yo yo yoooooo, whats uppppp. mack here. i see all the love for second chances, and it makes me so happy. i really do want to continue it, but i have been so busy, so writing has been put on the back burner. i will still work on it though! i have a good portion of chapter 3 written, its just about finishing it, which i plan on doing!
maybe friday or this weekend? no promises though, iâll just try my best!
super sorry iâve been mia. im in the last week of my masters program and busy asf. i promise im still working on second chances, and im hoping to have chapter 3 out next week!
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.ââą summary: After a long week of work, all Joel wants is to relax in the arms of his sweet little wife. At least until you give him a haul of your new makeup purchases, and one small product stirs up trouble because of its name.
.ââą a/n: This idea was born while I was going through my Sephora cart⌠So, yeah, thatâs my excuse! By the way, I canât believe Iâve already reached 238 followers... Iâm gonna cry. This one is for my baby @pattwtf <đ .á
.ââą warnings: Smut at the very end, Obsessive! Joel (kindaâŚ?), Soft Dom/Sub Elements, Makeup Kink, Mirror Sex, Repeated Orgasm Denial, Spanking, Pussy Slapping, Hand on Throat, Unprotected Sex, Creampie⌠And a lot of love! First time writing a complete sex scene btw (I'm scared)
.ââą wc: 15.230 k
Friday had a way of loosening men up in all the worst ways.
By noon, the air smelled like cut lumber, diesel, sweat, and sawdust, the kind of smell that clung to skin long after the day was over. Hammers rang out in uneven bursts, a nail gun snapped somewhere near the back, and country music crackled low from a radio somebody had balanced on an upside down bucket by the porch steps.
Joel stood near the stack of framing lumber with a pencil tucked behind one ear and a tape measure hanging from his belt, scanning over the plans in his hand with the kind of focus that made most men think twice before interrupting him.
âHey, Iâm just sayinâ,â one of the younger guys called from the far side of the site, loud enough for half the crew to hear. âIf Iâm takinâ her somewhere expensive, least she can do is not make me sit in the damn car for forty-five minutes waitinâ on her.â
A couple of snorts of laughter answered him.
Joel didnât look up right away. He kept his eyes on the plans, jaw set, trying to decide whether the floor joists were gonna be a bigger problem than the mouths on his crew.
âShe ainât even late in a normal way,â another guy said, dragging a gloved hand across his forehead. âNah, itâs always some little emergency. âBabe, I gotta redo my eyeliner.â âBabe, I donât like my hair.ââ He pitched his voice higher in a cruel imitation. âIâm starvinâ by the time we leave the house.â
That got more laughter.
Tommy, who was up on the temporary decking checking measurements, sighed loud enough for Joel to hear. âHere we go.â
Joel still didnât say anything.
He should have. He knew that. He knew the shape of this kind of conversation and exactly where it usually went. But sometimes, if you cut in too early, it only encourages idiots to perform for each other. Men like that got louder when they thought they had an audience.
âMine puts on lipstick to go buy milk,â another one said. âMilk. From the damn grocery store. I told her, sweetheart, the dairy aisle is gonna fall in love with you.â
The laugh that followed was uglier than the last one.
Joelâs eyes lifted.
He knew these boys. That was the thing. Boys, most of them. Old enough to swing a hammer, young enough to still mistake being dismissive for being funny. Heâd worked with all kinds over the years: good workers, lazy workers, drunks, hotheads, quiet ones, fools. The loudest were usually the least sure of themselves. Had to fill the air with something before anybody noticed there wasnât much beneath it.
Still, that didnât mean he had to listen to it.
âHell,â the first one went on, encouraged now, âI donât even get it. They complain they ainât got enough time, then they spend two damn hours in the bathroom paintinâ themselves like theyâre headed to some red carpet thing.â
Joel folded the plans once.
Another voice chimed in. âAnd then you gotta tell âem they look pretty like you ainât been lookinâ at the same face for three years.â
Tommy winced and muttered, âJesus Christ.â
That was enough.
Joel started walking before he even fully decided to. He stopped a few feet from the group gathered around the sawhorsesâthree of the younger subcontractors and one laborer with more confidence than senseâand looked at each of them in turn.
Nobody spoke.
Joel nodded once. âYâall done?â
The guy in the baseball cap gave a half shrug, half grin that died fast under Joelâs stare. âWeâre just talkinâ, man.â
Joelâs face didnât change. âAinât what I asked.â
Silence.
He slipped the folded plans under one arm. âI said, are yâall done.â
âYeah,â one of them muttered.
Joel took another step closer. âThen maybe yâall can get back to work and quit runninâ your mouths long enough to remember Iâm payinâ you to build a house, not stand around bitchinâ about women who apparently still choose to go home with you.â
Tommy turned away, rubbing a hand over his mouth to hide a grin.
One of the younger guys, John maybe, ducked his head. âWe were kiddinâ.â
Joel fixed him with a look. âThat so?â
âYes, sir.â
Joel hated being called sir. Normally heâd say so. Right now he let it stand.
He hooked his thumbs through his belt and looked between them. âTell me somethinâ. You got a woman at home who takes time gettinâ ready to go out with you, and your first thought is to complain?â
Nobody answered.
âThat woman picked out a dress, did her hair, stood in front of a mirror decidinâ she wanted to look nice, and you somehow made that an inconvenience to you.â His voice stayed level, but the disappointment in it landed harder than if heâd shouted. âThat what weâre doinâ now?â
The laborer with the red bandana shifted on his feet. âDidnât mean nothinâ by it.â
Joelâs eyes cut to him. âThatâs usually when a man oughta think a little harder about whatâs cominâ outta his mouth.â
Tommy climbed down from the decking, landing beside them with a thud. He didnât interrupt. Didnât need to. He knew Joel well enough to hear the line in his voice that meant this wasnât just irritation anymore.
Joel went on, âYou wanna know what I hear?â He tapped two fingers against the rolled plans. âI hear a bunch of fools complaininâ that somebody gives enough of a damn to wanna look good standinâ next to âem.â
That got their attention.
One of them tried to laugh it off. âIt ainât that deep, Joel.â
Joel turned his head slowly. âNo?â
âNo, I just meanââ
âI know what you mean.â He took a breath through his nose. âYou mean youâre too young and too selfish to understand that not everything a woman does is for your convenience.â
The site has gone quiet now.
Even the men who hadnât been part of the conversation were listening, pretending not to.
Joel looked down at the open toolbox on the sawhorse, then back at them. âSome of you got girlfriends. Some of you got wives. And near as I can tell, not one of you sounds near grateful enough for the women keepinâ your lives stitched together when you go home actinâ like this.â
Nobody met his eyes.
âMaybe she takes too long in the bathroom,â Joel said. âMaybe she changes clothes three times before dinner because she wants to feel pretty. That ainât foolishness. That ainât vanity. Thatâs her wantinâ to feel good in her own skin, and if your reaction to that is to stand around mockinâ her with other men, then youâre a bigger idiot than I thought.â
Joel gave him a look so dry it bordered on pity. âSon, if youâre gonna lie, at least do it convincingly.â
Tommy barked a laugh and turned it into a cough.
A few of the older workers smirked into their sleeves.
Joel kept going, because now that heâd started, he knew exactly what was bothering him. It wasnât just the words. It was the casualness of them. The way men could take something tender and make it small just because they didnât know how to hold it properly.
âMy wife,â he said, and that alone changed the air, made everybody listen closer, âcan take as long as she damn well pleases gettinâ ready for anything she wants. Grocery store. Dinner. A walk down the block. I donât care if sheâs puttinâ on lipstick to sit in the livinâ room and watch television. If it matters to her, it matters. End of story.â
That landed.
Because when Joel spoke about you didnât sound like a man making a point for the sake of winning. He sounded like a man stating a universal truth.
The laborer scratched the back of his neck. âYeah, but women donât do all that for us anyway.â
Joelâs brow lifted. âWell, congratulations. Thatâs the first smart thing anybodyâs said in five minutes.â
A few snickers broke the tension.
Joel didnât smile. âNo, they donât do it all for you. Thatâs exactly the point. Maybe she does some of it for herself. Maybe itâs fun. Maybe it makes her feel confident. Maybe itâs the one damn thing in a day thatâs just hers. And maybe instead of complaininâ, you oughta learn enough respect to keep your mouth shut and tell her she looks beautiful.â
The man in the cap looked down at his boots. âAlright.â
Joelâs expression hardened. âThat âalrightâ better means somethinâ.â
âIt does.â
âGood.â He glanced between all of them. âNow pick up your tools and get back to work. Weâre behind, and Iâve had about enough of hearinâ how burdensome it is that women continue to exist as full human beings.â
That actually got a real laugh, even from a couple of the guilty ones, though they had the decency to look embarrassed about it.
Joel let the silence sit a beat longer, then pointed at the framing on the east wall. âJohn, if youâve got enough energy to complain, youâve got enough to finish bracinâ that corner.â
âYes, sir.â
Joelâs stare sharpened.
Caleb sighed. âYes, Joel.â
âBetter.â
The group broke apart at last, muttering to each other in lower voices now, heads down, hands moving quicker than before. Tommy stepped up beside Joel and watched them scatter back into usefulness.
For a second neither brother said anything.
Then Tommy glanced at him. âYou feel better?â
Joel bent to grab the level off the sawhorse. âNot especially.â
Tommyâs mouth twitched. âYou know theyâre all scared of you now.â
âThey oughta be scared of beinâ stupid in public.â
Tommy laughed under his breath. âThat speech about your wife?â He nudged Joel with an elbow. âBit dramatic.â
Joel shot him a look. âWasnât dramatic.â
âNo?â Tommy grinned.
Joel set the level against the brace and adjusted it with one hand. âYou got somethinâ useful to do, or you planninâ on botherinâ me the rest of the afternoon?â
Tommy leaned against a stud, folding his arms. âI am doinâ somethinâ useful. Iâm watchinâ you pretend that wasnât personal.â
Joel didnât bother looking at him. âGo measure somethinâ.â
Tommy ignored that completely. âYou thought about her, didnât you?â
Joel checked the bubble on the level, shifted the brace half an inch. âIâm workinâ.â
Tommy rocked back on his heels, pleased with himself now. âSo when those idiots were yappinâ about women takinâ forever in the bathroom, you were thinkinâ about her sittinâ at the mirror?â
Joel let out a quiet breath and straightened. He shouldâve known better than to engage. Tommy had the kind of nosiness only a younger brother could get away with, half affection and half appetite for trouble.
Joel grabbed the drill. âTommy.â
His brother laughed. âAlright, alright.â
But he didnât move away yet, and after a moment he said, softer this time, âYou know, you were right.â
Joel glanced up and Tommy shrugged one shoulder.Â
Joel shook his head, but there was no real heat in it now. âYouâre annoyinâ.â
âRuns in the family.â
Joel drove the screw in with more force than necessary. âGo to hell.â
Tommy laughed and pushed off the wall at last. âCanât. I work for my brother.â
Joel watched him go, then looked back out across the site.
Work picked up again in the wake of the interruption. The radio came back into focus. Men shouted measurements, wood scraped against wood, someone swore after dropping a box of nails. The day moved on the way it always did, one task into the next, one hour bleeding into another until the sun shifted.
But Tommy was right.
Of course heâd thought about you.
He had the moment those boys started talking.
He could picture you too easily.
Standing in the bathroom in one of his old shirts, hair pinned back, leaning close to the mirror with that concentrated little crease between your brows. Sitting at your vanityâyour vanity, the one heâd built with his own hands after seeing your face fall when the one you wanted sold out before he could order itâsurrounded by brushes and powders and little bottles that all looked nearly identical to him and yet somehow never were. Looking over your shoulder to ask him which earring. Holding up two lipsticks and asking if one looked too dark. Smiling when he got the answer wrong but tried anyway.
He never mocked any of it. Never would.
Half the time he didnât understand what half those products were for, but that had never seemed like a reason to dismiss them. They mattered because they were yours. Because they brought something bright into your face. Because he had learned, over the course of loving you, that attention was a kind of devotion all its own.
That was the part those boys didnât get.
Loving somebody meant noticing. It meant learning the shape of their rituals, even the ones that didnât belong to you. It meant understanding that intimacy wasnât just the big things like the hospital visits, funerals, marriage vows, bad nights or worse mornings.
