some things about me: i am Jewish, white, bisexual, an anti-zionist, USian, and a transsexual that uses he/him exclusively.
i’m a horror fan and often find dark subjects interesting to explore in fiction. this means that sometimes i talk about media with themes around stuff like violence, abuse, SA, etc on this blog. filter that out if it bothers you.
if i say something fucked up without realizing it, i want to know. feel free to send me an ask about it.
enjoy your stay 👍
general stuff:
this is a bit of a smorgasbord blog
relevant tags:
#myscrabbles - for my writing.
#storycrafting - about my current projects
#tsoh - about tsoh, one of my current fiction projects. it stands for something but don’t worry about it lol. if any of these posts interest you, i have a sideblog called @tsoh-archive you can follow for more pieces and
#// ventilation - vent posts, probably about transphobia or antisemitism etc. filter out if that bothers you.
some of my general positions for reference:
i’m a Jewish anti-zionist. i believe in the rights and liberation of Palestinians and i also will not tolerate antisemitism from goyim who may share some of my beliefs, because those things are not mutually exclusive.
as a rule most things are nuanced
i don’t believe in transandrophobia: as in, i think it’s a stupid descriptor attempting to describe real experiences (trans men experiencing transphobia) in an unfeminist way. block me if you don’t like that.
bottom line opinion of mine is that human sexuality is naturally weird and has all sorts of facets, ppls kinks are value neutral. the only real exception to that imo is raceplay, something im not even going to try to defend nor do i want to.
discourse topics that get a whopping Who Cares from me: bi vs pan discourse, micro labels being the supposed fall of queer community, most Problematic Kinks, any specific beef between users on here that you’d need an entire encyclopedia to understand
ultimately i'm just some guy with a blog but i do hope by talking openly about my experiences as a wilderness therapy/troubled teen industry survivor, it might bring other survivors reading my posts a sense of solidarity & kinship to know they aren't alone in this. & i hope that for non-survivors reading my posts, you can learn a little bit about the TTI & factor that knowledge into how you approach matters like youth rights & ableism & the psychiatric industry
i would also like to encourage everyone reading this post to check out the unsilenced project, who are a non profit that have done a lot of anti troubled teen industry advocacy & offer support to both past and current survivors. they're also a good jumping off point in terms of information if you are interested in learning more about the industry.
do u think hashirama told his grandkids stuff like "if u dont sleep madara will be in ur walls" bc madara was actually in his walls post hsmd fight and he thought he was hallucinating it
if you spend enough time with any form of tunnel vision blinders on and also get out of the habit of seeking out the unknown you could be forgiven for forgetting there's more to the world than what appears regularly in your little corner of it. because you only see what you see. and if you're the kind of being who endeavors to construct comprehensive rational explanations for the phenomena you encounter then you might accidentally tell yourself a really convenient and closed-off story about the world you're in that neatly explains everything you're used to experiencing but doesn't allow for open, frayed edges into the unknown. so what appears to you as the responsible and exciting task of creating a story to fully account for your world is actually also the process of encoding your current tunnel vision into your comprehension of the world, and thus invisibilizing opportunities for novelty or change. you get stuck because you think you're done thinking and seeing different things
I for one would rather withstand being a little uncertain, a little wrong, while retaining flexibility than be absolutely correct in a static, narrow manner
inability to correctly perceive 3d objects is in fact far more dangerous when someone is driving a car next to you then when they're like, sending emails to you.
hour 1 of shift: i love helping people and making people happy yay yay yay later today i am gonna go home and have fun and eat a tasty meal and work on my projects and
hour 6: if youu go to the store and buy groceriers you are a piece of shit
hour 8: if i wad 1 apples tall i could live off of one apple for a week... oh but it would rot away... no.... i hate the rot i hate the apple
I should be doing more to appreciate the lack of marvel movies in today's popular culture. I once yearned for marvel movies to have this level of irrelevance. They used to feel almost ozymandian, like an empire that had no beginning and no end. and now tony stark iron man is naught but two vast and trunkless legs of stone.
There was a whole ass Star Wars movie that premiered last Friday and it got overtaken by a million dollar horror film on the following Wednesday, nature is healing.
med people are so annoying "This family's 8 year old child who was about to go through a major surgery and kept crying that she was hungry so they pitied her and gave her food, she then had a heart attack in the surgery. They're so stupid 😒" girl they didn't know that could happen or why it happens. it takes so little time to explain to them that will happen instead of telling them "no food" with no explanation 10 times
"Before surgery, your body’s reflexes that protect your airway are relaxed by anesthesia. If there’s food or liquid in your stomach, it will near certainly come back up and go into your lungs, which can cause choking, a severe lung / heart infection or even a heart attack. That’s called aspiration, and it is life-threatening. It's hard, but it's only a single day to prevent near certain death. Not eating or drinking beforehand massively lowers the risk and helps prevent these life threatening situations under anesthesia." <- TIP: patients have brains which allows them to receive information just like you
I have four kids. I’ve had one or another of them need some kind of surgical procedure that requires anesthesia four or five times over the past 15 years.
This Tumblr post is the first time someone has explained to me *why* I couldn’t feed them before those instances.
I’m not stupid. I understood that just fine. Hell, my kids would have understood that just fine. But no one bothered to tell us.
i did know this before having kids (i have six). we have a kid that's needed multiple procedures requiring anesthesia. and every single time, i am asked multiple times if i'm sure he was not given any food or water after a certain point.
every single time i have had to say, "i understand that if he had food or water, he could aspirate it into his lungs under anesthesia. i am not lying to you." THEN someone would make a little note and i would stop being repeatedly asked.
not a single time was that risk explained to me. the only reason it came up was because i already knew. i still don't understand why it isn't standard pre-op counseling or pre-op check information, when me as a parent acknowledging the actual risk also put THE MEDICAL STAFF at ease because i conveyed that i had informed understanding as reason to not lie about giving my kid food.
"maybe some people will get nervous and refuse surgery" okay so they need more counseling about risks and anxiety, not less information in a way that actually does endanger their child or themselves!
