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just a life of an ordinary and random human who chooses to exist

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My dog died yesterday and I wasn't able to do anything about it. Ang hirap makitang hindi siya nakakahinga and because of that namatay siya. What a painfully short life. May she find better keepers in her next life.

Run free on that rainbow bridge, Basoy🥲

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Magiging permanent Public School Teacher tayo this June 🍀✨

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gusto ko na lang siguro maging patatas haha

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Matatapos na ang school year...

Ambilis ng panahon huhu. Last year lang nagcocontemplate pa ako kung mag-aadvance study/graduate school ako tapos di natuloy kasi hindi makapagrisk sa scholarship😌 sad.

Anyway, medyo stressful ang school year na ito in terms of issues. Wala akong problema sa subject matter kasi nagawa ko na to last SY eh, kaso ayun nga, andami kong naencounter na issue sa mga estudyante at parents. Like WTH?? WDYM bawat linggo ay may problema akong haharapin sa mga batang uto? Last year ay hindi naman sila gano'n? 😭

Nabawasan tuloy yung attachment ko sa kanila. Feeling ko rin naman ay dumidistansya na rin sila sa akin kasi nga patapos na ang school year, nalaman pa nilang nag-apply na ako sa DepEd.

But regardless of all these, mamimiss ko sila. Sobrang genuine kasi ng halos lahat sa kanil anag I really enjoyed that class' company.

But life has to move on...

I have seen the end of the internship of my STs. I'm proud of them naman, kahit na feeling ko niletgo ko yung scholarship para maguide sila. Feeling ko right decision naman yon haha. Wala namang tama o maling desisyon talaga. May regrets oo, may what-ifs na hindi maiiwasang tanungin na bigla na lang din magpa-pop up out of nowhere. Pero hindi ka kasi hihintayin ng panahon. Hindi tayo special.

Basta wherever at whatever life awaits me, I will embrace it. I will move forward.

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[reverendsensei]

Hayyssst

Context: may incident involving 2 of my students in their classes.

Times like this makes me question "Bakit ba ako nag-teacher?" 😌

Sana hindi lumala ito huhu

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Nakakapagod na first week ng March 2026

Maiiyak ka na lang din talaga kapag nareach mo na yung end of the week, accomplished sa lahat ng demands ng trabaho at mga bagay na kailangan mo nang i-pursue eh no.

Yung mapapa-finallyyyy pwede na ako ulit magrelax at ibalik sa normal ang sleep schedule. Grabe yung adrenaline na nararamdaman ng katawan ko this week.

Ikaw ba naman ang bumiyahe mag-isa sa Manila ng Lunes, pumasok sa trabaho ng Martes hanggang Biyernes habang nag-aasikaso ng requirements para makapag-apply sa DepEd at intindihin ang paggawa ng grades, report cards, at certificate of recognition ng mga advisory mo.

I mean OMG, kinaya ko lahat 'yon within this week?

Grabe rin yung prayers ko kay Lord everytime na hahakbang ako sa mga ginagawa ko like

"Lord, kaya po ba to?

Lord, ikaw na po bahala ha

Lord, sana hindi sablay yung requirements ko.

Lord, whatever happens, your will be done

At finally,

Thank you, Lord, nasurvive ko ang first week ng March. "

Nakakaiyak...

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It's my 4 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Ohh, it's been 4 years. This blog has seen every version of me since student teacher pa lang na ngayon 2 years nang nagtuturo.

Hindi ko alam kung anong para sa akin, pero sana kung makuha ko 'yo'n, masaya ako.

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A remembrance for Duduy (Boruto)

2019-2025

Weird. Because you left exactly before new year 2026. Hindi ka na kumain nang ilang araw, hindi ka na rin uminom ng tubig.

You just lay in one corner of the house—quiet. As if you're just literally waiting for your time.

I just want you to know that I'll miss you, I miss you, and you will be missed.

Thank you for the love and loyalty you brought in our home.

Hindi ko alam kung ba't ngayon ko lang sinulat ito...siguro kasi ayaw kong makalimutan ka.

Salamat sa memories, Duy.

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Yoww!

January pa lang pero sobrang lost na ako ulit.

Bumalik yung opportunity na gusto kong i-pursue--scholarship for Master's. I want to grab it, but I have so much fear in me to be able to take action. Ngayon, last week na ng enrollment sa school na gusto kong pag-enrollan at meron na naman akong existential crisis.

Mas maluwag na ang schedule ko this semester kasi nabawasan ako ng subject na ituturo tapos may dalawa pa akong Student Teachers na kahati ko sa loads ko. As in kayang-kaya ko na mag-aral nang maluwag-luwag. Takot na lang talaga yung pumipigil sa'kin para gumalaw.

Huhu, ang hirap pag hindi ka risk taker. Nirereminisce ko na lahat ng risk na ginawa ko in the past para lang gumawa ng hakbang huhu.

Nanghihingi ako everyday ng sign to pursue this--hindi ko alam kung hindi ko lang napapansin yon o wala talaga :(

Gusto ko siya i-pursue kasi it feels like where I am today is a little bit small for me and I want to explore the world.

Gusto kong malaman kung gaano kalawak ang mundo.

And I want my faith and courage to be bigger than my fears.

How can I do it?

[remanence-of-love]

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All things will fall into place

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Na para bang wala akong karapatang magpahinga ngayong November😭

Oks lang sana kung pang-regular employee ang rate ng sahod😭

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Nakakamiss...

din pala yung mga araw na ang tanging iisipin mo lang sa trabaho ay kung paano gumawa at magpreapre ng lesson, at wala kang ibang iisipin kundi ang magturo.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Nakakapagod mag-coach para sa Provincial Athletics' Meet😭.

Ang daming requirements na hinihingi😭

But I'm seeing the bigger picture that whatever I'm going through right now, this is the nature of uncomfortable growth. Magagamit ko 'to in the future🍀

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50 posts!

Ay nice! After 3 years haha. Feeling ko mas magiging active ako rito sa tumblr for a while

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Huyy bumalik yung opportunity na minamanifest ko since August. Feeling ko ipupush ko na, sayang naman kasi opportunity does not knock twice pero this one does.

Siguro hindi talaga ako para sa DepEd. Grabeng manifestation, nagtetake effect at nagreresonate siya sa buong pagkatao ko at this point of my life. Na kapag hindi ko na naman sinunod ay magbubuhol-buhol na naman ang mangyayari sa akin.

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MANIFESTATIONS

By the end of this year sana meron na ako ng isa sa mga sumusunod:

PC-level tablet na maganda ang specs

Sarili kong motor (125 cc and up, maganda yung design)

Tapos by next year, dapat meron na akong:

Permanent work (DepEd cutiee or teaching/job opportunity abroad either Japan or Taiwan hehe)

Investment and Health Insurance

Peace of mind

concert tickets ng mga indie bands or groups na gusto kong mapanood ang shows

12 units ng Master's (MSSE)

Scholarship sa Master's

naakyat na bundok (Mt. Malindig as a strater pack)

Maraming schedule ng gala with friends

Maraming batang naturuan

Impact sa buhay ng mga estudyante

Yan langs munaa.

Balikan ko to pag may natupad na✨

[quotefeeling]

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

— H. Jackson Brown Jr., P.S. I Love You

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Reminding myself with this! I'll never make the same mistake twice🌼✨

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“But darling, in the end you have to be your own hero because everyone else is too busy trying to save themselves.”

— Unknown