, as that area is hella sensitive. It can be painful and using your teeth will not make things better (and can make it worse).
Much to think about.
Dessert
āĖā” ā
The climax⦠Itās coming.
Close to heavenās gates or whatever they call it.
Does the giver let the receiver come.. or are they gonna be a shit and edge them?
And when they do come, where is it gonna happen?
In the mouth (and is the giver gonna swallow or spit)? On the face?
Will the giver choke last second as the receiver comes because they thrusted their hips a bit too hard and now the giver and the receiver are both laughing, but the receiver continues to orgasm because theyāre just so turned on? (Yes, that can happen, and Iām adding this specific example in because I had to deal with that and itās still something my ex is very proud about).
Or is the receiver gonna ask to get down and dirty because they donāt want this to end here yet, so they can come elsewhere? That elsewhere can be left up to your own interpretation.
What signs will the receiver give that lets the giver know theyāre coming? Will they make noises, will they say words⦠Or is it just gonna happen because they couldnāt warn the giver in time and it happens without warning?
And once this is all done and both have exhausted themselves, will they do something else (maybe the giver becomes the receiver, and vice versa), or maybe theyāll cuddle and fall asleep under the covers.
And they wait for the next time this happens again⦠maybe in the next 30 minutes, or maybe in a few hours⦠Either way.
Itās a done deal, and both are satisfied (or they arenāt ā sometimes sexual acts donāt go as intended, aka Results May Vary).
As a final tip (going for anything that has to do with intimacy and sex) ā moments like these can be filled with awkwardness and nervousness if itās their first time.
It can take time to learn your partnerās body, their queues, what they like, what they dislike, the way their body responds to certain things ā it can take some experimentation.
It can also be filled with laughter and humour and jokes ā it doesnāt always just have to be sexy, sweaty and heavy breathing. Sometimes other emotions makes it even hotter and more memorable too.
Have fun writing! (Or practicing them in real life if you so please.)
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[ grind ] sender straddles receiverās lap and starts grinding against them, slow and intentional
[ whisper ] sender leans in and whispers exactly what they want to do to receiver in excruciating detail
[ wristgrab ] in the middle of a heated moment, sender pins receiverās wrists above their head
[ needy ] sender pulls receiver into their lap, desperate and breathless, kissing them like itās not enough
[ tease ] sender drags their lips and tongue down the length of receiverās stomach, but stops just before going lower
[ undone ] sender undresses receiver one piece of clothing at a time, dragging it out with loaded glances
[ taste ] sender drops to their knees and starts kissing up the inside of receiverās thighs
[ lapfull ] sender drags receiver onto their lap in the middle of a conversation, their hands already wandering
[ control ] sender takes full control, guiding receiverās hands, body, and every motion
[ tug ] sender grips receiverās hair and yanks their head back to kiss them roughly
[ choke ] sender wraps a hand lightly around receiverās throat while their lips are barely apart
[ lipbite ] sender bites down on receiverās bottom lip while grinding against them
[ praise ] in the middle of it all, sender whispers praise between every movement "just like that," "you're doing so good," "donāt stop"
[ beg ] sender makes receiver beg for it
[ mouthy ] sender licks into receiverās mouth mid-kiss, messy and aggressive
[ suck ] sender sucks a mark into receiverās neck, possessive and without shame
[ edge ] sender brings receiver right to the brink, over and over, refusing to let them finish
[ wrecked ] sender has one goal: to leave receiver trembling and ruined beneath them
[ needy grind ] clothes still on, sender grinds against receiver until theyāre both panting, desperate for more
[ between ] sender slips a hand between receiverās thighs while whispering, āyouāve been wanting this, havenāt you?ā
[ ride ] sender pushes receiver down and climbs on top, holding eye contact the entire time
[ spit ] sender leans over and lets spit drip into receiverās mouth before kissing them hard
[ mess ] clothes scattered, sheets ruined, bodies tangledāsender and receiver didnāt hold back
[ slow ] sender draws everything out. every stroke, every breath, every motion unbearably slow
[ possessive ] sender fucks receiver like theyāre trying to make sure no one else ever will
[ overstim ] sender keeps going even after receiver's already shaking from release
[ grip ] sender grabs receiver by the hips, holding them in place while taking full control
[ hot & heavy ] sender and receiver go at it somewhere they absolutely shouldnāt
[ control freak ] sender lets receiver think they're in charge⦠until they flip the roles mid-way
[ lips everywhere ] sender kisses every part of receiverās body.
