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✄ Independent & Selective , Richard Trager written by Blane. Crossover Welcome. ✄
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#RICHARDTRAGER
✄ Independent & Selective , Richard Trager written by Blane. Crossover Welcome. ✄
CARRD. PROMO . AESTHETIC .
Watching him die in an elevator isn’t enough I need to kill him with my bare hands
Body language. ( repost, don’t reblog )
bold which applies to your muse, and italic those they might exhibit.
defensiveness. arms crossed on chest, crossing legs, fist-like gestures, pointing index finger, karate chops, stiffening of shoulders, tense posture, curling of lip, baring of teeth.
reflective. hand-to-face gestures, head tilted, stroking chin, peering over glasses, taking glasses off-cleaning, putting earpiece of glasses in mouth, pipe smoker gestures, putting hand to bridge of nose, pursed lips, knitted brows.
suspicion. arms crossed, sideways glance, touching or rubbing nose, rubbing eyes, hands resting on weapon, brows raising, lips pressing into a thin line, strict and unwavering eye contact, wrinkling of nose.
confidence. hands behind back, hands on lapels of coat, steepled hands, baring teeth in a grin, rolling shoulders, tipping head back but maintaining eye contact, chest puffed up, shoulders back, arms folded just above navel, wide eyes, standing akimbo.
insecurity and anxiety. chewing pen or pencil, rubbing thumb over opposite thumb, biting fingernails, hands in pockets, elbow bent, closed gestures, clearing throat, “ whew ” sound, picking or pinching flesh, fidgeting in chair, hand covering mouth whilst speaking, poor eye contact, tugging at pants whilst seated, jingling money in pockets, tugging at ear, perspiring hands, playing with hair, swaying, playing with pointer, marker or cane, smacking lips, sighing, rocking on balls of feet, flexing or cracking fingers sporadically.
frustration. short breaths, “ tsk ” sounds, tightly-clenched hands, fist-like gestures, pointing index finger, rubbing hand through hair, rubbing back of neck, snarling, revealing teeth, grimacing, sharp-eyed glowers with notable tension in brow, shoulders back, head up - defensive posturing, clenching of jaw, grinding teeth, nostrils flaring, heavy exhales.
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well outlast is getting a movie
that means i really need the fandom to like, turn it up a notch when that shit drops cause i am not dealing with a rehash of 2014 discourse when we get an influx of new fans
like franco fuckers to the front i am not dealing with some dead by daylight ass teeny boppers comin in all Oh Wtf You Wanna Fuck That Guy He Aint Got No Lips shit none of this That Guys A Nazi Why You Want Him To Fuck The Hat Man For bullshit lock the fuck in or get the fuck out
𝐏𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐭𝐞 - 𝐒𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 - 𝟐𝟏+ - 𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐌𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐞𝐥 𝐌𝐲𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐀𝐫𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐧, 𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐛𝐲 𝐃𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐤𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐢𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐌𝐚𝐧, 𝐄𝐫𝐢𝐜 𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞. 𝐖𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐛𝐲 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞.
It was just about his least favorite building in the world—a looming giant—carved into the edge of a mountain. By his best estimate, Miles had been leaning against his Jeep for a little over an hour and twenty-seven minutes without seeing anyone enter or exit the facility for little more than a smoke break. Despite his burgeoning frustration, his editor had reminded him continuously to not harass the employees unnecessarily, or the alleged ‘good grace’ he was offered could be withdrawn in an instant. From both Murkoff itself and the paper. His reputation preceded him in a way that would end up stonewalling him if he wasn’t careful.
By his theory, the corporation was trying to snuff out any potential fires by appearing open and willing to communicate, to share the human interest stories behind the hard-working employees who cared for little more than their patients' wellbeing.
If it smelled and looked like bullshit—
Miles wasn’t naïve enough to not feel the eyes burning in the back of his skull, there was security everywhere. Ever-present and already regarding him in the manner that one would an oddity. He feigns the effort to pay them no mind. Of course, the facility didn’t offer tours, that would be inappropriate; so he was relegated to calling and letting his phone be patched through to dead ends and fake assurances that the executive’s secretaries would give them his message. Or, in his case, turning up and waiting to see if he got lucky.
