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you exist in time, but you belong to eternity.

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And i knew it was you ..

Everytime i lost the oppertunity to said that .. thank you for everything ..

I cant just to see you .. i wanna hold you .. and said “i need you more than ever now ..”

But now .. i cant .. i just cant ..

I’m sorry .. sorry for everythings that happened to us .. i love you

I love you ..

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Tidak pernah berharap waktu menghapus itu semua, jejak kaki di tanah yang basah, alur ingatan bermuara ke tempat yang salah .. kalaupun belum terselesaikan, tidak perlu dengan pembuktian .. baik untuk mu buruk untuk ku ..

23.02

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Berbisik tidak ingin banyak terdengar bila aib sendiri, menyalak berpuas diri diperlihatkan aib yang terasing. Maha benar kamu dan segala perilaku mu.

23.02

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A line in her heart once crossed ~ Can never ever be uncrossed ************************************ He travelled far & wide yet never in her direction ~ A naive heart held in plain sight & not one to feel the true vulnerability ************************************

End - 2017

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How many times have you destroyed yourself to avoid the destruction caused by others?

00:10

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pada satu waktu saat kau berusaha mengengkaukan ia yang kau lakukan menjadikan ia sebagai aku

00:10

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True love is not blind. It sees all the faults and does not mind.

04:10

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Perkara yang tak mampu kau tunggalkan sebaiknya ditanggalkan. Ingatan bekerja sendiri untuk menentukan apa yang tinggal sebagai beban.

04:57

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Seperti memaafkan, kemarahan hanyalah naluri bertahan hidup. maka keduanya akan terus ada sebagai pijakan yang sejajar. 04:44

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Kita hanya singgah, tapi berteduh dari yang selamanya. Gulita dan lembing panah menangkap gerak dan kita tak pernah ke mana-mana lagi. . . . #senja #senjakala #pemburusenja #poems #sunburn (at West Java)

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A Beautiful Deception

It was such a beautiful deception. Like watching a summer storm light up the night sky without a single note of thunder heard. Kissing your lips. Drunk on sweet nectar of corruption. Never thinking my trust would be betrayed with a backward glance and smiling eyes. As you closed the front door. ~~~ A single ping. The text that wasn't meant for me arrived. A sip of rancid milk. The ugly parfume of decaying roses. A wasp stinging a bee. ~~~ " If you could go back in time and give yourself some advice, what would it be?" "Even the most eloquent lie becomes vulgar when exposed the truth." (02.23.17 - 23:23)

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-Learn from the Earth - Some days you will break every part of yourself until there is nothing left that you truly know. Do not blame yourself when this happens. Even the earth breaks.

2017

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Setapak jalan malam yang pekat menyembunyikan, rindu menggali lubang di setiap tepian.

02:01

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"It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness.” .... The thing I realize is, that it's not what you take, it's what you leave. 04:44

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Stuck inside this suffocating contradiction, I went on endlessly spinning in circles. Those were strange days, now that I look back at them. 22:11

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June

"Hello June .." " .. And oh my god, i hope you wake up one morning to someone who loves you like you're a sunflower and they're desperate to keep you alive. I hope you dance with them in the small space on your kitchen floor, messy hair and tired eyes because you both been up all night watching movies again. I hope you laugh with them in a way you never did with anyone else, head tillted back and lips apart as you let out every sound your laugh can possibly make and i hope to god you don't try to cover your mouth. And if you do, because that's okey, i know i sometimes do, i hope they stop you. I hope they grab your hand before it ever comes in contact with your lips and i hope they hold it into their chest as they watch you with kind loving eyes. Because fuck, everyone knows you deserve it. And i hope you find someone who'll accept you. I hope they accept your messy hair in the early morning of the day and i hope they accept the way you sometimes talk too much and can't seem to stop when you're nervous or how you still cry yourself to sleep on some nights. I hope they hold you and kiss you on the places where you're most insecure at and i hope to god you let them. I hope you find someone who makes you happy, even you feel like sometimes, life is too hard for you. And i hope that when you both come accros a tough situation and it comes down to a choice where you are one of them, i hope they choose you. Every goddamn time, i hope they choose you .." ".. Bye june ..." ============================== --- Tanpa ucap maaf yang justru kerap menggiring duka. Perbatasan ialah kebingungan di antara kita—apakah sedang pergi atau telah kembali. ----

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Membacamu di sebait puisi, seperti menerka sudut mimpi paling rahasia .. Bersampankan doa, huruf-hurufku ingin bermasa depan di sana .. (Selatan - 2016) . . . #findinghome #senja #senjakala #poems #pemburusenja (at Bandung)