some things about me: i am Jewish, white, bisexual, an anti-zionist, USian, and a transsexual that uses he/him exclusively.
i’m a horror fan and often find dark subjects interesting to explore in fiction. this means that sometimes i talk about media with themes around stuff like violence, abuse, SA, etc on this blog. filter that out if it bothers you.
if i say something fucked up without realizing it, i want to know. feel free to send me an ask about it.
enjoy your stay 👍
general stuff:
this is a bit of a smorgasbord blog
relevant tags:
#myscrabbles - for my writing.
#storycrafting - about my current projects
#tsoh - about tsoh, one of my current fiction projects. it stands for something but don’t worry about it lol. if any of these posts interest you, i have a sideblog called @tsoh-archive you can follow for more pieces and
#// ventilation - vent posts, probably about transphobia or antisemitism etc. filter out if that bothers you.
some of my general positions for reference:
i’m a Jewish anti-zionist. i believe in the rights and liberation of Palestinians and i also will not tolerate antisemitism from goyim who may share some of my beliefs, because those things are not mutually exclusive.
as a rule most things are nuanced
i don’t believe in transandrophobia: as in, i think it’s a stupid descriptor attempting to describe real experiences (trans men experiencing transphobia) in an unfeminist way. block me if you don’t like that.
bottom line opinion of mine is that human sexuality is naturally weird and has all sorts of facets, ppls kinks are value neutral. the only real exception to that imo is raceplay, something im not even going to try to defend nor do i want to.
discourse topics that get a whopping Who Cares from me: bi vs pan discourse, micro labels being the supposed fall of queer community, most Problematic Kinks, any specific beef between users on here that you’d need an entire encyclopedia to understand
i think the reason i like to write about fictional characters going through/feeling terrible things when i’m upset is that i can’t process what i’m feeling unless i displace it. to say i am feeling something is to claim a legitimacy towards my emotions that i don’t feel worthy of: it means i open myself up to the question of why, of how, of if it matters, of if i’m feeling correctly or wrongly. but if i’m aware of the feeling enough that it’s haunting me, that means its time to put it into words, because to put the feeling into words is to make it real, and at that point i need it to he real, it just cant be mine. so for me, writing this type of fiction is a method of holding something up to the light but further from my face so that i can get a clearer look without dropping it
it’s not a process i’m always consciously aware of while i’m doing it, but what made me think about this is how often I’ll look back at something i wrote and think “oh, this is an approximation of what would be inside of me if i could let myself admit to it” or “oh, this is exactly what i wish i deserved to feel”
*gritting my teeth so hard they chip* maybe something happened and maybe it didn’t. you can’t remember either way. what matters is that you feel the way you feel and react the way you react and cope the way you cope. you dont have to tear yourself apart about the possibilities. you don’t have to remember if you can’t remember. there doesn’t have to be a narrative. it doesn’t have to be “real.” it can just be. you can just be.
you can believe victims about what they experienced and also not want to torch the lives of the people they've accused without proof. that is a space you can walk in and usually it's not even that hard. I say this as a survivor of domestic violence. "believe victims" doesn't mean get torches and pitchforks any more than "innocent until proven guilty" means victims are lying. please please learn this "believe victims" isn't about the perpetrators it's about the victims
ive binged like ~14 hours of resident evil lore videos over the past few days and i feel like im on the verge of some kind of severe mental break scenario
male narrator in a completely flat voice: umbrella kidnapped a bunch of specifically 18-24 year old males and sawed their skulls open without anesthesia. this was to extract brain juices only produced during moments of high stress and fear which is necessary for the mass-production of tyrants. while this was occurring, leon s. kennedy was in new mexico fighting bat people
So I thought y'all would like this too
This great white comes to the jersey shore every year and this year they named her and have been tracking her hella so this is Mary Lee and she decided to show herself under this rainbow for pride month
A true gay icon