After all, patience really wasn’t a virtue of his, and he didn’t have the time to pretend that it was. It was like an itch under the skin, something gnawing clear through the other end until he could see the truth for himself.
Just as he almost begins to suspect that people were intentionally not filing out of the building, @richardtrager did. Well-dressed and smiling easily, his clothes appeared to be steamed free of wrinkles, and his teeth were an offensive shade of white. Definitely someone he needed to talk to. Miles is tapping his pen rhythmically against the spiral top of his legal pad as he affects a sort of distracted apathy, dark eyes following the stranger as he, thankfully, appears to be walking in his direction—if only to get to his car.
Miles maneuvers around the trunk of his Jeep, putting them in the crosshairs. “Hey, you got a minute to talk?” The acknowledgement was informal, something that he had noticed the few employees he had encountered in passing had reluctantly favored before they realized what he represented and excused themselves immediately. It felt less like a persecution in that way, and this guy didn’t look the type to buy what he was selling anyway.
“I won’t take up much of your time; you’re probably beat leaving work so late... But I was just hoping I could ask you a couple questions about yourself if you can spare me.”
This guy looked about the exact opposite of beat if his pupils were any indication, but hey, he could bullshit too.
The reporter is like his Jeep. Not flashy…rugged. A man who's prepared to go off-road and despite his low net worth, he's got a pretty paint job and the promise of adventure. A good time, huh? He knows the guy's been grasping for straws… loitering around the property hoping to catch someone in his web. It's his lucky day, really! Lucky that he decided to go off the clock when he did and lucky he's in the mood to stop and entertain his snooping. Hell, nobody else would.
“Had.” Trager corrects him mildly. “He's no longer with us,” the executive slides his hands into the pockets of his slacks, tone impassive. The reporter's own jab doesn't escape his notice. In fact, the corners of his mouth twitch with what might be a smile. Then, as he continues, it becomes a grin, one the Murkoff employee makes no attempt to conceal. It's a look that betrays just how much Trager is enjoying the back and forth.
“You've got grit…I'll give you that.”
Richard takes it upon himself to lean against the man's car as well, not bothering to look over in the direction of his own vehicle. COMPANY HANDOUTS… “This--” he points between the two of them “is a company handout." His tone is high and light, whimsical as if he's joking. He isn't. “Do you always stalk your interviewees? Huh? Or am I just a special guy?”
The endless voicemails left at his office, the prowling…he's like a high school pervert who won't take the hint.
He pushes himself off of the Jeep with a graceful shove, swinging his briefcase before placing it at his feet. “You've got five minutes."
This fucker, naturally, isn't the first journalist to give publishing something on the Murkoff Corporation his best shot, and he won't be the last. They're an ambitious bunch…in over their heads. They want the pats on the back and what little fame, money, and glory come of it. Who doesn't? But they're like starved dogs on the street looking for scraps. It's pathetic. He wonders, along with his advice on cars, if the guy's old man ever told him to get a real job.
If he does manage to scrape enough together to publish something, it'll barely scratch the surface of the bullshit the corporation is feeding him. All smoke and mirrors. Somebody wants to hit the jackpot, dig up some unspeakable horror, and shock the world into throwing their money away from Murkoff and flinging their adoration at the journalist instead. That isn't going to happen. After all, they have people to deal with these nosey bastards.
“Ask away.”
Did trager in my art class today💯
@outl4st has inspired me, so I'm going to start making posts about thoughts on Richard.