Sometimes it was remembering the exact height she liked a table because she tended to hunch if it sat too low. Sometimes it was sanding the edge of a drawer three extra times so it wouldnât catch on her dress. Sometimes it was building something beautiful out of wood and patience because she had looked disappointed for all of two seconds and that had been enough to undo him.
Joel drove another screw into place and exhaled slowly.
He hadnât meant to build the vanity quite as elaborate as he did.
At first, heâd only intended to make something simple. Clean lines, sturdy legs, decent storage. Then heâd remembered the way your face had lit up describing the one youâd wanted, the little details you liked, the mirror shape, the drawers, the finish. By the end of it, heâd spent nearly three weeks in the garage after work, pretending he wasnât enjoying himself every time you wandered in and tried to peek beneath the tarp he kept throwing over it.
When he finally brought it inside, youâd looked at him like heâd hung the moon in the bedroom with his bare hands.
That expression had stayed with him. It still did.
âJoel!â
He turned at the shout.
One of the crew was waving him over near the back of the house. Something about the window framing looked off. He tucked the level under his arm and headed that way, slipping back into the rhythm of the job because there was always another problem to solve, another correction to make, another young man to stop from ruining good lumber with bad math.
The afternoon wore down by inches, the light changed and the heat eased. By the time they started packing up, Joelâs shirt was stuck to his back, his shoulders ached, and there was sawdust worked so deep into the lines of his hands it would take a brush to get it out.
He signed off on the delivery order for Monday, checked the lock on the storage trailer, and made sure the site was squared away before anybody left. Tommy came up beside him with a clipboard tucked under one arm and a half finished bottle of water in the other.
Tommy studied him for a moment. âYou tell her about this?â
Joel frowned. âAbout what.â
âThe little feminist awakening you had in front of the crew.â
Joel shot him a flat look. âThat what youâre callinâ it?â
Tommy grinned. âIâm callinâ it funny as hell. And yeah. You should tell her. Sheâll eat that up.â
Joel shook his head and started toward his truck. Tommy followed for a few steps before peeling off toward his own, still smiling to himself like heâd been handed some private joke he planned on keeping.
Joel climbed into the driverâs seat, shut the door, and let the quiet settle around him for a second. He dropped his head back against the seat and closed his eyes just long enough to feel the day in his bones. Then he started the engine and pulled out onto the road.
The drive home wasnât long, but it was long enough for his thoughts to drift where they usually did at the end of the week.
To you.
Maybe youâd be on the couch with a blanket over your legs and an episode of the Gilmore Girls half watched because youâd been waiting for the sound of his truck.
God, he could picture it so clearly it almost made his chest ache.
He thought, not for the first time that day, that the men back on that site had no idea how lucky they were if there was somebody waiting for them at all. They have no idea what a privilege it was to be known that intimately by another person. To have your favorite plate set out before you asked. To be greeted by the sound of their voice from the next room.
Joel flexed one hand on the steering wheel.
He thought of you in front of a mirror again.
Of your careful hands. Your patience. The little pleasure you took in things most men would dismiss because they had never learned how to look properly. He thought of how easy it was, in a world this ugly, to sneer at softness just because you didnât know what to do with it.
He also thought, with a private heaviness he never quite voiced, of how much of your life lived in those little rituals. The tender ordinary things. The things he catalogued without meaning to. The products lined up on the vanity. The order you used them in. The brushes you reached for first. The colors you favored when you were happy, or when you were quiet, or when you wanted him to notice.
Joel always noticed.
And somewhere deep beneath that noticing lived the old anxiety he carried like a second spine, the one that made him prepare for loss even in the middle of joy. It came uninvited, as it always did, whispering its ugly what ifs into the back of his mind. What if one day you were too tired. What if one day your hands hurt. What if one day life turned cruel in some new and inventive way and you couldnât do these things for yourself anymore.
He hated those thoughts. Hated the shape of them. Hated that fear had taught his mind to brace for impact even when nothing was wrong.
But still he learned.
The names of things. The purpose of things. The order of them. Not because he expected praise for it, and not because he ever intended to say any of this aloud. Only because if the world ever tried to take some small comfort from you, Joel wanted his hands ready, wanted to know enough to step in gently and give it back.
His throat tightened a little, and he swallowed it down.
By the time he turned onto your street, the sun was lower, the sky softening into streaks of amber and pale blue. Home came into view steady and familiar, porch light not yet on, the windows warm with the first signs of evening.
Joel eased the truck into the driveway and killed the engine.
For a second he stayed where he was, one hand still on the wheel, looking at the house like he did every now and then when the day had been long enough to make him feel the full weight of what waited inside it.
His true home.
Then he got out, shut the truck door, and headed for the front porch with sawdust on his boots, tiredness in his shoulders, and the faintest trace of a smile pulling at one corner of his mouth for no reason other than the simple fact that he was almost home.
You.
He pushed the front door open with one hand, already loosening up a little at the simple fact of stepping inside, and was met at once by warmth, soft lamplight, and the unmistakable smell of something good waiting in the kitchen. Then, Joel set his keys in the bowl by the door and shrugged out of his jacket.
âHoney?â he called, voice carrying low through the quiet.
âIn here!â
Something in your tone made him pause.
A kind of carefully held excitement you were trying, and failing, to disguise as casual. Joelâs mouth pulled almost into a smile before he even saw you. He followed your voice into the kitchen and found you standing near the stove.
There you are, he thought, with that immediate, quiet hit of relief he never quite got used to.
You turned when he appeared in the doorway, and your face lit in a way that still undid him a little, no matter how many times he came home to it. âHi.â
Joel leaned one shoulder against the frame for a second, just looking at you. âHi, baby.â
He heard the roughness in his own voice and saw the way your eyes softened at it.
You crossed to him without hesitation, and he opened an arm automatically, catching you against him with all the ease of a long habit. Your hands slid around his middle carefully, as though you knew exactly where the day tended to settle in him, and his palm spread over your back. He bent to kiss the top of your head first, breathing you in, then your temple, then finally your mouth, the kind of kiss that means that he was finally at home now, and home meant you.
âYou smell good,â you murmured against his mouth.
Joel huffed a tired laugh. âSmell like sawdust.â
âBut it's sexy,â you said, pulling back just enough to look at him.
That did make him smile. His thumb brushed once at your waist. âThat so?â
âMmm-hmm.â
He let his gaze move over your face, lingering a beat too long because something about you felt gently charged tonight.âYou been waitinâ on me?â
You widened your eyes with exaggerated innocence. âMaybe.â
Joel studied you. âThat look usually means youâre hidinâ somethinâ.â
You gasped softly. âIâm offended.â
âNo, you ainât.â
You tried not to grin and failed. Joel watched the smile break across your face and had the strange, familiar thought that if he died tomorrow, this would be the shape of heaven in his head. You in the kitchen, looking pleased with yourself. The light warm on your skin. The house quiet around you both. Something cooking. The weekend beginning at the edges of the room like a blessing neither of you had earned but both of you needed.
He brushed his knuckles along your cheek. âWhatâs for dinner?â
Your whole expression brightened. âSit down and Iâll show you.â
That got a low chuckle out of him. âBossy.â
âJust tonight.â
âThatâd be a first.â
You swatted lightly at his arm, laughing, and he caught your wrist before you could move away, tugging you in just enough to kiss you once more, this time with a little more intent, enough to make your breath catch and your fingers curl against his shirt. Then he let you go before either of you leaned too far into it, because there was still dinner on the stove and because he knew that if he stood there kissing you too long after a week like this one, he might never make it to the table.
He washed up at the sink while you moved around the kitchen putting the last things together, and Joel watched you in the window reflection while the water ran over his hands. You kept glancing at him like you had something else to say. Something you were sitting on. He knew you well enough to spot the tells now; the little smile you bit back for no reason, the extra care you took with the plates, the way your body seemed almost too still whenever you were trying not to blurt something out too soon.
âYou gonna tell me whatâs got you lookinâ like that?â he asked, drying his hands on the dish towel.
You set a plate down. âLike what?â
âLike youâre about two seconds from spoilinâ your own surprise.â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
Joel pulled out his chair and sat, eyes never leaving you. âBaby.â
You laughed, soft and guilty, and finally brought the plates over. âFine. Maybe Iâm just happy itâs Friday.â
He accepted that with a slight tilt of his head, though they both knew that wasnât all of it. âThat much, I believe.â
Joel took the first bite of the tender meat you've cooked for him and closed his eyes for half a second before he meant to.
You noticed, of course.
âThat good?â you asked, trying not to sound too pleased.
He opened his eyes and looked at you over the table. âYou fishinâ?â
âYes.â
Joel leaned back slightly in his chair, chewing, making a deliberate show of considering it. âMight be the best thing Iâve eaten all week.â
You laughed, and the sound of it loosened something in him he hadnât realized was still tight.
That was the thing about Friday nights with you. The workweek wore him down and you gathered him back together. Not all at once. Just piece by piece. A hot meal. Your voice across the table. Your foot brushing his under it. The look on your face when he reached for a second helping like he hadnât spent the whole drive home pretending he wasnât hungry.
He told you a little about work. Not too much. Just enough for you to follow the shape of his day. A delivery that came late. A measurement that had to be redone because somebody hadnât listened the first time. Tommy nearly stepping backward off the decking because heâd turned around too fast while arguing with one of the electricians.
You laughed at that. âWas he hurt?â
âNo.â
âThen I can laugh.â
âYou already were.â
âI know.â
Joel watched you talk, watched your hands move when you got animated, watched the way you leaned in when you were interested in something heâd said as though there might still be new things to learn about him after all this time. It made something warm and almost painful spread low in his chest. Heâd never been very good at making speeches about love. But if anybody had asked him where most of his peace lived, he wouldâve had to point right here. To this table. To your voice. To your company at the end of the day.
At some point your foot slid against his calf beneath the table and stayed there.
Joelâs eyes flicked up.
You were smiling down at your plate, pretending not to notice what youâd done.
His mouth twitched. âYou beinâ sweet, or are you up to somethinâ?â
You looked up, all innocence again. âCanât it be both?â
He held your gaze for a beat, then reached for his glass. âThat answer concerns me.â
âIt should.â
He laughed under his breath.
When the plates were nearly empty you rose to clear the table but when Joel started to stand with you out of instinct, you pointed at him.
âSit.â
He blinked. âExcuse me?â
âI mean it. You worked all day. Sit there.â
Joel settled back slowly, one brow raised. âYou order me around awfully easy for somebody this small.â
You gathered up the dishes with a smile. âAnd yet you listen.â
âSometimes.â
âMost times.â
He gave you a dry look. âDonât push it.â
You disappeared into the kitchen with the plates, and he sat there listening to the music of you moving around⌠water running, cabinets opening, cutlery clinking softly against ceramic. Domestics sounds. He loved them with a ferocity he kept mostly to himself.
When you came back, you werenât empty handed.
Joelâs eyes dropped to the plate you set in front of him, and he went still for half a second.
Not just any pie. Apple pie. His favorite. Still slightly warm, the crust golden, the scent of cinnamon and butter rising up before it had even properly touched the table.
You folded back into your seat trying and failing to look casual. âThereâs ice cream too, if you want it.â
Joel looked from the plate to you. âYou made pie?â
Your expression softened. âI did.â
âFor me.â
The corners of your mouth lifted. âWell, I donât know many people who get this emotional about apple pie, so yes. For you.â
Something in his face must have shifted, because your own expression gentled further.
Joel glanced back down at the dessert and let out a quiet breath through his nose, almost a laugh, almost not. âChrist.â
âWhat?â
He looked at you again. âNothinâ.â His voice came out lower than before. âJust⌠thank you, baby.â
You leaned your chin into your hand. âYouâre welcome.â
He took a bite, closed his eyes and opened them again. âThatâs real good.â
Your smile went luminous. âYeah?â
âMm.â Another bite. âDangerously good.â
You watched him with such open fondness it made him shake his head a little and look back at the plate, because being adored that plainly still makes him blush some days.Â
âThereâs more,â you said after a moment, like you couldnât possibly hold it in any longer.
