When I was a kid they taught me that all mankind is born with sin, and that we were to spend our entire lives repenting for the original sin.
I used to think that was utter bullshit. I was a kid, I hadn't done anything wrong. It wasn't fair that I should have to repent for something that someone else had done.
Now that I'm older, I can't help but understand. When I look around and see what the worst of mankind has done to the earth and her people, I understand shame.
my personal headcannon is that vickie became a nurse to help gay men who were being refused treatment for aids. she initially planned to move to a bigger city, with a larger queer community, but she did training in Hawkins and saw one person die of aids and decided then and there that she would stay. because if she didn't help her community in her small town then who would?
so she became a nurse in Hawkins, and she stayed a candy striper for years because she didn't want pay for what was basically just trying to keep homophobia out of the hospital. she snook in people's partners for last goodbyes, and sat with those who had no accepting family to be with them for their last breaths. she cornered will and gave him the safe sex talk as soon as he came out and made steve make his sex ed as inclusive as possible, because she couldn't handle one of those kids ending up in one of her hospital beds.
and she did all of this without coming out, without finding a wider community past the tiny one in her hometown that she found herself at the heart of. for a long time, the only people that knew she was queer were six feet under mearge days after she told them.
vickie dunne was the queer nurse that made all the difference when it mattered.
wsqk sync is starting to get scary because wtfā¦.
āangel by madonnaā playing when Will has having his sorcerer moment in ep4 which is just so fitting and makes the scene even buzzier like it feels like an actual edit because lyrics line up so well. (the lyric āyou must be an angelā playing over mikeās gayass expression btw. also entire song can be seen as mikeās pov btw. itās fantastic).
āheroes by david bowieā playing over the rovickie kiss.
ālove is a battlefieldā playing over byler field scene.
ārunning up that hillā playing at the start of escape from camozotz where Holly and Max are running/hiding from Henry.
DIAL IT UP TO THE MAX when Max knocks the door to the Creel House in Camazotz.
āghostbusters themeā playing during the halloween scene from s2ep2 but when mike pulls will out of the trance it transitions to āsign o timesā by prince.
van scene starts with āheaven is a place on earthā when mike is encouraging will (ābaby I was afraid before. Iām not afraid anymoreā are the lyrics when Mike opens up the painting) but when will starts talking about feeling like a mistake it transitions to the more melancholic āwaiting for a girl like youā.
look at the timing of here comes the rain again⦠(lyrics sync up too well to what is onscreen).
āhome sweet homeā over byler s3 rain fight (again will screaming āIām going homeā and the lyrics being like āIām on my way! Iām on my way!ā).
ātie a yellow ribbon round the old oak treeā for crazy together scene.
āclose to me by the cureā playing over willās coming out scene. (again lyrics fit like crazy).
ātarzan boyā playing over mikeās s4 monologue (the gay songā¦yep the one from rink o mania that we like to talk about hshsgshsjjsksks).
hereās how you can check yourselves for other scenes. (the syncing up for s5 was done with wsqk episodes that aired back-to-back/around the same time of release. for s1-4 from the doc it seems that op went went backwards for the broadcasts before st5 vol 1).
Maybe their happy ending at Enzo's? Or the way they got closer to each other and confessed in their feelings? And then some cute stuff when
Im finally not dying of the flu and I missed writing so much. No proofreading we die like men.
I went with Robin finally confessing her feelings to Vickie, but I'll probably write some of these other suggestions at some point too.
Thereās no way in hell this is going to end well.
At least thatās what Robin tells herself, uncharacteristically quiet in the passenger seat of Steveās car as he drives to drop her off at the shelter. Sheād agreed to volunteer again just to get the chance to spend some time with Vickie, who only ever seems to have being helpful on her mind. Itās sweet, really. At first it seemed that Vickie had modelled herself after some perfect, put-together princess, but the more they talked the more unusual she became, and the more Robin liked her beyond her pretty face. Sheās funny, sheās nervous, she talks like a train with no breaks just like Robin does, which in turn makes Robin feel less self conscious about her own ramblings, and today Robin is going to tell her.
And, well, itās not entirely true that it isn't going to end well. Robin Buckley knows full well what flirting looks and feels like, contrary to popular belief. Itās just that sheās never pursued this sort of thing before. Sheās always been too afraid to have gotten it wrong. This time, sheās terrified, but Steve absolutely will not stop prodding her about it and sheās just about desperate to get him to shut up about her love life. Sheās even willing to make a fool out of herself to do it. The plan is simple. Theyāre both supposed to finish their shifts at the shelter around two, and Robin is going to ask her to hang back after. Pretend Steve has forgotten to come pick her up, maybe suggest they go get some food together. Have a gut-sickening conversation about something Robin isnāt sure she knows. The thought of it makes her feel like sheās been crumpled up like a piece of paper and stuffed into her own mind, so that she isnāt sure how many times itās been said when she hears; āRobin!ā from Steve on her left.