I was just discussing with @alicemarion today that Rick knows the difference between right and wrong. Of course, his sense of what is right and wrong is a bit skewed compared to the rest of us, especially after being subjected to the engine, but he is very capable of understanding what is morally right and what isn't. The majority of the time, he chooses the morally wrong option. However, his reasoning for this might surprise you. He doesn't make decisions like this because he's simply being evil to be evil. He chooses the EASY option almost every single time he's confronted with a decision. He's the kind of guy who would rather make things hard on other people because he's making it easy for himself. Work smarter not harder, right? This is sort of interesting when it comes to Trager because we know he doesn't like quitters, people who give up. He doesn't see taking the easy way out as some sort of lack of trying, work ethic, or anything else. He sees it as smart. In reality, to me at least, this kind of thinking makes him a weak person. He never has to struggle in life and he certainly doesn't make any sacrifices for others if it will cause any sort of setback for him.
As a younger man, he had hopes and dreams. There's evidence of this both in the comics and from information given to us by writer JT Petty. He hints at Trager wanting to be a doctor or involved in law. However, instead of pursuing these interests, he takes the easy option and gets in with Murkoff. It's quick money. It's easy for him. He's willing to take the easiest possible route even if it means sacrificing what he wants deep down, especially when it comes to gaining money fast.
The only time Rick, as I write him, gets close to understanding that the easiest option might not always be the best option (and that making money may not always be worth it) is in my On the Run AU. Of course, this is an AU so he never gets close to realizing it otherwise. After Murkoff has tortured him so badly, only then does he begin to realize that he didn't play the smartest game. However, his thought processes are slow to change and we don't see much outward change from him. The most I can say is that he realizes that Alice, a sick, young, but determined and crafty kid managed to avoid Murkoff's wrath thus far...and she did it all while being kind. He begins to realize there must be something to this...but not enough to change the way he is wired. However, it may explain some of his willingness to help Alice. He admires her.
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november of 2020, red barrels did a charity stream for extralife that was pretty lowkey. sadly, only a few people attended, so i’d like to document the info we got from writer jt petty for the fandom!
i’ll divide what we discussed during red barrels’ charity stream into sections: games and comics. some of this could be misremembered or misquoted, but i’m trying to stick by the facts that i recall.
OUTLAST & WHISTLEBLOWER:
outlast is, as a matter of fact, under the ‘dating sim’ category on steam. jt says that he wrote a lot of the characters in this mindset. he also said it probably says more about him than the characters.
miles is the kind of guy to get fussed about the difference between ‘carport’ and ‘garage’ and 'eclair’ and 'boston creme’. this is about the only insight we got into his personality, because jt couldn’t talk about him: miles and waylon were pretty firmly off limits.
as for waylon, his taste in music is heavy metal! he’s kind of the cool dad, or at least perpetuates the cool dad myth. he would definitely play mario kart with his two boys. gamer dad!
chris walker was from a military family. after returning home from afghanistan, he struggled to make a return to normalcy, and didn’t have many connections to others nor friendships. jt doesn’t believe he was ever involved romantically. he said that he feels chris was in the process of trying to heal by looking for something to protect. chris is also his and vincent’s favorite character.
father martin enjoyed painting landscapes before the art therapy program was cut by helen grant, according to red barrels. when asked if he liked bob ross, they responded, ‘who doesn’t?’ when my friend said that he was the creepiest character in outlast, jt said that’s totally on her.
rick trager was born into money, and his father’s estate and success made it nigh impossible for him to measure up to his legacy. he was the classic disappointment son of a billionaire and never lived up to his father’s expectations. in a bit of trivia, we learned his favorite food is croissants: spinach croissants in particular, because he hates himself. jt also mentioned that rick likely believed he would really profit from selling the body parts he amputated from the variants and miles, and figured he would make out just fine. and that, ‘he probably will.’ if he had a dog, it would probably be something sickly and overbred, like a pug.
langin is named after jt’s wife. he names characters he dislikes after people he likes, and vice versa.
jeremy blaire is probably the most reprehensible character in outlast: the one who is most capable of assuming responsibility for his actions, a face to the name of the murkoff corporation. he enjoys christmas because of the capitalist reason for the season. he would probably give pretty lousy and cheap gifts to his employees. he’s named after two people jt likes.
furthermore, murkoff isn’t the sort of company that gives permission for holiday parties during work hours: if you want to celebrate at all, you do it on your own time or your break.