Joel looked up, chewing slowly. âMore pie?â
You laughed. âNo. Although yes, thereâs more pie. But thatâs not what I meant.â
He set his fork down. âAlright. Go on.â
Your eyes brightened immediately. âI restocked everything.â
He frowned mildly, trying to follow. âEverything.â
âFor the weekend.â You started counting off on your fingers. âCoffee. The good kind you like.â
Joel felt an involuntary little stab of gratitude so strong it was almost ridiculous. âYou got coffee.â
âI got coffee,â you confirmed. âAnd beer.â
His brow lifted. âBeer too, huh?â
âAnd your barbecue chips. And the pretzels you pretend you donât like that much but somehow always eat. And those peanuts Tommy keeps stealing every time he comes over.â
Joel stared at you for a second, then leaned back in his chair with a quiet exhale, one hand coming up to scrub over his beard. âYouâve been busy.â
Your face softened into something tender. âI wanted you to have a nice weekend.â
There it was again, that precise, deadly thing you did to him without even trying. You said simple sentences that landed somewhere deep because they carried more than the words themselves. I wanted you to have a nice weekend. As if his comfort was something worth planning for. As if the shape of his rest mattered enough for you to think ahead about coffee and snacks and the exact beer he reached for first.
Joel looked at you for a long moment. Then he said, quieter, âCâmere.â
You got up at once and crossed the space between you, and he drew you gently between his knees, one hand settling at your hip while the other curved around the back of your thigh. He tipped his head back to look at you properly. Your hair had fallen forward a little, your expression open and sweet and expectant, and the simple sight of you there, taking such obvious pleasure in taking care of him, nearly undid him.
âYou didnât have to do all that,â he said.
âI know.â
His thumb rubbed once over the fabric at your side. âThen whyâd you?â
You looked at him like the answer was the easiest thing in the world. âBecause I love you.â
Joelâs throat moved.
He knew better than most men how dangerous those words could be when spoken carelessly. How people used them as decoration. As habit. As currency. But you never did. When you said them, you meant them all the way through.
He rested his forehead briefly against your stomach and let the quiet sit. Then he leaned back enough to press a kiss there through your shirt, right above your navel, and felt the little shiver that ran through you.
âYou keep this up,â he murmured, âIâm gonna start thinkinâ again that youâre after somethinâ.â
You smiled down at him, fingers slipping into his hair. âMaybe I just missed you.â
That, too, he believed.
Joel turned his face and pressed another kiss to the heel of your palm before letting you go. âAlright,â he said, clearing his throat a little as you stepped back. âNow Iâm definitely suspicious.â
You laughed, gathered the pie plate, and turned away before he could see too much of whatever was passing over your face. Joel watched you go, watched the sway of your body as you moved around the kitchen, watched the little lightness in you that had only grown since he came through the door.
He knew now with certainty that you had something planned, he just didnât yet know what shape it would take.
Once everything was cleaned up and the kitchen restored to order, the evening softened around the two of you. Joel checked the locks out of habit, turned off the extra lights, and came back to find you already collecting his towel from the linen closet before he could ask for it. He took it from your hands with a low, amused noise.
âBaby, I can get my own towel.â
âI know you can.â
âThen why am I beinâ supervised?â
You stepped closer and smoothed a hand over the front of his work shirt, over the dust and wrinkles and the tiredness still hanging off him. âBecause youâve had a long week.â
Joel looked down at you. âAnd?â
âAnd because I like taking care of you.â
His expression shifted into something softer, more serious. âI know you do.â
You held his gaze for a moment too long, and once again that same curious charge moved through the room. Not enough to name yet. Just enough to feel.
Joel tipped your chin up with two fingers and kissed you slowly, until your body leaned into his and the hem of his shirt bunched a little in your fists. When he pulled back, he lingered close enough that your breath still crossed his mouth.
âIâm gonna shower,â he said.
You nodded. âOkay.â
He narrowed his eyes slightly. âYou say that like youâre planninâ somethinâ while Iâm gone.â
You widened your eyes. âMaybe Iâm just going to⌠fold laundry.â
Joel let out a short laugh. âThat lie was insultinâ.â
âGo shower, Miller.â
The way you said it, bossy and faintly pleased with yourself, made him shake his head as he turned toward the hallway. âYes, maâam.â
He heard your little triumphant laugh behind him all the way to the bathroom.
The shower was hot enough to ache pleasantly over his sore body. Joel stood under it longer than usual, one hand braced on the tile, letting the day rinse off him in layers. The dust fell away first, then sweat, then whatever lingering irritation had stayed with him from the workplace. By the time he stepped out, the mirror had fogged over, and the house beyond the bathroom door had gone quiet in that particular evening way that meant you were no longer puttering around downstairs.
He dried off, wrapped the towel low around his waist, and dragged one hand through his damp hair before stepping into the bedroom.
And stopped.
You were waiting for him.
Not in bed, not curled up under the covers with a Jane Austen book or half asleep with the lamp on. You were seated at the bedroom vanity with your back mostly to the door, posture straight, legs crossed at the ankle, like youâd been there long enough to settle into the moment. The vanity itself caught the warm glow from the bedside lamp making you look almost ethereal. He looked at the whole scene at once and felt something inside him go very still.
Youâd changed into a nightgown while he was in the shower, your hair arranged just so, your expression reflected in the mirror as you looked at him through it with a smile too small to be innocent.
Joel stayed by the bathroom door for a second, towel slung low, water still cooling on his shoulders. âThere it is.â
You turned slightly in the chair. âThere what is?â
âThe surprise.â
You tried to look confused. âI donât know what you mean.â
He huffed a laugh, already moving toward the bed. âSure you donât.â
Joel sat down at the edge of the mattress, elbows resting loosely on his knees for a second as he took you in. Then his gaze dropped to the box in your lapâblack and white stripes, tissue paper peeking out the topâand his mouth twitched.
âSephora,â he said.
Your face brightened at once. âI went today.â
âI can see that.â
âYou said I should get myself something nice.â
âI did.â
âAnd I listened.â
That made him smile properly now. âIâm learninâ that can be dangerous.â
You angled the box toward yourself protectively. âNo take backs now, Miller.â
âAinât askinâ for any.â
He leaned back slightly, one hand braced on the bedspread, and watched as your fingers slipped beneath the tissue paper with excitement. He recognized that look on you too. The one that made you seem younger and softer all at once.
You glanced at him over your shoulder. âDo you want to see?â
Joelâs eyes moved from your face to the box and back again. âBaby, you know I got no earthly clue what half that stuff is.â
âI know,â you said sweetly. âThatâs why Iâm going to explain it to you.â
He laughed under his breath and settled in, already knowing he was done for. âAlright, then.â
And because it was you asking, because it mattered to you, because he loved the sound of your voice when you got excited about something, Joel gave you his full attention.You shifted in the chair until you were facing him a little more fully, one leg tucking beneath you, the Sephora box still balanced carefully in your lap like something precious. Joel stayed where he was at the edge of the bed, damp hair curling slightly at the ends, towel slung low around his waist, watching you with attention.
You dipped a hand into the box and pulled out the first item. âOkay. Weâre starting easy.â
Joelâs mouth twitched. âThat suggests we ainât stayinâ easy.â
âWe are not.â
He nodded once, resigned already. âGo on, then.â
You held up a sleek bottle. âThis is primer.â
Joel frowned faintly. âPrimer.â
âYes.â
He leaned forward slightly, forearms braced on his thighs. âLike paint.â
You stared at him for a beat, then sighed. âI knew you were going to say that.â
âWell, itâs called primer.â
âIt is not a paint primer.â
Joel tipped his head. âHow do I know that?â
âBecause this one costs thirty eight dollars and if I ever put it on a wall, youâd have me committed.â
That earned a low laugh out of him.
He reached for the bottle, and you handed it over. Joel turned it in his hand, studying the label with the seriousness of a man trying very hard not to look like he was reading another language. âSo whatâs it do?â
âIt goes on before makeup.â
âHence the name.â
You squinted at him. âYou can either be respectful during my presentation, or I can pack everything up and go to bed.â
âPresentation?â he repeated, eyes warm now. âBaby, are you givinâ me a seminar?â
âYes.â You folded your arms. âAnd if youâre lucky thereâll be a practical demonstration.â
Joelâs gaze flickered over your face for half a second, before he handed the bottle back. âNow that sounds promisinâ.â
You ignored the way your stomach fluttered and went on. âPrimer makes everything sit better on the skin. It helps smooth things out, helps makeup last longer, and sometimes it gives you a certain finish.â
He blinked. âA finish.â
âYes. Glowy. Matte. Blurring. Hydrating.â
Joel was quiet for a second. âThat all different from just⌠face?â
You laughed. âYes, Joel, that is different from just face.â
He gave a solemn nod. âAlright. Good to know.â
You placed the primer on the vanity and reached into the box again. âNext: concealer.â
Joel watched the little tube appear in your hand. âLemme guess. Covers somethinâ.â
You pointed at him. âSee? This is good. Youâre learning.â
He leaned back a little, smug enough to annoy you. âI ainât dumb, darlinâ.â
âI didnât say you were dumb.â
âYour tone did.â
âMy tone is educational.â
âThat so?â
âYes.â
Joelâs smile deepened, but he let you continue.
âConcealer can be for dark circles, redness, blemishes, whatever.â
His brow furrowed almost immediately. âYou donât have any of those things on your pretty face, baby.â
You stared at him, then softened a little despite yourself. âThatâs sweet, but thatâs not the point.â
He looked genuinely unconvinced. âSeems like the point exactly.â
âNo.â You set the concealer down with a small huff. âThe point is not fixing some horrible flaw. Itâs just⌠enhancement. Evening things out. Playing around. Feeling put together.â
Joel nodded slowly, eyes still on your face. âAlright.â
You narrowed yours. âYou still look like you disagree.â
He shrugged one shoulder. âI can disagree privately.â
âYou are not disagreeing privately. Your whole face is disagreeing.â
A laugh escaped him then. âYou know my face too well.â
âI do.â
That landed softly between you.
Joelâs gaze stayed on you and you had the strange feeling that he was not just watching you talk⌠he was memorizing you. The way your fingers handled each item. The way your voice changed when you were explaining something you liked. The way you lit up when he listened properly.
He did listen properly. That was the thing.
You cleared your throat and reached for the next item before the moment got too soft to bear. âOkay. This one is blush.â
Joel nodded. âI know blush.â
âOh?â
He gestured vaguely toward his own cheekbones. âPink.â
You blinked at him. âThat is both offensively simple and, unfortunately, correct.â
He looked pleased with himself.
You held up a compact and opened it, letting him see the soft rosy color inside. âBlush goes on the cheeks. Sometimes a little on the nose too. Depends on the look.â
âThe look,â he repeated.
âYes.â
âYou got multiple looks?â
You gave him a flat stare. âJoel.â
âWhat? Iâm askinâ questions.â
âOf course I have multiple looks.â
He held up both hands in surrender. âAlright, alright.â
You turned slightly toward the mirror and tapped your cheek. âBlush can make you look healthy, fresh, sweet, sunkissed, romanticââ
Joel interrupted. âSweet.â
You glanced back. âYes.â
He tilted his head. âYou already look sweet.â
Your expression betrayed you then, a little smile creeping in despite your best efforts. âYou canât just say things like that in the middle of my explanation.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause Iâm trying to be serious.â
Joel looked at you for a beat, taking in your face, your excitement, the slight pink that had risen in your cheeks before youâd even put any actual blush on. âThat may be the problem right there, baby.â
You laughed softly and reached into the box again. âFine. No more compliments until the end.â
âThat doesn't sound natural.â
âItâs a rule now.â
âSeems harsh.â
âYouâll survive.â
He considered that. âDebatable.â
You had to look away for a second because the sight of him sitting there barely dressed, all broad shoulders and damp hair and sleepy amusement, making himself the worldâs most attentive audience for a makeup breakdown, was almost too lovely to process in one go.
You pulled out a small palette next.
Joel squinted. âThat one looks expensive.â
Your face changed instantly. âIt was a little expensive.â
âA little.â
âMmm-hmm.â
He extended a hand. âLemme see.â
You passed it over carefully, and Joel turned the compact in his fingers. The palette was heavier than he expected, the case clicking softly when he opened it. Inside were shades of brown, gold, rose, and deep muted plum, each one arranged so prettily it almost did make sense that youâd looked delighted pulling it out of the bag earlier.
He studied it in silence for a moment.
