Ok so it is day 1 for 12 days of Rexsoka!! Let’s see if I can actually keep up and remember to post each day. Most of these will be told from Rexs POV, I am not sure why but I am just more comfortable writing as Rex, and I feel like he has a lot of angsty pinning potential! All of the fox’s except for day 3 (AU) will be set in the same universe and although events and scenes may take place slightly out of order, they will be connected. Rating will probably not go over T as I am not comfortable writing anything spicy, and some will definitely be much shorter then others. All of that out of the way, please enjoy!
Rex was to old for this, he was a batch one for force sake, almost 12, physically 22, he was to old to be developing an inappropriate crush on his commanding officer, his 17 year old commanding officer. This is what Rex had been telling himself for three months now, ever since he saw that damn halo of his commander lip locked with Lux Bontari and he had to use all of his training not to put his fist through his generals favorite Astro droid. He had initially written it off as a friendly protective instinct, commander Tano was his friend, it was perfectly normal to feel a bit protective of his friend, Then the dreams had started. They started out innocently, simply images of holding her hand, walking through the streets of Coruscant, sitting with her in the park her head on his shoulder things friends could do. Then she had to go and get that new Kriffing battle dress. Although it decidedly covered far more then her simple bando something about the strategically place cut outs an the way the deep maroon matched her lips almost perfectly, stirred something in the clone captain and his dreams began to slowly change, in place of walks through the park and sitting innocently on benches it became passionate embraces in abandon corridors and stolen kisses under moonlit Naboo sky’s. He would wake from every dream more ashamed then the night before eventually needing a very cold turn in the refresher more often then he liked.
Rex could easily push his new inappropriate dreams off as the result of combat stress and the commander being the only female he really had any sort of regular contact with, then they got the call from Ondoran , asking the republic for help training their rebellion. The joy on Ahsokas face at the prospect of seeing the young senator Lux Bontari again was like a direct shot to the middle of his chest plate. Then they had gotten there and the entitled little punk had thrown her over for that Steela girl, and he had disliked the punk even more for making her feel like she wasn’t good enough. He spent the entire time on ondoran holding back the urge to beat the crap out of the young senator.
It was once they got back to the corasnt after that Rex realized how irrational he had been feeling, and how his feelings for his commander had begun to shift completely away from the platonic. Rex couldn’t let himself fall any father into these feelings, she was not only his commanding officer but a Jedi, attachment was forbidden. Even if by some miracle of the Force Ahsoka ever returned his affection she could never act on it, not openly. Rex had seen what toll a secret relationship could put on people as he watched both his General and the Senator. He would never ask Ahsoka to do break her Jedi code for him, he wasn’t worth it. Rex was one of the republic’s finest and he could handle this, he would push these feelings down, tuck them away with his foolish dreams of a life he could never have, maybe someday after this war was over he might examine them again, but until then he would keep his crush to himself, and hope that he could get through this war without loosing his heart completely, although he feared it may already be to late.
As always, thank you very much for reading and please be kind in the comments I am very insecure.
