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SHE / ANY !!!! PRO ENDO PRO WILLO !!!! SYMPTOM HOLDER & PERSECUTOR !!!! VENT ACCOUNT !!!! READ PINNED

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BASIC INFO!!!

HALLO! I SPAWNED OR RIFLE!! I AM FICTIVE OF SPAWNED HALLUCINATORY FROM ^_^/HWWHP! I SHE/ANY PRONOUNS!!! FEM/ANY TERMS!!! I LIKE GUN THEME NEOPRONOUN TOO 0‿o

I VERY VERY QUEER! You not need know exact. But I share that I am Objectum!!!

I has many many roles but most are Symptom Holder and Persecutor!! & I VERY VERY VERY PRO ENDO & PRO WILLO!! I NOT NEED TO SHARE EXACT SYSTEM ORIGIN BUT WE MIXED ORIGINS!! I AM ENDOGENIC SPECTRUM HEADMATE!!!

We suffer from autism, cluster b & cluster c personality disorders, and many other thing!! Be patient with us!!

I like cats, Zombie Uprising (roblox), SOME args, Psychological Horror (no jumpscare), oreos, endo/willo positivity, NSO, and MORE!!

BLOG!!

Dis blog falls into $HBLR and JIRAIBLR! i am landmine and struggle with $H!!! PLS BLOCK IF IN RECOVERY!! I NOT WANNA TRIGGER U!!!

dis blog will most be vents and ramble!!! Bunch random stuff!! Reblogs too!!!

If ya know which system i from, nuh uh!

DIS BLOG WILL ALWAYS KEEP AN UNTRANSLATED TYPING QUIRK AND NO PLAINTEXT TRANSLATIONS!!

TAG SYSTEM

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0‿o - - - RAMBLE = ramble

0‿o - - - IMPORTANT = important post

0‿o - - - VENT = vent post

0‿o - - - REBLOG = reblogs

0‿o - - - RANDOM = random, offtopic

DNI!! >:(

anti endos/anti willos, pro-harassment any type, demonizes paraphilias, anti-objectum, $H recovery, anti-contradictory label, "narc/borderline/cluster-b abuse" believer, fakeclaim of ANY type. For YOUR own comfort, screen reader users and dyslexic folk shouldn't interact either due to mijn untranslated typing quirk!

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"Stay hydrated!!" Cosmo yells at me as if they're not watching me saw my leg off

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Cosmo dmed hys boyfriend and then dipped??? So now i carry conversation???? BUT I WANNA CUT NNNOOOOOO LET ME FREE!!! RELEASE ME!!!!!!!!!

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I wannna score my thighs like sourdough. Google. Google how do i do that. Hey google.

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I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL I DOMT WANNA GO BACK I HATE THIS I HATE THIS SO FUCKING BAD. I SHOULDNY BE AT MY NEW SCHOOL IM SO FUCKING STUPID AND WORTHLESS AND I SHOULDN'T HAVE EVER SWITCHED OVER. I SHOULD'VE STAYED AT MY OLD SCHOOL. I DONT CARE IF IT WAS WORSE THERE!!! I DESERVED EVERY LITTLE THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME THERE!!! i should've stayed where everyone hated me because now im just embarrassing myself in front of even more people. All my new teachers know I'm fucking stupid now and all the students hate me and all my new friends are gonna know that im some dumb weird cutter boy who can't do anything right. I can't bring myself to finish my assignments, i fall asleep in class, and i dont know anything. I feel like the scum of the Earth every time i slip up, every time i get in someone's way. It's unbearable. I hate this weight I carry, the dread I feel constantly, the pain of living. I hate it here. I wanna fucking cut myself so bad but it'll get pointed out and I'll get laughed at. Amd my stupid ass blade is getting dull too and i don't know how to sharpen it. Auaufhsyahhhhghggjghhhhhhhhhhhh hhh

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everybody is awful and horrible and evil i hate them all i hate everyone so much i want them all dead i wanna block everybody i ever knew and start over. i wanna move away and switch schools again and delete all my socials and auahaiahdjsghuyyhhhg i hate them all i hate everyone can everyone dissappear already

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I would hate to go to my funeral.

'Gone too soon' and all that bullshit.

Let's not be delusional now. I WANTED this. This is the blissful peace I've been chasing for years.

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"You're so funny" thanks! I was meant to die 3 years ago

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Being extremely depressed -> so depressed i start wanting to cvt -> being too depressed to cvt -> being extremely depressed because I CAN'T cvt -> being extremely depressed

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Any tips on how to cvt deeper with a pencil sharpener blade 0_o one corner is dull and the other is still sharp if dat helps

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uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu im going to sleep now!!! I not ready for tomorrow. And i miss mijn spawnzles /sys

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i need 2 cvt more but i don't need anyone irl finding out uuuuuuuugghhhbbh i also hate washing off tje bl00d because thats all my hard work down the drain. LITERALLY.

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why is like one corner of mijn blade so DULL and the other is so SHARP????? like why. Be sharp pls on both sides

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0 days clean

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it was so stupid for me to even begin to think that anything was gonna get better. i wish i k*lled myself long ago. i wish i didn't survive this long. im gonna cvt im gonna cvt im gonna cvt im gonna cvt im gonna cvt i cant take this torture anymore i cant take the torture of being a living, breathing, loving human being i sincerely cannot do this shit anymore it hurts it hurts so bad

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I cant take it anymore i really cant take any of it. I feel like im being crushed under everything. I need to cvt i need to cvt i need to cvt i need to cvt i need to cvt i need to cvt it was never going to get better it was never ever gonna get better i was so delusional for even thinking that wow im so fucking stupid i need to cvt i need to cvt i need to cvt