Then, very seriously: âThese are all nearly the same color.â
Your mouth fell open. âJoel!â
âWhat?â
âThey are not.â
He looked at the palette again, then back at you. âBaby, Iâm lookinâ at seven versions of brown.â
You snatched it from him with exaggerated offense. âThis is taupe. This is a soft rose. This is bronze. This is a champagne shimmer. This one is mauve.â
Joel blinked slowly. âThat last one was definitely still brown.â
âIt was not.â
âLooked brown from here.â
âYou are impossible.â
He grinned then. âMaybe. But Iâm listeninâ.â
You held the palette protectively against your chest. âEyeshadow,â you informed him, in the tone of someone recovering from a great insult, âis what you put on your eyelids.â
âI gathered.â
âIt can change the whole mood of a look.â
He raised a brow. âCan it?â
âYes. Soft. Smoky. Dramatic. Fresh. Sultry.â
Joelâs expression altered at that last word, barely. âSultry, huh?â
You pretended not to notice. âYes.â
âAnd youâre sayinâ that like itâs a normal thing to tell me while sittinâ there lookinâ like that.â
âLike what?â
He looked you over once, slowly enough to make your pulse jump, then brought his eyes back to your face. âLike you know exactly what youâre doinâ.â
The silence that followed lasted a beat too long.
Then you cleared your throat again. âAnyway. Moving on.â
Joel let out a quiet laugh but didnât argue.
You pulled out a fluffy brush, and his brow furrowed. âThat one for paint too?â
You gasped. âJoel!â
âIâm kiddinâ.â
âNo, youâre not. You think all of this is construction supplies in disguise.â
He looked at the brush. âYou gotta admit thereâs some overlap.â
âThere is absolutely no overlap.â
âThat primer still sounds suspicious.â
You shook your head, smiling helplessly now. âThis is an eyeshadow brush.â
He gave the brush a dubious look. âSeems too soft to do much.â
âItâs not supposed to do much. Itâs supposed to blend.â
âBlend what?â
âThe eyeshadow.â
Joel leaned back and rubbed a hand over his jaw. âAlright, hold on. So first you put color on your eyelid.â
âYes.â
âThen you use another tool to sort of⌠smear it around.â
âIt is not smearing. It is blending.â
He nodded gravely. âMy mistake.â
You pointed the brush at him. âMock me again and Iâll use this against you.â
Joel looked at the brush, then at you. âSweetheart, I am not afraid of a tiny fluffy weapon.â
You fought a smile and lost badly. âYou should be.â
âWhat, you gonna do my makeup in my sleep?â
That image hit you so suddenly and vividly that you nearly laughed. âHonestly? Youâd look gorgeous.â
âWould I?â
âYes. Maybe a nice neutral eye to enhance your hazel eyes or something soft and romantic with berry tones.â
Joel gave you a long look. âYou flirtinâ with me or threateninâ me?â
âBit of both.â
âMm.â
His voice dropped on that little hum in a way you very deliberately chose not to think about too hard.
Instead, you kept digging through the box and grabbed a lipstick. âOkay. This one you know.â
Joelâs gaze landed on the tube and warmed immediately with recognition. âNow that one I know.â
You looked pleased. âYou do?â
âYeah.â He pointed lazily. âThatâs similar to the color you wear when we go out somewhere nice.â
You paused.
Then slowly: âWhat?â
Joel shrugged, like this was obvious. âThe darker one.â
You blinked at him. âYou know this shade?â
âCould pick it out in a lineup.â
You stared.
His expression shifted, a little wary now. âWhat?â
âJoel.â
âWhat.â
You turned fully toward him on the stool, lipstick in hand. âAre you telling me you can identify my lipstick shades?â
He frowned as if the question itself were strange. âSome of âem.â
âSome of them?â
âWell, not by all the names,â he said. âThose names are ridiculous.â
You narrowed your eyes. âWhat do you mean, ridiculous?â
He held out a hand, and when you passed him the tube he read the label aloud with a face like he was being personally offended by it. ââRosewood Whisper.ââ He looked up. âThatâs not a lipstick shade. Thatâs some fancy car freshener scent.â
You laughed so hard you had to grab the edge of the vanity.
Joel kept going, encouraged now. âYâall never just call somethinâ red. No. Itâs âmidnight garnet seductionâ or âvelvet sinâ or âspiced fig dream.â Sounds like a fancy cocktail menu.â
You were laughing openly now, shoulders shaking.
He pointed the lipstick at you. âAnd Iâm right.â
âYou are a menace.â
âIâm observant.â
âThat is not the word I wouldâve used.â
Joel smiled and handed it back. âItâs the one Iâm usinâ.â
You twisted the lipstick up and held it near your mouth. âSo which one is this, then?â
He squinted. âThatâs not the darker dinner one.â
âNo.â
âAnd itâs not the peachy one you wear with that cream sweater.â
Your eyes widened. âExcuse me?â
Joel blinked once. âWhat.â
âYou know the peachy one?â
He shifted slightly on the bed, suddenly looking like a man who had stumbled into revealing more than intended. âBaby, I got eyes.â
âNo, no. Thatâs not just eyes. Thatâs data collection.â
A reluctant smile pulled at his mouth. âYou say that like itâs criminal.â
âIt is deeply suspicious.â
Joel looked down, then back up at you. âYou want me not to notice?â
It got you in the chest a little.
Your voice softened without permission. âNo.â
He nodded once. âThen I'll keep noticing.â
You looked at him for a moment, then turned back toward the mirror before he could see too much on your face. âWell,â you said, trying for lightness and getting only halfway there, âfor the record, this one is newer.â
âYeah?â
âYeah. And itâs not for every day.â
Joel watched your reflection. âSpecial occasion?â
You glanced at him in the mirror. âMaybe.â
His eyes held yours there for one quiet second before you broke the look and set the lipstick down.
You reached for another item. âOkay, next: highlighter.â
Joel exhaled. âThat one also sounds like office supplies.â
âIt does not.â
âIt absolutely does.â
âIt makes the high points of the face catch the light.â
He nodded slowly. âNow that, I understand.â
You blinked. âReally?â
âSure.â He pointed gently toward you. âBit on the cheekbone. Maybe here.â He gestured near the inner corners of his own eyes with shocking accuracy. âMakes things brighter.â
You stared at him, deadpan.
Joelâs mouth twitched. âWhyâre you lookinâ at me like that?â
âHow do you know that?â
He shifted one shoulder. âSeen you do it.â
âWhen?â
His expression was almost offended now. âWhat dâyou mean, when?â
You let out a breathy laugh. âNo, I justâI donât know. I didnât realize you were paying that much attention.â
Joel went quiet.
Then he said as a matter of fact, âI pay attention to you all the time.â
The words settled over the room.
There was no vanity in the way he said it. He sounded like a man stating something as ordinary and unremarkable as the weather, when to you it felt like being handed his heart in the simplest possible form.
You swallowed. âI know.â
His gaze lingered on your reflection. âDo you?â
The question was gentle enough to hurt.
You looked down at the highlighter in your hand, then set it beside the rest. âYeah,â you said softly. âI do.â
Joel didnât answer right away. He just watched you, something tender moving beneath the calm of his face, and then the moment loosened because he cleared his throat and tipped his chin toward the clutter spreading over the vanity.
âSo how much of that did you buy?â
You laughed, grateful for the release. âRude.â
âIâm serious.â
âYou told me to treat myself.â
âI did not expect to finance a full cosmetic expansion.â
âExpansion,â you repeated, grinning.Â
âLooks expensive enough to be one.â
You picked up two little containers. âThese were mini sizes.â
Joel narrowed his eyes. âThat means theyâre small.â
âYes.â
âNot cheap.â
You sighed. âNo.â
He nodded like a man whose suspicions had been confirmed. âThought so.â
You held up another gloss tube. âThis one was on sale.â
He gave you a long look.
âIt was!â
âThat phraseâs dangerous in your mouth.â
âItâs not dangerous.â
âDarlin, every time you say somethinâ was on sale, somehow three bags appear.â
You put a hand to your chest. âI canât believe youâd stereotype me like this in my own bedroom.â
Joel laughed and the sound of it curled around you like a warm blanket.
He rubbed his hand over his beard and nodded toward the products. âAlright. So what else we got.â
You brightened immediately and began lining them up in order like you were preparing to teach a masterclass. âSkincare.â
Joel made a face.
You caught it instantly. âDonât.â
âI didnât say nothinâ.â
âYour face said enough.â
He leaned back on one arm. âHow many steps?â
You looked away. âThat depends.â
Joel groaned quietly. âBaby.â
âIt depends on the night.â
âThat means too many.â
âIt does not mean too many.â
âHow many.â
You started counting under your breath. âCleanser. Serum. Moisturizer. Eye cream if I feel like it. Sometimes an exfoliant, but not every night, obviously. And then if my skin is dry, maybeââ
Joel held up a hand. âI blacked out halfway through that.â
You laughed. âNo, you didnât.â
âFelt like I did.â
âSkincare is important.â
He gave you a skeptical look. âYouâre twenty seven, not ninety.â
âThat has nothing to do with it.â
He watched you for a second, then asked with suspicious sincerity, âIs that why there are so many tiny bottles in the bathroom that all look exactly the same?â
You gasped. âThey do not look exactly the same.â
âThey absolutely do.â
âThat one has niacinamide.â
He stared.
You lifted another. âThis one has hyaluronic acid.â
He kept staring.
You held up a third. âAnd this one is peptides.â
Joel blinked once, then slowly dragged a hand down his face. âYou just cast a spell at me.â
You burst out laughing.
âIâm serious,â he said, though he was smiling too now. âThat sounded illegal⌠like drugs and that stuff.â
âItâs not illegal, itâs skincare.â
âSame difference.â
You shook your head, still smiling, and then your fingers dipped back into the box one more time.
Joel watched your expression change before the product even cleared the tissue paper.
His brows lifted. âWhatâs that look for?â
You bit back a grin. âNothing.â
âSweetheart.â
You looked over your shoulder at him with eyes far too innocent. âThis oneâs just⌠funny.â
Joel straightened a little. âFunny how?â
You held the tube in your hand but didnât show him yet.
He narrowed his gaze. âWhyâre you hidinâ it?â
âBecause youâre going to be immature.â
Joel actually looked offended. âI am never immature.â
You stared at him.
He waited.
Then one corner of your mouth lifted. âThat was embarrassing for both of us.â
A laugh escaped him. âAlright, fine. Little bit.â
âLittle bit,â you echoed, unconvinced.
You turned the tube in your fingers, smiling to yourself now, and Joel could already tell from the expression on your face that whatever came next was going to amuse you entirely too much.
He shifted closer to the edge of the bed without even meaning to, curiosity plain on his face now. âCâmon, then. Lemme see.â
You looked at him, still grinning. âPromise youâll behave?â
Joel met your eyes. âNo.â
That made you laugh again and you lifted the last item slowly, ready to show him the thing you already knew was going to make him lose it.You held it up between two fingers with a grin you were making absolutely no effort to hide now, the little metallic pink tube catching the warm bedroom light as you turned it toward him.
Joel squinted at the label.
Then he went very still.
His eyes moved across the words once. Twice.
And then, exactly as predicted, he barked out a laugh so sudden and unguarded it startled even him.
You pointed at him immediately. âDonât.â
That only made it worse.
Joel bent forward, one hand over his mouth now, shoulders shaking as the laugh hit him again, deeper this time, rough and helpless and impossible to stop. He looked up at you with tears of amusement practically threatening in the corners of his eyes and repeated, disbelieving, âBetter Than Sex?â
You stared at him, trying very hard to look stern and getting nowhere. âJoel.â
âBaby.â He shook his head and laughed again. âNo. Iâm sorry. I know Iâm supposed to be respectful, I do, but that is the dumbest damn name I ever heard in my life.â
âIt is not dumb.â
âIt is ridiculous.â
âItâs marketing!â
âMarketing by a thirteen year old boy, maybe.â
You slapped a hand over your mouth to stop your own smile and failed miserably. âYou said you were going to behave.â
âI very specifically did not promise that.â
âThat doesnât mean you get to be mean.â
Joel sat up a little straighter, still grinning, and held out a hand. âLemme see it.â
You hesitated just long enough to make a point, then passed it over. He took the tube carefully, turning it in his fingers like maybe the name would somehow become less absurd if he looked at it from another angle but it did not.