āWhat? Jeez!ā She counters, as if she wasnāt being totally ignorant.
When she looks over at Steve, he answers with an irritated raising of his brows and a curt gesture towards the gym. Robin sinks down into her seat, burying her face in her hands and muffling the already muttered curse that comes from her without her permission.
āOkay-ā Steve says, exasperated, āFirst of all, sit up. You think girls like other girls who slouch? Second of allā¦ā
Steve falls silent so long, Robin finally peeks out from behind her hands to look over at him, her brows knitted together and an expression thatās asking him to kill her right then and there so she doesnāt have to do this.
āYouāre gonna be fine,ā Steve tells her, a note more gentle than before. The tenderness of it makes Robin groan and fall forward onto the dash, āVickieās nice! And sheās totally into you, and sheās going to drive you home this afternoon instead of me. Though thatās really not a good look, you should probably think about getting your license.ā
āGoodbye, Steve,ā Robin intones as she opens the passenger door and pulls herself out of the car.
Then, thereās a short series of beeps as Steve pulls away, and suddenly sheās alone in the parking lot, and she really, actually has to go through with it.
Stepping through the doors makes Robin feel as though sheās stepping out onto the stage under the heat of a great big spotlight, and everyoneās eyes have turned towards her in some fucked up synchronised motion. She hasnāt, and they havenāt, but she nearly loses her nerve. There, across the floor, Vickie is bathed in the mid-morning light spilling in from one of the high up windows, and she looks like sunshine itself. Sheās already smiling and chatting to someone across the table, and somehow when her gaze slides over to Robin by the door, that expression brightens even more. For just a moment, thereās no one else in the room. Just she and Vickie, glowing like some far away star, and she wonders how sheād ever been afraid. And, God, if she loses her nerve now sheāll never forgive herself.
Suddenly and without warning, Robin is marching across the room. She makes a beeline for Vickieās table, picks something up and inspects it for half a second before speaking.
āWould you look at that?ā she says, so quickly it sounds like one long word, āYouāve run out of this, looks like we need to go to the back immediately.ā
āHi, Robin,ā Vickie starts, bemused. The jar of peanut butter in Robinās hand is in fact empty, but it sure doesnāt warrant the way Robin puts a hand on her back and steers her towards the back room.
She doesnāt stop there, not when Vickie protests, not until theyāve gone out the back door tucked away in the corner and out into the field the shelter backs onto. She stops there in the middle of the wide open field, still feeling as if every eye in Hawkins is on her right there.
āWhat is going on? Hey!ā Vickie protests some more, and Robin still doesnāt answer, she steers Vickie towards a tree on the edge of the clearing and finally, finally she stops for real.
āOkay,ā she says, breathlessly, āI need to talk to you.ā
āRight now?ā Vickie asks, a little less heightened now that she isnāt being walked all over town.
āYes, right now,ā Robin tells her, āIāve been keeping something from you, and itās imperative that I tell you right now or else Iām never going to, and Iām never going to get my license, and Iām going to have to look you in the face every day knowing Iām a coward because Iām going to be stranded at this stupid shelter forever. All because I chickened out at the last minute, even though this really isnāt the last minute, because-ā
āRobin!ā Vickie shouts, bringing her back from that wild tangent.
āOh, my god, youāre going to hate me,ā Robin says, bracing her hands on her knees, āI think Iām going to pass out.ā
āJeez, Robin, breathe,ā Vickie takes her by the shoulders, straightening her up so she can look her in the face. āI need you to calm down and tell me whatās going on right now because youāre really starting to freak me out, and we both know what happens when weāre both freaking out.ā
āOkay, just-ā Robin pauses for a second, looking at her. Just looking at her. The sun filters down through the leaves of the tree theyāre standing under and makes her look like some kind of otherworldly thing, something ethereal and beautiful, and Robin might never get the chance to look at her the same way again. āPromise me you wonāt hate me, or think of me any differently.ā
Vickie, in the silence, looks back. Her mouth is open and poised to speak, but sheās afraid. Something has Robin scared, and it twists at her heart in ways she doesnāt expect.
āIām not going to hate you,ā she says, in such a gentle tone Robin nearly cries, āObviously this is important to you, so Iām going to listen very carefully. And Iām not going to hate you afterwards.ā
Maybe it would be fine. Maybe Robin is wrong, and that would also be fine. Because Steveās right, Vickie doesnāt seem to have a mean bone in her whole body. Even if there was some kind of misunderstanding here, maybe it wouldnāt matter. So, here she is stuck between two worlds- the one where Vickie feels that same sickly sweet thing and the one where she doesnāt, and thereās a part of her who wants to stay here. In the not knowing, in the hoping.