frank manera would probably be a fan of phil collins’ music since his songs often have a very slow buildup before the payoff. jt interestingly compared this to cannibalism, and how it requires dedicated patience. frank had to go without before indulging in human meat.
frank would most likely get along very well with eddie if they’d met under different circumstances, such as at a party. he sees the two of them as being very unlikely friends, the two dissimilar guys you never expect to get along as well as they do.
eddie was jt’s favorite character to write for due to his ‘flirtatious’ and fun dialogue. he truly believes in his delusions, or rather that they aren’t delusions at all; he was described as being blind to everything else around him when he thinks that he’s in love. if he had a dog, it would be a corgi.
OUTLAST II:
lynn was inspired by people jt has met in the film industry, and her ambition highlights that.
knoth is pretty cultured when it comes to his taste in music, and he has a lot of knowledge of older artists. i believe jt said that he mostly enjoys the blues. if he had a dog, it would have attachment issues and be extremely eager to please, like a shepherd or cattle dog.
marta’s goal of becoming perfectly brainwashed to the doctrine of temple gate was realized. in trying to please knoth, she erased any lingering doubts or traces of guilt in what she was doing, and she no longer feels much emotion at all due to how she has absorbed the cult’s mentality. she is ultimately feared because she is the perfect example of obedience to knoth.
she/her pronouns were used for val. jt corrected himself quickly to they/them, but it still stands.
jenny roland, the pathologist mentioned in documents in both the underground lab from outlast and well-hidden field report from the lake chapter of outlast 2, may very well make an appearance in future games. she seems to be quite important, as jt couldn’t talk about her outside of one personality detail i got out of him: she doesn’t wear either slippers or socks in her home because she’s a clean freak and instead goes barefoot. she’s the sort of person to have everything neatly organized in her home, all the shoes lined up by the door, and not a speck of dust in sight. he was pretty genuinely surprised by all the interest in her character, and red barrels suggested making joke merch for her. socks and maybe fingerless gloves? i’d honestly buy some jenny socks.
THE COMICS:
jt said that the pauls (the two murkoff legal mitigation officers, paul marion and pauline glick) are going to be increasingly relevant to the story of outlast as it continues, and that he has big plans to continue where the comics left off. given this tidbit, and the epilogue of the story, could we possibly see paul as future protagonist, or maybe in pauline’s case, a future major antagonist? at least there’s now solid hope for a follow up to the story of the comics, and possibly an explanation as to what led to paul and pauline’s injuries, as well as murkoff’s haste to find paul before he does further damage. his story left off with simon telling him that they have to find the walrider in order to find the answer to where his daughter alice has disappeared to, after all.
likewise, he hinted that alice marion (paul’s daughter) is also going to somehow be crucially important, making mention of the circumstances of her rare blood disease and experimental gene therapy treatment by the murkoff corporation not being any sort of coincidence, and saying that he has big plans for her. could this mean that simon was telling the truth about her connection to temple gate? is she somehow connected to the morphogenic engine? could this also be why pauline says that paul was her target from the beginning? mysterious!
he talked about how the concept for paul marion was created, and how at his core, he’s just a guy doing a job. his dreamcast for paul would be philip seymour hoffman.
a bit of interesting talk about the 'personality’ of the walrider when questioned if miles likes dogs. since his neighbor says they like him, but they reacted violently to his returned presence at his apartment after the mount massive incident, i asked if miles likes dogs as well as they like him. jt and red barrels implied, rather than stating outright, that the walrider itself doesn’t like dogs. it was also mentioned that it’s very protective and overly defensive, very attached to one person, and unwilling to share. interesting attributes given to something that isn’t supposed to be sentient. (edit: later confirmed by jt in one of the anniversary q&a videos to be a sort of sentient hive mind.)
simon peacock is named after the voice director the character himself was voiced by at the end of whistleblower. however, unlike the real simon peacock, the fictional simon is not from new zealand. is he faking an accent? his character will also be further explored as the story continues!