He read it aloud again, slower, like he was trying to understand how a real company with a real boardroom and real adult employees had come to this decision. ââBetter Than Sex.ââ He looked up at you. âThere was nobody in that office brave enough to stop this?â
You laughed despite yourself. âApparently not.â
Joel stared down at the tube. âWho approved that?â
âPeople smarter than us, probably.â
âNo, maâam.â He handed it back with quiet authority. âAinât no smart person names a mascara after sex.â
You took it from him, smiling now. âThatâs because you donât understand branding.â
He leaned back on the bed again, one hand braced behind him, expression dry. âThen explain it to me.â
You drew in a dramatic breath and straightened in the chair like you were about to defend a thesis. âAlright. The point is not that the mascara is literally better than sex.â
Joel immediately cut in. âWell, thatâs disappointinâ, because that is very much what they printed on the tube.â
You glared at him. âWould you let me finish?â
He made a little go ahead gesture with his fingers, though the smile was still pulling at one corner of his mouth.
âThe point,â you repeated, âis that it promises drama.â
Joelâs expression remained skeptical. âDrama.â
âYes. Big lashes. Volume. Length. Impact.â You held the tube up between you both like a piece of courtroom evidence. âItâs not subtle. It wants attention.â
He looked from the mascara to you. âSo the mascara is flirtinâ.â
You narrowed your eyes. âI hate that you made that sound logical.â
Joelâs mouth twitched. âAinât wrong.â
You rolled your eyes and unscrewed the tube, pulling the wand out with a soft wet click. âLook.â
He leaned forward instinctively, curious despite himself now, watching as you angled the wand so he could see the brush.
Joel frowned. âThatâs it?â
You looked at him. âWhat do you mean, thatâs it?â
âItâs just a little spiky stick.â
âIt is not a spiky stick.â
He pointed. âThatâs absolutely a spiky stick.â
âItâs a mascara wand.â
Joel nodded once, solemn again. âThatâs what I said.â
You shook your head, smiling in spite of yourself, and turned toward the mirror. âYou are impossible to educate.â
âYet you persist.â
âBecause Iâm committed.â
âTo what, exactly.â
âImproving you.â
Joelâs low laugh followed you into the mirror. âGood luck with that.â
You angled closer to the glass and lifted the wand to your lashes. âOkay. So mascara darkens them, lengthens them, thickens themâideally.â
ââIdeallyâ donât sound confident.â
âBecause some mascaras clump.â
Joel frowned. âClump.â
âYes.â
âThat bad?â
âIt can be.â
He was quiet for a second. âHow many problems yâall got in that industry?â
You laughed under your breath. âMore than you could possibly understand.â
He watched your reflection carefully as you started applying the mascara with slow, practiced movements, the brush catching at the roots and pulling upward. Joel had seen you do this before, of course. More than once. But there was something different about being invited into it this closely, being talked through the steps like he belonged there in the middle of the ritual instead of merely passing by the doorway while it happened.
He found himself following every little motion.The steadiness of your hand. The slight concentration in your face. The way your eyes widened a touch as the lashes separated and darkened.
âWaterproof,â you reminded him, glancing at him through the mirror.
Joel nodded. âThat part I understand.â
âDo you.â
âSure. Means it wonât run if it gets wet.â
âExactly.â
He folded one arm across his chest. âGood for rain.â
You smiled. âYes.â
âCryinâ.â
âYes.â
âHumid weather.â
âYes.â
Joel considered that, then squinted at the tube as if he could extract more information from sheer suspicion. âAnd thatâs it?â
You took your time with the other eye, far too aware now of the way he was watching. âNot exactly.â
His voice changed a little. âNo?â
You kept your gaze on the mirror because looking at him directly wouldâve been too much too soon. âNo.â
Joel waited.
He had that patience when he wanted to. He could make silence feel like a gentle and guiding hand at the small of your back. You felt him watching as clearly as if heâd touched you, and it made your skin go warm in places you were trying very hard not to think about yet.
You cleared your throat softly. âIt also says it holds up against sweat.â
Joel made a small thoughtful sound. âAlright.â
âAndâŚâ You adjusted the wand, pretending great interest in the angle of your lashes. âOther⌠things.â
Joel didnât move right away, didnât speak either. The quiet between you lengthened until it had weight, and when he finally did say something, his voice came out rougher than before.
âWhat kind of things.â
You looked at him in the mirror then.
There was the answer.
You turned back to the mirror and gave your lashes one more slow coat. âFluids.â
Joel let out a breath through his nose that might have been a laugh if it hadnât sounded so much like restraint. âDarlin'.â
âWhat?â you asked, all false innocence.
He looked at the back of your shoulder, then up to your eyes in the mirror again. âYou know exactly what.â
You capped the mascara with careful fingers, buying yourself a second. âIâm explaining the product.â
âThat's what this is.â
âYes.â
He nodded once, but his eyes stayed on you. âSeems awfully selective.â
You smiled faintly. âItâs an important feature.â
âIs it now.â
âMmm-hmm.â
Joel leaned forward, elbows resting on his knees, gaze intent enough to make the room feel smaller. âSo let me get this straight. Some genius came up with a mascara named âBetter Than Sex,â and then another genius decided to advertise that it survivesâŚâ His eyes moved over your face, dipped to your mouth, then back up. âFluids.â
You swallowed, trying not to show it. âThat seems to be the implication.â
He sat with that for a second. Then, very dryly, âThat may be the most committed sales pitch Iâve heard all year.â
You laughed, but it came out weaker than before.
Joel watched you set the tube down on the vanity, watched the way your fingers lingered on it for a fraction too long. âAnd you bought this becauseâŚâ
âBecause it had good reviews.â
âMm.â
âAnd because itâs supposed to make lashes look dramatic.â
His gaze flicked up to the mirror again. âMission accomplished.â
Your breath caught a little at how simply he said it.
You looked at yourself then, partly to avoid looking at him. The mascara had done what it always promised to do: your lashes looked darker, longer, fuller, framing your eyes in a way that made your whole face read differently. Less soft. Less sleepy. Sharper somehow. More deliberate. Your eyes looked bigger, yes, but definitely not innocent.
You turned on the stool, one hand settling in your lap. âWell?â
Joel didnât answer immediately.
He just looked.
His gaze moved slowly over your face, taking in what had changed. The lashes now casting longer shadows against your skin. But he was not just looking at the makeup. He was looking at you inside it. At the way you wore it. At the confidence that had crept quietly into your posture because you knew you looked good and you wanted him to know you knew.
It made his heat tighten behind his ribs.
âYouâre pretty,â he said at last.
You made a face immediately. âJoel.â
âWhat.â
âThat is not a serious review.â
His mouth twitched. âDidnât say it was.â
âIâm asking about the mascara.â
âMm.â His eyes stayed on yours. âAnd Iâm answerinâ honestly.â
You tried not to smile and failed. âBe specific.â
Joel let out a quiet breath, like he was indulging you, but there was no impatience in him. Only attention. âAlright.â
He stood then.
Joel crossed the small distance between the bed and the vanity until he stood just behind your chair, close enough that the warmth of him slid over your bare shoulders before he even touched you. In the mirror you watched him lift one hand and rest it lightly on the top edge of the vanity, caging you in without quite meaning to. His other hand came to your jaw, fingers rough and warm as they tilted your face very slightly toward the light.
Now you could barely breathe.
Joel studied your reflection and yours alone, his eyes narrowed in concentration as if he were trying to get this right. âThey do look longer.â
His thumb brushed once, barely there, near your chin. âDarker, too.â
You kept still.
His gaze lingered. âMakes your eyes lookâŚâ He trailed off.
You looked up at him in the mirror. âLook what?â
Joelâs eyes met yours there. For one suspended second he seemed to debate with himself. Then he gave in, just a little.
âLike trouble,â he said quietly.
Your heart stumbled.
He looked down at you then and whatever he saw on your face must have reached him, because something in his expression softened even as the heat stayed.
You tried for lightness. âThatâs not very technical.â
Joelâs mouth curved. âYou want technical?â
âYes.â
He leaned down just enough that his voice brushed near your ear. âAlright, then. They make it hard to look anywhere else.â
You exhaled shakily.
He stayed there a moment, close enough that your whole body had gone aware of him in pieces. The smell of soap from his shower. The quiet scrape of his thumb when it moved once more against your skin.
Then, because you needed the thread picked back up before it snapped entirely, you looked at the mascara on the table and said, with a little too much brightness, âAnd itâs waterproof.â
Joel laughed softly, the sound low in your ear. âYou already sold me on that part, darlinâ.â
You swallowed. âDid I?â
âYeah.â
He straightened just enough to look at you again in the mirror, one hand still resting beside you on the vanity. âOnly thing Iâm still unclear onââ
You turned your head slightly. âWhatâs that?â
His eyes dropped to your mouth, then lifted again, maddeningly calm. âWhether all that advertisingâs true.â
The words landed between you dangerously.
You stared at him.
Then his hand slipped from your jaw, slow enough to feel deliberate, and he stepped back just one pace, enough to give you air without really undoing what heâd started.
His voice, when it came, was gentler. âThough I should probably mentionââhis eyes moved over your face once moreââyou didnât need it.â
Your expression softened despite yourself. âNeed what?â
âAny of it.â He nodded toward the products scattered over the vanity. âThe primer, the blush, the dramatic flirtinâ mascara with the terrible name.â One corner of his mouth lifted. âYouâre beautiful without all that.â
You looked down for a second, smiling helplessly. âYou always say that.â
âBecause itâs true.â
âI know.â You glanced back up at him. âBut thatâs not the point.â
Joel nodded slowly. âNo. I know it ainât.â
There it was again. The understanding, the quiet way he met you where you actually were instead of simplifying you.
His gaze moved to the mascara one last time, then back to your eyes, still darkened and dangerous in the vanity light. âStill,â he murmured, voice gone rough at the edges again, âI gotta admit.â
You waited.
Joelâs eyes held yours.
âIt does look real good on you.â
You looked at him through the mirror.
He looked back.
And then his gaze drifted over the products scattered across the vanity and he said, low and thoughtful, âSeems a shame, though.â
Your brows lifted. âWhat does?â
âAll that effort.â His eyes came back to your face, to the lashes youâd darkened on purpose, to the mouth that had been trying not to smile for the last thirty seconds. âAll that makeup.â
You turned a little more in the chair. âWhat about it?â
Joelâs mouth twitched faintly. âGonna go to waste.â
You stared at him for half a beat, then let out a tiny laugh. âWaste?â
He gave one slow nod, like this was the most reasonable point in the world.
âHow exactly is it going to waste?â
Joel shifted his weight, one hand catching the knot of the towel at his hip for the briefest second before falling away again. The motion was absentminded, but your eyes dropped there anyway, and when they lifted back to his face he had already noticed.
That did not help.
His voice dipped lower. âWell, darlinâ⌠unless Iâve badly misunderstood the shape of this evening, I figured weâd be goinâ to bed before too long.â
The words themselves were almost innocent.
Almost.
You felt the silence that followed settle over the room, and for one suspended second you didnât answer.
Joel noticed that too.
His eyes narrowed just slightly as he watched your face, watched the way your fingers tightened in your lap, watched the little shift in your breathing. He knew that look by now. Knew the exact moment a thought took hold in you and turned from playful to dangerous. It was always there first, in your eyes. That glint. That pause. That split second where he could practically see the idea forming before you ever said a word.
And judging by the way his chest rose on a slow inhale, he knew this one was going to be trouble. The kind of trouble he never once tried very hard to avoid.
âYouâre awfully quiet,â he murmured.
You stood from the vanity slowly, turning fully to face him now. The height difference between you always felt more pronounced when he was like this, with his eyes fixed on you with that patient, dangerous attention that never rushed and never missed a thing.
You stepped closer.
Joelâs gaze dropped briefly to your mouth, then lifted again.
âHow do you mean, waste?â you asked softly.
His expression shifted, something amused and warmer than amused flickering through it. âDarlin'.â
âNo, tell me.â You tilted your head just slightly. âBecause from where Iâm standing, nothingâs being wasted.â
Joel let out a quiet breath through his nose, almost a laugh, except there was too much heat in it now to really be one. âThat so?â
âThat so.â
You could see him trying to read you, trying to decide whether this was still teasing or whether the ground had shifted under his feet without him noticing.
Then his eyes moved over your face again, slower this time, taking in the lashes, the mouth, the expression you were making no attempt to soften.
When he spoke, his voice had gone gravel deep. âBaby.â
That one word should not have felt like a hand sliding over bare skin. And yet you took the last half step in, close enough now to feel the heat coming off him, close enough that if you lifted your hand it would land on the center of his chest. The towel sat careless and unfair around his waist, his hair still damp, his whole body loose with the kind of comfort that only existed in private, in the quiet safety of home, in the hour when the rest of the world stopped mattering and there was only this room and this man and the way he was looking at you now.