āYou know how you asked me a while back if me and Steve were a thing and I laughed in your face?ā Robin asks.
Vickieās hands stop gripping her arms so tightly, and Robin, whoād been searching for anything but Vickie to stare at, finally looks up at her.
āI remember,ā Vickie tells her, her brows knitted together ever so slightly in confusion.
āWell, you were half right,ā Robin offers, with a pitifully nervous laugh. āSo- Well, itās a long story, but Steve actually did like me, at one point. And when he told me, I thought, great⦠now I have to tell this guy something Iāve never told anyone, and to be fair I was- It doesnāt matter what I was, or what he was, or where we were. What matters is that Iām standing in front of you right now, and I think I have to share that same secret with you, or Iām going to go insane.ā
āRobin,ā Thereās something almost pleading about the way Vickie says her name, all torn up with sympathy for Robin. āPlease, whatever is going on, youāre my friend and I want to help you. Will you just take a breath and tell me because, if Iām being honest, I think Iām going to go insane too if you donāt spit it out.ā
Robin who feels the words there waiting to be spoken, but she gets the air stolen from her first. Friends. What a terrible word. What a beautiful thing to be. Itās just too bad Robin doesnāt want it.
āI like girls,ā she says, the words leaving her like a sigh. Itās the first time sheād ever said it like that. Sheād let Steve figure it out, and the silence that had followed had been as torturous as it is right now. Here, behind the shelter, where Robin has just laid her life in Vickieās hands.
āOh, Robin,ā Vickie finally speaks. Its pity in her tone, Robin thinks. The gentle murmuring of her voice, the way she says her name that makes Robinās heart feel like its backflipping in her chest. Sheās suddenly keenly aware of the warmth of Vickieās hands, which are still gently resting on Robinās arms.
āAnd I donāt want to be friends,ā she forces the words out, though theyāre somehow even quieter this time.
āOh-ā Vickieās eyes widen, a sudden realization twisting her expression with shock.
āAnd if that makes you feel weird, or not want to be around me anymore,ā Robin canāt help the way her voice suddenly comes an octave higher, the way her head falls back and her gaze turns skyward like some heavenly deity might be able to help her āIāll walk away and Iāll never bother you again, itās just you looked so beautiful when I walked in, and I was planning on telling you anyway, and I thought then and there if I didnāt say something I was going to combust right in front of everyone.ā
āYou think Iām beautiful?ā Vickieās hands still havenāt moved like Robin expects them to.
Robin drops her gaze and looks down at her, and Vickieās eyes are shimmering with something that Robin canāt name but itās like looking at blue, blue water on a sunny day and she forgets how to breathe. Slowly, her head sways, and finally makes a gesture resembling an affirmative nod.
āAnd you donāt want to be friends?ā Vickie asks, in a tone that makes Robin feel the need to clarify.
āI want to be more than friends,ā She says, her tone low and murmuring like the confession might stay sacred if she keeps it just for them, just for here and now and the tree sheād taken sanctuary under.
āYou know,ā Vickie starts, āwhen Dan asked me out, he brought me flowers. That was the first and only time he ever brought me flowers, but it was nice. Just that once. And it did convince me to date him, even though he turned out to be kind of a prick.ā
āYou want flowers?ā Robin asks quickly, āBecause Iāll bring you flowers. Iāll bring you flowers every day, youāll have so many flowers youāll be begging me to stop.ā
Something shifts, and as Robin speaks, that sunshiney smile grows on Vickieās face, and Robin is worried she might not be able to keep it a secret how much she adores that smile. Itās a cruel, cruel world where Robin canāt shout it from the rooftops. But what she can do, gingerly, tenderly, is lift the hands that have been hanging limply by her side and take a step closer so that she can rest them at Vickieās waist.
āOkay, so, do you want-ā Robin starts slowly, for once choosing her words carefully.
āYes,ā Vickie interrupts her question.
āYou donāt even know what I was going to ask!ā Robin protests.
āI think I can make a pretty well educated guess,ā Vickie makes a face at her, like she wishes she could pretend to be indignant but she just canāt stop smiling. āYou were going to ask me if I wanted to date, and I was going to say yes, and then you were going to ask me if I wanted to ditch the shelter so we can go do something fun together. Like⦠I donāt know, maybe go pick some wildflowers and watch a movie in my basement while my parents are at work.ā
āDo you want to go- do all of that?ā Robin asks, earnestly.
āIām going to be honest, I donāt know why weāre still standing here under this tree when we could be getting in my car before anyone notices weāre gone.ā
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