[ breathless ] sender doesnāt let up until receiver is clawing at their back, gasping for air
[ all night ] sender makes sure receiver doesnāt sleep... again, and again, and again
[ tongue ] sender slides their tongue along receiverās skin, taking their time tasting every inch
[ dark corner ] they donāt make it home! sender drags receiver into a shadowed corner and gets to work
[ eye contact ] sender holds eye contact the entire time theyāre going down on receiver
[ mirror ] sender takes receiver in front of the mirror so they can both watch
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ā i want to hear every sound you make. donāt hold back. ā
ā get on your kneesānow. ā
ā youāre not leaving this bed until i say so. ā
ā look at you. all mine and dripping for it. ā
ā you said 'just one more time' last time, remember? ā
ā keep quiet, or theyāll hear. ā
ā is this what you wanted? me, like this, ruining you? ā
Writing smut without cringing the whole time? How do you do it.
Writing Smut 101: Overcoming Smut Shame
CONTENT WARNING: NSFW RELATED CONTENT BELOW.
The short answer, nonnie, is: you donāt.Ā
That is to say, writing smut is always kind of cringeāespecially if youāre new to it, or simply ānot in the moodā to write.Ā
But rest assured, feeling embarrassed is completely natural. The trick is learning how to overcome the cringe when it does happen, instead of letting it deter you.
Iām going to break this up into a few sections: 1) Why you might be feeling this way, 2) How I, personally, combat the issue, and 3) Some more tips that might help you get the ball rolling.
1. Why You āCringeā
Itās important to find the root cause of any form of writerās block so you can pull the weed out instead of just trimming it back. Smut writerās block is its own special brand, and generally, the main issue writers have when it comes to smut is stigma.
Speaking openly and honestly about sex, in Western society, is still very much a taboo.
No matter how āprogressiveā we like to think we are, the inherent shame surrounding pleasure-seeking experiences, and the detailing/consumption of them, has been ground into us since we learned how to understand the concept of gratification.
And Iām not just talking about sexual gratification. This applies to everyday things, as well. Eating, shopping, relaxing (or doing virtually anything in capitalist society that does not directly contribute to capitalism).
So it makes sense that you would feel any amount of embarrassment, awkwardness, or ācringeā when writing smut. Itās something our society teaches us is wrong to want. Unfortunately, that shame translates to writerās block when we sit down in front of the computer.
A lot of this blockage might stem from not giving ourselves permission to write the thing.
Weāre staring at the blank document, knowing we want to write smut, and suddenly the thoughts start streaming in: This feels wrong, is this wrong? What if someone comes in and looks over my shoulder while Iām writing? Am I describing this right? Is this too unrealistic? I have NO idea what Iām doing, and everyone is going to know it.
These are all perfectly normal thoughts, and definitely ones I still have from time to time. But theyāre also probably the direct cause of why you feel so blocked. Luckily, I have some bits of advice to give you on how to unblock yourself.
2. How I Combat Smut Block
⦠First, when the intrusive thoughts occur, instead of ruminating on them, think of each one as an impermanent object. You can use any metaphor, but I like to use the imagery of leaves:
Each negative thought is a leaf floating down the river of your mind. If you focus only on the leaf, youāll exert a lot of energy running to try and keep up with it, consequently miss everything else around you. But if you acknowledge that leaf as a temporary part of the scenery, and let is pass, you can process and appreciate the beauty of your surroundings a whole lot better.
Remember: you are separate from your thoughts. You are not defined by them. The things you think sound stupid might be incredibly exciting to someone else.Ā
If you can string a sentence together, you can write smut. This is all part of giving yourself permission to write the thing that makes you feel uncomfortable.
⦠Second, Iād suggest giving good thought to how you personally experience embarrassment, how you experience excitement (of the sexual variety), and how those two might sometimes commingle or feel similar.
For me, they are very comparable, like different shades of the same emotionābut there are differences which are important to note.Ā
If Iām making myself blush from excitement, this is a very good thing for writing smut. It means that what Iām writing feels real enough to evoke something in the reader, even if the reader, like me, knows whatās going to happen.
If Iām making myself cringe, however, it may be time to take a step back and readjust my perspective.
⦠Third, ease yourself into it! Donāt jump straight in the deep end and expect to know how to keep your head above water if youāve never swum before.
The way I eased myself into smut was first by writing āSteamāāa category of fic I made up because the current vocabulary lacked an efficient term for fics that straddled emotional romance and explicit content.Ā
Essentially, steam is smut-adjacent but not explicit, and hereās a step-by-step example of how I transitioned myself smoothly from one genre to the next:
I first wrote my fics Wicked Game and You Are (both of which feature either a heavy make out session or teasing + lots of sexual tension) with thisĀ āsteamā concept in mind.
I wrote the first chapter of Fine Line, which has brief but explicit descriptions of fantasies, framed by a very sexually charged scene.
I released my fic Crashing, which is probably more of a bridge between Steam and Smut, and features soft-focus fingering. Nothing in it is explicitāit focuses more on the emotions than explicit detailābut itās very clear what is happening.
After I wrote those, I felt just confident enough to make that final stride over the threshold into smut. I wrote my fics Holy, King, and the second chapter of Fine Line all within weeks of each other.