MISCELLANEOUS:
i knew that trials was a topic that couldn’t be talked about, but still suggested my theory on the story connecting back to the mkultra documents found in mount massive in the first game. jt asked if i was someone from red barrels trying to get him in trouble. i think this speaks for itself. :)
he has a giant pet lop bunny named holly! 10/10! would donate to the cause again just for her!
red barrels said that they’re still accepting merch ideas before reopening the store, and to message them if there’s anything in particular anyone would be interested in seeing. the physical copy of the comics will be restocked in the future, and they may restock other items previously seen in the store. they like to make joke merch, too, so keep that in mind!
and that’s about everything outlast related that i can recollect! is there anything you guys are excited about in particular? personally, i’m totally psyched about the hints towards resolving the comics, and the importance of the marions going forward, since they’ve been my favorite characters for quite a long time. feel free to correct anything here if i’ve misquoted. it’s been a few weeks, and my original notes were very short and to the point.
okay... after a wild fucking week, I should be replying to things today. I've been playing Trials like non-stop in the meantime. I DO have a Trials verse for Trager. I should probably include that in a doc somewhere. I'll work on that too.
also, thanks for all the follows and interactions lately. I've had this blog for many years and it's great to come back and see people still being interested in what I do with Rick. Thanks all!
Someone pls COME GET HIS GRANDPA ASS OUTTA HERE!!
↪ 𝑫𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝑺𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑬 𝑨𝑻 𝑴𝑬 . ( a collection of lyric starters from an assortment of billie eilish songs . adjust phrasing as necessary . )
you scared me to death .
there's nothing left to save now .
i don't think i caught your name .
i like it when you take control .
you're sacred and they're starved .
how dare you ? and how could you ?
one of us is gonna lose .
i don't even really know how it happened .
i'm out of sympathy for you .
just let me hold you .
don't talk about me like you might know how i feel .
try not to abuse your power .
i wish someone had told me i'd be doing this by myself .
it's not like me to be so mean .
you just want what you can't have .
would you like me to be quiet ?
i haven't slept since sunday .
i don't want to want you .
it hurts , but i know how to hide it .
i'm the only one who does it how you like .
you better keep your head down .
a lot can change in twenty seconds .
why aren't you scared of me ?
i thought that i was special .
you're looking at me like i'm see-through .
you were a hero , you played the part .
i never really know how to please you .
see what you wanna see .
gold's fake , and real love hurts .
no way , i'll call the cops .
maybe you should leave before i get too mean .
i just wanted to protect you .
you only listen to your fuckin' friends .
they're never gonna give you love like ours .
all you wanna do is kiss me .
don't you know too much already ?
it's weird that we care so much until we don't .
i didn't change my number , i changed who i reply to .
i don't know what feels true .
did you really think this is the right thing to do ?
i would hate to see you go .
i'd never treat me this shitty .
i'll only hurt you if you let me .
you made me feel like it was my fault .
now i know what you are .
i feel more and more like i was made for you .
you wanna kill me ? you wanna hurt me ?
don't try to make me feel bad .
wait , you know what ? maybe just forget it .
was i made from a broken mold ?
you want me to be yours , then you've gotta be mine .
tell me "nothing lasts" , like i don't know .
wait a minute , let me finish .
you know i'm not your friend without some greenery .
my demands aren't high to make .
stop , what the hell are you talking about ?
we both know i'm worth waiting for .
you ruined everything good .
you really know how to make me cry .
your love feels so fake .
i wanna be alone . alone with you , does that make sense ?
spit it out , what is it exactly ?
i'll never let you go .
if we were meant to be , we would've been by now .
you can pretend that you don't miss me .
just fucking leave me alone .
don't say i didn't warn you .
it's pretty cool , right ?
i think i might have fallen in love .
i tried not to upset you .
do you even feel anything ?
don't ask questions , you don't wanna know .
i've been walking through a world gone blind .
i just wanna make you feel okay .
i know you don't care , but can you listen ?
don't you know i'm no good for you ?
mr dick rick
More quick practice, I tend to spend around 2 hours on these