so many of my smiles begin with you.

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[ricaffeine]

𝐏𝐬𝐲𝐜𝐡𝐨 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐎𝐤𝐚𝐲 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

I hope you enjoy all of these! I've been so obsessed with pbio over the past summer, writing is my way of coping and feeding our lonely fandom! if you prefer to read on ao3 @ricaffeine 🖤

𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒑𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 

Their lust had flamed and ignited into something inescapable. (NEW!!🔥🌸)

MOODBOARD|MASTERPOST 

𝒉𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒍 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒏 𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒖

Ko Munyoung, South Korea's celebrated artist whose illustrations are throned in art galleries. Moon Kangtae, Hotel Blue Moon's devious & unwilling owner. For some reason they're drawn into each other's paths; destiny you can say.

ONE | TWO | THREE | FOUR | FIVE (on hiatus)

𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒏𝒎𝒖𝒏 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒕𝒔

𝘐'𝘮 𝘈𝘭𝘭 𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴 𝘛𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 -> Her persistent seduction inevitably unleashes the deprived beast in him.

𝘙𝘶𝘯𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘞𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘔𝘦 -> There's no ugly deer and it's just the two of them on her balcony.

𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘔𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘔𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘏𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 ->  He shuts his eyes and tries to think about other things—anything other than her head near his dick.

[theoptia]

“How can you understand me when you cannot understand yourselves?”

— Louise Glück, from Poems 1962-2012; “Early Darkness”

[theoptia]

Konstantin Batyushkov, from “Bacchante”

Text ID: Everything entices me to fury / Pours fire and poison into my heart

[ricaffeine]

gosh it feels so intimidating to be here again lol 🤧 especially when i havent been back for the longest time 🥺🥺

[truei0ves-deactivated20210406]

LOVE, DESIRE, HURT, KNIVES, BLOOD.

Richard Siken / 红月 Red Moon (Detail) - Huang Guangjian / x / can't we just leave the monster alive - TXT / 'Ariel' by Aneleh, published in the tide rises, the tide falls journal / Yves Olade, from When Rome Falls; Bloodsport, 2017 / Jane Hirshfield, Assay Only Glimpsable for an Instant

[leerang]

“He’s not even hiding it now. He’s just outright hot.”

[yuyuuyuyuu-deactivated20230726]

nobody gives me butterflies anymore y’all just give me brain damage

[ricaffeine]

ik this is so unrelated to everything on this blog but i recently found out that my besties ex bf (also my friend) actually liked me instead of her???? and the reason he went after her was bc i had to leave our school bc of personal issues??? that fucking bastard istg why. would. u. do. that. that's just wrong on so many levels wtf

[howifeltabouthim]

“I felt such desire for him, such murderous and vengeful desire, that I was trembling.”

— Susanna Moore, from In the Cut

[the-bitch-mob]

fuck it. be creative even if you never really *make* anything. write out plot synopses of stories and then move on. design OCs you'll never use. make mood boards and concept art and don't do anything with them. life's too short to forget everything that inspired you and creation doesn't have to be "complete" to be worth the time you put into it.

[ao3commentoftheday]

After years of lurking, Ive finally made fandom friends that I love talking to. But some of them write fic Im just not interested in reading (just my preference/taste, nothing triggery). I want to be their friends regardless. Im worried theyll eventually notice that I never bring up or compliment their work, which will kill the friendship. Do authors notice which friends dont bring up their work? Im open to hearing that I should just read and say something nice about the fic to keep the friends!

Don’t feel like you have to read someone’s fics just because you’re friends with them. If it’s not your thing, that’s totally fine. I can’t handle angst and my fandom bestie knows I can’t do angst and so she’s not at all surprised when I don’t read her angst fics. 

It’s not about her. It’s about what I do and don’t enjoy reading. Enjoyment is reason enough, too. No triggers required.

You’re allowed to have preferences, anon. I don’t expect people to read my fics just because we’re friends. I expect them to enjoy whatever fics they’re interested in, the same way I do. ❤

[chippedcat-deactivated20230513]

I’ve had people straight up tell me they don’t/won’t read my work and I don’t care. In fact, if my friends do read my stuff, I have this thing where I want to ask for feedback but I worry about annoying them and making them think I’m fishing for compliments.

It’s great when people read my stuff but it’s not super important. If I wanna chat with someone, it doesn’t matter if they engage with my content or not. If any of your mutuals do ever bring it, just be honest. More often than not, writers understand that not everyone wants to read their work.

[lovestory]

I never speak a sentence without saying actually, genuinely, seriously, or literally because I need everyone to know how sincere I am about the bullshit that comes out of my mouth

[elm-and-oak]

[ascendentashes]

If you want to “shock your audience” maybe you should just try writing a good story.

[gangtaes]

What’s your favorite flower? I don’t like them. I don’t like it when spring comes.

[librarysilverfish]

Fun writing fact that I will never shut up about: If you write a ton of garbage you’ll actually improve more than if you put your whole soul into a few select words

[pe-ersona]

so in conclusion, write trash and it will become someone’s treasure. That someone could be you.

[just-art5]

Still Life: Vase of Peonies - Edmund Charles Tarbell, c.1925

The Metropolitan Museum of Art