And trust me when I say, once you get the momentum going and receive that validation from people whoāve read your work, it becomes SO much easier to sit down and start writing.Ā
You just have to finish that first piece.
⦠Finally (and I know Iām going to sound cliche when I say this), just like any other skill, the more you practice the more confident you will feel and the better you will get.Ā
So practice, practice, practice!Ā
If youāre nervous about posting smut for the first time, have a trusted friend/mutual Beta read it for you. Itās the online equivalent to someone holding your hand before jumping off the cliff, and works wonders for the nerves.
3. Keep The Smut Rolling
Now that you have some tools to help get you past the blockage of writing smut, hereās how to keep the inspiration flowing.
⦠Start by incorporating smutty fanfiction/erotic fiction into your regular reading rotation-Ā
Of course AO3 is a fantastic resource for smutty fanfiction.Ā
If youāre a fan of TFOTA or ACOTAR and want some of my personal fic recs, visit my fic rec masterlist.
In terms of erotic fiction, my personal favourites are anything Anais Nin (specifically Henry & June and Delta of Venus), The Thornchapel series by Sierra Simone, The Godwicks series by Tiffany Reisz, and The Original Sinners series by Tiffany Reisz.
There are also sites like Literotica and sexstories.com, which play host to explicit short fiction (not fandom based).
ā¦Ā Next, Iād recommend having a designated digital space for smutspiration-Ā
This can be a list of āsmuttyā words/phrases kept on a separate document on your computer, for those days when you just canāt think of the right way to describe something.Ā
Or you can create a private side-blog or Pinterest board for your favourite smutty fanart or other kinds of visual smutspiration.
⦠For that matter, try following some smutty/18+ blogs (ONLY IF YOUāRE 18+) here on Tumblr-
Many of them have a plethora of what I like to call ālemony snippetsā, a.k.a. short text posts that describe (usually in conversational language) explicit scenarios.Ā
This is useful because it will normalise the concept of sexual fantasies in your brain, making it less weird for you when you try to come up with ones of your own to write into smut.Ā
Not to mention, your dash will be rife with inspiration.
⦠I would also suggest checking out 18+ ASMR on YouTube (AGAIN, ONLY IF YOUāRE 18+).Ā
My favourite account is Professor Cal Official, but Auralescent also has some good content.Ā
Headphones are highly advisable for this, as their stuff is very dangerous for work.
So, nonnie, I hope this has provided you with at least one helpful tip. Whether you took anything away from this or not, just know that the feelings of embarrassment when it comes to writing smut are entirely normal. And the best way to keep those feelings at bay is to confront them head on.Ā
These are from a site where the person knows what theyāre talking about. So if you donāt think these are accurate, move along. It could be helpful to others
reaction words
shivered
shuttered
trembled
quivers
quakes
shakes
gasps
moan
groans
jolted
jerked
pants
huffs
cries out
bites back a moans
breathing hitched
collapsingĀ
eyes rolled back
arched back
adverbs(a lack of adverbs weakens your writing)
shakily
desperately
roughly
deeply
raggedly
breathily
loudly
lazily
softly
gently
warmly
frantically
quickly
slowly
harshly
sexy words for said
purred
cooed
murmured
whispered
breathed
rasped
cried out
begged
muttered
growled
grunted
mewled
chocked
sobbed
whimpered
pleaded
teased
sexy actions
licking
nipping
biting
shoving our hips together
pinned their wrists
caressed
stroked
hike up shirt
pressing against wall
rank nails through hair
hooking legs around waist
splay hands over chest
dipping tongue into ___
hair pulling
grasping their chin and tilt up/down
cupping cheek
lips brush ear
hip grind/thrusting/rolled/shifting
dirty talk
tease
kissing
brushed lips together
teeth clicking together
lip play(biting/running tongue over lip)
pausing when lips are just barely touching
sucking bottom lip
kissing hard
teeth clicking
sucking tongue
swirling tongue around one
blow job
redden lips
swollen lips
slick
sloppy
making eye contact
hallowing cheeks
swirling tongue
fucking someones mouth
deep throatĀ
playing with balls
using hands and lips together
oral(female)
lapping
playing with woman wetness
fingering
parting lips
flicking their tongue
delving tongue
fleshly pink/brown (i prefer not to use skin color for poc)
By request of the discord! Hereās the smut thesaurus Iāve been building to help me write. Itās even longer now because I included some extra words fromĀ The Ultimate Guide to Writing Smut Fic byĀ QuinnAndersonĀ on AO3.Ā
How many words are there forĀ āpenisā andĀ āthrustā (that arenāt completely cringey)? Here are all the ones Iāve gathered so farĀ š
Itās going under the read-more cut because itās over 1,000 words in bullet-point form so it is loooong.Ā
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