Rinn

I like jokes and games and fandoms long since dead

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Okay real emotional post bc i stripped a bolt in my car and starting thinking too much. Had a minute, i feel better. 😎 👍

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TW // Death, Suicide //

Sometimes I do a thought experiment.

I imagine what would happen if I died, if I killed myself.

Who'd go to my funeral, which of my siblings would cry first, what would happen after.

The look on mum and dads faces as they deal with my absence.

My siblings, telling their kids about me and the dumb stuff I got up to.

Family photos without me.

My friends, some affected greater than others.

I hope someone'd drink to me.

The silence of my room.

My room would be left exactly how I left it, my computer cold and my bed unmade.

My car still in pieces, hurriedly put in one place when my sister moves home.

My clothes, still in the basket.

My scent, clinging to the room as if I were still there.

I think of all this, i sit and wonder and cry about a future that'll never happen.

I can't be that selfish. Couldn't make everything about myself in the worst possible way.

I think and I cry and it reminds me of how I am still alive.

And how lucky that is. How lucky I am, for being to weak to do anything.

I couldn't be luckier if I tried.

Dont kill yourself. It's selfish.

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*introducing myself to the guards who caught me* seized to meet you

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the court jester after slapping the king

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The Holy Trinity.

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I don’t think I’ve posted this here but I MISS THEM SO FRICKING BAD

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Being an asshole is really hard I feel so bad 👎

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The fact I still draw breath is fascinating to me.

I am an asthmatic who doesnt exercise or like leaving the house, i did some crazy shit as a kid (hence why i dont leave the house) i have near constant paranoia feeling like everyone's trying to kill me, even friends and family. I just ignore it tho cuz im not special enough to kill. I rode on the back of a Trailor when I was like 3. With proof. I climbed on the roof of the old farm a few times, not since I was like 8. I drift my 36 year old car on dirt. With no airbags. Ive gone 180kmph in a different car because I wanted to get home faster.

I reckon my actions shouldve gotten me killed but they haven't soooo....

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Took a break from bleach for a minute and now i want to fuck whoever voices the honda element in those ads where it talks

Ive only had 2 drinks

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Ichigo has that shit ON in the opening

Wearing straight fire

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BIG SWORD WOOOOOOO

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The voice of Ichigo in the English dub also voiced a character in a Barbie show.

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Brother got swatted like a fly

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Ive had this pirated copy for like 10 years and it doesn't have subtitles.... so idk how to spell any of the names

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Waow Rukia u are so kewl :> hope that ginger dude stops being so rude!!

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"My name is Ichigo Kurosaki, im 15 years old so im a highschool student" wtf else would you be???

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Sad. Drinking alone watching Bleach.

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Fuck you god damn.

I want to go home :(