You smiled teasingly.
âItâs not going to waste,â you said.
Joel held very still.
âNo?â
You shook your head once, eyes never leaving his. âNo.â
He swallowed.
That was it. Just a tiny movement in his throat, but you caught it, and the satisfaction of being able to do that to him with so little nearly made you bolder than you already were.
Joelâs hands remained at his sides, though you could tell by the tension in them that it cost him something now. âAlright,â he said carefully. âThen Iâm listeninâ.â
You let your gaze flick down his chest and back up, deliberately mirroring the way heâd looked at you before. âIâve been thinking about this mascara all day.â
That got his attention in full.
âAll day,â he repeated.
You nodded.
Joelâs mouth curved, but it was thin now, held back by effort. âShould I be worried?â
âProbably.â
He laughed once under his breath, but the sound came out uneven. âYou say that awful casually.â
You took another inch of space, enough that the edge of your nightgown nearly brushed the towel at his hip. Joel didnât move away. If anything, he seemed to brace without meaning to, like his whole body had recognized the shift before his mind could catch up.
And still you made him wait.
âIâve been waiting,â you said, voice softening, âto see if itâs actually as good as it claims.â
Joel stared at you.
His eyes searched yours, and when he spoke, his voice was so low it barely seemed to cross the space between you. âBabyâŚâ
You smiled wider.
âSo no,â you said gently. âNothingâs going to waste.â
He exhaled slowly, chest rising under the warm lamplight, and there it was again, that look. That exact look. The one you knew got under his skin every single time. Part disbelief, part desire, part the dawning realization that he was no longer in control of the direction this night was taking and that, worse, he did not want to be.
Your fingers lifted at last, just enough to rest lightly against his chest.
Joelâs eyes dropped to the touch.
Then back to your face.
And you gave him the line like a gift.
âIâve been waiting all day,â you said softly, âto test with my husband whether this mascara really holds up to everything it promises.â
Joel went completely still.
His jaw tightened just slightly. His hand flexed once at his side. His eyes dragged over your face as though he were seeing you and the trouble in you with punishing new clarity.
Then he laughed, just once.
And when he looked at you again, whatever amusement had been there before had burned down into something darker.
âJesus,â he muttered, almost to himself.
Joelâs hand came up then, rough fingers finding your waist with slow intention, like he was giving himself one last chance to be careful and already knew it was too late.Â
âBaby,â he said, and this time it sounded like a warning aimed at both of you.
His hand tightened slightly at your waist, thumb pressing in just enough to ground himself, or maybe to make sure you were real and not something his tired brain had invented after a long week and a hot shower and too much time thinking about you.
You tilted your head, lashes dark and deliberate, exactly like youâd intended. âWhat?â
Joel let out a breath that almost sounded like a laugh, except there was no real humor left in it now. Just pure heat turned into desperate need. âYouâre gonna be the death of me, you know that?â
You smiled. âThatâs not very reassuring, you know.â
âAinât meant to be.â
His eyes dropped to your mouth, lingered there just a second too long, then dragged back up like it cost him something.Â
He shifted his weight slightly, like he was bracing for something heâd already decided not to stop.
âSay that again,â he murmured.
Your breath caught. âWhat part?â
âAll of it.â
You held his gaze, fully aware now of how close you were, how little space there was left to hide behind anything safe. âI said,â you began softly, fingers still resting against his chest, âthat I donât think anythingâs going to waste.â
Joelâs jaw tightened.
âAnd,â you continued, quieter now, stepping just a fraction closer, âthat Iâve been waiting all dayâŚâ
His hand slid from your waist to your hip, like he was mapping out the line of you again just to be sure.
ââŚto test it with my husband,â you finished.
The silence that followed was thick.
His control was still there, you could see it in the tension of his shoulders, in the way his grip hadnât tightened too much, in the way he was still choosing every movement instead of letting instinct take over completely.
But it was slipping.
And you could feel that too.
Your hand moved slightly against his chest againâjust enough to tempting himâand that was all it took.
Joel closed his eyes for half a second, like he was giving himself one last moment of control.
Then he opened them again.
And whatever had been holding him back was gone.
âAlright,â he said, voice low and dangerous in that quiet way that meant he was done pretending this wasnât happening. âYou wanna test it?â
Your pulse jumped.
He leaned in just enough that his breath brushed warm against your cheek, close enough to make your thoughts scatter without even touching you yet.
âLetâs see how well it holds up,â he murmured.
That was the moment everything tipped.
His thumb dragged slowly along the curve of your hip. âAll day, huh? Thinkinâ about me ruininâ it?â
âEvery hour.â
A low, dangerous sound rumbled out of his chest. He spun you around so fast your breath caught, pressing your front against the vanity edge until the cool wood bit into your hips. The mirror reflected everything: your flushed face, the new mascara, Joel towering behind you like a man whoâd just been handed permission to lose control.
âLook at yourself,â he ordered, voice right against your ear. One big hand slid up your sternum, fingers spreading wide over your throat, not squeezing, not yet, just resting there like a heavy reminder. âYouâre gonna watch every second while I fuck that pretty makeup right off you.â
Your eyes met his in the glass. His were dark, pupils blown, jaw tight with restraint he was already losing.
âYes, Joel.â
He hummed approval, free hand shoving the towel away. It dropped to the floor with a soft thud. His cock was already hard, thick, flushed dark at the tip and curving up against your clothed ass. He dragged it slowly between your cheeks, teasing, letting you feel exactly how much he meant every word.
âGonna start slow,â he murmured, mouth brushing the shell of your ear. âDeep. So you feel every inch stretchinâ that tight little pussy while you keep those eyes on the mirror. Then Iâm gonna fuck you stupid. And every single time youâre about to comeâŚâ His fingers flexed around your throat. âI stop. Youâre not cominâ till that mascaraâs runninâ down your cheeks like youâve been cryinâ for me. Understand?â
You whimpered, nodding frantically. âYesâpleaseââ
He kicked your feet apart wider, one hand still collared around your throat, the other sliding down to pull your panties aside. No patience left for taking them off. The blunt head of his cock nudged at your entrance, already slick from how long youâd been teasing each other.
âEyes on the mirror, darlinâ,â he growled. âDonât you fuckinâ look away.â
Then he pushed in. One long, slow, relentless inch at a time until he was buried to the hilt and your mouth fell open on a broken moan. The stretch burned so good your lashes fluttered, but you kept your eyes open, locked on the reflection like heâd commanded.
âFuck,â Joel breathed, forehead dropping to your shoulder for a second. âSo goddamn tight. Always so perfect for me.â He rolled his hips once, grinding deep, letting you feel him throb inside you. âLook how pretty you look takinâ me. Those lashes still all nice and dark⌠for now.â
He started moving then. Slow, deep drags that pulled almost all the way out before sliding back into your dripping cunt. Every thrust dragged against that spot inside you that made your toes curl. His hand stayed firm around your throat, thumb stroking the side like he was petting you while he ruined you.
âThatâs it, baby. Watch yourself get fucked.â His voice was pure filth now. âSee how your tits bounce every time I bottom out? See how your mouth opens like you canât even breathe right? Thatâs my cock doinâ that to you.â
You moaned, the sound loud in the quiet bedroom. Your hands gripped the edge of the vanity so hard your knuckles went white. The mirror showed everything: the way your eyes were already glassy, the faint sheen of sweat starting on your collarbones, Joelâs broad body behind you, muscles flexing with every controlled thrust.
âGonna take my time,â he rasped. âGonna fuck you so deep you forget your own name before I even let you come.â He snapped his hips a little harder on the next thrust, making your breath hitch. âBut not yet. Not till I say.â
He kept the pace torturously slow for what felt like forever. Long, rolling strokes that had you whimpering and pushing back against him, chasing more. Every time your moans pitched higher, every time your walls started fluttering around him, Joel would still completely, buried deep, and just hold you there.
âNot yet, baby, not a chance,â he murmured against your neck, biting down lightly. âFeel that? Feel how full you are? Thatâs where you belong, baby. Stuffed full of my cock while you watch yourself fall apart.â
âJoelâpleaseââ
âPlease what?â He flexed inside you, grinding slow circles. âUse your words. Tell me what you want while youâre lookinâ me in the eyes.â
âI need to come,â you gasped, voice shaking. âPlease let me comeââ
His hand tightened just enough around your throat to make your pulse jump. âNo, sweetheart,â He pulled out almost completely, then sank back in so deep your knees buckled. âNot till those lashes are ruined. I want black streaks down your pretty cheeks. I want you lookinâ like youâve been cryinâ and chockinâ on my dick.â
He started fucking you harder then, still controlled, but deeper, faster, the wet slap of skin on skin filling the room. Your mascara was already starting to smudge at the corners from the tears of frustration gathering in your eyes.
âLook at that,â he groaned, eyes locked on the mirror. âAlready runninâ. My pretty little wifeâs mascara canât even handle a little foreplay. Whatâs it gonna do when I really start wreckinâ you, huh?â
He picked up the pace, hips snapping forward harder, the hand on your throat keeping you upright and forced to watch. Every thrust jolted you forward against the vanity. Your lashes were definitely smearing now, faint black tracks forming under your eyes.
âFuck, baby, youâre squeezinâ me so tight,â he growled. âPussyâs greedy tonight. You love to watch while I ruin you, donât you?â
âYesâyes, Joelââ
He reached around with his free hand and found your clit, giving it a light, stinging little tap with two fingers. You cried out, hips jerking.
âUh-uh,â he scolded, tapping again, harder this time. âNo cominâ. Not yet.â Another sharp little slap right over your swollen clit. âThis pretty pussyâs gonna wait till Iâve got black tears runninâ down your face.â
Joel kept fucking you hard and deep, hips snapping forward with that relentless rhythm that had the vanity creaking under your hands. He leaned in close again to whisper in your ear.
âWhoâs the most beautiful woman in the world, baby?â
You laughed. A broken, desperate sound that turned into a moan halfway through because he chose that exact second to grind against your spongy spot. Joelâs hand cracked down on your ass in a sharp, stinging spank that made you jolt forward. He didnât miss a beat, cock still buried to the hilt.
âI asked you a question,â he growled. Another hard thrust. Another spank, this one right on the same ass cheek, making your skin bloom hot. âWhoâs the most beautiful woman in the world?â
Your voice came out wrecked and breathless.
âMeâfuck, Joelâ itâs me.â
He was grinning in the mirror. He rewarded you with a deep, punishing stroke that made your eyes roll back.
âThatâs right,â he rasped, spanking you again. âMy beautiful girl. Say it again while I fuck you.â
âItâs me,â you sobbed, voice cracking as an orgasm threatened to rip through you. âIâm the most beautiful woman in the world.â
Joel groaned low in his chest, hips snapping harder.
âDamn right you are,â he muttered almost tenderly while he kept pounding into you. âAnd donât you ever fuckinâ forget it.â
He fucked you like that for what felt like hours with hard, deep thrusts interspersed with those cruel little clit slaps every time you got too close. Your mascara was a mess now, dark smudges under your eyes, streaks starting to run down your cheeks every time a tear slipped free.
âGoddamn,â Joel muttered, voice wrecked. âLook at you. So fuckinâ pretty when you cry for me.â He slammed in harder, grinding against your spongy spot again. âAlmost there, baby. Almost got you lookinâ exactly how I want.â
Your legs were shaking. You were babbling âplease, Joel, please, I canât, I needâ but he just kept going, relentless, edging you right to the brink and then stopping or slapping your clit until the orgasm retreated.
One final hard thrust and he stilled again, buried to the hilt, hand flexing around your throat.
âLook at yourself,â he ordered, voice rough. âLook how ruined you are.â
In the mirror your reflection was wrecked: You were shaking, tears spilling faster, mascara dripping off your chin onto the vanity. Joel looked feral behind you with his hair damp with sweat.
âThatâs it,â he growled. âThatâs the face I wanted. Now you can come, baby. Come all over my cock while I watch those tears run.â
He didnât give you time to answer. He fucked you with brutal, perfect strokes that hit exactly where you needed every single time. His hand left your throat only to slide down and rub tight, fast circles over your clit, no more teasing, no more denial.
âCome on, baby. Let go. Soak my dick while I ruin the rest of that mascara.â
The orgasm crashed into you like a freight train. You screamed his name, walls clamping down around him, body shaking so hard he had to hold you up. Black tears spilled freely down your cheeks now, mascara running in messy streaks all the way to your jaw.
âFuckâyesâthatâs my girl,â Joel groaned, voice breaking. âLook at you. So fuckinâ beautiful when you fall apart for me.â
He fucked you through it, hips stuttering, chasing his own release. âGonna fill you up, baby.â
One more thrust and he buried himself to the hilt, coming with a low, guttural moan, cock pulsing hot inside you. He kept grinding through it, milking every last drop while you trembled and cried in his arms.
For a long moment the only sound was both of you panting, the mirror fogged slightly at the edges from heat and breath.
Joel stayed inside you, arms wrapped around your middle now, gentler. He pressed a slow, open mouthed kiss to the side of your neck, then another to your tear streaked cheek.
âJesus Christ, baby,â he murmured, voice soft and wrecked. âYou look like a goddamn dream.â
He reached over to the vanity without pulling out, grabbed the pack of makeup remover wipes you always kept there, and tugged one free with his teeth. Then, still buried deep inside you, he turned you in his arms, lifted you clean off the floor, and carried you the few steps to the bed.
He sat down on the edge, keeping you straddling his lap, cock still snug and warm inside you. Your legs wrapped around his waist automatically. He cradled the back of your head with one hand and brought the wipe to your face with the other.
âHold still, darlinâ,â he said gently, voice full of that quiet affection that always undid you. âLet me clean my pretty girl up.â
He wiped your cheeks with slow, careful movements, thumb brushing tenderly under your eyes as the black streaks disappeared. Every few seconds heâd lean in and kiss you with soft, lingering kisses on your lips, your forehead, the tip of your nose.
âThat mascara didnât stand a chance, did it?â he teased between kisses, a crooked smile on his face. âPromised it was better than sex⌠and here you are with black rivers down your face after one round with your husband.â
You laughed, watery and breathless, and he kissed the sound right off your lips.
âShh, I got you,â he whispered, wiping the last smudge away. âAll clean now. My beautiful girl.â
He tossed the wipe aside and wrapped both arms around you, pulling you flush against his chest. His cock twitched inside you, still half hard, like he wasnât quite ready to leave yet.
âLove you,â he murmured against your hair, voice low and reverent. âLove you so fuckinâ much it hurts sometimes.â
You buried your face in his neck and smiled against his skin.
âLove you more.â
Joel huffed a soft laugh, hand stroking slow circles up and down your back.
âNah, baby. Not possible.â
He stayed like that for a long time, still inside you, holding you close, kissing your temple every few seconds while the bedroom lamp cast a warm glow over both of you. The vanity mirror behind you reflected the two of you tangled together.
âNext time you buy somethinâ similar to âBetter Than Sex,ââ he murmured, lips brushing your ear, âIâm makinâ you wear it so I can prove it wrong all over again.â
You laughed into his neck, and he tightened his arms around you, heart beating steady against yours.
âDeal?â he asked, smiling.
âDeal,â you whispered.
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â I just want to look at you like this for a moment. â
â Do you know how long Iâve been waiting for this? â
â Your heart is beating so fast. â
â Be gentle with me. Please. â
â Iâve never done this before. â
â I want to learn. Teach me. â
â Show me how to please you. â
â I want to give you everything tonight. â
â That feels so good â â
â Donât stop â â
â You wonât break me. I promise. â
â I want your hands on me. â
â Make love to me. â
â I need you, your lips on my skin. I need you deep inside me. â
â Canât you see what you do to me? â
â I donât want to repeat my innocence. I want the pleasure of losing it again. â
â There is no taste sweeter than yours. â
â Look at you, what a mess you are. â
â Youâre doing so good for me. Keep going. â
â Iâll taste every part of you before the night has ended. â
â No one else can make me feel this way. â
â I am already yours. Now I want you to lay your claim. â
â Your body sings to me. â
â I know youâre close. Just let it go now. Give in to it. â
â I want to feel you come undone. â
â Shh. Quiet love. Theyâre going to hear you. â
â I want to feel your fire, even if it burns me. â
â I missed you beyond words. Every night I dreamt of you, of what it would be like to hold you again, and Iâll be damned if I let the chance slip through my fingers when youâre right here. â
â Why canât I keep myself away from you? â
â This could be our last night together. Iâm going to make it count. â
â Donât bring emotions into this. This has always been about pleasure, nothing else. â
â We fuck. It doesnât need to be more complicated than that. â
â I have no right to touch you, so why do you ask it of me when I know I am unworthy? â
â You should be mine. I donât care what they say, you are mine. â
â You dare have the audacity to pretend like youâre not mine in front of them? We both know the truth; even now look how your body reacts to me. â
â Do you honestly think I could possibly want anyone else when this is what you do to me? â
â Youâre mine. Only mine. â
â I want them to hear us. I want them to know you belong to me. â
â Claim me. Have me in a way that anyone who looks at me will see your passion written upon my skin. â
â Youâre not mine. You could never be mine. Yet I want you anyway. I want you so badly that it burns me inside. â
â Youâve ruined me for all others. â
â I canât stop myself from wanting you, no matter how much we both know we shouldnât do this. â
â I donât care if they see. Part of me wants them to. â
â Youâre not good for me. So how can you make me feel something no one else can? â
â This is the last time, then never again. This has to stop. â
"Get on your knees" â A Comprehensive How-to Guide: Writing about Sucking Someone Off
Disclaimer: I only have experience in giving BJs and don't have experience with cooch (even though I wish I did), soooo, here we are. A lot of this is based on my own experience so I'll just leave it at that and get us started.
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So, to set the scene: your characters are getting into the mood. They're getting frisky; they're kissing, they're touching, hands wandering wherever they please, soft noises falling from their mouths.
They're so excited, mind a faint buzz; bodies and minds anticipating what's to come next.
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Maybe they're still fully clothed, maybe they're stripping each other off slowly, enjoying the slow teasing â or maybe they're already fully naked having practically ripped each other's clothes off in a desperate attempt to have that skin to skin contact quicker. Or maybe only one of them is clothed, while the other is partially/fully unclothed. This part, of course, depends on where this happens â or what the mood is.
If it's in the shower, then it can be assumed they're both fully naked already (unless they like stripping wet clothes off each other, then have at it. Go crazy, go wild).
If it's in the bedroom (or anywhere else, who are we to judge?) it can go both ways.
The atmosphere and the environment is so important, as it really adds to the mood.
Is it in the shower, under a showerhead with warm water cascading down on them?
Is it in the bedroom or elsewhere, candles lit, a very specific ambiance in the room to set the mood?
Is there AC blasting cool air, or is it mild temperatures - or does it feel hot and heavy?
Is it on the floor, is it on the bed, is it on a couch - where is this happening in that room?
What sounds can they hear? The pitter patter of water falling onto tiled flooring? The soft and controlled or loud and uncontained noises coming from either one of them? The moans, the gasps, the sighs, the whines... the desperate plea for more, more, more because the other person is such a fucking tease, God damn it. Or is it them trying to keep it down... key word here being trying.
What are the smells? Natural bodily fluids, bodily smells, sweat, faint scent of some type of perfume or cologne. Or maybe it's different scented soap and shampoo? Maybe it's scented candles?
What can they feel? Knees pressed against hard tiled flooring; back pressed against the cold pane of the shower. Or knees against soft sheets and fingers gripping onto the silk-like material? Or is it finger tips on soft/coarse patches of skin... or over the prickles of freshly growing hair... or over smooth skin.
What position are they getting themselves into?
Are they lying down?
Is one of them kneeling while the other is standing?
Are they in the 69 position?
Is one of them sitting up while the other is lying on their stomach?
Maybe the receiver is standing up, hovering over the giver's face who's lying down on their back?
Perhaps the giver is kneeling down and bent over while the receiver is lying down on the couch?
As long as no limbs are broken and they're flexible, there are so many positions they can test. The sky is the limit as long as no one ends up in the hospital (but hey, shit like that sometimes does happen so if you wanna make it realistic but also funny in a way, go right ahead!)
Your characters may or may not be comfortable with the position, and that can come with trying new things. Try and make them both as comfortable as possible and know their limitations, otherwise it's not gonna be fun for either party. Or you could make things uncomfortable for them if you wanna be a bit sadistic.
That is up for you to decide.
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Now, onto the spicy shit (I know you came here for that, you lil' curious demon).
They're comfortable, they're settled, they're in the mood â so into each other. One of them is aching to have a mouth wrapped around them; the other is drooling to have something throbbing in their mouth, reminding them that life is maybe worth living after all.
What are they doing to each other?
What are they saying to each other?
What is the giver doing to the receiver, and vice versa?
Is the giver experienced or are they not used to doing this, perhaps because itâs their first time or they just never learned the right techniques (thereâre more than one â just as with incorrect techniques).
Is the receiver running their hands through the giverâs hair.. gently, muffled sounds of pleasure leaving their kiss-bitten lips? Hips thrusting involuntarily into the giverâs mouth, compliments leaving their lips in faint whispers.
Or are they gripping onto tufts of hair, face-fucking them relentlessly, demanding for the giver to look them in their eyes? Hips thrusting rhythmically, taking pacing control into their own hands.
Is the giver looking up at them, demanding for the eye contact, or do they seem to be enjoying the dominance coming from the receiver?
The giver could be bobbing their head, teasingly, taking them in slowly, then quicker, then slowly again.. adjusting their pace to tease and frustrate the receiver â or their eyes could be watering, drool pooling at the corners of their mouth and dribbling down their chin.
The pacing matters, and consistency matters in bringing someone to the edge (at least in my experience)⌠but that can also be done in patterns. It doesnât have to stay at one pace because that can be tiring.
That doesnât mean âLetâs do it at an inconsistent pace where I go extremely fast and then boom, Iâve slowed down to a snailâs pace in one secondâ. That means doing changing speed in a calculated way to tease them.
Is the giver giving the compliments in between as they tease the receiver in other ways to keep them turned on (and to ensure the moment lasts just a little longer â plus to tease them)? Letting their fingers brush against their nipples more than just multiple times, kissing them all over their body; their chest, their inner-thighs, their neck; wrapping their hands around the area which canât fit in their mouth because perhaps the receiver has a lot of length to offer.
Or are they licking stripes up their partnerâs cock; letting their tongue swipe against the slit on the tip of the cock; sucking on the head of their cock like a lollipop of some sort, tantalisingly good at their teasing?
Is the receiver the one giving the compliments, telling the giver how pretty they look with their mouth wrapped around them like this, how good theyâre taking them, how theyâre driving them crazy?
Or, if they like degradation.. you can go that route as well. Your drafts are a safe space for you to explore.
What sounds is the receiver making? Are they silent⌠or are they letting soft moans leave their lips? Or are they loud with that? Is the giver taking in those sounds and using that as a queue with their playful teasing?
Are there other people in the house? Thatâs gonna be something to think about.
Are the characters aware of that? Do they care if they are? Are they gonna restrain themselves or are they just not gonna give a flying shit about other peopleâs sanity?
And with the experience thing.. Again, how experienced is the giver? Is this their first time? Or are they just not good at this and need a bit more practice?
And just a tip (no pun intended): are they using teeth? If so, thatâs a no go. Find some way to have their lips wrap around their teeth â you donât want to be scraping at your partnerâs cock, as that area is hella sensitive. It can be painful and using your teeth will not make things better (and can make it worse).
Much to think about.
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The climax⌠Itâs coming.
Close to heavenâs gates or whatever they call it.
Does the giver let the receiver come.. or are they gonna be a shit and edge them?
And when they do come, where is it gonna happen?
In the mouth (and is the giver gonna swallow or spit)? On the face?
Will the giver choke last second as the receiver comes because they thrusted their hips a bit too hard and now the giver and the receiver are both laughing, but the receiver continues to orgasm because theyâre just so turned on? (Yes, that can happen, and Iâm adding this specific example in because I had to deal with that and itâs still something my ex is very proud about).
Or is the receiver gonna ask to get down and dirty because they donât want this to end here yet, so they can come elsewhere? That elsewhere can be left up to your own interpretation.
What signs will the receiver give that lets the giver know theyâre coming? Will they make noises, will they say words⌠Or is it just gonna happen because they couldnât warn the giver in time and it happens without warning?
And once this is all done and both have exhausted themselves, will they do something else (maybe the giver becomes the receiver, and vice versa), or maybe theyâll cuddle and fall asleep under the covers.
And they wait for the next time this happens again⌠maybe in the next 30 minutes, or maybe in a few hours⌠Either way.
Itâs a done deal, and both are satisfied (or they arenât â sometimes sexual acts donât go as intended, aka Results May Vary).
As a final tip (going for anything that has to do with intimacy and sex) â moments like these can be filled with awkwardness and nervousness if itâs their first time.
It can take time to learn your partnerâs body, their queues, what they like, what they dislike, the way their body responds to certain things â it can take some experimentation.
It can also be filled with laughter and humour and jokes â it doesnât always just have to be sexy, sweaty and heavy breathing. Sometimes other emotions makes it even hotter and more memorable too.
Have fun writing! (Or practicing them in real life if you so please.)
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[ grind ] sender straddles receiverâs lap and starts grinding against them, slow and intentional
[ whisper ] sender leans in and whispers exactly what they want to do to receiver in excruciating detail
[ wristgrab ] in the middle of a heated moment, sender pins receiverâs wrists above their head
[ needy ] sender pulls receiver into their lap, desperate and breathless, kissing them like itâs not enough
[ tease ] sender drags their lips and tongue down the length of receiverâs stomach, but stops just before going lower
[ undone ] sender undresses receiver one piece of clothing at a time, dragging it out with loaded glances
[ taste ] sender drops to their knees and starts kissing up the inside of receiverâs thighs
[ lapfull ] sender drags receiver onto their lap in the middle of a conversation, their hands already wandering
[ control ] sender takes full control, guiding receiverâs hands, body, and every motion
[ tug ] sender grips receiverâs hair and yanks their head back to kiss them roughly
[ choke ] sender wraps a hand lightly around receiverâs throat while their lips are barely apart
[ lipbite ] sender bites down on receiverâs bottom lip while grinding against them
[ praise ] in the middle of it all, sender whispers praise between every movement "just like that," "you're doing so good," "donât stop"
[ beg ] sender makes receiver beg for it
[ mouthy ] sender licks into receiverâs mouth mid-kiss, messy and aggressive
[ suck ] sender sucks a mark into receiverâs neck, possessive and without shame
[ edge ] sender brings receiver right to the brink, over and over, refusing to let them finish
[ wrecked ] sender has one goal: to leave receiver trembling and ruined beneath them
[ needy grind ] clothes still on, sender grinds against receiver until theyâre both panting, desperate for more
[ between ] sender slips a hand between receiverâs thighs while whispering, âyouâve been wanting this, havenât you?â
[ ride ] sender pushes receiver down and climbs on top, holding eye contact the entire time
[ spit ] sender leans over and lets spit drip into receiverâs mouth before kissing them hard
[ mess ] clothes scattered, sheets ruined, bodies tangledâsender and receiver didnât hold back
[ slow ] sender draws everything out. every stroke, every breath, every motion unbearably slow
[ possessive ] sender fucks receiver like theyâre trying to make sure no one else ever will
[ overstim ] sender keeps going even after receiver's already shaking from release
[ grip ] sender grabs receiver by the hips, holding them in place while taking full control
[ hot & heavy ] sender and receiver go at it somewhere they absolutely shouldnât
[ control freak ] sender lets receiver think they're in charge⌠until they flip the roles mid-way
[ lips everywhere ] sender kisses every part of receiverâs body.
[ breathless ] sender doesnât let up until receiver is clawing at their back, gasping for air
[ all night ] sender makes sure receiver doesnât sleep... again, and again, and again
[ tongue ] sender slides their tongue along receiverâs skin, taking their time tasting every inch
[ dark corner ] they donât make it home! sender drags receiver into a shadowed corner and gets to work
[ eye contact ] sender holds eye contact the entire time theyâre going down on receiver
[ mirror ] sender takes receiver in front of the mirror so they can both watch
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â i want to hear every sound you make. donât hold back. â
â get on your kneesânow. â
â youâre not leaving this bed until i say so. â
â look at you. all mine and dripping for it. â
â you said 'just one more time' last time, remember? â
â keep quiet, or theyâll hear. â
â is this what you wanted? me, like this, ruining you? â
Writing smut without cringing the whole time? How do you do it.
Writing Smut 101: Overcoming Smut Shame
CONTENT WARNING: NSFW RELATED CONTENT BELOW.
The short answer, nonnie, is: you donât.Â
That is to say, writing smut is always kind of cringeâespecially if youâre new to it, or simply ânot in the moodâ to write.Â
But rest assured, feeling embarrassed is completely natural. The trick is learning how to overcome the cringe when it does happen, instead of letting it deter you.
Iâm going to break this up into a few sections: 1) Why you might be feeling this way, 2) How I, personally, combat the issue, and 3) Some more tips that might help you get the ball rolling.
1. Why You âCringeâ
Itâs important to find the root cause of any form of writerâs block so you can pull the weed out instead of just trimming it back. Smut writerâs block is its own special brand, and generally, the main issue writers have when it comes to smut is stigma.
Speaking openly and honestly about sex, in Western society, is still very much a taboo.
No matter how âprogressiveâ we like to think we are, the inherent shame surrounding pleasure-seeking experiences, and the detailing/consumption of them, has been ground into us since we learned how to understand the concept of gratification.
And Iâm not just talking about sexual gratification. This applies to everyday things, as well. Eating, shopping, relaxing (or doing virtually anything in capitalist society that does not directly contribute to capitalism).
So it makes sense that you would feel any amount of embarrassment, awkwardness, or âcringeâ when writing smut. Itâs something our society teaches us is wrong to want. Unfortunately, that shame translates to writerâs block when we sit down in front of the computer.
A lot of this blockage might stem from not giving ourselves permission to write the thing.
Weâre staring at the blank document, knowing we want to write smut, and suddenly the thoughts start streaming in: This feels wrong, is this wrong? What if someone comes in and looks over my shoulder while Iâm writing? Am I describing this right? Is this too unrealistic? I have NO idea what Iâm doing, and everyone is going to know it.
These are all perfectly normal thoughts, and definitely ones I still have from time to time. But theyâre also probably the direct cause of why you feel so blocked. Luckily, I have some bits of advice to give you on how to unblock yourself.
2. How I Combat Smut Block
⌠First, when the intrusive thoughts occur, instead of ruminating on them, think of each one as an impermanent object. You can use any metaphor, but I like to use the imagery of leaves:
Each negative thought is a leaf floating down the river of your mind. If you focus only on the leaf, youâll exert a lot of energy running to try and keep up with it, consequently miss everything else around you. But if you acknowledge that leaf as a temporary part of the scenery, and let is pass, you can process and appreciate the beauty of your surroundings a whole lot better.
Remember: you are separate from your thoughts. You are not defined by them. The things you think sound stupid might be incredibly exciting to someone else.Â
If you can string a sentence together, you can write smut. This is all part of giving yourself permission to write the thing that makes you feel uncomfortable.
⌠Second, Iâd suggest giving good thought to how you personally experience embarrassment, how you experience excitement (of the sexual variety), and how those two might sometimes commingle or feel similar.
For me, they are very comparable, like different shades of the same emotionâbut there are differences which are important to note.Â
If Iâm making myself blush from excitement, this is a very good thing for writing smut. It means that what Iâm writing feels real enough to evoke something in the reader, even if the reader, like me, knows whatâs going to happen.
If Iâm making myself cringe, however, it may be time to take a step back and readjust my perspective.
⌠Third, ease yourself into it! Donât jump straight in the deep end and expect to know how to keep your head above water if youâve never swum before.
The way I eased myself into smut was first by writing âSteamââa category of fic I made up because the current vocabulary lacked an efficient term for fics that straddled emotional romance and explicit content.Â
Essentially, steam is smut-adjacent but not explicit, and hereâs a step-by-step example of how I transitioned myself smoothly from one genre to the next:
I first wrote my fics Wicked Game and You Are (both of which feature either a heavy make out session or teasing + lots of sexual tension) with this âsteamâ concept in mind.
I wrote the first chapter of Fine Line, which has brief but explicit descriptions of fantasies, framed by a very sexually charged scene.
I released my fic Crashing, which is probably more of a bridge between Steam and Smut, and features soft-focus fingering. Nothing in it is explicitâit focuses more on the emotions than explicit detailâbut itâs very clear what is happening.
After I wrote those, I felt just confident enough to make that final stride over the threshold into smut. I wrote my fics Holy, King, and the second chapter of Fine Line all within weeks of each other.
And trust me when I say, once you get the momentum going and receive that validation from people whoâve read your work, it becomes SO much easier to sit down and start writing.Â
You just have to finish that first piece.
⌠Finally (and I know Iâm going to sound cliche when I say this), just like any other skill, the more you practice the more confident you will feel and the better you will get.Â
So practice, practice, practice!Â
If youâre nervous about posting smut for the first time, have a trusted friend/mutual Beta read it for you. Itâs the online equivalent to someone holding your hand before jumping off the cliff, and works wonders for the nerves.
3. Keep The Smut Rolling
Now that you have some tools to help get you past the blockage of writing smut, hereâs how to keep the inspiration flowing.
⌠Start by incorporating smutty fanfiction/erotic fiction into your regular reading rotation-Â
Of course AO3 is a fantastic resource for smutty fanfiction.Â
If youâre a fan of TFOTA or ACOTAR and want some of my personal fic recs, visit my fic rec masterlist.
In terms of erotic fiction, my personal favourites are anything Anais Nin (specifically Henry & June and Delta of Venus), The Thornchapel series by Sierra Simone, The Godwicks series by Tiffany Reisz, and The Original Sinners series by Tiffany Reisz.
There are also sites like Literotica and sexstories.com, which play host to explicit short fiction (not fandom based).
âŚÂ Next, Iâd recommend having a designated digital space for smutspiration-Â
This can be a list of âsmuttyâ words/phrases kept on a separate document on your computer, for those days when you just canât think of the right way to describe something.Â
Or you can create a private side-blog or Pinterest board for your favourite smutty fanart or other kinds of visual smutspiration.
⌠For that matter, try following some smutty/18+ blogs (ONLY IF YOUâRE 18+) here on Tumblr-
Many of them have a plethora of what I like to call âlemony snippetsâ, a.k.a. short text posts that describe (usually in conversational language) explicit scenarios.Â
This is useful because it will normalise the concept of sexual fantasies in your brain, making it less weird for you when you try to come up with ones of your own to write into smut.Â
Not to mention, your dash will be rife with inspiration.
⌠I would also suggest checking out 18+ ASMR on YouTube (AGAIN, ONLY IF YOUâRE 18+).Â
My favourite account is Professor Cal Official, but Auralescent also has some good content.Â
Headphones are highly advisable for this, as their stuff is very dangerous for work.
So, nonnie, I hope this has provided you with at least one helpful tip. Whether you took anything away from this or not, just know that the feelings of embarrassment when it comes to writing smut are entirely normal. And the best way to keep those feelings at bay is to confront them head on.Â
These are from a site where the person knows what theyâre talking about. So if you donât think these are accurate, move along. It could be helpful to others
reaction words
shivered
shuttered
trembled
quivers
quakes
shakes
gasps
moan
groans
jolted
jerked
pants
huffs
cries out
bites back a moans
breathing hitched
collapsingÂ
eyes rolled back
arched back
adverbs(a lack of adverbs weakens your writing)
shakily
desperately
roughly
deeply
raggedly
breathily
loudly
lazily
softly
gently
warmly
frantically
quickly
slowly
harshly
sexy words for said
purred
cooed
murmured
whispered
breathed
rasped
cried out
begged
muttered
growled
grunted
mewled
chocked
sobbed
whimpered
pleaded
teased
sexy actions
licking
nipping
biting
shoving our hips together
pinned their wrists
caressed
stroked
hike up shirt
pressing against wall
rank nails through hair
hooking legs around waist
splay hands over chest
dipping tongue into ___
hair pulling
grasping their chin and tilt up/down
cupping cheek
lips brush ear
hip grind/thrusting/rolled/shifting
dirty talk
tease
kissing
brushed lips together
teeth clicking together
lip play(biting/running tongue over lip)
pausing when lips are just barely touching
sucking bottom lip
kissing hard
teeth clicking
sucking tongue
swirling tongue around one
blow job
redden lips
swollen lips
slick
sloppy
making eye contact
hallowing cheeks
swirling tongue
fucking someones mouth
deep throatÂ
playing with balls
using hands and lips together
oral(female)
lapping
playing with woman wetness
fingering
parting lips
flicking their tongue
delving tongue
fleshly pink/brown (i prefer not to use skin color for poc)